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I was just so very self-indulgent
At that time I couldn\'t

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see I couldn\'t see any place
for me in the world I

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couldn\'t see anybody that I want to be with
Mike ever and I looked around me and like

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not even just things that related to me

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but in the newspapers and everything
it was just like why would I

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want keep being here
there\'s absolutely nothing

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good about this like I would look
at everything in the paper and then

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I\'d look at my life and I just kind of

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go there\'s nothing good outside of
me there\'s nothing good inside of

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me there\'s no future for me in this world
and that was a very very that was one of

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the the most just deafening
thoughts I had Just completely

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debilitating because it just froze me in

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my tracks there was no feature what
to somebody without a future do

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as just real lacking self-confidence and
then that would contribute to a lack

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of motivation or my program

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and it was basically a cycle where One
bad feeling would lead to another

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when I\'m depressed it\'s
like being in a tunnel.

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Where you\'re stuck or are like

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a big well where you can go deep when you
really depress you and go deeper and

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deeper and you look up to him consider life

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but when you\'re depressed there\'s
no ladder thirst no way you can

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get out you\'re just you\'re so far down

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there It\'s like you\'re in a
box and you can\'t get out and

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like you just like there\'s
no way out no doors no-one

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knows he can\'t look what you
can\'t see it and the worst part

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is trying to find all these different ways

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trying to get out whether
it\'s smoking cracker.

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Doing coke. Trying to kill yourself
it\'s the worst feeling just not being

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able to help yourself but you can\'t help
yourself and you don\'t know what\'s wrong.

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I\'d get really really big kind of

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panic attacks wherein I would just kinda sit
in my closet and kind of go like kind of

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think to myself over and over again
that I was going insane That the world

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was like all completely foreign
nobody actually like nobody else

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in the world can possibly
feel this like this is

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just something that for some bizarre
reason I\'d been afflicted with and

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that I was just going completely
nuts and wanted to paint go

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away I wanted the numbness
go away I wanted something

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that helped me I don\'t know how to
do it only got so bad I just wanted

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to make go away and you want to close off you
want to kill yourself just to make it stop.

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Basically had no sense of self

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worth to me like it didn\'t
really matter if I die or live

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A common misunderstanding about

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the teenage years is that many
people think that teenagers.

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Can\'t have true clinical
depressions they think

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that being depressed is just a
normal part of being a teenager.

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You know talk about teenage blues and

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adolescent turmoil Many people just

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think that that\'s a right of
passage of being a teenager.

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Now it is true that a
certain amount of moon

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venus and rebellious snus is
part of being a teenager.

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But most people don\'t realize that
eight to 10% of teenagers suffers from

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a true clinical depression

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depression

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is a disorder mood that affect many people
cuts across all classes races gender.

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It\'s been with us for many many
years since biblical times And

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it\'s specific in that it really
causes what we call functional

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impairment in other words it\'s
different than the normal ups

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and downs of everyday because
it interferes with someone

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getting on with their daily life and
human you do end up coming alive

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for no reason and then I
stopped crying because such

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system text nothing there
there\'s there\'s a numbness.

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You don\'t feel sad.

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You don\'t feel happy you
feel angry you just feel

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I\'d say that it\'s a minority of

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teenagers who will tell me that
they know they\'re depressed.

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That they feel sad and down and
they think they\'re depressed.

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I\'d say that the majority
of cases they know

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something is wrong but they don\'t
know that it\'s a depression

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and in fact they don\'t
describe feeling sad or down

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instead they find themselves
irritable short-tempered

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argumentative they may not
even feel those kinds of

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feelings but instead they might just notice
that they don\'t care about anything anymore.

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Nothing And to them they don\'t feel like

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doing anything they\'re extremely
tired they\'re just blowing

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off all their responsibilities
and they don\'t know

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why clinical depression is
more than just sadness.

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It\'s sadness or irritability that
last at least two weeks but is also

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accompanied by a number of other symptoms and
the communist ones are changes in sleep.

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Either too much sleep with too little.

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So you can see both insomnia or sleeping
more than usual there also can be

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appetite changes either eating
too much or not eating so there

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can be weight loss or weight
gain changes in energy level.

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Usually down Fatigue lethargy loss
of energy feeling incredibly tired

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no motivation and a lot of
difficulty concentrating

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so you can see how all these symptoms with
certainly interfere with school functioning.

