01:00:04.601 --> 01:00:07.729
[cars pass, footsteps, crickets]

01:00:08.730 --> 01:00:10.732
PEDRO:
Keep going, Tyler.

01:00:12.567 --> 01:00:15.820
[dog pants, footsteps]

01:00:15.820 --> 01:00:17.864
[short, echoing bang]

01:00:18.865 --> 01:00:23.745
[steps quicken, dog pants]

01:00:28.166 --> 01:00:32.837
[rush of nearby cars]

01:00:38.968 --> 01:00:43.973
[vehicles race past, louder]

01:00:51.981 --> 01:00:53.775
[car horn blares]

01:00:57.987 --> 01:01:03.534
[dog panting heavily, traffic]

01:01:09.582 --> 01:01:11.751
SET: The bus is coming.

01:01:11.751 --> 01:01:14.045
PEDRO: Okay.
SET: Just right around here.

01:01:14.045 --> 01:01:16.089
PEDRO: We're lucky we didn't
have to wait that much!

01:01:16.089 --> 01:01:18.966
SET: I know!
[delighted chuckle]

01:01:18.966 --> 01:01:20.968
[bus brakes squeal, hiss]

01:01:21.886 --> 01:01:25.264
PEDRO: How much is it for
two, two-hour passes?

01:01:25.264 --> 01:01:27.266
DRIVER: $3.

01:01:29.936 --> 01:01:33.189
PEDRO: It's gonna be
for a companion of mine.

01:01:33.189 --> 01:01:35.316
RIDER 1: Miss,
he has to sit here.

01:01:35.316 --> 01:01:37.151
RIDER 2: Oh, yeah, yeah.
RIDER 1: Stay here.

01:01:37.151 --> 01:01:38.861
PEDRO: Oh.
-Right. I wasn't thinking.

01:01:38.861 --> 01:01:40.780
PEDRO: No, no worries.
Thank you so much.

01:01:40.780 --> 01:01:42.490
I’m sorry.

01:01:42.490 --> 01:01:45.952
-I was more fond of the dog.
-[laughs]

01:01:45.952 --> 01:01:47.787
PEDRO: No, thank you. Thank you.

01:01:47.787 --> 01:01:49.205
Tyler, come on.

01:01:49.205 --> 01:01:51.249
Tyler, move.
Move, boy.

01:01:52.500 --> 01:01:54.877
-Oh, that's a DOG!!
-Yes.

01:01:54.877 --> 01:01:57.046
A service animal.

01:01:57.046 --> 01:01:59.632
-He lets people touch him?!
-Yeah, you can pet him.

01:01:59.632 --> 01:02:02.593
-Hi. [kissing noises]
-Yeah, he's a good boy.

01:02:03.678 --> 01:02:05.596
He's very friendly.

01:02:05.596 --> 01:02:07.098
-Oh!
-Yeah.

01:02:07.098 --> 01:02:08.766
He just got a bath.
[laughs]

01:02:08.766 --> 01:02:12.061
-See, I know how to massage
those big old boo boos!

01:02:12.061 --> 01:02:14.605
-Yeah. He loves when
people pet him.

01:02:14.605 --> 01:02:17.233
-He's so happy.
-Yeah.

01:02:17.233 --> 01:02:20.069
-What kind of service
does your dog do?

01:02:20.069 --> 01:02:21.237
-He provides...

01:02:21.237 --> 01:02:23.656
he guides me.
He's a guide dog.

01:02:23.656 --> 01:02:25.825
-Oh, okay. So you're almost
blind? Are you blind?

01:02:25.825 --> 01:02:26.868
-Yes, yes.

01:02:26.868 --> 01:02:28.661
-You're blind now?
-Uh-huh.

01:02:28.661 --> 01:02:30.705
-Wow, you got cute eyes.
That’s a shame.

01:02:30.705 --> 01:02:32.331
-Thank you. [laughter]
-I'll have a talk with

01:02:32.331 --> 01:02:34.083
Jesus about that mess.
-Thank you. Thank you.

01:02:34.083 --> 01:02:36.711
-He gave you cute eyes,
but He won't let you see.

01:02:36.711 --> 01:02:39.714
-Ah, it is what it is.
I feel blessed anyway.

01:02:39.714 --> 01:02:42.467
-Well, you are. But still, we
can still have a talk with Him.

01:02:42.467 --> 01:02:45.470
You know what I'm saying?
-Sure, why not?

01:02:45.470 --> 01:02:48.556
I wouldn't mind to
have my sight back. [laughs]

01:02:48.556 --> 01:02:50.641
-Have you always been blind
or...?

01:02:50.641 --> 01:02:53.144
-Uh... no.

01:02:53.144 --> 01:02:55.354
-So, you saw at one
point in your life?

01:02:55.354 --> 01:02:58.566
-Yes, I used to have sight
at one point of my life.

01:02:58.566 --> 01:02:59.776
-Oh.
-Yeah, when I was in

01:02:59.776 --> 01:03:02.445
my teenager years.

01:03:02.445 --> 01:03:04.322
-Teen years? That's when
your sight went?

01:03:04.322 --> 01:03:05.907
-Yeah, that's when
I lost my sight.

01:03:05.907 --> 01:03:08.242
-Well, you want me
to describe myself to you?

01:03:08.242 --> 01:03:09.660
-[chuckles]
-Huh?

