The film contrasts the stories of prison inmates who are forced to give…
Girls on the Wall
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The teenage girls of Warrenville Prison get a shot at redemption in a most unlikely form: a musical based on their lives. As three fascinating girls write and stage their play, they're compelled to re-live their crimes, reclaim their humanity and take a first step toward breaking free of the prison system.
Meet WHITNEY (17) "the eyes and ears of Warrenville", and our unexpected heroine. Intimidating, self-isolating, and one of Warrenville's longest-term inmates, Whitney is infamous for a crime she won't talk about. Despite herself, she soon emerges as one of the most powerful storytellers in the group. Her writing introduces us to her charming, drug-addled father, a man whose mistakes paved the way to his daughter's heinous crime. As the performance approaches, Whitney's growing voice may lead both of them to confront the past and try to move forward.
ROSA (17) is a hot-tempered girl who taunts guards and inmates alike. Released from Warrenville, she returns weeks later after getting nearly killed in a knife fight. With a constant reminder of her temper carved into her throat, she is forced to grapple with the sexual abuse that is the source of her anger.
CHRISTINA (18) is a friendly, popular girl whose only crime is running away. Drawn into street life by her mother's crack habit, she's spent most of her life in jails and foster placements. When she gets a chance for adoption by a wealthy Christian family, she jumps at it-- but can't reconcile her new upper-middle class life with her loyalty to her mother's world.
When the girls hit the stage in front of their families, prison staff and utter strangers, hitting the notes isn't important: it's their chance to seize their stories and tell them to the world. For some, the musical will be a first step in a back-and-forth struggle to stay out of the system. For Whitney, it may be a lifesaver. Given unprecedented access to this juvenile correctional facility by the State of Illinois, the powerful characters of GIRLS ON THE WALL will surprise you with their candor, intimacy, and unexpected sense of humor. Together, they illustrate the power of storytelling to illuminate the darkest secrets, and to understand the most tangled lives.
"Nothing short of powerful." LA Times
"It's strong stuff." Philadelphia Inquirer
"You become a witness to inner change, and that change is initiated by the act of storytelling. An excellent film." -Huffington Post
"An amazing documentary." Time Out Chicago
"How can you not be inspired?" - Philadelphia City Paper
"Paints an unforgettable portrait detailing the empowerment to be found in self-expression... One of the more stirring works you will see all year." -Anchorage Press
"Outstanding" âÃì WBEZ Chicago Public Radio
2010 Emmy, Best Documentary of Current Significance
NATAS Midwest Best Documentary
Bermuda International Film Festival
Silver Chicago Award, Chicago International Film Festival
Citation
Main credits
Ross, Heather (Producer)
Ross, Heather (Screenwriter)
Ross, Heather (Director)
Ross, Heather (Cinematographer)
Janata, Julie (Producer)
Abrams, Kevin (Film editor)
Hernstadt, Stephanie (Film editor)
Pak, Woodrow (mus)
Other credits
Camera, Heather Ross ... [et al.]; editors, Kevin Abrams, Stephanie Hernstadt; music composer, Woody Pak.
Distributor subjects
Penology; Drama and Theater; Youth Issues; Women's StudiesKeywords
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ACTUALLY, ELSIE PULLED IT
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OUT, PUT IT BACK IN.
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SORRY FOR DISRESPECTING YOU.
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WHY Y\'ALL MAKING IT A BIG
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ISSUE?
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BUT WHEN I SLAP ONE OF THESE
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HOS, THEY GONNA GET THE MESSAGE.
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[mid-tempo hip-hop music]
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LADIES, LET\'S LINE UP, AND
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LET\'S BE QUIET.
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ALL RIGHT, LADIES, QUIETLY
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STEP TOGETHER.
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DON\'T GO BACK...
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DON\'T GET YOU LOCKED UP.
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TELL THAT HO TO GET AWAY
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FROM ME.
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I TOLD Y\'ALL TO GET THAT HO AWAY
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FROM ME.
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[shouting]
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[alarm buzzing]
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FIVE, SIX, SEVEN, AND...
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ALL RIGHT, JUST HAVE A REALLY
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GOOD SHOW.
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AND DON\'T GET PULLED OUT OF YOUR
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CHARACTERS.
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AND PLEASE BE LOUD ON THAT
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ENDING.
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LOUD.
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[upbeat hip-hop music]
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YOU MAKE A MISTAKE, DON\'T
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SHOW IT.
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THE HOUSE IS OPEN.
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YOU HAVE AN AUDIENCE.
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SO YOU NEED TO BE VERY QUIET,
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OKAY?
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Y\'ALL ARE LINING UP.
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GO.
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[rhythmic marching and clicking]
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SEE THAT EVERYTHING\'S
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TOGETHER.
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I SEE.
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I\'M REAL EVIL.
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AND THAT\'S THE TRUTH.
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IF I DON\'T WANT NOBODY AROUND
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ME, IF I DON\'T WANT NOBODY CLOSE
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TO ME, I KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT.
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YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
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NO BONDS.
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NOTHING.
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EVEN BEFORE I CAME HERE,
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I JUST NEVER CARED, \'CAUSE MY
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DADDY WAS OUT DOING HIS OWN
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THING, AND MY UNCLE USED TO BE
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DRUNK ALL THE TIME, SO IT\'S
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JUST ME.
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[giggling]
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COME ON.
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I AIN\'T KIDDING ABOUT THE
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PART.
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BUT THEN THEY WANT TO KNOW
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WHY I\'M QUIET.
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BECAUSE THESE LITTLE GIRLS DON\'T
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HELP ME.
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I DON\'T VENT TO THEM.
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NONE OF THAT.
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I\'M... I\'M TOO COOL.
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SO TOO MUCH... I DON\'T TALK ABOUT
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NOTHING.
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MOST OF MY THOUGHTS JUST STAY IN
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MY HEAD, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M
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SAYING?
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I THINK ABOUT A LOT OF STUFF.
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LET ME TELL YOU A STORY
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ALL RIGHT, HERE YOU GO.
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ABOUT WARRENVILLE
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VILLE
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YOU SEE THESE ALL
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MY BITCHES
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AND FOR THEM I WOULD KILL
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YOU ARE NOW ENTERING THE
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CORRIDORS OF IYC 1 VILLE.
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WITH MY BITCHES
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I\'MA HIT \'EM WITH A TRAY
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TRAY
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THIS IS THE SCHOOL DESK WHERE
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THEY TAKE COUNT THROUGHOUT THE
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DAY.
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WHAT\'S COUNT?
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TO KEEP A COUNT.
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YOU DON\'T WANT NO INMATES
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RUNNING, DO YOU?
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THESE BITCHES LIKE NIKE
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AND I JUST DO IT
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YA\'LL DON\'T GET NO [...]
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I COME THROUGH AND YOUR TEAM
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I JUST SCREW WITH
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BEHIND DOOR NUMBER ONE IS THE
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WARDEN.
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THAT IS FORBIDDEN TERRITORY.
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THIS IS THE GAME ROOM.
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THE GYM.
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THE LIBRARY.
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THIS WAY IS WHERE WE SEE OUR
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PARENTS.
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YOU SEE HOW SMALL IT IS?
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PEOPLE BE ALL IN YOUR BUSINESS.
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BUT THAT\'S OKAY.
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YOU JUST WHISPER.
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THIS IS WARRENVILLE.
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AND, UM...
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IT\'S NOT FUN HERE.
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SO DON\'T THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE
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WE GOT A GAME ROOM AND A
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GYMNASIUM AND I LOOK HAPPY,
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OKAY?
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\'CAUSE I\'M NOT HAPPY.
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[indistinct speech]
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OKAY, GIRL.
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ALL RIGHT.
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ALL RIGHT, GOOD.
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COOL.
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MUSIC THEATRE WORKSHOP WE
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FOUNDED IN 1984.
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I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO FORM A
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COMPANY WHICH WAS ABOUT MY
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MISSION TO MARRY THEATER TO
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SOCIAL CHANGE.
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I THINK THAT ONCE YOU PUT YOUR
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STORY OUT IN PUBLIC,
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YOU\'RE ABLE TO GIVE IT TO OTHER
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PEOPLE, YOU\'RE ABLE TO SHARE IT
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WITH THEM, AND EVENTUALLY,
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YOU\'RE ABLE TO LET IT GO.
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ALL RIGHT.
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ONE HALF HOUR.
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YOU GOT IT.
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THEY GOT THIS STUFF DOWN.
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I WANT TO SEE YOU
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PON DE RIVER
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PON DE RIVER
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BOUNCE WIDE
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BOUNCE WIDE
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BOUNCE WIDE
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BOUNCE WIDE
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DROP DOWN AND GET
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YOUR JIGGLE ON, GIRL
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DROP DOWN AND GET
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YOUR JIGGLE ON, GIRL
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SO, LADIES...
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OH.
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OKAY, NOW I NEED EVERYBODY TO
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LISTEN UP.
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ALL RIGHT, HI, EVERYBODY.
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WELCOME.
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[laughs]
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UM, YES, YES.
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AS YOU CAN SEE, MY NAME IS
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MS. P.
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IT\'S MEADE PALIDOSFKY,
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BUT EVERYBODY CALLS ME MS. P.
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\'CAUSE THAT\'S A LOT EASIER.
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I THINK IT\'S IMPORTANT FOR YOU
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TO TELL YOUR STORIES.
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MAYBE YOU\'VE NOT WRITTEN ALL
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THAT MUCH, OR MAYBE YOU\'VE NEVER
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READ YOUR WRITING OUT LOUD.
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SO THAT\'S A RISK, ISN\'T IT?
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BUT IT\'S IMPORTANT THAT WE SHARE
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THE STORIES OF HOW WE\'VE LIVED.
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WE HAVE MANY, MANY THINGS TO
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ACCOMPLISH, BUT I THINK WE
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SHOULD JUMP RIGHT INTO MOVEMENT.
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LET\'S MOVE BACK SO WE\'RE READY
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TO DANCE.
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SO, LADIES, COME THIS WAY.
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FACE ME.
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[various people talking]
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SHH.
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JUST MOVE YOUR BODY.
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EVEN IF YOU DO THAT OR WHATEVER.
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I DON\'T CARE WHAT IT IS.
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I THINK I MIGHT DO THAT.
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ALL RIGHT, COME ON.
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FIVE, SIX, SEVEN, AND...
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[upbeat hip-hop music]
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COME ON, DO SOMETHING.
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THAT\'S RIGHT.
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[cheering and clapping]
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TIME.
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AND POSE.
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OOH, NICE.
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YEAH, WHITNEY.
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NO.
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COME ON, WHITNEY.
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WELL, JUST DO SOMETHING.
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I AIN\'T... DO I LOOK LIKE I BE
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IN THE PICTURES LIKE...
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WHITNEY, GET IN THERE.
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ALL RIGHT, I\'M GETTING
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FRUSTRATED, FOR REAL.
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OKAY, JUST DO SOMETHING QUICK
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SO WE CAN MOVE ON.
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NO, I\'M... WHATEVER COME
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TO MY MIND.
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I\'M GETTING UPSET.
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ALL RIGHT, TAKE A TIME-OUT.
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THANK YOU, LADIES.
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THAT WAS VERY GOOD.
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[clapping]
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SO TAKE OUT YOUR PENS.
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WE\'RE GONNA START TO WRITE THE
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BEGINNING.
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THINK ABOUT YOUR OWN PERSONAL
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STORY.
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THINK OF...
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SOMETHING THAT REALLY
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HAPPENED?
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SOMETHING THAT REALLY
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HAPPENED TO YOU.
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WE\'RE GONNA PUT SOME OF THIS
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TOGETHER SO THAT BY THE TIME
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WE GET TO THE FALL, YOU WILL
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HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SCRIPT.
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SOME OF THESE WILL BECOME SONGS.
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SO THAT\'S WHAT OUR GOAL IS.
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\'CAUSE I BEEN LOCKED UP
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[unintelligible rapping]
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WHAT YOU LOCKED UP FOR?
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WHAT I LOCKED UP FOR?
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YEAH, LET US HEAR IT.
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WHAT YOU DO?
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NOTHING.
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I RAN OVER A CAT.
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I DIDN\'T DO NOTHING.
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OF COURSE, THAT\'S WHAT EVERYBODY
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SAYS, BUT, UM...
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LET ME TELL YOU
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WHAT I\'M LOCKED UP FOR
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\'CAUSE THIS IS CITY HALL
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I DID A ROBBERY
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WHEN I WAS ONLY 14
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WHAT YOU GET?
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WHAT YOU GET?
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SOME PEOPLE JUST, LIKE, BRAG
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ABOUT STUFF THEY DO.
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\"LIKE, OH, I DID A ROBBERY,
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OR\"...
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I CUT HER FROM HER EAR
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DOWN HER NECK.
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I STABBED HER IN HER BACK.
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ACTUALLY, I STOLE SEVERAL
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CARS, BUT I ONLY GOT CAUGHT FOR
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ONE.
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I DONE HEARD IT 1,000 TIMES.
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I\'VE BEEN SITTING HERE FOR
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YEARS, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
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ONE BOY MADE HER GIVE HIM
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HEAD.
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AND I WAS THE LOOKOUT.
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AND IF SHE TRIED TO RUN,
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I WAS TO, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M
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SAYING, NOT LET HER GO.
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SHE HAD TO GET SIX STITCHES.
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THAT IS NOT NOTHING.
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WHAT DID YOU GET LOCKED UP
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FOR?
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I DON\'T WANT TO EVEN TALK
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ABOUT IT.
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[girls shouting]
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Y\'ALL DON\'T [bleep] TOUCH ME.
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GROW UP.
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THAT\'S A LITTLE GIRL
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YOU TALKING TO.
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GROW UP, FOR REAL.
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YOU JUST A STUPID-ASS BITCH...
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I LEARNED EARLY ON HOW TO
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CONTROL MY TEMPER.
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BUT SOME PEOPLE DON\'T,
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YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
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SOMETIMES IT\'S BAD.
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YOU GOT TO JUST LEARN HOW TO
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HOLD YOUR TONGUE.
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YOU CAN THINK IT.
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DON\'T SAY IT.
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I\'M GONNA BEAT HER ASS.
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EXCUSE ME.
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STOP TALKING.
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STOP TALKING.
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NOW, ADAMS ONE, STEP TO THE
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WATER FOUNTAIN.
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THEY THINK WE SUPPOSED TO
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WALK IN EGG SHELLS \'CAUSE THEY
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STAFF, YOU KNOW, TELL ME
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TO SHUT UP.
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MY MAMA DON\'T TELL ME TO
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SHUT UP.
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OKAY, I\'M IN JAIL,
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BUT YOU AIN\'T GONNA TALK TO ME
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LIKE I\'M [...].
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ME, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING,
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I DON\'T... I DON\'T LIKE TO HOLD
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MY MOUTH NEITHER... YOU KNOW,
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I\'M GONNA SAY WHAT I GOT TO SAY.
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FAGGOT.
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[giggling]
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HE GET ON MY NERVES.
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ADAMS, STEP AROUND THE
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CORNER.
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ROBOCOP.
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WHEN I GOT ABOUT FIVE,
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THAT\'S WHEN MY PROBLEMS STARTED.
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I DON\'T KNOW.
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THEY SAY I STARTED ACTING
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VIOLENT.
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OKAY, GET A DRINK.
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I HAD AN INCIDENT WITH MY
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OLDER SISTER.
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I HAD CHOKED HER.
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WHEN I GOT ABOUT SEVEN,
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I SET MY ROOM ON FIRE ONE DAY.
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THEY SAY I\'M TOO ANGRY \'CAUSE
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MY MOM, SHE WAS TOO STRUNG OUT,
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I GUESS.
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AND MY DAD WAS IN AND OUT
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OF JAIL.
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MY DAD\'S IN JAIL FOR MURDER.
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I DON\'T KNOW.
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I\'M THE TYPE OF PERSON, I ALWAYS
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GOT TO FIGHT ALL THE TIME.
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I GOT TO GROW OUT OF THAT.
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BUT WHEN PEOPLE, IT\'S LIKE,
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BASICALLY CALL ME... YEAH, CALL
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ME, YOU KNOW, LIKE I\'M A BITCH,
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YOU KNOW, I\'D BE LIKE...
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I\'D BE GOING, YOU KNOW, TO FIGHT
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ALL THE TIME \'CAUSE OF THAT.
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\"YOU SEE, MY LIFE, IT STARTED\"...
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I READ THIS ONE TO THEM BEFORE.
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GO AHEAD, JUST DO IT NOW,
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THOUGH, SO WE CAN SEE...
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\"SEE, MY LIFE HAD STARTED OUT
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AS HELL, MOM ON CRACK,
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DAD IN JAIL.
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ALL MY LIFE, I REBEL,
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KEPT FEELINGS INSIDE I CHOSE TO
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NEVER TELL.
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I BEEN FROM FOSTER HOME, GROUP
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HOME, TO JAIL.
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BUT ON THESE THINGS I CANNOT
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DWELL.\"
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[applause]
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WE ARE GOING TO DIVIDE INTO
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WRITING TEAMS.