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Low self-esteem guilt
worthlessness so getting

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down on oneself and blaming
oneself for reasons that really

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have nothing to do with reality and in

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the worst scenarios you have lot of

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suicidal thoughts thoughts of
death thoughts of wanting to

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hurt yourself And from for

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some teenagers thoughts of truly
wanting to kill yourself also this

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global slowing down I had one teenager who

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told me that it feels like I\'m
walking through peanut butter.

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So if you can imagine what is it like
to try and walk through peanut butter.

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Or if anybody\'s tried to run while you\'re

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underwater and you know
the energy that it takes.

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Because you feel like you\'re having to put
in tremendous effort to think and to move.

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That\'s what clinical depression does
to you when a teenager is depressed.

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A family is Is unbelievably

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impacted they they\'re confused they
may be angry frustrated with what

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they perceive as their
their child being lazy or

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unmotivated and not wanting to go
out and do things they try and

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tell her child to buckle
down and do their work

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or get out and go work
with their friends but if

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a student or a young person
is really depressed.

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Then they\'re not going to want to do
that it\'s trying you know especially

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for people who love you
thank you parents or what

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not and they keep looking at you
saying what\'s wrong what\'s right.

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And you\'ve no idea so
your first impressions to

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say nothing is wrong go away and
you just keep getting yourself

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bottled up and bottle more inside

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the depression parents Oftentimes
may feel guilty to that somehow.

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They\'ve caused their child to
develop this depression or

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they\'ve done something to create
this depression and people

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around me so I always think that
it was something they did you

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know and and I used to never
know it was just for me

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was just a way of life I think
it\'s important for them

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to realize that it isn\'t
anything we\'ve said

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or done that has caused their
child to develop this depression.

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There may be a genetic predisposition
to developing this illness.

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A lot of that has to do with
educating themselves about

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what is depression what
causes it how it looks

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We know that depression tends to run in

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families that could be nurture
or it could be nature but

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certainly there are enough studies
to show that there\'s probably

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at least a partly inherited component
there are chemicals in the brain called

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neurotransmitters that help each
brain cell communicate with one

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another and when a person is
depressed these chemicals are out of

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balance and so in turn that affects

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the whole balance of all the functions

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of the brain including how
the brain regulates sleep

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and appetite and energy and of

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course mood psychological causes have
to do with personality structure

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and thinking patterns so some people seem

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to Think in a very pessimistic way
or almost learn how to be helpless.

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So they get down on themselves and
they anticipate bad outcomes.

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Now what brings on a depression
at for at a particular time.

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Sometimes a stress like

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a breakup divorce failing a test these
kinds of things can trigger depression.

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Usually the person has an underlying
tendency to develop the depression but

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the stress brings on the depression at
a particular time but I have to say

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that in the vast majority of cases there
is no trigger that the depression just

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seems to come on for no apparent reason and
that\'s another sign that it\'s a biological

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problem I\'ll stay in my room for

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long periods of time and not talk to anybody
turn the phones off not answered the doors.

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Whatever and I would just
kind of do nothing and stare

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blankly at a wall or
just kind of doze off to

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sleep every once in a while at other
times I would switch to more of

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an external like self-destructive
depression in which I\'d go out like you

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know very late at night
whatever and I would

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drink way too much or I would
do too many drugs anymore.

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I would just just do

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vary And attractive things to myself that
I knew weren\'t going to help anything

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but that I felt that I needed
to do for some reason and

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when I did that it was just a completely out
of control thing it was like I it was almost

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like getting back at myself for
being in too much you know

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I had to go out and like
just become completely

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out of control and that

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usually ended up quite badly it usually
ended up with me like waking up in some

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in some stranger\'s house or whatever going

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whoa this is not good but then
under and I wanted to come home

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but I didn\'t feel that I
could anymore because I

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didn\'t feel that I had a place
here because I\'d been gone for

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so long or because my
parents and I had gotten in

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a big argument Some
teenagers with depression.

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Show that that they need help.