01:03:09.660 --> 01:03:10.953
-Yeah!

01:03:10.953 --> 01:03:13.831
-Oh, I'm so cute.
[laughter]

01:03:14.415 --> 01:03:16.125
-I believe it.
-Okay!

01:03:16.125 --> 01:03:17.418
-[soft chuckle]

01:03:18.628 --> 01:03:20.713
-Got a nice smile.

01:03:20.713 --> 01:03:22.924
My eyes are prettier than yours.

01:03:23.591 --> 01:03:25.802
-I bet they are.
[laughter]

01:03:26.594 --> 01:03:29.096
-Oh, I could get away
with a lot of stuff!

01:03:29.347 --> 01:03:32.767
-[laughter]
I'm sure you do.

01:03:33.643 --> 01:03:35.269
Ay... Yes.

01:03:35.269 --> 01:03:37.063
-You got a bus ticket?

01:03:37.063 --> 01:03:38.397
-Excuse me?

01:03:38.397 --> 01:03:39.899
-You buy a bus ticket?

01:03:39.899 --> 01:03:41.943
Yeah, I need to
get a bus ticket.

01:03:41.943 --> 01:03:43.277
-No, no, no. I give–

01:03:43.277 --> 01:03:46.531
-Oh, I do have a paratransit.
I do have the disab– uh–

01:03:46.531 --> 01:03:49.075
the service for disabled people.

01:03:49.075 --> 01:03:50.743
I do have that service.

01:03:50.743 --> 01:03:52.829
-It's just that today–
-You don't pay, right?

01:03:52.829 --> 01:03:55.498
You don't pay when you get on.
-No. you have to pay.

01:03:55.498 --> 01:03:57.667
It just that it's half.
-No! Two different things.

01:03:57.667 --> 01:04:00.878
You got blue line, gold line.
I got gold line.

01:04:00.878 --> 01:04:01.838
-I don't pay nothing.

01:04:01.838 --> 01:04:03.548
-Let me see what
she's talking about.

01:04:03.548 --> 01:04:05.466
-You call this number.
-Uh-huh

01:04:05.466 --> 01:04:07.051
You explain too.

01:04:07.051 --> 01:04:09.262
Helping each other out,
that's always good.

01:04:12.932 --> 01:04:18.563
[slow, pensive music,
hum of the driving bus]

01:04:26.320 --> 01:04:30.324
[pensive music continues,
sublime and airy]

01:04:38.833 --> 01:04:41.836
[music continues lilting,
birds sing and chirp]

01:04:45.548 --> 01:04:49.552
[music floats, screen reader
reads aloud words from laptop]

01:04:51.470 --> 01:04:54.473
[screen reader continues quietly
under lilting music]

01:05:00.855 --> 01:05:03.858
[screen reader continues reading
aloud text and choices]

01:05:05.192 --> 01:05:07.153
[music gently fades]

01:05:07.153 --> 01:05:10.156
[dishes clink and clank
in the kitchen]

01:05:13.200 --> 01:05:17.330
SCREEN READER: A a, t e, t e r,
space....

01:05:19.665 --> 01:05:21.417
MOM: Pedro!
PEDRO: Yeah?

01:05:21.417 --> 01:05:23.377
MOM: It’s ready.

01:05:23.878 --> 01:05:27.590
-[SPA] Bite it!
-Bite it!

01:05:27.590 --> 01:05:29.759
[jazzy "Happy Birthday" plays]

01:05:29.759 --> 01:05:31.677
-Bite it, take a bite, Pedro.

01:05:32.678 --> 01:05:35.348
[jazzy "Happy Birthday"
continues]

01:05:35.348 --> 01:05:39.769
Bravo! Bravo! [clapping]
Bravo!

01:05:43.814 --> 01:05:45.733
-Here?
-Here.

01:05:46.734 --> 01:05:48.736
-Mmhmm!
-Okay.

01:05:49.820 --> 01:05:51.822
-Bravo! Bravo!

01:05:55.117 --> 01:05:59.121
-Bite it! Bite it!

01:06:01.332 --> 01:06:04.210
[laughter]

01:06:05.920 --> 01:06:10.925
-Bravo! Bravo!
[clapping, laughter]

01:06:12.385 --> 01:06:14.303
-Happy birthday, Pedro.
Enjoy your day!

01:06:14.303 --> 01:06:16.472
-Thank you.

01:06:16.472 --> 01:06:19.266
-I need to give you
a birthday hug.

01:06:19.266 --> 01:06:21.978
["Las Mañanitas" plays]

01:06:21.978 --> 01:06:25.523
MOM: Here's your birthday hug.

01:06:27.108 --> 01:06:29.402
[Mom laughs]

01:06:30.903 --> 01:06:32.905
-I love you.
-I love you.

01:06:33.698 --> 01:06:35.783
DAD: Pedro,
congratulations!

01:06:38.327 --> 01:06:41.789
I hope all your
wishes come true.

01:06:41.789 --> 01:06:43.749
PEDRO: [ENG] I need
to give you a hug too!

01:06:43.749 --> 01:06:46.794
SET: Oh, my gosh! [laughs]
I'm right here.

01:06:46.794 --> 01:06:49.171
-You’re part of my journey.
And now you are filming it.

01:06:49.171 --> 01:06:53.092
-Yay. Thank you so much!
Thank you! And happy birthday!

01:06:53.092 --> 01:06:54.677
Advanced birthday.