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TEAMWORK IS OUR MODUS OPERANDI
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TODAY.
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CLOTHES, CLOTHES, CLOTHES.
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WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO?
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I DON\'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WE\'RE
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DOING ANYWAY.
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WHAT\'S IN A SCRIPT.
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A GROUP THING, A SCRIPT,
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A PLAY, A MONOLOGUE, WHATEVER.
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WE DON\'T MAKE UP OUR OWN
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THING.
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WE TAKE WHAT WE HAVE OF WHAT WE
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HAD AND PUT IT...
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AND THAT\'S MAKING UP
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SOMETHING.
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SO WHO WANTS TO READ IT?
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I WILL.
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\"PATRICIA WALKS TO THE DOOR
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AND ASKS, \'WHO IS IT?\'\"
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OKAY, SO YOUR SISTER CAN BE
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IN IT.
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\"NO ANSWER.
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SAY IT WITH ANGER AGAIN.
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\'WHO IS IT?\'
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THEY SEE HER FACE.\"
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RIGHT, RIGHT, SO RIGHT.
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\"THE DOOR IS OPEN\"...
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OKAY, OKAY, YOU\'RE GONNA BE
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YOU, SHE\'S GONNA BE YOUR SISTER,
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AND SHE\'S GONNA BE THE CASE
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WORKER.
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I THINK IT SOUNDS LAME.
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I\'M TRYING TO GET THERE.
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OKAY, READ IT OUT.
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JUST READ IT OUT.
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JUST READ IT OUT.
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[sighs]
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IN ORDER, JUST READ IT OUT
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IN ORDER.
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IF YOU LET ME MARK IT HERE,
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THEN YOU COULD READ IT.
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THIS IS MAKING MY HEAD HURT,
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SO WE NEED TO DECIDE ON
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SOMETHING.
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SOBER.
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[laughs]
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SOMETIMES, YOU KNOW, I SIT
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AROUND AND LOOK AT PEOPLE LIKE,
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MAN, SHE DON\'T EVEN LOOK LIKE
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SHE COMMITTED A CRIME.
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SOME PEOPLE, LIKE, HAPPY ALL
00:11:06.833 --> 00:11:08.332
THE TIME.
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THAT\'S WHEN I WONDER, LIKE,
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WHAT DID SHE DO?
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TODAY WE\'RE GOING TO PRETEND
00:11:14.167 --> 00:11:15.766
THAT YOU\'VE BEEN AT HOME FOR
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A WEEK AND THINGS ARE GOING
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SO-SO.
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WHAT\'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR
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FAMILY?
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IF I WAS WITH MY MOM OR
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SOMEBODY AND I RELAPSED,
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OR YOU KNOW... IT WOULDN\'T
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BOTHER ME.
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YOU KNOW, I WOULD JUST GO BACK
00:11:28.401 --> 00:11:30.066
TO MY OLD WAYS.
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MY MOM\'S A CRACKHEAD.
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SHE WAS IN MY LIFE TILL
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I WAS 12.
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AND THEN SHE JUST STARTED
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DISAPPEARING FOR WEEKENDS TO
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WEEKS TO MONTHS.
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YOU BELIEVE IN SUPPORT
00:11:41.133 --> 00:11:42.100
SYSTEMS?
00:11:42.101 --> 00:11:43.199
YOU BELIEVE THEY\'RE VITAL TO
00:11:43.200 --> 00:11:44.399
RECOVERY?
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DCFS, THEY USE TO TRY TO COME
00:11:45.633 --> 00:11:46.633
TO THE DOOR AND KNOCK ON THE
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DOOR \'CAUSE THE NEIGHBORS WERE
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REPORTING NO SIGN OF AN ADULT
00:11:48.833 --> 00:11:50.099
ANYWHERE.
00:11:50.100 --> 00:11:50.933
BUT I DIDN\'T WANT TO GO INTO
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FOSTER HOMES.
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SO I WOULD RUN AWAY TO GO SEE MY
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MOM, BECAUSE I WOULD BE WORRIED
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ABOUT HER, WORRIED SICK.
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SO I\'VE BEEN LOCKED UP NINE
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TIMES BEFORE FOR CONTEMPT OF
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COURT.
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AND THAT\'S JUST FOR RUNNING
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AWAY.
00:12:02.400 --> 00:12:03.167
THEY TELL ME A LOT,
00:12:03.167 --> 00:12:04.133
\"WHY DO YOU EVEN STILL HAVE HOPE
00:12:04.133 --> 00:12:04.800
FOR HER?
00:12:04.800 --> 00:12:05.633
YOU KNOW, WHY DON\'T YOU JUST DO
00:12:05.633 --> 00:12:06.633
WHAT YOU GOT TO DO IN YOUR LIFE
00:12:06.634 --> 00:12:07.932
AND FORGET ABOUT HER?\"
00:12:07.933 --> 00:12:08.667
BUT...
00:12:08.668 --> 00:12:09.866
A LOT OF PEOPLE GIVE UP HOPE ON
00:12:09.867 --> 00:12:14.099
MY MOM, BUT NOT ME.
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OKAY, LADIES.
00:12:16.400 --> 00:12:17.300
THINK ABOUT TAKING A RISK
00:12:17.301 --> 00:12:18.899
TONIGHT TO JUST THROW YOURSELF
00:12:18.900 --> 00:12:20.399
INTO IT, OKAY?
00:12:20.400 --> 00:12:23.066
RISK BEING EMBARRASSED, RIGHT?
00:12:23.067 --> 00:12:25.032
DEAR EVERYONE,
00:12:25.033 --> 00:12:27.199
I GOT A CONFESSION TO MAKE.
00:12:27.200 --> 00:12:27.867
[laughs]
00:12:27.868 --> 00:12:28.932
YOU SEE THIS?
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[laughs]
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WHAT DOES THIS LOOK LIKE?
00:12:32.267 --> 00:12:33.532
NOTHING.
00:12:33.533 --> 00:12:34.666
SO YOU SPENT THIS WHOLE WEEK
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DOING NOTHING?
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NO, I DID THAT LITTLE
00:12:37.133 --> 00:12:37.967
PARAGRAPH.
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OKAY, THEN READY IT TO US.
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[groans]
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WHITNEY IS REALLY INTERESTING
00:12:42.101 --> 00:12:44.466
BECAUSE SHE DOESN\'T SHARE
00:12:44.467 --> 00:12:45.666
HERSELF AND HER STORY WITH A LOT
00:12:45.667 --> 00:12:48.766
OF OTHER GIRLS.
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[chuckles]
00:12:49.734 --> 00:12:51.399
YA\'LL PUT ME ON BLAST.
00:12:51.400 --> 00:12:52.133
[laughter]
00:12:52.133 --> 00:12:52.933
THE STAFF HAD TOLD ME THAT
00:12:52.934 --> 00:12:54.699
WHITNEY HAD NEVER LET DOWN
00:12:54.700 --> 00:12:57.166
HER GUARD WITH ANYBODY.
00:12:57.167 --> 00:12:58.799
SO I WANTED TO SPEND SOME TIME
00:12:58.800 --> 00:13:00.266
GETTING HER IDEAS WITHOUT
00:13:00.267 --> 00:13:03.432
EVERYBODY ELSE THERE.
00:13:03.433 --> 00:13:04.866
I REALLY AIN\'T WRITING ABOUT
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NOTHING, YOU SEE WHAT I\'M
00:13:05.933 --> 00:13:07.632
SAYING?
00:13:07.633 --> 00:13:09.999
SO YOUR HEART WASN\'T BROKEN
00:13:10.000 --> 00:13:11.966
IN THESE STORIES WHERE YOU LOST
00:13:11.967 --> 00:13:15.099
YOUR FATHER AND YOU WENT TO...
00:13:15.100 --> 00:13:15.867
WHEN YOU YOUNG, YOU DON\'T
00:13:15.867 --> 00:13:16.567
CARE.
00:13:16.568 --> 00:13:18.966
YOU KNOW, YOU DON\'T REALLY BE
00:13:18.967 --> 00:13:21.432
LIKE, \"OH, WOW,\" OR CRYING ABOUT
00:13:21.433 --> 00:13:22.732
NOTHING.
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CAN YOU JUST TELL US A LITTLE
00:13:24.000 --> 00:13:25.666
BIT ABOUT WHAT YOU\'RE THINKING?
00:13:25.667 --> 00:13:27.632
I DON\'T WANT TO USE THIS.
00:13:27.633 --> 00:13:28.932
WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO USE?
00:13:28.933 --> 00:13:30.299
I MEAN, I JUST DON\'T WANT TO
00:13:30.300 --> 00:13:31.966
BE LIKE, \"MY DADDY, WAYNE, IS ON
00:13:31.967 --> 00:13:33.532
DRUGS.\"
00:13:33.533 --> 00:13:34.533
A ROLLING STONE?
00:13:34.533 --> 00:13:35.400
THAT\'S WHAT A ROLLING STONE
00:13:35.401 --> 00:13:37.066
IS?
00:13:37.067 --> 00:13:39.799
PAPA WAS A ROLLING STONE
00:13:39.800 --> 00:13:40.500
HEY
00:13:40.500 --> 00:13:41.233
YEAH
00:13:41.234 --> 00:13:42.332
WHITNEY, WRITE WHAT YOU WOULD
00:13:42.333 --> 00:13:43.866
LIKE TO TELL.
00:13:43.867 --> 00:13:44.633
I DON\'T EVEN LIKE SAYING
00:13:44.634 --> 00:13:46.099
THIS.
00:13:46.100 --> 00:13:46.867
[laughs]
00:13:46.868 --> 00:13:49.099
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
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IT SAY, \"BROKEN, WHICH MANY OF
00:13:50.533 --> 00:13:51.899
US ARE.\"
00:13:51.900 --> 00:13:53.266
THEN I JUST PUT, \"YOU A INDIAN
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GIVER, DOG.
00:13:54.333 --> 00:13:55.466
YOU GIVE ME MONEY.
00:13:55.467 --> 00:13:56.333
YOU TAKE IT BACK.
00:13:56.334 --> 00:13:57.366
THAT AIN\'T COOL.
00:13:57.367 --> 00:13:58.300
YOU GIVE ME LOVE.
00:13:58.301 --> 00:13:59.466
YOU TAKE IT BACK.
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THAT AIN\'T COOL EITHER.
00:14:00.900 --> 00:14:02.899
YOU WAS MY LIFE, MY SMILE.
00:14:02.900 --> 00:14:04.332
NOW ALL I DO IS THINK,
00:14:04.333 --> 00:14:05.167
\'WHAT IF YOU WERE A DIFFERENT
00:14:05.167 --> 00:14:06.067
MAN?\'
00:14:06.067 --> 00:14:07.000
YOU COULD HAVE ACCOMPLISHED MANY
00:14:07.000 --> 00:14:07.967
THINGS.
00:14:07.968 --> 00:14:09.699
BUT YET AND STILL YOU LOVE THAT
00:14:09.700 --> 00:14:10.866
PIPE FIRST.
00:14:10.867 --> 00:14:11.867
YOU LOVED YOUR BROAD THE SAME AS
00:14:11.868 --> 00:14:13.632
THAT, BUT NEVER SHOWED ME LOVE
00:14:13.633 --> 00:14:16.500
AT ALL.\"
00:14:17.900 --> 00:14:20.866
I NEED EVERYBODY\'S ATTENTION.
00:14:20.867 --> 00:14:22.099
THURSDAY, YOU\'RE PERFORMING
00:14:22.100 --> 00:14:25.066
FOR THE RESIDENTS HERE.
00:14:25.067 --> 00:14:25.967
IT\'S NOT GONNA BE LIKE A FULL
00:14:25.967 --> 00:14:26.633
SHOW.
00:14:26.634 --> 00:14:27.899
IT IS A READING, \'CAUSE IT TAKES
00:14:27.900 --> 00:14:30.099
A WHILE TO PUT A SHOW TOGETHER.
00:14:30.100 --> 00:14:30.933
AND WHAT WE\'RE DOING THIS TIME
00:14:30.934 --> 00:14:32.099
IS GIVING YOU AN OPPORTUNITY
00:14:32.100 --> 00:14:33.966
TO GET YOUR FEET WET GETTING UP
00:14:33.967 --> 00:14:36.199
IN FRONT OF AN AUDIENCE.
00:14:36.200 --> 00:14:38.799
FACE FORWARD, PLEASE.
00:14:38.800 --> 00:14:41.566
FACE FORWARD.
00:14:41.567 --> 00:14:47.532
[cheers and applause]
00:14:47.533 --> 00:14:49.299
\"SEE, MY LIFE STARTED OUT
00:14:49.300 --> 00:14:51.399
AS HELL, MOM ON CRACK, DAD IN
00:14:51.400 --> 00:14:52.133
JAIL.
00:14:52.134 --> 00:14:53.232
IT FELT LIKE MY LIFE HAD SOME
00:14:53.233 --> 00:14:54.666
TYPE OF BAD SPELL.\"
00:14:54.667 --> 00:14:56.366
\"YOU A INDIAN GIVER, DOG.
00:14:56.367 --> 00:14:57.532
YOU GIVE ME MONEY.
00:14:57.533 --> 00:14:58.899
YOU TAKE IT BACK.
00:14:58.900 --> 00:15:00.332
THAT AIN\'T COOL.
00:15:00.333 --> 00:15:01.599
YOU GIVE ME LOVE.
00:15:01.600 --> 00:15:03.166
YOU TAKE IT BACK.
00:15:03.167 --> 00:15:04.599
THAT AIN\'T COOL EITHER.\"
00:15:04.600 --> 00:15:06.332
\"MOM, I REMEMBER WHEN YOU
00:15:06.333 --> 00:15:07.399
FIRST TOLD ME ABOUT YOUR DRUG
00:15:07.400 --> 00:15:08.432
PROBLEM AND YOUR COCAINE
00:15:08.433 --> 00:15:09.367
ADDICTION.
00:15:09.367 --> 00:15:10.367
YOU TRIED TO GET HELP, BUT IT
00:15:10.368 --> 00:15:11.799
SEEMED TO ME, THE OLDER I GOT,
00:15:11.800 --> 00:15:12.567
THE MORE YOU STOPPED BEING A
00:15:12.567 --> 00:15:13.233
PARENT.
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I DID WHAT I WANTED, AND YOU DID
00:15:14.267 --> 00:15:15.399
WHAT YOU DID.\"
00:15:15.400 --> 00:15:16.532
both: BROKEN.
00:15:16.533 --> 00:15:17.599
\"I GOT TOOK AWAY FROM YOU
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AND WENT TO PLACEMENT.
00:15:18.767 --> 00:15:20.366
I NEVER FELT RIGHT WITHOUT YOU.
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HALF OF MY HEART WAS GONE.\"
00:15:22.767 --> 00:15:23.433
[exhales sharply]
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\"SO I HAD TO FILL THAT VOID.
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SO I RAN AWAY.
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I WOULD COME TO YOU,
00:15:27.433 --> 00:15:28.267
EVEN THOUGH YOU WOULD USE
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RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.
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I DIDN\'T CARE, BECAUSE I FELT
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WHEN I WAS WITH YOU, FOR SOME
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REASON, I STILL HAD THE OLD MOM
00:15:33.733 --> 00:15:35.432
IN MY HEART.\"
00:15:35.433 --> 00:15:37.566
both: BROKEN.
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\"SO WE WENT THROUGH THIS FOR
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FOUR YEARS.
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NOW I\'M 17, AND I REALIZE I
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CAN\'T HELP YOU.
00:15:41.567 --> 00:15:42.433
I\'M THE CHILD, AND YOU\'RE THE
00:15:42.433 --> 00:15:43.133
PARENT.
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I CAN\'T WORRY WHERE YOU ARE.
00:15:44.167 --> 00:15:45.866
ARE YOU DEAD, RAPED?
00:15:45.867 --> 00:15:46.833
HAVE YOU OVERDOSED?
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WE HAVE NO CONTACT.
00:15:49.267 --> 00:15:50.200
I HAVE NOT HEARD FROM YOU,
00:15:50.201 --> 00:15:51.266
BUT THE THING THAT HAS BROKEN
00:15:51.267 --> 00:15:52.999
MY HEART, OUR FAMILY, AND OUR
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HOME IS DRUGS.
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I DON\'T HAVE THE LOVING, KIND,
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SWEET MOTHER I ONCE HAD.
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YOU\'RE GONE.\"
00:15:59.267 --> 00:16:00.632
both: BROKEN.
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[cheers and applause]
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[sighs]
00:16:11.201 --> 00:16:12.966
THE WRITER\'S GROUP.
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I DON\'T UNDERSTAND HOW WE GONNA
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MAKE CHARACTERS AND THEN PERFORM
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AS CHARACTERS.
00:16:18.067 --> 00:16:20.599
I\'M CONFUSED.
00:16:20.600 --> 00:16:21.866
VERY CONFUSED.
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ALL RIGHT, PULL UP A CHAIR.
00:16:24.200 --> 00:16:25.033
WHAT WE\'RE DOING IS REALLY THE
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NEXT STEP, WHICH IS, WE\'RE GONNA
00:16:26.133 --> 00:16:28.666
TALK ABOUT A STORY STRUCTURE.