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By getting into a lot of
trouble they start acting

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out for example they may start
breaking all the rules at home

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staying out all night
partying a lot getting in

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trouble at school not showing up
not doing their work and that

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the extreme they may get in
trouble with the law and

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these teenagers are using this kind
of acting out behavior as a way of

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expressing the distress
that they\'re feeling but

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the adults who are involved with these
teenagers are likely to see this

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as bad behavior these are bad
teenagers and to write it off

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as a behavioral problem rather
than recognizing that there\'s

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a depression I mean

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my depression would go from from
fairly depressed you know to violently

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depressed and have always vitally
depressed I used to go and

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walk in the street and are breaking
three knuckles on the lamppost

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because I was so angry I just had to hit
something in the lamppost happened to be

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there all through high school is very

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aggressive and I remember
I remember getting

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suspended from school for
bringing in life with me or

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bringing a gun to school or
whatever it may have been.

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For a teenager to admit that they\'re sad is

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often an admission of weakness
and if it\'s one thing that

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teenagers don\'t want to Here
to be a two-week And so

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sometimes clinical depression
in adolescence is masked by

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irritability and anger and
review we\'re addicted me I

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usually ended up like popping
your tires or Manchester pushing

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the interlock and that middle hall
and at that point I didn\'t really

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need a reason and I don\'t
know how rumors get out these

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are a few people knew
what I had at school with

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me but it\'s you if you push
somebody against lockers at like I

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don\'t get up and say like who
the hell are you and I\'m

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looking at you and it\'s like oh my
god that\'s the guy with the name for

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their sticker with event and
they just turn around and walk

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away it\'s better to be mad then

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sat So sometimes that distinguishes

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adolescent depression from adult
depression is this irritability or anger.

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Which can even drive some teenagers to engage
in very minor kinds of antisocial acts

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like shoplifting or stealing money at home
but it doesn\'t mean they\'re delinquent.

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It means underneath of it
there\'s an underlying sadness.

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When I got outside and I
started doing drugs and I

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started doing and I started
drinking in excess I

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was just like air It just completely come

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out and on the outside I would
be having a good time you know

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I\'d be laughing I just
be stumbling all over

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the sidewalk but on the inside I
would just be so confused if felt

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like there\'s this little shivering
six-year-old inside of me and she

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was just telling me to stop
doing all this stuff and

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and I just wouldn\'t I just
keep going until like

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five in the morning went eventually
had to pass out somewhere and then

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I\'d come home and I\'d be completely
hung over completely burnt

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out and I just go to bed for
like a day or so I just

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sleep for a very long
period of time so it had

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very very negative mental
and physical side effects

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that I don\'t think I would like to
experience again Oftentimes a teenager.

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Will turn to drugs and alcohol as a way

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of helping their depression it\'s
really like their self medicating

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they\'re using alcohol or
drugs as a way of kind of

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obliterating all of their bad
feelings but this obviously sets up

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a really horrible pattern because it can

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escalate and the teenager can truly
become an alcoholic or addicted

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to the drugs and of course it makes the
depression worse but when I see or

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hear about a teenager who\'s
using a lot of drugs or

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alcohol that to me is a red flag
that there might be a depression

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Teenagers who are depressed
will often not do well

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in school they may stop going
to classes they may skip

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classes Marx will go down
assignments won\'t be handed in and

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teachers oftentimes when they have

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students who may have been a
very good student previously.

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Or not doing well we\'ll
often think that it\'s

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a behavior problem or that they\'ve
gotten involved with drugs or

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alcohol as opposed to actually
having a depression that

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is going to limit their ability
to concentrate or do well

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in school When I first
started getting symptoms of

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depression and it was of course school.

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Became my lowest priority.

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One to keep myself alive
for today is I wanted

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to like I wanted to just
kind of keep breathing

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et cetera and so school was just completely

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irrelevant especially since I
know I saw no future whatsoever

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for myself why would somebody with
no future need to go to school I

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would just be sitting there in
class and I wouldn\'t be thinking

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about what the teacher is writing on
the board I\'d be looking at the clock.

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My concentration was
completely Abolished it

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was there was none I felt no need to
concentrate the only reason I was there

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so that I didn\'t get kicked out

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another reason that it\'s difficult
to recognize depression in

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adolescents particularly in
a school setting is that

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these teenagers do tend to
be quiet and withdrawn.

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So they don\'t bother anybody.