01:06:54.677 --> 01:06:56.887
-And Tyler too.
-And Tyler.

01:06:57.555 --> 01:06:59.557
-Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!

01:07:00.975 --> 01:07:03.102
DAD: Are you happy, Tyler?

01:07:05.479 --> 01:07:07.398
It’s his birthday, Tyler.

01:07:07.398 --> 01:07:09.442
-Stop it, stop it.

01:07:12.820 --> 01:07:15.656
DAD: Let's take a picture,
Tyler. Relax.

01:07:17.241 --> 01:07:22.413
[music, conversation fade
to footsteps outside]

01:07:27.543 --> 01:07:29.587
-How are you doing today, sir?
I wanted to know if

01:07:29.587 --> 01:07:32.465
you'd like to sign a petition
for voter registration?

01:07:32.465 --> 01:07:34.050
PEDRO: Actually, I'm not
eligible to vote.

01:07:34.050 --> 01:07:35.551
-Okay. How about you, sir?
Would you like to—

01:07:35.551 --> 01:07:37.845
SET: Sorry, same.
-All right.

01:07:39.430 --> 01:07:41.891
SET: I've always found it
awkward when I was in college,

01:07:41.891 --> 01:07:43.851
and people would ask me
to register to vote.

01:07:43.851 --> 01:07:46.437
PEDRO: Yeah, I know.
I just say that.

01:07:48.564 --> 01:07:52.109
-Easiest way to get out of it.
-Exactly. No hassle.

01:07:52.109 --> 01:07:54.111
-No hassle. Yes.

01:07:55.279 --> 01:07:58.157
[people chat nearby
on the street]

01:07:58.157 --> 01:08:03.162
[conversations overlap, echo]

01:08:05.039 --> 01:08:06.749
SET: Where are we
heading to right now?

01:08:06.749 --> 01:08:09.710
PEDRO: We're heading to
student services.

01:08:09.710 --> 01:08:12.046
-Got it. Okay.

01:08:12.046 --> 01:08:14.048
-We need to make a payment.

01:08:15.091 --> 01:08:17.259
Tuition this semester
was quite expensive.

01:08:17.259 --> 01:08:22.556
It was $3,500 for 12 credits.

01:08:22.556 --> 01:08:25.142
And when you don't have
financial aid,

01:08:25.142 --> 01:08:27.228
that's a lot of money.

01:08:27.228 --> 01:08:28.479
-Yeah.

01:08:34.610 --> 01:08:36.737
-Tyler, down baby. Down.

01:08:38.405 --> 01:08:40.908
Good job, baby.
[Tyler pants]

01:08:41.826 --> 01:08:43.702
SET: Can you tell me
where we are?

01:08:43.702 --> 01:08:46.413
PEDRO: At the library.
At the university library.

01:08:47.623 --> 01:08:50.209
Okay, now we
turn on the program.

01:08:51.210 --> 01:08:53.754
[click-clack of keyboard]

01:08:53.754 --> 01:08:55.798
We go online.

01:08:58.592 --> 01:09:03.472
And this is an updated
version of my computer.

01:09:03.472 --> 01:09:04.390
-Mm!

01:09:04.390 --> 01:09:07.101
-So, it works way better
than mine,

01:09:07.101 --> 01:09:09.186
and that's why
I like to come here.

01:09:10.604 --> 01:09:12.898
I do pretty much
all my work here.

01:09:12.898 --> 01:09:15.109
I spend most of my time here.

01:09:16.485 --> 01:09:18.320
I usually spend...

01:09:18.320 --> 01:09:22.992
I spend 4 to 5 hours working
on my assignments every day.

01:09:22.992 --> 01:09:26.370
[gentle music plays softly]

01:09:27.371 --> 01:09:28.289
SET: Pedro, you know,

01:09:28.289 --> 01:09:31.959
I've been an
organizer since I was 18.

01:09:31.959 --> 01:09:35.629
And when I first met you
in that summer program

01:09:35.629 --> 01:09:38.716
for other undocumented
youth like us,

01:09:38.716 --> 01:09:41.051
I wanted to film
with you because

01:09:41.051 --> 01:09:45.181
the immigrant rights movement
that I've been a part of

01:09:45.181 --> 01:09:47.266
hasn't really uplifted
the stories of

01:09:47.266 --> 01:09:49.768
disabled immigrants
like yourself.

01:09:49.768 --> 01:09:51.270
PEDRO: It's very tricky.

01:09:51.270 --> 01:09:54.523
It's very difficult because,
again, the intersectionality

01:09:54.523 --> 01:09:57.610
between being undocumented
and having a disability,

01:09:57.610 --> 01:10:02.823
it places a lot of stress
and anxiety into you.

01:10:05.159 --> 01:10:07.620
[music fades into conversations]

01:10:07.620 --> 01:10:10.289
[pool cues click pool balls]

01:10:10.289 --> 01:10:13.125
-Come on, Pedro.
Come on that side.

01:10:15.169 --> 01:10:18.172
-We're gonna go this way.
-Ok.

01:10:18.172 --> 01:10:19.965
-Hold on, hold on, hold on.

01:10:19.965 --> 01:10:21.258
-Right there.
-And stop!

01:10:21.258 --> 01:10:22.843
-Ok.
-Yep.

01:10:23.177 --> 01:10:24.303
-Ah...