00:16:28.667 --> 00:16:29.633
TAKING THE WRITING THAT YOU\'VE
00:16:29.634 --> 00:16:31.899
DONE AND COMBINING THAT WRITING
00:16:31.900 --> 00:16:33.199
SO THAT IT\'S NOT JUST MY STORY
00:16:33.200 --> 00:16:34.766
AND YOUR STORY, BUT IT BECOMES
00:16:34.767 --> 00:16:36.532
OUR STORY.
00:16:36.533 --> 00:16:37.233
OKAY, I GOT TO ASK YOU A
00:16:37.234 --> 00:16:38.966
QUESTION ABOUT OUR CHARACTERS.
00:16:38.967 --> 00:16:39.833
IN THE END, WHAT ARE WE TRYING
00:16:39.833 --> 00:16:40.533
TO DO?
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I MEAN, WHAT ARE OUR GOALS?
00:16:41.267 --> 00:16:42.267
WE TRYING TO MAKE EVERYBODY
00:16:42.268 --> 00:16:43.332
SOLVE THEIR PROBLEMS BY THE
00:16:43.333 --> 00:16:44.067
END OR SOMETHING?
00:16:44.067 --> 00:16:45.000
LIKE, EVERYBODY COME THROUGH?
00:16:45.000 --> 00:16:45.800
WELL, THAT\'S THE QUESTION
00:16:45.800 --> 00:16:46.533
THAT WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT
00:16:46.533 --> 00:16:47.233
TODAY.
00:16:47.233 --> 00:16:48.233
WHAT DO YOU WANT THE AUDIENCE TO
00:16:48.234 --> 00:16:49.732
GO AWAY WITH?
00:16:49.733 --> 00:16:50.633
DO YOU WANT THEM TO...
00:16:50.633 --> 00:16:51.300
WHAT REALITY IS.
00:16:51.300 --> 00:16:52.167
WELL, REALITY.
00:16:52.167 --> 00:16:53.133
THE REALITY IS, SOME KIDS
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LEAVE HERE AND DIE.
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SOME KIDS LEAVE HERE AND BE
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CRACKHEADS.
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SOME LEAVE AND BE SUCCESSFUL.
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AND SO THAT\'S REALITY.
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REALITY NOT EVERYBODY THAT\'S ON
00:16:59.368 --> 00:17:00.966
THIS PAPER LEAVING AND BEING
00:17:00.967 --> 00:17:01.633
SUCCESSFUL.
00:17:01.633 --> 00:17:02.533
ALL RIGHT, BECAUSE PART OF
00:17:02.534 --> 00:17:04.299
SOME PEOPLE NOT MAKING IT IS
00:17:04.300 --> 00:17:07.199
THEIR ANGER AT TRYING TO CONTROL
00:17:07.200 --> 00:17:08.932
WHAT THEY CAN\'T CONTROL.
00:17:08.933 --> 00:17:10.299
THEN MAKING IT IS WHAT THE PLAY
00:17:10.300 --> 00:17:12.066
IS ABOUT, TRYING TO MAKE IT,
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OKAY?
00:17:12.868 --> 00:17:14.332
EVEN IF THEY DON\'T MAKE IT.
00:17:14.333 --> 00:17:15.300
EVEN IF THEY DON\'T MAKE IT,
00:17:15.301 --> 00:17:16.966
TRYING TO MAKE IT IS OUR ARC FOR
00:17:16.967 --> 00:17:20.699
THE PLAY, OKAY?
00:17:20.700 --> 00:17:23.366
[people humming in harmony]
00:17:23.367 --> 00:17:24.367
OKAY, LET\'S START HERE.
00:17:24.368 --> 00:17:27.867
[dissonant singing]
00:17:28.733 --> 00:17:29.500
READY?
00:17:29.501 --> 00:17:31.066
All: [low-pitched] BABY.
00:17:31.067 --> 00:17:34.599
[high-pitched] LIGHT.
00:17:34.600 --> 00:17:35.500
I BROUGHT A LITTLE TONGUE
00:17:35.501 --> 00:17:36.532
TWISTER.
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All: WEANO, BEANO, NUNO,
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PUNO, PADO, PADDLE, BOX,
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AND SOCKS, SIR.
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All: AH
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OH
00:17:49.733 --> 00:17:50.667
EVERY TIME WE BEING LOUD OR
00:17:50.668 --> 00:17:51.966
SOMETHING, SHE\'LL GET UP, LIKE,
00:17:51.967 --> 00:17:53.399
\"OH, YOU ANIMALS.\"
00:17:53.400 --> 00:17:54.200
IF IT DON\'T APPLY, LET IT
00:17:54.200 --> 00:17:54.867
FLY.
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SO IF SOMEBODY MESSED UP IN
00:17:55.867 --> 00:17:56.867
THE SHOW, I COULD JUST GET UP
00:17:56.868 --> 00:17:58.866
LIKE, \"BITCHES, CRACKER.\"
00:17:58.867 --> 00:17:59.899
OKAY, THEN I\'M A CRANKER,
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CRACKER, OR HONKY, OKAY?
00:18:01.167 --> 00:18:02.499
I DON\'T CARE WHAT Y\'ALL THINK.
00:18:02.500 --> 00:18:03.566
I HATE THAT GIRL.
00:18:03.567 --> 00:18:04.932
AND I WAS FIXING TO HIT HER.
00:18:04.933 --> 00:18:05.700
I WAS FIXING TO BEAT HER UP
00:18:05.700 --> 00:18:06.433
\'CAUSE SHE MADE ME MAD.
00:18:06.434 --> 00:18:08.066
SHE KEPT ON TALKING.
00:18:08.067 --> 00:18:09.499
BUT I GO TO THE BOARD NEXT WEEK,
00:18:09.500 --> 00:18:10.500
SO I AIN\'T GOT TIME TO BE
00:18:10.501 --> 00:18:12.032
FIGHTING.
00:18:12.033 --> 00:18:13.832
I\'M TRYING TO GO HOME,
00:18:13.833 --> 00:18:15.399
WHEREVER THAT MAY BE.
00:18:15.400 --> 00:18:16.832
LIVE A LIFE OF BOREDOM
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NOTHING BUT STRESS
00:18:18.233 --> 00:18:18.900
STRESS
00:18:18.901 --> 00:18:20.332
STILL I TRY HARD
00:18:20.333 --> 00:18:21.333
\'CAUSE I GOT TO MAKE IT
00:18:21.334 --> 00:18:22.432
IN THIS WORLD
00:18:22.433 --> 00:18:24.066
AIN\'T NOBODY HANDING OUT
00:18:24.067 --> 00:18:28.699
MONEY TO A LITTLE GIRL
00:18:28.700 --> 00:18:30.666
MY CASE WORKER PISSED ME OFF,
00:18:30.667 --> 00:18:32.532
TELLING ME SHE MIGHT SEND ME
00:18:32.533 --> 00:18:34.066
BACK TO A GROUP HOME.
00:18:34.067 --> 00:18:35.199
IT\'S LIKE I\'M STILL LOCKED UP
00:18:35.200 --> 00:18:36.832
WHEN I\'M IN A GROUP HOME
00:18:36.833 --> 00:18:37.700
\'CAUSE I\'M STILL NOT WHERE I
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WANT TO BE, AND I\'M STILL NOT
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HAPPY.
00:18:39.601 --> 00:18:41.532
I CAN\'T STAND THAT BITCH.
00:18:41.533 --> 00:18:42.333
TAKE A BREATH.
00:18:42.334 --> 00:18:44.299
TAKE A BREATH.
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I\'VE BEEN PUTTING UP WITH HER
00:18:45.201 --> 00:18:48.299
ASS THESE PAST... I DON\'T KNOW HOW
00:18:48.300 --> 00:18:49.067
MANY MONTHS.
00:18:49.067 --> 00:18:49.733
YOU KNOW WHAT?
00:18:49.734 --> 00:18:50.866
DON\'T YELL AT ME.
00:18:50.867 --> 00:18:51.700
ARE YOU GONNA COME OUT AND
00:18:51.700 --> 00:18:52.600
COOPERATE?
00:18:52.600 --> 00:18:53.467
I\'M GONNA GO TO THE BATHROOM.
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EXCUSE... EXCUSE ME.
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GOT TO STRUGGLE
00:18:55.401 --> 00:18:56.466
BUT A BITCH LIKE ME
00:18:56.467 --> 00:18:57.799
I\'M GONNA MAKE IT
00:18:57.800 --> 00:18:59.166
DON\'T WANT YOUR SYMPATHY
00:18:59.167 --> 00:19:00.033
\'CAUSE A BITCH LIKE ME
00:19:00.034 --> 00:19:02.699
I\'M NOT GONNA TAKE IT
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\"C\" WING FROM 51.
00:19:09.567 --> 00:19:10.467
THIS MIGHT SOUND CRAZY,
00:19:10.468 --> 00:19:11.966
BUT I JUST BE PRAYING THAT WHEN
00:19:11.967 --> 00:19:13.766
I GO HOME, I DON\'T DO NOTHING
00:19:13.767 --> 00:19:14.767
STUPID,
00:19:14.767 --> 00:19:15.767
\'CAUSE I BE THINKING
00:19:15.768 --> 00:19:19.600
SOME CRAZY STUFF.
00:19:24.867 --> 00:19:25.899
OKAY.
00:19:25.900 --> 00:19:27.099
[clears throat]
00:19:27.100 --> 00:19:28.033
\"DEAR SWEET CHRISTINA,
00:19:28.033 --> 00:19:28.700
HELLO.
00:19:28.701 --> 00:19:29.832
HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A GOOD DAY
00:19:29.833 --> 00:19:30.866
AND WEEK.
00:19:30.867 --> 00:19:32.666
OH, WE ARE SO VERY EXCITED ABOUT
00:19:32.667 --> 00:19:34.366
NEXT WEDNESDAY.\"
00:19:34.367 --> 00:19:35.267
JIM AND MARGIE WERE LOOKING TO
00:19:35.268 --> 00:19:36.932
ADOPT AN OLDER KID.
00:19:36.933 --> 00:19:37.966
WE STARTED WRITING EACH OTHER,
00:19:37.967 --> 00:19:39.032
AND THEN FINALLY THEY WERE GONNA
00:19:39.033 --> 00:19:40.766
COME UP HERE TO SEE, YOU KNOW,
00:19:40.767 --> 00:19:41.467
IF WE HAVE A POSITIVE
00:19:41.468 --> 00:19:43.499
INTERACTION AND APPROVE ME TO
00:19:43.500 --> 00:19:45.366
GO LIVE AT THEIR HOUSE.
00:19:45.367 --> 00:19:46.367
THEY\'RE HERE.
00:19:46.368 --> 00:19:50.832
OKAY, MY VISIT HERE.
00:19:50.833 --> 00:19:53.399
HI, EVERYBODY.
00:19:53.400 --> 00:19:55.599
BABY.
00:19:55.600 --> 00:19:58.899
HI.
00:19:58.900 --> 00:19:59.700
THAT\'S WHAT HAPPENS.
00:19:59.700 --> 00:20:00.433
HI, CHRISTINA.
00:20:00.434 --> 00:20:02.899
HOW ARE YOU?
00:20:02.900 --> 00:20:03.567
OH.
00:20:03.567 --> 00:20:04.233
IT\'S SO EXCITING.
00:20:04.234 --> 00:20:05.866
I KNOW.
00:20:05.867 --> 00:20:06.867
OKAY.
00:20:06.867 --> 00:20:07.633
OH, MY GOD, IT\'S SO NICE TO
00:20:07.634 --> 00:20:08.732
MEET YOU GUYS.
00:20:08.733 --> 00:20:09.533
ALL RIGHT, YOU GUYS WANT TO GO
00:20:09.533 --> 00:20:10.200
SIT DOWN?
00:20:10.200 --> 00:20:10.867
WE\'D LOVE TO.
00:20:10.867 --> 00:20:11.867
YOU GUYS WANT A WATER BOTTLE?
00:20:11.868 --> 00:20:14.932
[laughter]
00:20:14.933 --> 00:20:16.032
OKAY, I\'VE LOST SO MUCH OF MY
00:20:16.033 --> 00:20:17.832
LIFE JUST ON DOING NOTHING,
00:20:17.833 --> 00:20:19.132
LIKE, JUST PLACEMENTS AND STUFF.
00:20:19.133 --> 00:20:20.732
AND I JUST WANT TO JUMP IN...
00:20:20.733 --> 00:20:22.032
YOU KNOW, JUMP RIGHT BACK INTO
00:20:22.033 --> 00:20:23.266
DOING GOOD.
00:20:23.267 --> 00:20:24.499
BUT THE PLAIN IS THAT... AND
00:20:24.500 --> 00:20:25.866
YOU WANT, YOU KNOW, A NEW, FRESH
00:20:25.867 --> 00:20:26.533
DAY.
00:20:26.534 --> 00:20:27.566
AND YOU CAN HAVE THAT.
00:20:27.567 --> 00:20:28.433
YOU KNOW, YOU\'VE GOT YOUR WHOLE
00:20:28.433 --> 00:20:29.100
LIFE AHEAD OF YOU.
00:20:29.101 --> 00:20:30.366
EVEN THOUGH IT WAS HARD THOSE
00:20:30.367 --> 00:20:32.566
FIRST, YOU KNOW, 17 YEARS,
00:20:32.567 --> 00:20:33.666
YOU KNOW, THIS IS A WHOLE NEW
00:20:33.667 --> 00:20:34.866
CHAPTER FOR YOU.
00:20:34.867 --> 00:20:35.567
I KNOW.
00:20:35.568 --> 00:20:36.699
WHAT WE\'LL SEE IS, YOU KNOW,
00:20:36.700 --> 00:20:37.832
IF YOU CAN BE PLACED WITH US,
00:20:37.833 --> 00:20:38.800
THAT WOULD BE OUR ANSWER TO
00:20:38.800 --> 00:20:39.500
A PRAYER.
00:20:39.501 --> 00:20:40.566
I JUST... I PRAY EVERY NIGHT
00:20:40.567 --> 00:20:41.599
LIKE, \"PLEASE, JUST... YOU KNOW,
00:20:41.600 --> 00:20:42.567
GOD, JUST GIVE ME THIS.\"
00:20:42.567 --> 00:20:43.433
AND THAT\'S THE BEST THING YOU
00:20:43.434 --> 00:20:44.666
CAN DO, SO YOU\'RE EVEN MORE
00:20:44.667 --> 00:20:45.832
COMFORTABLE, AND YOU KNOW THAT
00:20:45.833 --> 00:20:46.899
WHEN YOU COME HOME, YOU ARE
00:20:46.900 --> 00:20:48.232
HOME.
00:20:48.233 --> 00:20:49.399
[laughter]
00:20:49.400 --> 00:20:50.632
OH, DON\'T CRY.
00:20:50.633 --> 00:20:52.166
OH.
00:20:52.167 --> 00:20:52.833
FINALLY.
00:20:52.834 --> 00:20:54.299
OH, NO.
00:20:54.300 --> 00:20:56.066
IT\'S FINALLY... OH.
00:20:56.067 --> 00:20:56.867
YEAH.
00:20:56.867 --> 00:20:57.567
WE ALWAYS...
00:20:57.567 --> 00:20:58.500
WE ALWAYS KNEW IT WAS GONNA COME
00:20:58.501 --> 00:20:59.799
TOGETHER, THOUGH, DIDN\'T WE?
00:20:59.800 --> 00:21:00.467
YEAH.
00:21:00.467 --> 00:21:01.367
I\'M LIVING LARGE.
00:21:01.368 --> 00:21:03.366
SISTER, IT\'S MY TIME TO SHINE.
00:21:03.367 --> 00:21:04.832
[giggles]
00:21:04.833 --> 00:21:06.432
ONE, TWO,
00:21:06.433 --> 00:21:08.166
THREE, FOUR.
00:21:08.167 --> 00:21:10.032
[laughter]
00:21:10.033 --> 00:21:12.166
SEVEN, STEP, TOUCH.
00:21:12.167 --> 00:21:14.599
STEP GOING FORWARD.
00:21:14.600 --> 00:21:15.966
FOUR, AND BACK.
00:21:15.967 --> 00:21:17.266
TWO, THREE...
00:21:17.267 --> 00:21:18.566
IT\'S, LIKE, A COUPLE OF
00:21:18.567 --> 00:21:19.567
THINGS WE LEARNED.
00:21:19.568 --> 00:21:20.899
IS IT SOME AFRICAN STUFF,
00:21:20.900 --> 00:21:22.366
OR IS IT...
00:21:22.367 --> 00:21:23.133
YOU WILL SEE WHEN WE DRUM,
00:21:23.134 --> 00:21:24.399
NIGGA.
00:21:24.400 --> 00:21:25.233
THAT\'S WHAT I WANT TO SEE,
00:21:25.233 --> 00:21:25.900
MAN.
00:21:25.901 --> 00:21:27.299
I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU, UH...
00:21:27.300 --> 00:21:29.232
YOU GOT TO BEAT THE DRUMS RIGHT,
00:21:29.233 --> 00:21:30.399
YOU KNOW?