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They sit at the back of the class
they\'re not disruptive and so

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the teacher tends to ignore them or
think oh what a nice quiet kid is

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sitting at the back of the class
will in fact that nice quiet kid

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is actually in a shell and it\'s
perhaps having all kinds of

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depressive thoughts but they\'re
not recognized because of

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the withdraw I wanted to kill
myself and it will vary.

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Just walking home from school and
think to myself the waves travelling

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at 70 to 90% of teenagers
who commits suicide.

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Have some diagnosable psychiatric disorder
and the communist disorder that they have is

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depression the other way
of looking at it is that

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ten to 15% Teenagers with clinical
depression will make a suicide attempt.

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Probably the lowest point in mind
depression was after I had broken up with

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my girlfriend and when
she got a new boyfriend.

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It triggered off some really
really negative feelings

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MA so I shot myself up myRand
Three days absurd drinking.

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I was just kind of lying
around in really measurable.

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It\'s more likely that a
teenager will turn to suicide.

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If they\'re feeling a high degree of shame
or humiliation and now there\'s been

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some kind of loss that
makes them feel rejected.

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Like a break-up or a divorce or if there\'s

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been a big disappointment like doing
badly on a test these kinds of

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situations will lead the teenager to
feeling so bad about themselves that then

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they see suicide as an option So

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like nothing could ever make me happy
it\'s appoint and living in misery.

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I just took a bunch of pills and hope that
it would just m my wife just m my wife.

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My mom came up stairs to wake
me up and she saw the pills.

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She just drove into

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the hospital That was the first time I\'ve
gone agreement and I\'d had pressured him for

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most of my life and if

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a teenager is talking about suicide.

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It has to be taken seriously
there\'s no way of

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predicting whether or not they\'re
serious about it because

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sometimes a teenager may not
even be intending to kill

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themselves but they missed
judge they take a handful of

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pills with the hope that somebody will will

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rescue them and get them help
but they miscalculate and

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those pills kill them so any
talk of suicide must be taken

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seriously And that teenager needs to get

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help and needs to get help from an
adult recently a friend of mine.

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Had a very close friend who killed
himself just about 23 weeks ago

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and she was absolutely devastated nobody
had any idea that he was depressed.

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Just the despair on these
people\'s faces like his parents

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and his good friends and everything it
was it was really disturbing just in

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the way that I had this was something
I had contemplated and how could

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I kind of like how could I do that

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to myself knowing that like all these
people would be absolutely torn

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up when it comes to depression there
should be no confidentiality.

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Because one of them More serious
complications with depression suicide and

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it would be much better to
have a friend be angry at

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you for telling somebody
than to have a dead friend.

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So definitely the rule of thumb for
depression is don\'t keep it a secret.

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I felt silly and I thought people would
think I was crazy or something you know

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especially you know like boys guys

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and stuff You know there\'s no way
I don\'t want anybody to know.

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I was in the rough and tough crowds like
you don\'t go see this psychiatrists

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and psychologists when you\'re carrying
weapons to school or wherever it may be.

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Unfortunately some teenagers will be afraid
to seek help the reasons for this are many

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some of them have to do with
myths or stereotypes about

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mental illness and myths and
stereotypes about psychiatrists.

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For instance that mental
illness is a sign of

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weakness teenagers hate to be thought of as
weak and so they\'re reluctant to seek help.

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Another myth is that psychiatrists
are crazy or you have to be

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crazy to see a psychiatrist
that\'s another myth And

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of course trained qualified
professionals can be extremely

00:24:04.359 --> 00:24:10.718
helpful psychotic people
go to psychiatrists

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not people like me and there\'s
nothing wrong with me I\'m

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fine and psychiatrists
they\'ll just sit there

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throw it some label labels
give me some pills and send me

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on my way that was exactly
what I thought of them so hard

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yourselves to think we\'d like stick
mine probes to your head and watch

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a little oscillating dialogue back and forth
with different wavelengths like some sort

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of ECG meter and ask you
these questions like

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okay if you enter this falsely
on no and I\'m going to chop

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off your baby till now maybe
it\'s because I saw one-to-many

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movies when I was younger
but you don\'t know

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what to expect And many teenagers
think it\'s a sign of weakness to tell

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somebody in and to go for help they think
that they should just take care of

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the problem themselves they just have to snap
out of it they just have to be stronger.