01:10:24.595 --> 01:10:27.348
-You can feel the ball, right?
-It’s right here.

01:10:27.348 --> 01:10:30.059
-A little more.
-Keep going, keep going.

01:10:30.059 --> 01:10:32.061
-More! More!
-Right there.

01:10:32.061 --> 01:10:33.062
-Move the stick.

01:10:33.062 --> 01:10:35.439
-Move your hand a
little more this way.

01:10:35.439 --> 01:10:37.316
-There you go.
-There you go.

01:10:37.316 --> 01:10:38.984
-You’re aiming a little off.

01:10:38.984 --> 01:10:40.986
-Hold on.
-Right or left?

01:10:41.987 --> 01:10:44.031
[music thumps, conversations]

01:10:44.031 --> 01:10:46.116
-That way. Yeah,
right there, perfect.

01:10:46.116 --> 01:10:47.785
-Ohhh!
-Hey, you hit it though.

01:10:47.785 --> 01:10:50.246
-You hit it though!
-No. That was lame, dude.

01:10:50.246 --> 01:10:52.373
-We'll do it again.
We'll do it again.

01:10:52.373 --> 01:10:55.084
Here, fuck it.
Hold on. Hold on.

01:10:55.251 --> 01:10:58.879
-Hold your hand like this, look.
There you go, yeah.

01:10:58.879 --> 01:11:00.881
There you go!

01:11:02.841 --> 01:11:04.843
-Hit that.
-Right there.

01:11:05.636 --> 01:11:07.388
-Go hard. Go hard.

01:11:07.388 --> 01:11:09.014
-Aw, fuck!

01:11:09.014 --> 01:11:12.726
PEDRO: Nah, never has
been for me. [laughter]

01:11:12.726 --> 01:11:15.854
I know my limitations, man, and
pool is one of my limitations.

01:11:15.854 --> 01:11:17.314
-Is this the pool movie?

01:11:17.314 --> 01:11:19.483
-It is.
-It is, right. It is.

01:11:20.276 --> 01:11:24.280
[conversations swirl]

01:11:25.614 --> 01:11:27.324
Wow.

01:11:32.162 --> 01:11:35.040
[ethereal music,
cane tip scrapes]

01:11:36.041 --> 01:11:37.918
PEDRO: After you have
a disability,

01:11:37.918 --> 01:11:40.045
you're gonna have
some type of impediment.

01:11:40.963 --> 01:11:42.298
And you need to be

01:11:42.298 --> 01:11:45.509
taught how to work around
that impediment.

01:11:47.303 --> 01:11:51.223
In the undocumented community,
that's almost non-existent.

01:11:52.224 --> 01:11:55.144
[cane scrapes, taps, scrapes]

01:11:55.144 --> 01:11:58.230
I decided to study social work.

01:11:59.481 --> 01:12:02.735
I wanted to help people.
I wanted to give an opportunity

01:12:02.735 --> 01:12:05.237
for those that they
didn't have an opportunity.

01:12:06.947 --> 01:12:09.742
Tell others that
things are possible.

01:12:12.786 --> 01:12:17.875
For higher education, I was
very blessed to have met

01:12:17.875 --> 01:12:21.378
many wonderful educators
and my mentors.

01:12:21.378 --> 01:12:23.881
-Ok, last one, boy.
You’re being a really good boy.

01:12:23.881 --> 01:12:26.342
-Wait, he’s still eating.
-Oh, I’m sorry.

01:12:26.342 --> 01:12:27.885
-He’s going, “Well, wait.
Now I’m done."

01:12:27.885 --> 01:12:29.970
-Ok. Give me.
Good job!

01:12:29.970 --> 01:12:33.140
-So, are you giving it more
thought with Braille?

01:12:33.140 --> 01:12:37.478
-Actually, I'm working on it.
It's just that the thing that

01:12:37.478 --> 01:12:40.773
what the scriber
was doing is pretty much,

01:12:40.773 --> 01:12:44.526
explaining to me
what was on the whiteboard.

01:12:44.526 --> 01:12:47.404
And pretty much
I had to go step by step

01:12:47.404 --> 01:12:50.908
and tell them how to
do all the equations

01:12:50.908 --> 01:12:52.451
and the graphings
and all of that.

01:12:52.451 --> 01:12:55.829
So, it was definitely
a teamwork,

01:12:55.829 --> 01:12:58.999
but I was able to pass
the class with a B!

01:12:58.999 --> 01:13:00.459
-See what I mean?
-Yeah.

01:13:00.459 --> 01:13:01.585
-Don't give up.

01:13:01.585 --> 01:13:04.546
-Yeah. So, we'll see.
[Tyler panting]

01:13:04.546 --> 01:13:07.424
Something that not many,
not many people know that

01:13:07.424 --> 01:13:09.635
when you have a disability,

01:13:09.635 --> 01:13:12.137
when you become visually
impaired, low vision,

01:13:12.137 --> 01:13:15.265
usually a regular eye doctor,
he just tells you, "I'm sorry.

01:13:15.265 --> 01:13:17.142
There is nothing
that I can do for you.

01:13:19.311 --> 01:13:22.606
There is no glasses
or contact lenses

01:13:22.606 --> 01:13:25.275
that I can prescribe you
to make your vision better."

01:13:25.275 --> 01:13:28.570
So, what happens is pretty much
they tell you, "I'm sorry,

01:13:28.570 --> 01:13:30.614
but you're on your own."