00:21:30.400 --> 00:21:31.400
[downbeat hip-hop music]
00:21:35.567 --> 00:21:38.066
MY USE OF DRUGS AND STUFF,
00:21:38.067 --> 00:21:40.266
A LOT OF... A BIG GAP IN OUR LIFE,
00:21:40.267 --> 00:21:41.033
YOU KNOW?
00:21:41.034 --> 00:21:42.099
THAT\'S WHERE I LOST
00:21:42.100 --> 00:21:43.132
MY DAUGHTER AT.
00:21:43.133 --> 00:21:44.232
I\'M NOT SAYING THAT WAS THE
00:21:44.233 --> 00:21:46.166
REASON THAT SHE GOT LOCKED UP
00:21:46.167 --> 00:21:46.967
OR ANYTHING.
00:21:46.968 --> 00:21:48.266
BUT, YOU KNOW, SHE HAD ISSUES
00:21:48.267 --> 00:21:49.699
TOO.
00:21:49.700 --> 00:21:50.966
WHAT\'S UP, MAN?
00:21:50.967 --> 00:21:51.999
SHE WAS HATING ME.
00:21:52.000 --> 00:21:53.299
SHE WAS... SHE WAS... SHE WAS
00:21:53.300 --> 00:21:54.100
DESPISING.
00:21:54.101 --> 00:21:56.099
SHE JUST HAD THAT... THAT FEELING,
00:21:56.100 --> 00:21:57.566
\"HE AIN\'T NOTHING BUT
00:21:57.567 --> 00:21:58.400
A CRACKHEAD.
00:21:58.401 --> 00:21:59.532
I DON\'T GOT NO... I DON\'T HAVE
00:21:59.533 --> 00:22:00.932
TO [...]... I DON\'T HAVE TO
00:22:00.933 --> 00:22:02.699
RESPECT HIM.\"
00:22:02.700 --> 00:22:04.332
BUT THEN I KIND OF ACCEPTED
00:22:04.333 --> 00:22:05.267
THAT, BECAUSE I WASN\'T
00:22:05.267 --> 00:22:06.000
IN YOUR LIFE,
00:22:06.000 --> 00:22:06.767
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:22:06.768 --> 00:22:08.099
I GIVE YOU MY LITTLE 100 BUCKS A
00:22:08.100 --> 00:22:09.632
MONTH OR WHATEVER, OR $80 A
00:22:09.633 --> 00:22:11.299
MONTH, WHATEVER I HAD.
00:22:11.300 --> 00:22:12.732
BUT I FELT I WASN\'T NEGLECTING
00:22:12.733 --> 00:22:14.232
HER BECAUSE I KEPT HER FED,
00:22:14.233 --> 00:22:15.532
KEPT HER CLOTHED.
00:22:15.533 --> 00:22:16.766
SHE ALWAYS HAD A ROOF OVER HER
00:22:16.767 --> 00:22:17.799
HEAD.
00:22:17.800 --> 00:22:20.032
AND I NEVER WOULD TAKE MY DAMN
00:22:20.033 --> 00:22:24.032
BABY TO NO FREAKING CRACK HOUSE.
00:22:24.033 --> 00:22:26.899
YOU KNOW?
00:22:26.900 --> 00:22:27.966
ONCE YOU GET TO A CERTAIN
00:22:27.967 --> 00:22:29.866
AGE, YOU SHOULD ALLOW WHAT OTHER
00:22:29.867 --> 00:22:31.066
PEOPLE DO, WHETHER THEY\'RE YOUR
00:22:31.067 --> 00:22:33.232
MAMA OR DADDY... YOU SHOULDN\'T LET
00:22:33.233 --> 00:22:38.132
IT REALLY HURT YOU THAT MUCH.
00:22:38.133 --> 00:22:39.067
THAT\'S HOW I SEE IT.
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YOU AIN\'T HELPING ME NOW,
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SO WHY CRY OVER YOU?
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ONE THING THAT\'S DANGEROUS
00:22:45.267 --> 00:22:46.432
WITH KIDS THAT ARE BEING LOCKED
00:22:46.433 --> 00:22:48.332
UP IS THAT THEY\'LL SUCK IT ALL
00:22:48.333 --> 00:22:50.799
UP AND WAIT TILL THEY GET OUT,
00:22:50.800 --> 00:22:51.500
AND THEY WILL HAVE SOLVED
00:22:51.501 --> 00:22:53.099
NOTHING.
00:22:53.100 --> 00:22:54.399
FOR WHITNEY TO CONTINUE TO BE
00:22:54.400 --> 00:22:56.632
THAT ANGRY WITHOUT EVER SAYING
00:22:56.633 --> 00:22:58.499
IT OUT LOUD, IT\'S KIND OF
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HOPELESS, I MEAN, \'CAUSE YOU
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LOCK PEOPLE UP, YOU KNOW,
00:23:01.034 --> 00:23:02.232
NOTHING HAPPENED TO THEM
00:23:02.233 --> 00:23:03.532
BESIDES THAT THEY GOT ANGRY
00:23:03.533 --> 00:23:05.966
AND WAITED TILL THEY GOT OUT.
00:23:05.967 --> 00:23:07.166
I THINK THAT THE GIRLS REALLY
00:23:07.167 --> 00:23:08.899
STILL NEED TO SEIZE THEIR
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STORIES.
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WHITNEY, WE NEED SOME INPUT FROM
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YOU.
00:23:12.833 --> 00:23:14.366
TAKE WHAT YOU DID AND GET MORE
00:23:14.367 --> 00:23:15.599
DETAILS.
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IS THIS THE SONG?
00:23:16.967 --> 00:23:17.767
MM-HMM.
00:23:17.768 --> 00:23:19.032
THAT DIDN\'T RHYME.
00:23:19.033 --> 00:23:20.033
IT DOESN\'T HAVE TO RHYME YET.
00:23:20.034 --> 00:23:21.399
I\'M JUST PUTTING IN DETAILS.
00:23:21.400 --> 00:23:22.432
LIKE, IF YOU SAY, \"WILL I BE
00:23:22.433 --> 00:23:24.299
BACK IN THESE CHAINS,\"
00:23:24.300 --> 00:23:25.699
WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?
00:23:25.700 --> 00:23:26.832
IF I GO BACK TO WHERE I WAS
00:23:26.833 --> 00:23:29.832
AT, AND SOMEBODY STARTS ALL
00:23:29.833 --> 00:23:32.232
CRAZY, I\'M...
00:23:32.233 --> 00:23:33.033
WELL, HOW WOULD YOU HANDLE
00:23:33.033 --> 00:23:33.800
THAT IF SOMEBODY STARTED
00:23:33.801 --> 00:23:34.832
TALKING ABOUT...
00:23:34.833 --> 00:23:36.432
I ALREADY HANDLE IT.
00:23:36.433 --> 00:23:38.599
HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO NOT GET
00:23:38.600 --> 00:23:42.966
ANGRY AND EXPLODE?
00:23:42.967 --> 00:23:44.099
WELL, BUT YOU ARE ANGRY, WHEN
00:23:44.100 --> 00:23:47.799
YOU THINK ABOUT IT.
00:23:47.800 --> 00:23:49.266
I FELT LIKE NOBODY, YOU KNOW
00:23:49.267 --> 00:23:50.000
WHAT I\'M SAYING, REALLY
00:23:50.001 --> 00:23:51.299
UNDERSTOOD WHAT I WAS GOING
00:23:51.300 --> 00:23:52.532
THROUGH BACK THEN.
00:23:52.533 --> 00:23:54.099
I NEVER UNDERSTOOD IT UNTIL I
00:23:54.100 --> 00:23:55.832
CAME HERE AND SAT BACK AND
00:23:55.833 --> 00:23:56.999
THOUGHT ABOUT IT.
00:23:57.000 --> 00:23:58.199
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:23:58.200 --> 00:23:59.167
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT WHEN
00:23:59.167 --> 00:24:00.067
YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR FAMILY
00:24:00.067 --> 00:24:00.967
HOLDING ON OUR THERE WITHOUT
00:24:00.967 --> 00:24:01.867
YOU?
00:24:01.868 --> 00:24:03.266
IS MY GRANDMA STILL
00:24:03.267 --> 00:24:04.932
STRUGGLING TO PAY THE LIGHT
00:24:04.933 --> 00:24:08.399
BILL OR GETTING HEAT?
00:24:08.400 --> 00:24:09.632
WE WAS POOR, TO ME.
00:24:09.633 --> 00:24:10.333
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:24:10.334 --> 00:24:12.432
WE DIDN\'T HAVE FOOD, NO HEAT,
00:24:12.433 --> 00:24:13.699
NO LIGHTS.
00:24:13.700 --> 00:24:15.232
MAN, I REMEMBER WEARING THESE
00:24:15.233 --> 00:24:17.499
BOOTS, AND I HAD TO PUT PLASTIC
00:24:17.500 --> 00:24:19.166
IN THEM BECAUSE SO THE SNOW
00:24:19.167 --> 00:24:20.266
WON\'T, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING,
00:24:20.267 --> 00:24:22.366
FREEZE MY FEET UP.
00:24:22.367 --> 00:24:23.300
OKAY, LET\'S GO TO THIS ONE:
00:24:23.301 --> 00:24:24.499
\"OR IF THEY REALLY WANT ME
00:24:24.500 --> 00:24:25.866
HOME.\"
00:24:25.867 --> 00:24:27.699
CAN I GET A \"I LOVE YOU?\"
00:24:27.700 --> 00:24:28.799
WHAT\'S UP?
00:24:28.800 --> 00:24:29.767
DO YOU MISS ME?
00:24:29.767 --> 00:24:30.600
EXACTLY.
00:24:30.600 --> 00:24:31.600
DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER ME?
00:24:31.601 --> 00:24:32.666
I REMEMBER SITTING ON MY
00:24:32.667 --> 00:24:34.199
PORCH, AND MY AUNTIE AND
00:24:34.200 --> 00:24:35.799
THEM CAME.
00:24:35.800 --> 00:24:36.500
I ASKED TO GO WITH HER,
00:24:36.500 --> 00:24:37.367
AND SHE WAS LIKE, \"NO, YOU CAN\'T
00:24:37.368 --> 00:24:40.532
GO \'CAUSE THIS A SCHOOL NIGHT.\"
00:24:40.533 --> 00:24:42.332
AND IN MY HEAD, I\'M THINKING,
00:24:42.333 --> 00:24:43.599
I\'M IN THIS... I\'M IN THIS HOUSE
00:24:43.600 --> 00:24:44.367
ALONE.
00:24:44.368 --> 00:24:45.466
WHAT DO I GIVE [...] ABOUT
00:24:45.467 --> 00:24:46.899
TOMORROW BEING A SCHOOL NIGHT
00:24:46.900 --> 00:24:47.567
FOR?
00:24:47.567 --> 00:24:48.533
AIN\'T NO LIGHTS.
00:24:48.534 --> 00:24:49.599
MY GRANDMOTHER DON\'T COME OFF
00:24:49.600 --> 00:24:51.732
WORK UNTIL 12:00, 1:00.
00:24:51.733 --> 00:24:53.199
I\'M JUST... AND MY UNCLE IN THERE
00:24:53.200 --> 00:24:55.332
DRUNK, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:24:55.333 --> 00:24:56.999
AND MY DADDY AIN\'T NOWHERE TO BE
00:24:57.000 --> 00:24:58.532
FOUND, \'CAUSE HE\'S SOMEWHERE
00:24:58.533 --> 00:25:00.399
TRYING TO HUSTLE UP A DOLLAR
00:25:00.400 --> 00:25:02.566
JUST TO GET A [...] ROCK.
00:25:02.567 --> 00:25:03.500
BUT YOU COULD GO EAT OUT,
00:25:03.501 --> 00:25:04.666
BUT I CAN\'T GET A $10 MONEY
00:25:04.667 --> 00:25:05.966
ORDER.
00:25:05.967 --> 00:25:06.667
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:25:06.668 --> 00:25:08.032
I CAN\'T EVEN GET A PIZZA MEAL.
00:25:08.033 --> 00:25:09.166
I\'M A LITTLE GIRL.
00:25:09.167 --> 00:25:09.900
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:25:09.900 --> 00:25:10.800
HOW THE [...] DO YOU EXPECT ME
00:25:10.801 --> 00:25:12.332
TO ACT LIKE A LITTLE GIRL
00:25:12.333 --> 00:25:14.266
IF DON\'T NOBODY COME GET ME
00:25:14.267 --> 00:25:15.699
TO KICK IT WITH ME OR NOTHING
00:25:15.700 --> 00:25:19.099
LIKE THAT?
00:25:19.100 --> 00:25:22.466
TO ME, I FELT LIKE I AIN\'T HAD
00:25:22.467 --> 00:25:24.199
NO DADDY.
00:25:24.200 --> 00:25:25.599
AND I USED TO CRY DAMN NEAR
00:25:25.600 --> 00:25:27.099
EVERY NIGHT AFTER I GOT
00:25:27.100 --> 00:25:27.967
LOCKED UP.
00:25:27.968 --> 00:25:29.366
LIKE, ALL I WANTED WAS HIM,
00:25:29.367 --> 00:25:30.267
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING,
00:25:30.268 --> 00:25:35.799
TO AT LEAST...
00:25:35.800 --> 00:25:37.766
AND I CRIED MYSELF...
00:25:37.767 --> 00:25:39.466
CRIED TO MYSELF SO MUCH THAT,
00:25:39.467 --> 00:25:41.799
LIKE, SOMETIMES I JUST BE
00:25:41.800 --> 00:25:43.232
WONDERING, LIKE, [...] IT.
00:25:43.233 --> 00:25:47.267
I MEAN, WHY CRY?
00:25:47.600 --> 00:25:48.640
[atmospheric guitar music]
00:26:06.300 --> 00:26:07.732
all: THESE STREETS
00:26:07.733 --> 00:26:08.700
THESE STREETS
00:26:08.701 --> 00:26:09.899
I\'M QUICK TO SELL A BLOW
00:26:09.900 --> 00:26:10.999
THESE STREETS, I\'M NEVER
00:26:11.000 --> 00:26:11.767
LIVING LIKE A HO
00:26:11.767 --> 00:26:12.733
THESE STREETS, I\'M READY
00:26:12.733 --> 00:26:13.500
TO BUST MY GAT
00:26:13.500 --> 00:26:14.167
THESE STREETS
00:26:14.168 --> 00:26:15.366
I AIN\'T NEVER GONNA GO BACK
00:26:15.367 --> 00:26:16.100
THESE STREETS
00:26:16.101 --> 00:26:17.266
IS WHERE WE FROM
00:26:17.267 --> 00:26:18.899
ON THE BLOCK WE GET IT CRUMP
00:26:18.900 --> 00:26:20.032
DON\'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
00:26:20.033 --> 00:26:21.266
BUT I\'M ALWAYS GONNA REP
00:26:21.267 --> 00:26:22.332
MY STREETS
00:26:22.333 --> 00:26:23.499
ON THE BLOCK I\'M ALWAYS
00:26:23.500 --> 00:26:25.732
GONNA SELL THAT WEED
00:26:25.733 --> 00:26:26.433
DON\'T HATE
00:26:26.433 --> 00:26:27.300
THEY GOT TO MAKE
00:26:27.301 --> 00:26:29.132
THEY MONEY SOME WAY
00:26:29.133 --> 00:26:30.732
MY WHOLE STAY HERE,
00:26:30.733 --> 00:26:33.066
YOU SEE GIRLS COMING IN AND OUT,
00:26:33.067 --> 00:26:35.032
IN AND OUT.
00:26:35.033 --> 00:26:37.099
BUT TIME BE RUNNING OUT.
00:26:37.100 --> 00:26:38.966
THE OLDER YOU GET, I MEAN,
00:26:38.967 --> 00:26:40.932
IT\'S JUST GONNA GET BAD FOR YOU.
00:26:40.933 --> 00:26:42.532
YOU GONNA LEAVE WARRENVILLE
00:26:42.533 --> 00:26:45.366
AND GO RIGHT TO GROWN-UP PRISON.
00:26:45.367 --> 00:26:47.866
TIME DON\'T WAIT ON NOBODY.
00:26:47.867 --> 00:26:52.932
TIME DON\'T WAIT FOR NOBODY.
00:26:52.933 --> 00:26:56.632
WANT TO SEE MY SCAR FIRST?
00:26:56.633 --> 00:26:58.132
I HAD A FIGHT WITH THIS GIRL.
00:26:58.133 --> 00:26:59.532
WE GOT INTO AN ARGUMENT,
00:26:59.533 --> 00:27:00.766
YOU KNOW, CURSING EACH OTHER OUT
00:27:00.767 --> 00:27:01.733
OR WHATEVER.
00:27:01.734 --> 00:27:03.466
SO THEN WE STARTED FIGHTING.
00:27:03.467 --> 00:27:04.699
AND I WAS BEATING HER UP.
00:27:04.700 --> 00:27:07.932
SO SHE CUT ME.