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But in fact. The opposite
is true it\'s a sign of

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strength to go and take care of
a problem to do something to

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help get your life On track I
think seeing my psychiatrist

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as being like one of the best
things that I\'ve done because

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I\'m actually taking
initiative to help myself and

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and like surprisingly nobody has
like lost any respect for me

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well known surprisingly actually
nobody\'s lost any respect for me for

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going to see a psychiatrist
no one\'s like said anything

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well you know you\'re
obviously just too weak to

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handle that on your own people are
actually quite like impressed.

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At me with me because of that because I\'m
actually doing something to help myself

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the treatments for depression
fall really in two categories

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Medication and there\'s therapy
or counseling the medication is

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extremely useful for getting
the physical symptoms under

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control the sleep problems the
changes in appetite the problems

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concentrating those things
usually don\'t go away with just

00:26:03.650 --> 00:26:08.134
talking that the medication
is important to help restore

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the chemistry of the brain so that the
body functions normally again there are

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many many different
antidepressant medications

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that can be quite effective and quite
helpful in treating depression.

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One of our theories about
depression is that it\'s due to

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an imbalance in the chemistry
or the neurotransmitters in

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the brain And these antidepressants
are designed to correct

00:26:29.449 --> 00:26:33.319
that imbalance the counseling
or therapy is important to

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help deal with the
negative thinking patterns

00:26:36.140 --> 00:26:40.924
the negative behavior and the way in
which teenagers coping with their stress

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if they can learn better ways to manage
their stress not only will that help

00:26:44.900 --> 00:26:49.398
their current depression get better but
it\'ll also help prevent future depressions.

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Talking with a psychyatrists helped me.

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Basically take all that all the the

00:26:55.940 --> 00:27:01.188
weight the mental weight I put
on myself over the years keeping

00:27:01.189 --> 00:27:09.189
everything internal ions allowed me to
relieve that pain Take it off my shoulders.

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Fortunately depression is
a very treatable illness

00:27:19.129 --> 00:27:22.129
we have the means to treat it
there\'s medications there\'s

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therapy and in about 80%
of the cases we can get

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the illness under control and
prevent relapses teachers.

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Schools often have guidance counselors are
social workers that are in the school or

00:27:34.639 --> 00:27:39.499
easily available and accessible
family doctor pediatrician.

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The parents of the teenager him or herself.

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There are lots of people
who are around available

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and willing to help Teenager
out of the depression.

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I still got this very odd emotion when
I look at pictures of me from like

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from three years ago two years ago
and I\'ll look in the mirror and

00:28:04.535 --> 00:28:07.848
just kind of like look back and
forth and it\'s like I\'m seeing

00:28:07.849 --> 00:28:11.329
the same person but there is such a
different realm of emotion inside

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each face I had

00:28:15.859 --> 00:28:20.899
no future in my eyes when I was when I was
dealing with all that stuff there was

00:28:20.900 --> 00:28:25.680
no concept of a feasible
path for me to turn to

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I went through a lot of stuff and then I

00:28:38.240 --> 00:28:42.139
finally decided that I was going
to turn things around and now I

00:28:42.140 --> 00:28:48.379
actually I\'ve made my own future and
I\'m I\'m accepting the fact that I

00:28:48.380 --> 00:28:55.474
can succeed at something at anything at like
just that I can\'t have a future period.

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Whereas before there wasn\'t any and

00:28:59.129 --> 00:29:03.648
and I think I\'m I\'m actually proud of
myself for doing that like before I

00:29:03.649 --> 00:29:05.869
would never say I was proud
of myself for anything

00:29:05.870 --> 00:29:08.149
because I wasn\'t there was
nothing in my life that I could

00:29:08.150 --> 00:29:12.139
have said that about but looking back
the only good thing that emerged out

00:29:12.140 --> 00:29:16.338
of Depression and all that
just striving to find

00:29:16.339 --> 00:29:19.789
some way to cope with things is
the fact that I am where I am

00:29:19.790 --> 00:29:23.898
now and I want to keep myself here and I I

00:29:23.899 --> 00:29:26.940
think I\'ve gained enough
resources to do that

00:29:27.160 --> 00:29:32.928
and so it\'s it\'s it\'s
good I like kinda like

00:29:32.929 --> 00:29:34.219
what I see in the mirror a lot more

00:29:34.220 --> 00:29:35.579
now

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Right