01:13:31.573 --> 01:13:37.413
And it took me a while to get
to Dr. Yesnick and Sandy.

01:13:37.413 --> 01:13:39.706
And... and they told me,
"You know what?

01:13:39.706 --> 01:13:42.126
They're right.
You have this condition.

01:13:42.126 --> 01:13:44.878
I know there is not
a cure for it,

01:13:44.878 --> 01:13:46.880
but your life is not over.

01:13:47.840 --> 01:13:50.592
What happened now is that

01:13:50.592 --> 01:13:53.929
we're gonna teach you to do
things in a different way."

01:13:55.472 --> 01:13:56.974
-You've come a long way, baby,

01:13:56.974 --> 01:14:00.060
since that session
with Dr. Yesnick.

01:14:00.060 --> 01:14:05.065
Remember when he did the exam,
and the way he puts it is

01:14:05.065 --> 01:14:08.026
you were like, [scoffs] "What
are you gonna do for me?"

01:14:08.026 --> 01:14:10.821
-Yeah.
-"I've been to so many. What?"

01:14:10.821 --> 01:14:13.907
[chuckles]
The attitude was just

01:14:13.907 --> 01:14:15.617
so different once...
-Yeah.

01:14:15.617 --> 01:14:18.412
-...once you opened your
eyes to hope, so.

01:14:18.412 --> 01:14:19.788
-Definitely, yeah.

01:14:19.788 --> 01:14:21.874
DR. YESNICK: I tell you,
Pedro, if you hadn't

01:14:21.874 --> 01:14:25.169
kept going and fought
through all the challenges,

01:14:25.169 --> 01:14:26.295
let's put it simply,

01:14:26.295 --> 01:14:30.215
if you'd given up on yourself,
there's no way we can help you.

01:14:30.215 --> 01:14:34.803
But the fact you kept, you
overcame the emotional obstacles

01:14:34.803 --> 01:14:39.057
and distress of vision loss
and just kept

01:14:39.057 --> 01:14:42.436
trying to learn was inspiration
for us to help you further.

01:14:42.436 --> 01:14:43.520
PEDRO: [whispers] Thank you.
Thank you.

01:14:43.520 --> 01:14:46.190
I will set an
appointment later, so.

01:14:46.190 --> 01:14:48.150
-Okay.
-We can talk a little bit more.

01:14:48.150 --> 01:14:49.568
Thank you so much
for everything, Sandy.

01:14:49.568 --> 01:14:50.736
-Absolutely.
-I really love you.

01:14:50.736 --> 01:14:54.364
-Anything, anything you
need, Hon. Love you, too.

01:15:04.750 --> 01:15:08.837
[conversations ripple
through the hallways]

01:15:09.671 --> 01:15:12.174
Okay, so....

01:15:12.174 --> 01:15:16.261
We're gonna try a random
classroom and see.

01:15:22.851 --> 01:15:24.603
Ah.

01:15:24.603 --> 01:15:26.605
Actually, it's the other way.

01:15:28.732 --> 01:15:31.360
This one's nice.
Okay, it's right here.

01:15:45.874 --> 01:15:47.125
205?!

01:15:47.918 --> 01:15:49.920
SET: Yup.

01:15:49.920 --> 01:15:52.130
PEDRO: Okay, so,
it's that way then.

01:15:58.095 --> 01:16:01.265
So, imagine the
first day of school,

01:16:01.265 --> 01:16:03.308
me going room by room,

01:16:03.308 --> 01:16:07.563
touching the doors trying
to find the correct classroom.

01:16:08.564 --> 01:16:10.649
-This Fall semester?
[boisterous yelling]

01:16:10.649 --> 01:16:13.318
-No, every semester.

01:16:13.318 --> 01:16:16.530
[happy yelling
and laughing nearby]

01:16:16.530 --> 01:16:18.282
Every semester.

01:16:28.083 --> 01:16:30.502
-So, do you read Braille
now, friend?

01:16:30.502 --> 01:16:34.590
-Yeah. I was taking
some classes,

01:16:34.590 --> 01:16:36.466
but then I got very busy
with school.

01:16:36.466 --> 01:16:37.968
-Sorry.
-Sorry.

01:16:37.968 --> 01:16:39.511
Tyler, hop off.

01:16:41.221 --> 01:16:44.558
So, I got very
busy with school.

01:16:44.558 --> 01:16:47.352
So, that was why
I stopped taking classes.

01:16:49.062 --> 01:16:52.816
But hopefully once things
slow down, I can go back at it.

01:16:58.864 --> 01:17:01.700
-Okay. Does anybody else
have past items

01:17:01.700 --> 01:17:04.077
or any past things that
happened this week?

01:17:04.077 --> 01:17:08.040
-While I was certainly not
super surprised

01:17:08.040 --> 01:17:09.750
at the results
of the election,

01:17:09.750 --> 01:17:13.211
it's just really difficult,
I think.

01:17:14.588 --> 01:17:17.591
And so, I was really
depressed by that.

01:17:17.591 --> 01:17:20.052
And it was really nice
to get back to campus

01:17:20.052 --> 01:17:22.512
and get back to work and
be around people that care,

01:17:22.512 --> 01:17:24.890
and be back in the classroom
with my students,

01:17:24.890 --> 01:17:26.600
working with my colleagues.