00:27:07.933 --> 00:27:09.299
I KNEW SOMETHING HAPPENED,
00:27:09.300 --> 00:27:10.466
BUT I DIDN\'T KNOW I WAS CUT
00:27:10.467 --> 00:27:12.399
UNTIL I SEEN BLOOD DRIPPING DOWN
00:27:12.400 --> 00:27:14.632
ON MY WHITE T-SHIRT.
00:27:14.633 --> 00:27:15.400
YOU KNOW, THEY TOOK ME TO THE
00:27:15.401 --> 00:27:16.599
HOSPITAL, STITCHED ME UP.
00:27:16.600 --> 00:27:18.066
I HAD 32 STITCHES.
00:27:18.067 --> 00:27:19.499
A COUPLE MORE INCHES, THEN I
00:27:19.500 --> 00:27:22.066
WOULD HAVE POSSIBLY DIED.
00:27:22.067 --> 00:27:22.733
THEY CUFFED ME.
00:27:22.734 --> 00:27:24.232
I WENT TO THE POLICE STATION.
00:27:24.233 --> 00:27:25.067
AND I ALREADY KNEW I WAS COMING
00:27:25.068 --> 00:27:29.967
BACK TO WARRENVILLE.
00:27:30.300 --> 00:27:34.232
[alarm buzzes]
00:27:34.233 --> 00:27:35.233
[thumping drum music]
00:27:42.300 --> 00:27:43.300
HA.
00:27:44.600 --> 00:27:47.100
I FEEL ALL RIGHT
00:27:53.633 --> 00:27:54.367
[girl singing]
00:27:54.367 --> 00:27:55.233
NO, IT\'S UP THERE FOR
00:27:55.234 --> 00:27:56.532
YOU GUYS.
00:27:56.533 --> 00:27:57.267
AH
00:27:57.267 --> 00:27:58.167
I CAN\'T HIT IT.
00:27:58.168 --> 00:27:59.499
All: AH
00:27:59.500 --> 00:28:00.799
RIGHT THERE.
00:28:00.800 --> 00:28:02.066
[laughter]
00:28:02.067 --> 00:28:02.867
all: YO MAMA, YO MAMA
00:28:02.868 --> 00:28:03.932
YO MAMA
00:28:03.933 --> 00:28:04.667
YO MAMA, YO MAMA
00:28:04.667 --> 00:28:05.633
YO MAMA
00:28:05.633 --> 00:28:06.400
YEAH.
00:28:06.401 --> 00:28:07.532
[laughter and applause]
00:28:07.533 --> 00:28:09.066
I\'M DETERMINED.
00:28:09.067 --> 00:28:10.166
I\'M CONFIDENT.
00:28:10.167 --> 00:28:10.833
OH, GOD.
00:28:10.833 --> 00:28:11.667
BECAUSE YOU SEE, EVERYBODY
00:28:11.667 --> 00:28:12.433
WANT MY PART.
00:28:12.433 --> 00:28:13.133
WHAT YOUR PART?
00:28:13.134 --> 00:28:14.199
SOPHIA, BUT THEY AIN\'T GONNA
00:28:14.200 --> 00:28:15.732
GET IT.
00:28:15.733 --> 00:28:16.700
WHAT\'S GONNA HAPPEN NOW IS
00:28:16.701 --> 00:28:17.966
THAT A WIDER GROUP OF GIRLS
00:28:17.967 --> 00:28:18.833
IS GONNA COME IN.
00:28:18.834 --> 00:28:20.132
AND THE AUDITION PROCESS FOR US
00:28:20.133 --> 00:28:21.366
IS THAT YOU MAY NOT BE CAST
00:28:21.367 --> 00:28:22.732
IN YOUR OWN STORY.
00:28:22.733 --> 00:28:23.600
\"YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT YOUR
00:28:23.600 --> 00:28:24.500
VISIT?\"
00:28:24.500 --> 00:28:25.467
\"I HATE MY MOM.\"
00:28:25.467 --> 00:28:26.267
\"I HATE MY MOM.\"
00:28:26.267 --> 00:28:27.233
\"I HATE MY MOM.\"
00:28:27.233 --> 00:28:27.900
WAIT, IT\'S...
00:28:27.900 --> 00:28:28.867
[laughs]
00:28:28.867 --> 00:28:29.633
YOU WANT ME TO ACT, DON\'T
00:28:29.633 --> 00:28:30.300
YOU?
00:28:30.301 --> 00:28:31.766
I WANT YOU TO ACT.
00:28:31.767 --> 00:28:32.667
\"SITTING IN MY THERAPIST\'S
00:28:32.667 --> 00:28:33.333
OFFICE.\"
00:28:33.334 --> 00:28:34.966
NO, I DON\'T WANT TO DO THIS,
00:28:34.967 --> 00:28:36.566
FRIEND.
00:28:36.567 --> 00:28:38.466
GET ME OUT OF HERE, FRIEND.
00:28:38.467 --> 00:28:40.099
NOT ALL OF US ARE PERFORMERS.
00:28:40.100 --> 00:28:41.299
BUT WHAT I SEE WHITNEY DOING IS
00:28:41.300 --> 00:28:42.999
STEPPING UP.
00:28:43.000 --> 00:28:44.632
WHITNEY NEEDS TO BE PUSHED,
00:28:44.633 --> 00:28:45.367
AND SHE NEEDS TO TAKE A
00:28:45.368 --> 00:28:46.699
LEADERSHIP ROLE.
00:28:46.700 --> 00:28:47.533
\"NONE OF YOU UNDERSTAND I\'M
00:28:47.534 --> 00:28:49.799
NO CRIMINAL.\"
00:28:49.800 --> 00:28:50.966
BAM.
00:28:50.967 --> 00:28:52.699
AND THE REST IS LA-DA-DA-DA-DA.
00:28:52.700 --> 00:28:53.933
[laughs]
00:29:00.433 --> 00:29:01.100
MOVE.
00:29:01.101 --> 00:29:02.332
I WANT TO SEE WHAT PART I GOT.
00:29:02.333 --> 00:29:03.267
OH, MY GOD. OH, MY GOD.
00:29:03.267 --> 00:29:04.267
I GOT A ONE-WORD PART.
00:29:04.268 --> 00:29:05.432
I\'M RIGHT HERE.
00:29:05.433 --> 00:29:06.100
I GOT MY PART.
00:29:06.100 --> 00:29:06.833
OH, MY GOD.
00:29:06.834 --> 00:29:08.232
I WROTE THAT PART, MAN.
00:29:08.233 --> 00:29:09.432
I GOT MY PART.
00:29:09.433 --> 00:29:10.466
I DIDN\'T EVEN MAKE IT AT ALL.
00:29:10.467 --> 00:29:13.866
Y\'ALL, THAT\'S LAME.
00:29:13.867 --> 00:29:14.899
I AM NOT ON THIS LIST BECAUSE
00:29:14.900 --> 00:29:17.632
I WILL BE GOING HOME.
00:29:17.633 --> 00:29:19.799
IT\'S WEIRD, BUT IT\'S HAPPY,
00:29:19.800 --> 00:29:21.966
BECAUSE I\'M NOT GONNA BE HERE
00:29:21.967 --> 00:29:25.266
TO DO ALL THE MAKIN\' IT STUFF.
00:29:25.267 --> 00:29:26.067
BUT I WROTE IT, THOUGH, SO
00:29:26.068 --> 00:29:29.932
THAT\'S OKAY.
00:29:29.933 --> 00:29:31.099
IT\'S HARD BEING IN A
00:29:31.100 --> 00:29:33.432
SITUATION WHERE YOU CAN\'T LEAVE,
00:29:33.433 --> 00:29:35.332
BUT A LOT OF PEOPLE AROUND YOU
00:29:35.333 --> 00:29:36.632
LEAVING, PEOPLE YOU GET
00:29:36.633 --> 00:29:38.199
CLOSE TO.
00:29:38.200 --> 00:29:39.399
I WAS YOUNG WHEN I GOT
00:29:39.400 --> 00:29:42.132
LOCKED UP, 14.
00:29:42.133 --> 00:29:43.732
I KNOW THAT WHAT I DID COULD
00:29:43.733 --> 00:29:45.032
HAVE BEEN PREVENTED.
00:29:45.033 --> 00:29:46.966
BUT I JUST DON\'T TALK ABOUT IT.
00:29:46.967 --> 00:29:50.066
I JUST NEVER HAVE.
00:29:50.067 --> 00:29:51.799
I JUST WANT CHRISTINE TO HAVE A
00:29:51.800 --> 00:29:53.599
GOOD LIFE.
00:29:53.600 --> 00:29:54.400
YOU JUST GOT NO CHOICE.
00:29:54.401 --> 00:29:56.366
BE HAPPY FOR THEM.
00:29:56.367 --> 00:30:00.199
SO I GOT MY WALKING PAPERS.
00:30:00.200 --> 00:30:01.666
THIS IS MY KEY TO FREEDOM.
00:30:01.667 --> 00:30:02.467
YES.
00:30:02.467 --> 00:30:03.200
UH-OH.
00:30:03.200 --> 00:30:04.133
UH-OH.
00:30:04.133 --> 00:30:04.900
UH-OH.
00:30:04.900 --> 00:30:05.833
GO, HOS.
00:30:05.833 --> 00:30:06.667
GO, HOS.
00:30:06.667 --> 00:30:07.333
[laughs]
00:30:07.334 --> 00:30:11.232
GET OFF OF ME, GIRL.
00:30:11.233 --> 00:30:12.366
WELCOME HOME.
00:30:12.367 --> 00:30:13.200
IT\'S THE PEOPLE THAT WANT TO
00:30:13.201 --> 00:30:14.966
TAKE ME INTO THEIR HOUSE.
00:30:14.967 --> 00:30:15.833
I\'VE NEVER SEEN IT BEFORE.
00:30:15.834 --> 00:30:17.199
THAT\'S WHY THEY SENT PICTURES.
00:30:17.200 --> 00:30:18.432
DAMN, Y\'ALL GET THE CUT GRASS
00:30:18.433 --> 00:30:19.267
AND ALL.
00:30:19.267 --> 00:30:19.933
WHERE?
00:30:19.933 --> 00:30:20.633
FRANKLIN.
00:30:20.634 --> 00:30:21.999
PRETTY GRASS.
00:30:22.000 --> 00:30:22.967
LIKE, THIS NEW WORLD THAT I\'M
00:30:22.967 --> 00:30:23.967
GONNA BE IN, IT\'S GONNA BE SO
00:30:23.968 --> 00:30:26.366
HARD, BECAUSE SOMETIMES I FEEL
00:30:26.367 --> 00:30:27.333
OUT OF PLACE WHEN I\'M AROUND
00:30:27.334 --> 00:30:28.499
A LOT OF WHITE PEOPLE.
00:30:28.500 --> 00:30:30.466
OOH, HI, CHRISTINA.
00:30:30.467 --> 00:30:31.599
DUH.
00:30:31.600 --> 00:30:32.766
BUT, YOU KNOW, IF IT TAKES ME
00:30:32.767 --> 00:30:34.499
HAVING TO BE PREPPY, YOU KNOW,
00:30:34.500 --> 00:30:35.699
FOR THIS LIFESTYLE, IF IT
00:30:35.700 --> 00:30:36.966
CHANGES ME, THEN I\'M GONNA HAVE
00:30:36.967 --> 00:30:38.332
TO DO IT.
00:30:38.333 --> 00:30:39.133
OH, THE KITCHEN AIN\'T THAT
00:30:39.134 --> 00:30:40.332
BAD.
00:30:40.333 --> 00:30:41.566
I THINK I\'VE HAD ENOUGH OF,
00:30:41.567 --> 00:30:42.766
YOU KNOW, IN THE GHETTO OR
00:30:42.767 --> 00:30:43.467
WHATEVER.
00:30:43.467 --> 00:30:44.300
YOU KNOW, I\'VE LIVED THERE MY
00:30:44.300 --> 00:30:45.133
WHOLE LIFE.
00:30:45.133 --> 00:30:46.033
SO I THINK IT\'S TIME FOR ME
00:30:46.033 --> 00:30:46.933
TO HAVE A NEW CHANGE.
00:30:46.934 --> 00:30:48.599
I THINK I DESERVE IT.
00:30:48.600 --> 00:30:49.500
I JUST DON\'T KNOW WHAT I\'M
00:30:49.501 --> 00:30:50.766
GONNA DO WHEN I GET OUT.
00:30:50.767 --> 00:30:51.667
YOU ABOUT TO BE A SPOILED
00:30:51.668 --> 00:30:53.999
LITTLE ASS, MAN.
00:30:54.000 --> 00:30:56.932
[laughter and conversation]
00:30:56.933 --> 00:30:58.866
OKAY, SO BRING YOUR CHAIRS
00:30:58.867 --> 00:31:00.266
AND PUT THEM IN ROWS IN FRONT
00:31:00.267 --> 00:31:01.999
OF THE PIANO.
00:31:02.000 --> 00:31:03.132
WHEN YOU ARE SEATED, YOU WILL
00:31:03.133 --> 00:31:04.899
GET YOUR SCRIPTS.
00:31:04.900 --> 00:31:07.432
OH, YOU DIDN\'T GET ONE?
00:31:07.433 --> 00:31:09.099
OKAY, PAGE FIVE, SONG NUMBER
00:31:09.100 --> 00:31:11.866
TWO, I HAVE TO MAKE IT FO\' SHO.\'
00:31:11.867 --> 00:31:12.800
TOGETHER.
00:31:12.800 --> 00:31:13.467
THREE COUNT.
00:31:13.468 --> 00:31:14.899
SHH.
00:31:14.900 --> 00:31:17.967
ONE, TWO, THREE.
00:31:43.267 --> 00:31:45.366
[racing piano music]
00:31:45.367 --> 00:31:47.700
HERE WE GO.
00:31:57.500 --> 00:31:58.532
THERE SHE GOES.
00:31:58.533 --> 00:31:59.699
OH!
00:31:59.700 --> 00:32:01.966
[laughs] WHOO!
00:32:01.967 --> 00:32:03.332
I\'M OUT.
00:32:03.333 --> 00:32:05.166
I\'M FREE.
00:32:05.167 --> 00:32:06.366
HOO!
00:32:06.367 --> 00:32:08.366
THIS IS MY GIFT FROM... YOU?
00:32:08.367 --> 00:32:09.033
YEAH.
00:32:09.034 --> 00:32:10.766
THIS IS FROM MY MOM.
00:32:10.767 --> 00:32:12.066
AND DAD, AND HERE\'S YOUR CARD
00:32:12.067 --> 00:32:14.299
FIRST.
00:32:14.300 --> 00:32:15.466
HA-HA-HA, I\'M OUT.
00:32:15.467 --> 00:32:17.166
IT FEELS LIKE I\'M FLYING.
00:32:17.167 --> 00:32:18.000
OH, MY GOODNESS.
00:32:18.001 --> 00:32:20.499
\"WELCOME TO YOUR NEW HOME.\"
00:32:20.500 --> 00:32:21.599
AW.
00:32:21.600 --> 00:32:22.832
HE SAID TO BRING IT, SO THERE
00:32:22.833 --> 00:32:23.500
IT IS.
00:32:23.500 --> 00:32:24.400
YEAH.
00:32:24.401 --> 00:32:25.499
SO WE\'LL HAVE SOME.
00:32:25.500 --> 00:32:27.366
MY CELL PHONE.
00:32:27.367 --> 00:32:28.200
AND WE\'LL HAVE SOME HEALTHY
00:32:28.201 --> 00:32:29.366
BOUNDARIES WITH THAT.
00:32:29.367 --> 00:32:30.399
BUT THIS WILL MAKE SURE
00:32:30.400 --> 00:32:31.200
THAT YOU CAN GET IN TOUCH WITH
00:32:31.201 --> 00:32:33.232
YOUR PAROLE OFFICER AND WITH
00:32:33.233 --> 00:32:37.466
CHERYL AND ME AND JIM AND...
00:32:37.467 --> 00:32:38.433
WHAT DID SHE SAY?
00:32:38.433 --> 00:32:39.100
CALL MY SISTER?
00:32:39.100 --> 00:32:39.867
IS SHE ALLOWED TO CALL HER
00:32:39.868 --> 00:32:42.099
SISTER, OR SHOULD WE WAIT AND...
00:32:42.100 --> 00:32:44.432
UM, IS SHE ON THE CALL LIST?
00:32:44.433 --> 00:32:45.300
IS THAT ALL RIGHT?
00:32:45.300 --> 00:32:46.000
YEAH.
00:32:46.001 --> 00:32:49.299
YEAH, ANYONE IN MY FAMILY.
00:32:49.300 --> 00:32:50.499
NO, I DON\'T THINK EVERYBODY IN
00:32:50.500 --> 00:32:51.932
YOUR FAMILY IS, SWEETIE PIE.
00:32:51.933 --> 00:32:52.933
WHO... LIKE, WHO\'S NOT?
00:32:52.934 --> 00:32:54.032
LIKE, YOUR MOM...
00:32:54.033 --> 00:32:54.700
WELL... WELL SHE\'S...
00:32:54.700 --> 00:32:55.433
YOUR DAD, YOUR BROTHER.
00:32:55.433 --> 00:32:56.333
RIGHT, RIGHT.
00:32:56.333 --> 00:32:57.000
I DON\'T KNOW NIKKI.
00:32:57.000 --> 00:32:57.967
I WANT TO GET TO KNOW NIKKI
00:32:57.968 --> 00:33:01.532
FIRST.
00:33:01.533 --> 00:33:02.367
NOW, DON\'T BE MAD AT ME.
00:33:02.367 --> 00:33:03.033
I\'M NOT.
00:33:03.034 --> 00:33:04.166
I JUST... SHE...
00:33:04.167 --> 00:33:05.366
I DON\'T EVEN KNOW ANYBODY.
00:33:05.367 --> 00:33:06.300
CAN\'T YOU LET ME ENJOY THIS
00:33:06.300 --> 00:33:07.067
TIME OUT.
00:33:07.068 --> 00:33:08.132
YOU WILL ENJOY IT, BUT YOU
00:33:08.133 --> 00:33:09.732
HAVE TO LEARN...
00:33:09.733 --> 00:33:11.099
SEE, AND I DON\'T WANT YOU TO
00:33:11.100 --> 00:33:12.366
THINK I\'M TRYING TO CHANGE YOU.
00:33:12.367 --> 00:33:13.566
I\'M NOT TRYING TO CHANGE YOU.
00:33:13.567 --> 00:33:14.799
I MEAN, YOU\'RE A GREAT, GREAT
00:33:14.800 --> 00:33:16.232
PERSONALITY.
00:33:16.233 --> 00:33:18.732
BUT A PARENT\'S JOB IS TO PUT
00:33:18.733 --> 00:33:20.532
THOSE BOUNDARIES UP UNTIL THE
00:33:20.533 --> 00:33:22.699
KID IS ABLE TO DO IT THEMSELVES.
00:33:22.700 --> 00:33:23.832
WE\'LL WORK THINGS OUT.
00:33:23.833 --> 00:33:24.500
YEAH.
00:33:24.501 --> 00:33:27.767
IT\'S JUST GONNA TAKE TIME.
00:33:35.033 --> 00:33:36.000
\"YOU DON\'T NEED TO JUST DO
00:33:36.000 --> 00:33:36.900
WHAT MAMA SAYS.
00:33:36.901 --> 00:33:38.899
YOU\'RE A BEAUTIFUL YOUNG LADY.
00:33:38.900 --> 00:33:39.733
HOW ARE THINGS AT SCHOOL?
00:33:39.734 --> 00:33:41.332
YOU GOT A BOYFRIEND?\"
00:33:41.333 --> 00:33:42.200
\"NO, I DON\'T HAVE A
00:33:42.201 --> 00:33:43.499
BOYFRIEND.\"
00:33:43.500 --> 00:33:45.199
\"THAT\'S A REAL SHAME.
00:33:45.200 --> 00:33:46.399
GIRL PRETTY AS YOU SHOULD HAVE A
00:33:46.400 --> 00:33:48.199
BOYFRIEND.
00:33:48.200 --> 00:33:49.067
WHY DON\'T YOU COME SIT CLOSER
00:33:49.068 --> 00:33:51.432
SO WE CAN TALK?
00:33:51.433 --> 00:33:52.666
MM-MM-MM.
00:33:52.667 --> 00:33:54.766
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL.
00:33:54.767 --> 00:33:55.567
HOW ABOUT YOU GIVE ME A LITTLE
00:33:55.567 --> 00:33:56.500
SUGAR, SWEETHEART?
00:33:56.501 --> 00:33:57.732
THAT WAY, YOUR MAMA CAN GET
00:33:57.733 --> 00:34:00.466
EVERYTHING SHE NEEDS.
00:34:00.467 --> 00:34:02.466
AND YOU TOO, BABY.
00:34:02.467 --> 00:34:04.666
YOU TOO.\"
00:34:04.667 --> 00:34:05.899
I AIN\'T CRIED IN A LONG TIME.
00:34:05.900 --> 00:34:07.332
I CRIED TODAY.
00:34:07.333 --> 00:34:10.666
I WAS JUST ANGRY.
00:34:10.667 --> 00:34:11.966
OKAY, I\'LL TELL YOU.
00:34:11.967 --> 00:34:13.066
I REALLY DON\'T TELL PEOPLE,
00:34:13.067 --> 00:34:15.332
BUT I\'LL TELL YOU.
00:34:15.333 --> 00:34:17.399
\'CAUSE I GOT MOLESTED
00:34:17.400 --> 00:34:19.232
WHEN I WAS LITTLE
00:34:19.233 --> 00:34:21.032
BY MY AUNT\'S SONS.
00:34:21.033 --> 00:34:22.432
I STARTED WHEN I WAS IN DIAPERS
00:34:22.433 --> 00:34:24.766
STILL, LIKE TWO, THREE YEARS
00:34:24.767 --> 00:34:27.299
OLD, PROBABLY LIKE FOUR.
00:34:27.300 --> 00:34:28.566
MY FIRST COUSIN, HE STARTED
00:34:28.567 --> 00:34:32.132
DOING IT TO MY SISTER FIRST.
00:34:32.133 --> 00:34:33.399
AND HE DID IT RIGHT IN THE ROOM,
00:34:33.400 --> 00:34:34.167
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:34:34.168 --> 00:34:36.099
BUT, LIKE, I WAS SCARED TO SAY
00:34:36.100 --> 00:34:38.066
ANYTHING, BUT HE WAS, LIKE, OVER
00:34:38.067 --> 00:34:39.832
THERE MESSING WITH HER.
00:34:39.833 --> 00:34:40.800
AND I WAS ON A PALLET ON THE
00:34:40.801 --> 00:34:42.666
FLOOR, AND I HAD WOKE UP,
00:34:42.667 --> 00:34:45.099
\'CAUSE SHE WAS CRYING.
00:34:45.100 --> 00:34:45.967
AND I THINK \'CAUSE I WAS YOUNGER
00:34:45.968 --> 00:34:47.866
THAN HER, THEY PROBABLY WAITED...
00:34:47.867 --> 00:34:49.232
I DON\'T KNOW... BUT THEN THEY
00:34:49.233 --> 00:34:49.900
STARTED DOING IT
00:34:49.901 --> 00:34:51.132
TO BOTH OF US.
00:34:51.133 --> 00:34:52.399
LIKE, I USED TO KNOW WHEN HE WAS
00:34:52.400 --> 00:34:53.966
COMING IN MY ROOM OR SOMETHING
00:34:53.967 --> 00:34:55.599
LIKE THAT; I KNEW WHAT HE WAS
00:34:55.600 --> 00:34:58.999
COMING IN THERE FOR.
00:34:59.000 --> 00:35:01.766
I DIDN\'T TELL NOBODY,
00:35:01.767 --> 00:35:03.066
NOBODY STILL TO THIS DAY.
00:35:03.067 --> 00:35:03.967
MY FAMILY, DON\'T NONE OF THEM
00:35:03.968 --> 00:35:05.466
KNOW.
00:35:05.467 --> 00:35:06.467
OH, NO, I STARTED TO TELL MY
00:35:06.468 --> 00:35:08.332
AUNT ONE DAY.
00:35:08.333 --> 00:35:11.366
LIKE, I WAS JUST CRYING.
00:35:11.367 --> 00:35:12.067
I WAS CRYING.
00:35:12.067 --> 00:35:12.867
SHE LIKE, \"WHAT\'S WRONG,\"
00:35:12.867 --> 00:35:13.667
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING,
00:35:13.668 --> 00:35:15.299
OR WHATEVER LIKE THAT.
00:35:15.300 --> 00:35:16.399
AND I WASN\'T SAYING NOTHING.
00:35:16.400 --> 00:35:18.232
I WAS JUST CRYING.
00:35:18.233 --> 00:35:19.233
AND THEN I FELT IT, LIKE,
00:35:19.234 --> 00:35:20.599
I WAS FIXING TO TELL HER,
00:35:20.600 --> 00:35:21.267
BUT I JUST DIDN\'T.
00:35:21.267 --> 00:35:21.933
I COULDN\'T TELL HER.
00:35:21.933 --> 00:35:22.867
I DON\'T KNOW.
00:35:22.868 --> 00:35:25.166
I JUST DIDN\'T SAY NOTHING.
00:35:25.167 --> 00:35:26.866
AND THAT\'S WHY I BE SO ANGRY.
00:35:26.867 --> 00:35:27.833
\'CAUSE SOME PEOPLE JUST DON\'T
00:35:27.833 --> 00:35:28.700
UNDERSTAND.
00:35:28.701 --> 00:35:30.532
THEY JUST DUMB AS [...].
00:35:30.533 --> 00:35:31.467
\"YOU KNOW, YOU AIN\'T THE ONLY
00:35:31.468 --> 00:35:32.966
ONE WITH A HARD LIFE,\" OR, YOU
00:35:32.967 --> 00:35:34.832
KNOW, STUFF LIKE THAT.
00:35:34.833 --> 00:35:36.032
THEY DON\'T BE KNOWING WHAT OUR
00:35:36.033 --> 00:35:39.566
LIFE LIKE, YOU KNOW?
00:35:39.567 --> 00:35:42.267
[sniffs]
00:35:45.300 --> 00:35:46.300
[ponderous guitar music]
00:36:02.733 --> 00:36:03.633
[girls shouting]
00:36:03.634 --> 00:36:04.666
OKAY, I NEED EVERYBODY
00:36:04.667 --> 00:36:05.732
ONSTAGE RIGHT NOW.
00:36:05.733 --> 00:36:06.400
LET\'S GO.
00:36:06.401 --> 00:36:08.899
IT\'S 8:00.
00:36:08.900 --> 00:36:10.799
YOU GUYS, GO THE OTHER WAY.
00:36:10.800 --> 00:36:11.500
AND GIVE MY MOM
00:36:11.501 --> 00:36:12.566
WHATEVER SHE NEED
00:36:12.567 --> 00:36:13.300
all: WHAT IS THAT
00:36:13.300 --> 00:36:14.267
CRACK AND WEED?
00:36:14.267 --> 00:36:15.133
OH, YEAH
00:36:15.134 --> 00:36:17.666
STRIPES THAT ARE BULLETPROOF
00:36:17.667 --> 00:36:19.166
I HEARD HER SAY
00:36:19.167 --> 00:36:20.932
THAT THAT\'S THE TRUTH
00:36:20.933 --> 00:36:22.166
WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT.
00:36:22.167 --> 00:36:23.499
THIS WHOLE THING SUCKS.
00:36:23.500 --> 00:36:24.233
LADIES!
00:36:24.234 --> 00:36:25.832
LISTEN UP!
00:36:25.833 --> 00:36:27.032
WE DOING IT. WE CAN\'T...
00:36:27.033 --> 00:36:28.532
NO, EVERYBODY\'S NOT TOGETHER.
00:36:28.533 --> 00:36:29.367
SHE ASKED US TO MOVE
00:36:29.368 --> 00:36:30.399
THAT FAST.
00:36:30.400 --> 00:36:31.566
[shouting]
00:36:31.567 --> 00:36:32.533
OKAY, HERE WE GO.
00:36:32.534 --> 00:36:34.499
LET\'S TAKE IT FROM THE TOP OF
00:36:34.500 --> 00:36:35.500
THE SONG.
00:36:35.501 --> 00:36:38.066
[all singing]
00:36:38.067 --> 00:36:39.099
WHY ARE YOU PUSHING ME?
00:36:39.100 --> 00:36:41.166
KEEP SINGING.
00:36:41.167 --> 00:36:41.833
OH.
00:36:41.833 --> 00:36:42.567
LISTEN UP.
00:36:42.568 --> 00:36:43.699
SHUT UP.
00:36:43.700 --> 00:36:44.932
LET\'S START FROM THE TOP.
00:36:44.933 --> 00:36:46.099
JUST GIVE IT YOUR FULL OUT
00:36:46.100 --> 00:36:49.199
SO WE CAN GO ON, OKAY?
00:36:49.200 --> 00:36:51.266
WELL, EVERYBODY, I\'M SORRY
00:36:51.267 --> 00:36:53.732
FOR THE WAY I WAS ACTING.
00:36:53.733 --> 00:36:54.467
AND THAT\'S IT.
00:36:54.468 --> 00:36:56.366
AND YOU QUIT?
00:36:56.367 --> 00:36:57.532
YOU QUIT?
00:36:57.533 --> 00:36:58.699
I GOT TO THINK ABOUT IT.
00:36:58.700 --> 00:37:01.199
THINK ABOUT IT?
00:37:01.200 --> 00:37:01.867
WHAT?
00:37:01.867 --> 00:37:02.800
[mutters]
00:37:02.801 --> 00:37:04.666
SHE... CAN SHE DO THAT?
00:37:04.667 --> 00:37:05.400
NO, SHE CAN\'T.
00:37:05.401 --> 00:37:06.799
SHE CAN\'T DO THAT, CAN SHE?
00:37:06.800 --> 00:37:07.899
WELL, SINCE TOYA QUIT,
00:37:07.900 --> 00:37:08.567
I QUIT TOO.
00:37:08.567 --> 00:37:09.500
NO, NO, NO, NO.
00:37:09.501 --> 00:37:11.899
CAN I TALK?
00:37:11.900 --> 00:37:14.199
MAY I TALK?
00:37:14.200 --> 00:37:15.899
WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER,
00:37:15.900 --> 00:37:17.666
ALL OF US.
00:37:17.667 --> 00:37:19.766
WE HAVE NO MORE TIME FOR...
00:37:19.767 --> 00:37:22.266
TO HEAR THE WORDS, \"I QUIT.\"
00:37:22.267 --> 00:37:23.999
THAT IS JUST...
00:37:24.000 --> 00:37:26.032
THAT IS SELFISH.
00:37:26.033 --> 00:37:28.632
IT\'S SELFISH,
00:37:28.633 --> 00:37:30.066
BECAUSE NOW IF YOU QUIT,
00:37:30.067 --> 00:37:31.699
YOU TAKE SOMETHING AWAY FROM
00:37:31.700 --> 00:37:32.899
EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THIS
00:37:32.900 --> 00:37:33.667
CIRCLE.
00:37:33.668 --> 00:37:35.132
LOOK AROUND AT THE PEOPLE IN
00:37:35.133 --> 00:37:36.699
THIS CIRCLE.
00:37:36.700 --> 00:37:37.799
THE PLAY IS FULL OF YOUR
00:37:37.800 --> 00:37:39.099
STORIES.
00:37:39.100 --> 00:37:40.132
AND YOUR STORY WILL HAVE A
00:37:40.133 --> 00:37:41.166
REALLY GREAT IMPACT ON OTHER
00:37:41.167 --> 00:37:42.299
PEOPLE.
00:37:42.300 --> 00:37:44.366
BUT WE CAN ONLY DO THIS
00:37:44.367 --> 00:37:46.832
IF WE ARE ALL TOGETHER.
00:37:46.833 --> 00:37:49.132
HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE IN?
00:37:49.133 --> 00:37:50.232
RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU\'RE
00:37:50.233 --> 00:37:52.666
STICKING WITH THIS?
00:37:52.667 --> 00:37:54.099
I\'M IN.
00:37:54.100 --> 00:37:55.299
ALL RIGHT, WE GOT IT?
00:37:55.300 --> 00:37:55.967
All: YEAH.
00:37:55.967 --> 00:37:56.833
OKAY.
00:37:56.834 --> 00:38:00.799
WE GONNA MAKE IT FO\' SHO\'
00:38:00.800 --> 00:38:04.367
[laughter]
00:38:13.067 --> 00:38:14.166
SHOT OF ANKLE BRACELET.
00:38:14.167 --> 00:38:15.499
THIS IS MY FRIEND MOLLY.
00:38:15.500 --> 00:38:16.167
HI.
00:38:16.167 --> 00:38:16.833
HI, HOW ARE YOU?
00:38:16.833 --> 00:38:17.500
FINE, HOW ARE YOU?
00:38:17.500 --> 00:38:18.167
FINE.
00:38:18.167 --> 00:38:19.067
NICE TO MEET YOU.
00:38:19.068 --> 00:38:20.766
HE\'S OUR DENTIST.
00:38:20.767 --> 00:38:21.533
AND THANKS FOR HELPING ME
00:38:21.533 --> 00:38:22.233
LOOK FOR THE GIRLS.
00:38:22.233 --> 00:38:22.900
OH, YOU\'RE WELCOME.
00:38:22.900 --> 00:38:23.833
\'CAUSE I\'M JUST NOW STARTING
00:38:23.833 --> 00:38:24.800
TO GIVE THEM, LIKE, A LITTLE BIT
00:38:24.800 --> 00:38:25.467
OF FREEDOM.
00:38:25.467 --> 00:38:26.133
RIGHT.
00:38:26.134 --> 00:38:28.799
HEY, THERE SHE IS, LAUREN.
00:38:28.800 --> 00:38:30.232
THESE ARE MY FRIENDS OVER HERE.
00:38:30.233 --> 00:38:32.499
THIS IS LAUREN.
00:38:32.500 --> 00:38:35.366
HI.