01:17:27.351 --> 01:17:29.978
-Say, DACA, you know,
if we lose DACA,

01:17:29.978 --> 01:17:31.355
then one of the things
that we're gonna

01:17:31.355 --> 01:17:37.486
really need to focus on
for all of our undocumented

01:17:37.486 --> 01:17:40.822
and previously DACAmented
students is financial resources,

01:17:40.822 --> 01:17:44.618
making sure that we can
institutionalize that.

01:17:45.452 --> 01:17:47.496
-So, it’s interesting
because now all my bosses

01:17:47.496 --> 01:17:49.998
know I’m undocumented.
So, that is kind of like, eh.

01:17:49.998 --> 01:17:52.626
But I mean, you have a lot
to be afraid of, you know?

01:17:52.626 --> 01:17:55.045
You have a very valid
reason for being afraid.

01:17:55.045 --> 01:17:57.422
It feels like I’m doing ok,
then I think about

01:17:57.422 --> 01:18:01.635
what if we get DACA taken
away, and what am I gonna do?

01:18:01.635 --> 01:18:03.887
But yeah, that’s just always
there though, you know?

01:18:05.681 --> 01:18:08.934
PEDRO: They were talking about
the requirements

01:18:08.934 --> 01:18:11.812
in order to apply for DACA.

01:18:11.812 --> 01:18:15.190
And one of the requirements
was you should have

01:18:15.190 --> 01:18:19.194
entered the country
before your 16th birthday.

01:18:20.445 --> 01:18:25.951
And I entered the country when
I was 16 years and 5 weeks old.

01:18:27.536 --> 01:18:29.496
The only thing that it does

01:18:29.496 --> 01:18:31.957
is prevent you from
being deported,

01:18:31.957 --> 01:18:34.876
and it gives you a work permit
for two years.

01:18:34.876 --> 01:18:38.004
However, I saw it
as an opportunity

01:18:38.004 --> 01:18:40.090
to help out my parents.

01:18:40.966 --> 01:18:44.678
I thought I was gonna
be able to finally

01:18:44.678 --> 01:18:48.014
have access to some of
the services that I required

01:18:48.014 --> 01:18:51.727
and also try
to be more visible.

01:18:54.563 --> 01:18:57.441
[ethereal music]

01:18:58.692 --> 01:19:01.445
SET: I don’t know if I ever
shared this with you, Pedro.

01:19:01.445 --> 01:19:04.114
But, when I was
in high school,

01:19:04.114 --> 01:19:06.742
I thought that I was
not gonna get to

01:19:06.742 --> 01:19:09.035
do anything with my life.

01:19:09.035 --> 01:19:11.747
I got super involved in advocacy

01:19:11.747 --> 01:19:15.917
believing that doing so would
change my family’s situation.

01:19:16.877 --> 01:19:20.255
Or maybe, I just wanted
to feel needed

01:19:20.255 --> 01:19:23.508
because I wanted to prove
my worth to this country.

01:19:24.509 --> 01:19:26.678
PEDRO: I was a very
self-destructive person,

01:19:26.678 --> 01:19:28.930
especially that anger
towards me.

01:19:29.973 --> 01:19:34.644
So, anything that had to do with
harming myself,

01:19:34.644 --> 01:19:37.147
mostly alcohol...

01:19:37.147 --> 01:19:41.485
sex, or just hanging out
with the wrong crowd,

01:19:41.485 --> 01:19:43.111
isolate yourself.

01:19:45.155 --> 01:19:48.116
And just a sense that

01:19:48.116 --> 01:19:50.577
lack of self-worth,
I guess.

01:19:52.954 --> 01:19:54.748
But it was not about

01:19:54.748 --> 01:19:58.710
the incentive that I was getting
from that situation it was just

01:19:58.710 --> 01:20:01.087
that constant
need to punish myself.

01:20:03.715 --> 01:20:06.927
Letting my life just go by.

01:20:08.053 --> 01:20:10.347
Just seeing the time
just go by.

01:20:13.350 --> 01:20:15.769
[music gently fades]

01:20:16.770 --> 01:20:19.272
-Come on. This way.
[white canes on asphalt]

01:20:19.272 --> 01:20:20.482
-Where are you going?
[white canes on asphalt]

01:20:20.482 --> 01:20:21.983
-Are we going to
your house, Pedro?

01:20:21.983 --> 01:20:22.692
-Yes.
-Oh, okay.

01:20:22.692 --> 01:20:24.319
-She knows where
she's going then.

01:20:24.319 --> 01:20:26.488
-Oh, man!
-Oh, it smells really good.

01:20:26.488 --> 01:20:28.824
-It smells amazing. Uh-huh!
-I'm hungry!

01:20:28.824 --> 01:20:31.409
-You know I can't pass up
a barbecue at your house.

01:20:31.409 --> 01:20:34.204
[laughter]
-Please come in, ladies.

01:20:34.204 --> 01:20:37.666
You're in good hands.
-House!

01:20:37.666 --> 01:20:41.670
-So, whenever I have children...
-Hey, Tyler.

01:20:41.670 --> 01:20:44.506
-It feels like I have them.

01:20:44.506 --> 01:20:46.341
-When he's being like that,
he looks adorable.

01:20:46.341 --> 01:20:48.510
He looks huggable.
-Like a teddy bear!

01:20:48.510 --> 01:20:50.428
-Yeah, he's a
little teddy bear.