00:38:35.367 --> 00:38:36.133
THIS IS A DAY THAT GOD HAS
00:38:36.134 --> 00:38:37.166
ORDAINED.
00:38:37.167 --> 00:38:39.132
AND, UH... AND WE JUST LOOK SO
00:38:39.133 --> 00:38:41.566
FORWARD TO THE YEARS COMING
00:38:41.567 --> 00:38:42.666
AHEAD OF US.
00:38:42.667 --> 00:38:43.866
SO AMEN.
00:38:43.867 --> 00:38:46.199
All: AMEN.
00:38:46.200 --> 00:38:46.867
ALL RIGHT.
00:38:46.868 --> 00:38:48.532
IT\'S BEEN NICE.
00:38:48.533 --> 00:38:50.732
BUT IT\'S LIKE... I DON\'T KNOW.
00:38:50.733 --> 00:38:51.766
IT\'S HARD ALSO, \'CAUSE THEY,
00:38:51.767 --> 00:38:54.166
LIKE... THEY\'RE, LIKE, SO PERFECT,
00:38:54.167 --> 00:38:55.599
AND THEY JUST DON\'T UNDERSTAND
00:38:55.600 --> 00:38:57.032
WHERE I BEEN THROUGH OR...
00:38:57.033 --> 00:38:58.599
I MEAN, THEY WANT TO UNDERSTAND,
00:38:58.600 --> 00:38:59.899
AND THEY DON\'T.
00:38:59.900 --> 00:39:00.966
AND THEY... LIKE, THEY\'RE TRIPPING
00:39:00.967 --> 00:39:01.999
OVER, LIKE, ME TALKING TO MY OLD
00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:02.933
FRIENDS.
00:39:02.934 --> 00:39:04.432
AND, YOU KNOW, THEY JUST WANT ME
00:39:04.433 --> 00:39:05.200
TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING IN THE
00:39:05.201 --> 00:39:06.499
PAST AND JUST, YOU KNOW, COME
00:39:06.500 --> 00:39:09.132
INTO THIS LITTLE FAMILY AND...
00:39:09.133 --> 00:39:09.967
[sighs]
00:39:09.968 --> 00:39:11.899
I MEAN, I... IT\'S NICE, YOU KNOW,
00:39:11.900 --> 00:39:14.332
BUT IT\'S NOT ME.
00:39:14.333 --> 00:39:15.632
AND I THOUGHT, LIKE, WHEN I WAS
00:39:15.633 --> 00:39:17.099
LOCKED UP THAT, WELL, YOU KNOW,
00:39:17.100 --> 00:39:18.067
YEAH, I\'M GONNA GO AND DO THIS,
00:39:18.068 --> 00:39:19.366
BUT I THINK THAT\'S JUST \'CAUSE I
00:39:19.367 --> 00:39:20.100
WAS LOCKED UP.
00:39:20.100 --> 00:39:21.033
AND NOW THAT I\'M HERE,
00:39:21.033 --> 00:39:21.833
I\'M JUST LIKE...
00:39:21.833 --> 00:39:22.633
[sighs]
00:39:22.633 --> 00:39:23.467
WELL, MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE WENT
00:39:23.468 --> 00:39:26.332
TO PLACEMENT, BUT I\'M JUST GONNA
00:39:26.333 --> 00:39:27.632
FAKE IT FOR A LITTLE...
00:39:27.633 --> 00:39:28.866
I MEAN, I\'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT.
00:39:28.867 --> 00:39:30.766
BUT, YOU KNOW, LEARN HOW TO BE
00:39:30.767 --> 00:39:32.866
MYSELF AROUND THEM, YOU KNOW,
00:39:32.867 --> 00:39:34.599
OR I DON\'T KNOW WHAT.
00:39:34.600 --> 00:39:39.066
BUT IT\'S DIFFERENT.
00:39:39.067 --> 00:39:39.733
MAMA
00:39:39.734 --> 00:39:41.166
I\'M STILL MISSING YOU
00:39:41.167 --> 00:39:42.966
HUGGING AND KISSING YOU
00:39:42.967 --> 00:39:44.899
WISHING YOU WAS HERE WITH ME
00:39:44.900 --> 00:39:46.732
LOVING YOU FOR ETERNITY
00:39:46.733 --> 00:39:47.400
MAMA
00:39:47.401 --> 00:39:48.666
YOU\'RE MY SHINING STAR
00:39:48.667 --> 00:39:50.399
UP IN THE SKY ABOVE
00:39:50.400 --> 00:39:51.766
LOOKING DOWN ON ME
00:39:51.767 --> 00:39:56.699
FOREVER GIVING ME LOVE
00:39:56.700 --> 00:39:57.633
I THINK THE SHOW IS COMING
00:39:57.634 --> 00:39:58.732
ALONG REALLY WELL.
00:39:58.733 --> 00:40:00.332
AND YOU KNOW WHAT A HUGE RELIEF
00:40:00.333 --> 00:40:01.233
THAT IS OFF OF ME?
00:40:01.234 --> 00:40:02.366
GUESS WHO\'S ON THE RUN?
00:40:02.367 --> 00:40:03.067
WHO?
00:40:03.068 --> 00:40:04.666
CHRISTINA P.
00:40:04.667 --> 00:40:05.333
YOU KNOW WHAT?
00:40:05.333 --> 00:40:06.233
I WAS THINKING ABOUT HER TODAY,
00:40:06.234 --> 00:40:07.966
\'CAUSE I WANTED HER
00:40:07.967 --> 00:40:09.632
TO COME TO THE SHOW.
00:40:09.633 --> 00:40:10.633
BUT SHE\'S RUN AGAIN?
00:40:10.634 --> 00:40:11.832
SHE\'LL BE BACK IN A MINUTE,
00:40:11.833 --> 00:40:12.966
THEN.
00:40:12.967 --> 00:40:14.199
WHEN I FIRST FOUND THAT OUT,
00:40:14.200 --> 00:40:15.332
LIKE, ALL OF THE GIRLS AT
00:40:15.333 --> 00:40:16.466
WARRENVILLE, WE WERE VERY
00:40:16.467 --> 00:40:19.432
DISAPPOINTED, BECAUSE THAT HAD
00:40:19.433 --> 00:40:22.232
SEEMED REALLY HOPEFUL FOR
00:40:22.233 --> 00:40:23.466
CHRISTINA.
00:40:23.467 --> 00:40:24.300
BUT, YOU KNOW, THESE GIRLS ARE
00:40:24.301 --> 00:40:25.999
YOUNG, AND THEY\'VE COME FROM
00:40:26.000 --> 00:40:28.466
REALLY, YOU KNOW, TROUBLED
00:40:28.467 --> 00:40:29.899
BACKGROUNDS AND EXISTENCES.
00:40:29.900 --> 00:40:33.032
AND I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW,
00:40:33.033 --> 00:40:34.266
THEY\'RE TOO YOUNG TO HAVE AN END
00:40:34.267 --> 00:40:36.299
TO THEIR STORY.
00:40:36.300 --> 00:40:37.267
THEY THINK, YOU KNOW, WE\'RE
00:40:37.268 --> 00:40:39.399
THEIR... IT\'S A PASSAGE.
00:40:39.400 --> 00:40:40.333
IT\'S A RITE OF PASSAGE TO GET
00:40:40.334 --> 00:40:42.132
OUT OF WARRENVILLE AND TO FIND
00:40:42.133 --> 00:40:42.967
THE WAY.
00:40:42.967 --> 00:40:43.700
AND IT\'S NOT EASY TO FIND
00:40:43.701 --> 00:40:45.932
THE WAY.
00:40:45.933 --> 00:40:47.266
THAT\'S HER FAULT.
00:40:47.267 --> 00:40:48.167
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:40:48.168 --> 00:40:49.532
IF CAN\'T NOBODY LOVE YOU,
00:40:49.533 --> 00:40:50.566
YOU NEED TO START LOVING
00:40:50.567 --> 00:40:51.367
YOURSELF.
00:40:51.368 --> 00:40:52.999
AND RUNNING FROM DIFFERENT TYPE
00:40:53.000 --> 00:40:54.832
OF PLACEMENTS THEY PUT YOU IN,
00:40:54.833 --> 00:40:56.299
THAT\'S NOT... THAT\'S NOT GONNA
00:40:56.300 --> 00:40:57.532
DO NOTHING FOR YOU BUT PUT YOU
00:40:57.533 --> 00:40:59.832
IN A WORSE PREDICAMENT WHERE YOU
00:40:59.833 --> 00:41:01.232
DON\'T WANT TO BE.
00:41:01.233 --> 00:41:03.899
SHE BETTER START GROWING UP.
00:41:03.900 --> 00:41:04.600
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYING?
00:41:04.601 --> 00:41:06.232
SHE 17, 18 YEARS OLD.
00:41:06.233 --> 00:41:10.033
COME ON, MAN, GET OFF THAT.
00:41:16.367 --> 00:41:17.699
MS. P., I DON\'T HAVE FUN.
00:41:17.700 --> 00:41:18.766
SO LAST THREE TIMES I\'VE BEEN
00:41:18.767 --> 00:41:19.932
TRYING TO HAVE FUN, PUT ASIDE
00:41:19.933 --> 00:41:21.066
MY HEADACHE, PUT ASIDE ALL MY
00:41:21.067 --> 00:41:21.767
WORRIES, AND JUST DO WHAT
00:41:21.767 --> 00:41:22.633
I GOT TO DO.
00:41:22.633 --> 00:41:23.433
AND YOU DID REALLY, REALLY
00:41:23.433 --> 00:41:24.100
WELL.
00:41:24.100 --> 00:41:24.867
NOW THIS JUST MADE ME MAD.
00:41:24.867 --> 00:41:25.767
AIN\'T NO WAY I\'M GOING IN THERE
00:41:25.767 --> 00:41:26.433
AND BE HAPPY.
00:41:26.433 --> 00:41:27.133
I DON\'T EVEN WANT TO GO IN
00:41:27.134 --> 00:41:29.600
THERE.
00:41:32.733 --> 00:41:33.467
I DON\'T CARE, MS. P.
00:41:33.467 --> 00:41:34.167
I REALLY DON\'T WANT TO BE
00:41:34.167 --> 00:41:34.833
IN IT NO MORE.
00:41:34.833 --> 00:41:35.633
TELL ME ABOUT IT.
00:41:35.633 --> 00:41:36.467
LET\'S GO.
00:41:36.467 --> 00:41:37.133
COME ON.
00:41:37.134 --> 00:41:38.332
[chuckles]
00:41:38.333 --> 00:41:40.866
FOR REAL, COME ON, LYNETTE.
00:41:40.867 --> 00:41:41.533
COME ON, COME ON.
00:41:41.533 --> 00:41:42.267
I DON\'T WANT TO GO DOWN
00:41:42.267 --> 00:41:42.933
THERE.
00:41:42.933 --> 00:41:43.667
WELL, WHEN YOU COME DOWN
00:41:43.667 --> 00:41:44.567
THERE, WE GONNA TALK, OKAY?
00:41:44.567 --> 00:41:45.233
ALL RIGHT.
00:41:45.234 --> 00:41:47.732
CHEER UP, SON.
00:41:47.733 --> 00:41:48.766
DO YOU WANT TO BE A DAUGHTER
00:41:48.767 --> 00:41:51.832
OR A SON?
00:41:51.833 --> 00:41:54.032
[laughs] OKAY.
00:41:54.033 --> 00:41:55.699
SHE JUST GAVE ME THIS.
00:41:55.700 --> 00:41:57.266
OKAY, EVERYBODY\'S FOCUS
00:41:57.267 --> 00:42:00.332
SHOULD BE ON MERCEDES NOW.
00:42:00.333 --> 00:42:01.899
LAQUETTA, IT\'S THE FIRST TIME
00:42:01.900 --> 00:42:03.432
YOU\'VE EVER TOLD ANYBODY, OKAY?
00:42:03.433 --> 00:42:04.799
SO IT\'S MORE IMPORTANT.
00:42:04.800 --> 00:42:06.366
LET\'S JUST TRY THAT.
00:42:06.367 --> 00:42:07.200
\"WHAT ARE YOU DOING OUT OF
00:42:07.201 --> 00:42:08.332
YOUR ROOM?\"
00:42:08.333 --> 00:42:09.499
\"I\'M RUNNING AWAY.
00:42:09.500 --> 00:42:11.166
HERE I GO.\"
00:42:11.167 --> 00:42:11.900
\"GO BACK TO YOUR ROOM,
00:42:11.900 --> 00:42:12.900
MERCEDES.\"
00:42:12.900 --> 00:42:13.667
\"I DON\'T WANT TO GO BACK IN
00:42:13.667 --> 00:42:14.333
THERE.
00:42:14.333 --> 00:42:15.133
I DON\'T EVER WANT TO GO BACK IN
00:42:15.133 --> 00:42:16.000
THERE.\"
00:42:16.001 --> 00:42:17.632
\"I AM ANGRY, MR. WHITE.
00:42:17.633 --> 00:42:19.232
I AM SO ANGRY.
00:42:19.233 --> 00:42:21.232
EVERY DAY I WAKE UP ANGRY.
00:42:21.233 --> 00:42:22.499
EVERY CELL IN MY BODY IS
00:42:22.500 --> 00:42:24.266
TREMBLING WITH RAGE.
00:42:24.267 --> 00:42:25.532
BUT I HOLD IT IN.
00:42:25.533 --> 00:42:27.032
I SQUEEZE IT TIGHT SO NO ONE CAN
00:42:27.033 --> 00:42:29.366
SEE IT, HOPING, THINKING THAT IF
00:42:29.367 --> 00:42:31.599
I JUST STUFF UP ALL THIS RAGE,
00:42:31.600 --> 00:42:32.832
THEN SOMEDAY SOMEONE WILL LET
00:42:32.833 --> 00:42:33.999
ME UP OUT OF HERE.
00:42:34.000 --> 00:42:35.032
BUT NO ONE ASKS ME WHO I AM
00:42:35.033 --> 00:42:36.532
OR HOW I FEEL.
00:42:36.533 --> 00:42:40.299
AND SO I CAN\'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.\"
00:42:40.300 --> 00:42:43.899
I HAD A \"ANGER PROBLEM\"
00:42:43.900 --> 00:42:48.432
BECAUSE MAYBE MY LIFE AFFECTED
00:42:48.433 --> 00:42:51.932
ME MORE THAN I THOUGHT IT DID.
00:42:51.933 --> 00:42:56.732
SO I GUESS AT THE WRONG TIME,
00:42:56.733 --> 00:43:00.266
WRONG PLACE...
00:43:00.267 --> 00:43:04.533
AND NOW I\'M HERE.
00:43:07.733 --> 00:43:09.132
I HAD THIS THING WHERE,
00:43:09.133 --> 00:43:10.799
\"YOU GONNA GIVE ME RESPECT.
00:43:10.800 --> 00:43:12.966
YOU GONNA GIVE ME MY RESPECT.\"
00:43:12.967 --> 00:43:14.266
BUT WHEN YOU COME ACROSS PEOPLE
00:43:14.267 --> 00:43:16.632
WHO DISRESPECT YOU,
00:43:16.633 --> 00:43:19.499
I GUESS I LOST IT.
00:43:19.500 --> 00:43:21.732
THIS LADY COME TO THE HOUSE
00:43:21.733 --> 00:43:26.699
SAYING THAT YOUR DAUGHTER
00:43:26.700 --> 00:43:28.166
JUMPED ON THIS MAN,
00:43:28.167 --> 00:43:31.332
58, 59, 60-SOME YEARS OLD,
00:43:31.333 --> 00:43:32.866
AND THAT SHE HURT HIM REAL BAD,
00:43:32.867 --> 00:43:34.066
AND HE IN THE HOSPITAL,
00:43:34.067 --> 00:43:34.900
AND THEY DON\'T THINK HE GONNA
00:43:34.901 --> 00:43:36.832
MAKE IT.
00:43:36.833 --> 00:43:39.866
NO, NOT MY GIRL, NOT HER.
00:43:39.867 --> 00:43:40.833
I DIDN\'T TELL NOBODY
00:43:40.833 --> 00:43:41.667
I DID IT.
00:43:41.668 --> 00:43:43.766
BUT I USED TO CHECK UP ON HIM.
00:43:43.767 --> 00:43:45.466
ONE DAY, I WAS ON MY WAY BACK TO
00:43:45.467 --> 00:43:47.299
MY HOUSE; POLICE IS THERE,
00:43:47.300 --> 00:43:48.632
AMBULANCE, ALL OUT THERE
00:43:48.633 --> 00:43:49.367
AND [...].
00:43:49.368 --> 00:43:50.766
SO I\'M LIKE, [...].
00:43:50.767 --> 00:43:51.500
I KNOW THEY FIXIN\' TO BE
00:43:51.500 --> 00:43:52.367
LOOKING FOR ME.
00:43:52.368 --> 00:43:53.466
THEN THEY TOOK ME DOWN
00:43:53.467 --> 00:43:54.467
AND CUFFED ME UP.
00:43:54.468 --> 00:43:55.866
ME AND MY DADDY JUST SITTING
00:43:55.867 --> 00:43:57.099
IN SILENCE, WAITING ON THE
00:43:57.100 --> 00:43:58.566
DETECTIVES TO COME GET ME
00:43:58.567 --> 00:43:59.567
TO TAKE ME BACK.
00:43:59.568 --> 00:44:00.799
MY DADDY WAS LIKE, \"MAN,
00:44:00.800 --> 00:44:01.800
DID YOU DO THAT?\"
00:44:01.801 --> 00:44:03.432
AND I\'M LIKE, \"WHY?
00:44:03.433 --> 00:44:04.167
WHY IS YOU TALKING ABOUT?\"
00:44:04.168 --> 00:44:06.999
HE LIKE, \"DUDE DIED.\"
00:44:07.000 --> 00:44:08.432
AND SHE FINALLY JUST BROKE
00:44:08.433 --> 00:44:12.332
DOWN AND...
00:44:12.333 --> 00:44:14.066
AND TOLD ME, YOU KNOW?
00:44:14.067 --> 00:44:15.899
SHE WAS ANGRY ABOUT SOMETHING.
00:44:15.900 --> 00:44:17.266
THIS GUY WAS CALLING HER...
00:44:17.267 --> 00:44:19.532
OUT HER NAME, CALLING HER BITCH.
00:44:19.533 --> 00:44:21.766
SO SHE TOOK SOME KIND OF IRON
00:44:21.767 --> 00:44:24.099
FIRE HYDRANT CAP, AND SHE
00:44:24.100 --> 00:44:27.099
TOOK HER ANGER OUT ON HIM,
00:44:27.100 --> 00:44:29.266
HIT HIM MULTIPLE TIMES.
00:44:29.267 --> 00:44:30.100
AND AS A RESULT OF THAT,
00:44:30.101 --> 00:44:32.999
HE PASSED AWAY.
00:44:33.000 --> 00:44:35.099
SHE TOLD ME SHE DID THAT, MAN;
00:44:35.100 --> 00:44:37.132
I JUST SAID, \"YOU COULDN\'T EVEN
00:44:37.133 --> 00:44:38.299
BE THE...\"
00:44:38.300 --> 00:44:40.366
SHE COULDN\'T EVEN, UH...
00:44:40.367 --> 00:44:41.333
SHE COULDN\'T... SHE COULDN\'T...
00:44:41.334 --> 00:44:42.666
SHE COULDN\'T... SHE COULDN\'T...
00:44:42.667 --> 00:44:44.032
SHE COULDN\'T JUST GO AROUND
00:44:44.033 --> 00:44:45.499
THINKING THAT THAT WAS GOOD,
00:44:45.500 --> 00:44:47.499
THAT WAS OKAY.
00:44:47.500 --> 00:44:52.466
SO SHE TOLD ME, AND I TOLD THEM,
00:44:52.467 --> 00:44:55.299
\"YEAH, SHE DID IT.\"
00:44:55.300 --> 00:44:56.866
I REGRET WHAT I DID.
00:44:56.867 --> 00:44:58.266
I REGRETTED RIGHT AFTER
00:44:58.267 --> 00:44:59.067
I DID IT.
00:44:59.068 --> 00:45:00.399
I CRIED DAMN NEAR EVERY DAY,
00:45:00.400 --> 00:45:01.200
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYIN\',
00:45:01.201 --> 00:45:03.732
PRAYING ABOUT IT.
00:45:03.733 --> 00:45:04.567
YEAH, I WAS THE ONE
00:45:04.567 --> 00:45:05.267
PUT HER THERE.
00:45:05.268 --> 00:45:06.532
AND THAT\'S WHY I SAY IT\'S MORE
00:45:06.533 --> 00:45:08.899
MY FAULT THAN ANYTHING.
00:45:08.900 --> 00:45:10.199
THERE WASN\'T NO TAKING NONE
00:45:10.200 --> 00:45:12.732
OF THIS STUFF BACK.
00:45:12.733 --> 00:45:14.733
I HATE THAT.
00:45:20.100 --> 00:45:21.100
[lively piano music]
00:45:28.000 --> 00:45:31.367
SHH.
00:45:37.667 --> 00:45:42.100
[all singing]
00:45:50.100 --> 00:45:52.967
ALL RIGHT.
00:45:55.533 --> 00:45:58.033
COME ON.
00:46:08.267 --> 00:46:09.499
THEN YOU SHOW THEM
00:46:09.500 --> 00:46:10.333
DIFFERENT.
00:46:10.334 --> 00:46:13.366
I REFUSE... I REFUSE TO LET,
00:46:13.367 --> 00:46:14.300
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYIN\',
00:46:14.300 --> 00:46:15.200
SOMEBODY TELL ME I AIN\'T GONNA
00:46:15.201 --> 00:46:16.532
BE [bleep].
00:46:16.533 --> 00:46:18.599
[group singing]
00:46:18.600 --> 00:46:22.132
IT\'S GONNA BE OKAY.
00:46:22.133 --> 00:46:24.333
[group singing and clapping]
00:46:35.200 --> 00:46:36.466
MY HEART BEATING.
00:46:36.467 --> 00:46:37.200
MY STOMACH HURT.
00:46:37.201 --> 00:46:40.432
MY HEART BEATING.
00:46:40.433 --> 00:46:43.433
[laughter and clapping]
00:46:48.933 --> 00:46:50.599
MY DADDY
00:46:50.600 --> 00:46:52.366
HER DADDY
00:46:52.367 --> 00:46:54.099
HER GREAT-GREAT GRAND-MAMMY
00:46:54.100 --> 00:46:55.232
HER DADDY
00:46:55.233 --> 00:46:56.033
YOU SEE HER?
00:46:56.033 --> 00:46:56.800
I THOUGHT SHE WAS COMING
00:46:56.800 --> 00:46:57.767
TOMORROW.
00:46:57.768 --> 00:47:01.332
NO, MY MOM IS RIGHT THERE.
00:47:01.333 --> 00:47:02.632
SHH, THEY COMING
00:47:02.633 --> 00:47:04.532
SHH, SHH, THEY COMING
00:47:04.533 --> 00:47:05.866
SHH, SHH, THEY COMING
00:47:05.867 --> 00:47:07.466
SHH, SHH THEY COMING
00:47:07.467 --> 00:47:08.566
SHH, SHH THEY COMING
00:47:08.567 --> 00:47:09.300
AIN\'T NOBODY
00:47:09.300 --> 00:47:10.000
COMIN\' FOR ME
00:47:10.000 --> 00:47:10.667
I DON\'T CARE
00:47:10.667 --> 00:47:11.600
\'CAUSE I\'M GONNA DO ME
00:47:11.600 --> 00:47:12.300
STILL GONNA SHINE
00:47:12.300 --> 00:47:13.067
REGARDLESS OF
00:47:13.068 --> 00:47:15.100
WHO\'S OUT THERE
00:47:18.633 --> 00:47:20.066
EVERYBODY, BOW YOUR HEADS.
00:47:20.067 --> 00:47:21.332
LORD, AS WE COME TOGETHER,
00:47:21.333 --> 00:47:22.799
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR ALL THE
00:47:22.800 --> 00:47:24.032
STAFF THAT COME AND HAVE THE
00:47:24.033 --> 00:47:25.366
PATIENCE TO WORK HARD FOR US
00:47:25.367 --> 00:47:26.499
TO PUT THIS TOGETHER.
00:47:26.500 --> 00:47:27.999
ALTHOUGH WE STRUGGLE AND WE
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:29.332
ARGUE AND WE FIGHT...
00:47:29.333 --> 00:47:30.000
AMEN.
00:47:30.001 --> 00:47:31.266
I WANT TO PRAY THAT WE ALL
00:47:31.267 --> 00:47:33.066
JUST GET UP THERE AND DO OUR
00:47:33.067 --> 00:47:34.266
BEST TODAY AND JUST HAVE FUN
00:47:34.267 --> 00:47:35.067
WITH IT.
00:47:35.067 --> 00:47:35.867
AMEN.
00:47:35.868 --> 00:47:37.166
IN JESUS\' NAME, I PRAY.
00:47:37.167 --> 00:47:38.100
AMEN.
00:47:38.100 --> 00:47:39.100
All: ONE, TWO, THREE.
00:47:39.101 --> 00:47:41.132
FABULOUS FEMALES!
00:47:41.133 --> 00:47:42.266
WHOO!
00:47:42.267 --> 00:47:46.766
Y\'ALL ARE LINING UP. GO.
00:47:46.767 --> 00:47:48.699
GOTTA BREATHE.
00:47:48.700 --> 00:47:49.767
[tense music]
00:47:58.867 --> 00:47:59.899
[feet stomping]
00:47:59.900 --> 00:48:04.000
[drumsticks clicking]
00:48:07.333 --> 00:48:09.466
[hip-hop music]
00:48:09.467 --> 00:48:14.467
[rapping]
00:48:50.833 --> 00:48:53.532
ON THESE STREETS
00:48:53.533 --> 00:48:55.566
ON THESE STREETS
00:48:55.567 --> 00:49:00.166
[applause]
00:49:00.167 --> 00:49:01.299
[laughter]
00:49:01.300 --> 00:49:04.100
WE DID GOOD.
00:49:07.767 --> 00:49:08.767
I\'M THROUGH.
00:49:08.768 --> 00:49:11.232
I\'M THROUGH.
00:49:11.233 --> 00:49:13.232
I TOLD MY DAD HE\'S GONNA BE MAD
00:49:13.233 --> 00:49:14.632
FROM WHAT I HAD WROTE.
00:49:14.633 --> 00:49:15.333
AND I WAS LIKE,
00:49:15.334 --> 00:49:16.366
\"DON\'T BE UPSET.
00:49:16.367 --> 00:49:17.599
JUST COOL OUT.\"
00:49:17.600 --> 00:49:18.766
YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYIN\'?
00:49:18.767 --> 00:49:20.466
OH, MAN, I DON\'T EVEN WANT
00:49:20.467 --> 00:49:21.200
TO DO IT.
00:49:21.201 --> 00:49:22.232
I DON\'T WANT TO DO IT.
00:49:22.233 --> 00:49:23.266
BUT THEN I JUST... LIKE,
00:49:23.267 --> 00:49:26.066
IT\'S TOO LATE TO TURN BACK NOW.
00:49:26.067 --> 00:49:27.666
BROKEN
00:49:27.667 --> 00:49:30.299
WHICH MANY OF US ARE
00:49:30.300 --> 00:49:31.632
WHAT DO YOU LEARN
00:49:31.633 --> 00:49:34.132
FROM A BROKEN HEART?
00:49:34.133 --> 00:49:35.799
BROKEN EMOTIONS
00:49:35.800 --> 00:49:38.066
A BROKEN HOME
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A BROKEN CHILDHOOD
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ALL ALONE
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YOU A INDIAN GIVER, MAN.
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YOU GIVE ME MONEY.
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YOU TAKE IT BACK.
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THAT AIN\'T COOL.
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\"YOU GIVE ME LOVE.
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YOU TAKE IT BACK.
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THAT AIN\'T COOL EITHER.
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YOU WAS MY LIFE,
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MY SMILE.
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NOW ALL I DO IS THINK,
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WHAT IF YOU WERE
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A DIFFERENT MAN?
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YOU COULD\'VE ACCOMPLISHED
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MANY THINGS THROUGHOUT
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THESE YEARS.
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BUT YET AND STILL,
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YOU LOVED THAT PIPE FIRST.
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YOU LOVED YOUR BROAD
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THE SAME AS THAT
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BUT NEVER SHOWED ME LOVE AT ALL.
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BROKEN.
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OCCASIONAL HUGS,
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OCCASIONAL KISSES
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THAT I NEVER WANTED.
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WHAT FOR?
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I WAS HUNGRY,
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HUNGRY FOR FOOD,
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HUNGRY FOR YOUR ATTENTION,
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BUT TOO STUBBORN TO ASK FOR YOU.
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BUT I\'M OLDER NOW.
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AND I REALIZE YOU HURT ME.
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BUT I\'VE LEARNED MORE
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THAN YOU KNOW.
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I\'VE LEARNED TO BE STRONG
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FOR ME AND YOU AND HOLD FAITH
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THAT ONE DAY THINGS WILL GET
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BETTER.
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IF NOT, I STILL LOVE YOU.
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Both: BROKEN.
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[applause]
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OKAY, I HAVE BEEN THROUGH
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SO MANY FOSTER HOMES, AND I\'VE
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RUN AWAY FROM EVERY ONE OF THEM
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BUT NOT TO GO OFF AND DO
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SOMETHING BAD.
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I RUN AWAY BECAUSE...
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CHRISTINA, OKAY,
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THIS IS YOUR STORY.
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TELL IT TO US.
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OKAY.
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I COULD GET CAUGHT BY
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THE POLICE AND GET LOCKED UP.
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FOR RUNNING AWAY?
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SO RUNNING AWAY
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WAS THE BIG CRIME.
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YEAH, JUST FOR RUNNING AWAY.
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I RUN AWAY BECAUSE I\'M
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LOOKING FOR MY MOM.
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I WOULD BE WORRIED ABOUT HER,
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WORRIED SICK, SO I WOULD RUN
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AWAY TO GO SEE HER.
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I WOULD BE WITH HER.
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YOU KNOW, EVEN THOUGH SHE WAS
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USING, BUT I STILL KNOW THAT
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SHE\'S OKAY AND THAT SHE\'S RIGHT
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THERE WITH ME.
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I CAN\'T LEAVE HER OUT THERE
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IN THE WORLD ALL ALONE.
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AND I CAN\'T BE MYSELF
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WITHOUT HER.
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AND SO I FIND HER.
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AND, YES, SHE USES RIGHT
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IN FRONT OF ME.
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AND WE END UP STAYING...
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MOVING INTO A CRACK HOUSE.
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EVEN THOUGH ALL THE CRAZY THINGS
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THAT WE DID IN OUR LIFE,
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LIKE, HOW MUCH WE\'VE RUINED
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EACH OTHER\'S LIFE, WE\'RE STILL
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HERE, YOU KNOW.
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AND I WILL NEVER LET GO
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OF MY MOM, EVER.
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MY MOM\'S LIKE THE OTHER HALF
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OF ME.
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MY CRIME IS WANTING MY MOM
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AND NOT BEING ABLE
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TO LET HER GO.
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I DON\'T TELL PEOPLE MY STORY
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JUST FOR THEM TO PITY ME.
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IT\'S MORE OF HELPING ME
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GET IT OFF MY CHEST.
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[singing]
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IT TAKE A LOT TO BE OPEN,
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YOU KNOW?
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AND I\'VE BEEN CLOSED FOR
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A LONG TIME, SO, YOU KNOW WHAT
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I\'M SAYIN\', WHEN YOU FINALLY
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GET SOMETHING OUT, IT HURTS.
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USUALLY, I JUST TRY TO PUT STUFF
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IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD, BUT
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EVENTUALLY, IT COMES OUT.
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AND HOPEFULLY I CAN GET TO
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WHERE, YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYIN\',
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IT WON\'T HURT LIKE THAT NO MORE,
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LIKE I\'LL JUST DEAL WITH IT,
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YOU KNOW?
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YEAH, PEOPLE CHANGE.
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YEAH, I FEEL PEOPLE CAN CHANGE.
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WHY SHOULDN\'T THEY?
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WHY COULDN\'T THEY?
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YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYIN\'?
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OH, COME ON.
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IT\'S NOT ABOUT SHINING,
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BUT I WANT TO DO... I WANT TO
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SHOW PEOPLE THAT I CAN BE BETTER
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THAN WHAT I HAVE BEEN.
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YOU KNOW WHAT I\'M SAYIN\'?
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YEAH, PEOPLE CHANGE.
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DID I? YEAH.
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YEAH, YEAH.
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YEAH.
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YEAH.
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LET THEIR VOICE FLY
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LET THEIR VOICE FLY
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LET THEIR VOICE FLY
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[cheers and applause]
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YOU\'RE GONNA MAKE ME CRY.
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I AIN\'T GONNA BE
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IN NO SPOTLIGHT.
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OH, MY GOD, YOU WERE SO GOOD.
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NOW SHE\'S TALKING.
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NOW SHE\'S TALKING.
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FABULOUS.
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Both: FABULOUS.
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FABULOUS FEMALES.
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All: ONE, TWO, THREE,
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FABULOUS FEMALES!
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[applause]
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I WANTED TO THANK MY DADDY,
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MY COUSIN RICHARD,
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AND MY GRANDMA
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FOR BEING HERE.
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THANK Y\'ALL.
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AND HOPEFULLY SOMEBODY
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UP HERE CAN INSPIRE Y\'ALL
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LIKE I WAS INSPIRED.
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THANK YOU.
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NONE OF THIS TO PITY
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YOURSELF
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THIS IS JUST A STORY
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STORY
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THAT YOU HAVE TO TELL
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LIFE IS LIKE
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STRUGGLE AND STRUGGLE
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PAIN IS PAIN
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Distributor: Sincerely Films
Length: 61 minutes
Date: 2009
Genre: Expository
Language: English
Grade: Grade 7 and up (Some harsh language/descriptions of drug use and violence)
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