01:20:51.721 --> 01:20:54.808
They're gonna get into trouble.
[laughs, Tyler pants]

01:20:56.810 --> 01:21:00.313
[dog nails tapping tiles]

01:21:02.440 --> 01:21:05.610
Why is your dog so skinny
and his is like... me?

01:21:05.610 --> 01:21:08.071
-What?! She gets exercise!

01:21:08.071 --> 01:21:10.282
Pedro just locks him up
in the house.

01:21:11.074 --> 01:21:13.410
-You're a horrible owner, man.
-Yeah.

01:21:13.410 --> 01:21:15.662
-That's why I don't
have children.

01:21:16.913 --> 01:21:18.582
-When I was in Florida,

01:21:18.582 --> 01:21:21.585
I would make all the
bartenders feel uncomfortable.

01:21:21.585 --> 01:21:23.503
-Awww.
-And you're so proud of it.

01:21:23.503 --> 01:21:25.797
-Yes.
-"I did that."

01:21:25.797 --> 01:21:27.132
She said that with a smile.

01:21:27.132 --> 01:21:30.302
-There was this guy who
looked like a Ken doll.

01:21:30.302 --> 01:21:32.137
I would call him KD.

01:21:32.137 --> 01:21:36.057
and ask him if he was single.
-[laughs]

01:21:36.057 --> 01:21:37.893
-It was fun.
And then, like,

01:21:37.893 --> 01:21:41.980
I made him feel bad because
I kept asking him for pizza,

01:21:41.980 --> 01:21:44.733
and he's like, "Does this
look like, does this

01:21:44.733 --> 01:21:48.069
say like, 'Pizza Hut' like
on our sign on our door?"

01:21:48.069 --> 01:21:49.946
And I was like....
-"I don't know. I'm blind!"

01:21:49.946 --> 01:21:51.281
-"I don't know. I'm blind."
-[laughs]

01:21:51.281 --> 01:21:53.283
-And then all the people
who could see at the table

01:21:53.283 --> 01:21:55.952
was like, "Oh, he
turned really red."

01:21:55.952 --> 01:21:57.120
[laughter]

01:21:57.120 --> 01:21:59.581
-Give me five.
That's a good one.

01:21:59.581 --> 01:22:01.207
-He turned really red.
-Yes! Yes!

01:22:01.207 --> 01:22:03.335
-And he actually
found me my pizza.

01:22:03.335 --> 01:22:04.920
-Burn! There you go, girl.

01:22:04.920 --> 01:22:08.506
I think I guilted him into
finding me a pizza too.

01:22:08.506 --> 01:22:11.134
-PLAY THAT CARD!

01:22:12.010 --> 01:22:13.178
-Who wants a piña colada?

01:22:13.178 --> 01:22:14.554
-Piña colada!
-I need one.

01:22:14.554 --> 01:22:15.555
-All right.

01:22:15.555 --> 01:22:17.474
-[sings] If you
like piña coladas.

01:22:17.474 --> 01:22:18.475
-Let’s not do that.

01:22:18.475 --> 01:22:20.477
-[sings] And dancing
in the rain.

01:22:21.144 --> 01:22:27.150
[tender music soars,
happy chatting]

01:22:33.573 --> 01:22:39.579
[music floats, chats echo]

01:23:02.435 --> 01:23:06.439
[music fades to bus rumbling]

01:23:13.405 --> 01:23:15.865
REPORTER: And let's turn right
to Las Vegas, which has

01:23:15.865 --> 01:23:19.244
become the scene of the
deadliest mass shooting

01:23:19.244 --> 01:23:20.787
in modern U.S. history.

01:23:20.787 --> 01:23:24.457
More than 50 people are
confirmed dead after a gunman

01:23:24.457 --> 01:23:28.086
opened fire on a country music
concert on The Strip.

01:23:28.086 --> 01:23:30.922
More than 200 people,
we're told, have been wounded.

01:23:38.221 --> 01:23:39.389
[Pedro groans]

01:23:40.140 --> 01:23:41.558
PEDRO: Come on.

01:23:41.850 --> 01:23:44.561
So, this is a mental health
agency.

01:23:44.561 --> 01:23:47.731
Good portion of my clients
are undocumented people as well.

01:23:48.440 --> 01:23:52.277
Right now, we also serving
the Spanish speak-,

01:23:52.277 --> 01:23:56.072
uh, Spanish speaking,
Spanish speaking community

01:23:56.072 --> 01:24:00.160
that were involved
in the mass shooting.

01:24:00.160 --> 01:24:02.954
We're offering a
group crisis for them

01:24:02.954 --> 01:24:04.372
and also individual
counseling.

01:24:06.332 --> 01:24:08.835
-[SPA] Good morning.
-Hello, Pedro.

01:24:08.835 --> 01:24:10.837
Have you met Andrea or not?

01:24:10.837 --> 01:24:12.672
-Andrea?
-She's our new volunteer.

01:24:12.672 --> 01:24:14.674
-Hello, nice to meet you.
A pleasure.

01:24:14.674 --> 01:24:16.468
I'm Pedro.
-Hello. Likewise.

01:24:16.468 --> 01:24:20.930
-This is Pedro. He's a student,
studying social work.

01:24:20.930 --> 01:24:22.432
-Aha.
-How cool!

01:24:22.432 --> 01:24:25.852
-And he's doing his intensive
practicum with us.

01:24:25.852 --> 01:24:31.775
-If you want to practice,
this is the place to be.

01:24:31.775 --> 01:24:33.943
It's very, very good, and–

01:24:33.943 --> 01:24:37.614
and always, even though
I already have a patient,

01:24:37.614 --> 01:24:41.618
you feel supported by the,
by the... by the team,

01:24:41.618 --> 01:24:45.622
the other therapists,
and the clinical director.

01:24:45.622 --> 01:24:49.584
So, I'm never completely alone
with them. If I have any

01:24:49.584 --> 01:24:53.838
issue, I run to the clinical
director or anyone else because

01:24:53.838 --> 01:24:56.800
their doors are always open
for whatever I may need.

01:24:56.800 --> 01:24:57.967
It's great.
[laughs]

01:24:57.967 --> 01:24:59.677
-That's great, Pedro.
Thank you very much.

01:24:59.677 --> 01:25:03.223
We are so happy to have you.
-No, I'm the one who is–

01:25:03.223 --> 01:25:05.058
I can't–
I don't know how to–

01:25:05.058 --> 01:25:06.559
-Oh my, you're like
a telenovela–

01:25:06.559 --> 01:25:08.311
[Pedro pretends to cry]
-Ay!

01:25:08.311 --> 01:25:11.231
-Maria Guadalupe! [laughter]
-Like ‘La Rosa de Guadalupe’.

01:25:11.231 --> 01:25:13.024
-Well, we'll get going.
[laughs]

01:25:13.024 --> 01:25:14.025
Thank you. Excuse me.

01:25:14.025 --> 01:25:16.611
SET: Nice meeting you all.
-Same. Nice to meet you!

01:25:18.321 --> 01:25:20.406
PEDRO: So this is the kitchen.

01:25:21.157 --> 01:25:23.284
[door creaks]

01:25:25.245 --> 01:25:26.788
Coffee!
[chuckles]

01:25:32.043 --> 01:25:34.212
I take it straight.

01:25:34.212 --> 01:25:38.174
[coffee streams into cup]

01:25:46.057 --> 01:25:47.475
[Pedro sighs]

01:25:49.185 --> 01:25:51.271
PEDRO: Now I need to
charge my phone.

01:25:52.689 --> 01:25:56.401
We need to work
a little bit because

01:25:56.401 --> 01:25:58.444
I'm so behind on my paperwork.

01:26:00.905 --> 01:26:06.619
So we're gonna be here until
we go, until we get kicked out.

01:26:09.330 --> 01:26:16.129
My role is case management.
I link clients to resources

01:26:16.129 --> 01:26:17.672
that are in the community.

01:26:17.672 --> 01:26:21.092
I'm also a clinician
or a clinician in training,

01:26:21.092 --> 01:26:24.929
so I have a few clients
always under the supervision

01:26:24.929 --> 01:26:27.223
of a licensed
clinical social worker

01:26:27.223 --> 01:26:30.435
or other licensed
clinical professional.

01:26:30.435 --> 01:26:39.986
SCREEN READER: L...
F, L, E, P, A, F, C, G....

01:26:39.986 --> 01:26:41.154
[knock on the door]

01:26:41.154 --> 01:26:42.155
Yes?

01:26:42.155 --> 01:26:43.948
-Your appointment is here.
-Cool. Okie dokie.

01:26:55.835 --> 01:26:57.670
[door creaks open]

01:27:07.847 --> 01:27:09.265
PEDRO: And what happened?

01:27:09.265 --> 01:27:13.186
What were, what helped you to
overcome that panic attack?

01:27:18.524 --> 01:27:20.693
Trauma is real. Trauma is real.

01:27:20.693 --> 01:27:23.905
Now you’re constantly
in survival mode.

01:27:23.905 --> 01:27:25.240
You're just hyper vigilant.

01:27:25.240 --> 01:27:27.659
You're just expecting
something bad is gonna happen

01:27:27.659 --> 01:27:30.036
at any minute.
And you need to be guarded.

01:27:34.958 --> 01:27:38.169
I'm guessing that it must be
painful going over it.

01:27:38.711 --> 01:27:42.632
So probably it might
be a bit more...

01:27:42.632 --> 01:27:45.593
or less painful if
we do it together.

01:27:45.593 --> 01:27:49.889
That way you can actually
continue focusing on your,

01:27:49.889 --> 01:27:54.519
on your healing process
and be able to move on.

01:28:01.442 --> 01:28:05.446
[hand brushes wall, jeans swish]

01:28:10.285 --> 01:28:14.289
[sings quietly to himself]

01:28:21.671 --> 01:28:26.676
[steady traffic,
cane taps at intervals]

01:28:41.941 --> 01:28:47.947
[cane taps, traffic roars]

01:28:51.117 --> 01:28:55.121
[cars and trucks thunderous]

01:29:01.127 --> 01:29:04.505
[cane sweeps, slides]

01:29:04.505 --> 01:29:05.548
[cane bangs a pole]

01:29:05.548 --> 01:29:08.426
SET: Friend, you wanna move
closer to the left?

01:29:09.427 --> 01:29:12.221
Okay, so...
PEDRO: No.

01:29:12.221 --> 01:29:14.766
-You're just, okay. You're okay?
-Yeah, I'm okay.

01:29:14.766 --> 01:29:17.602
-Okay.
[cars roaring past]

01:29:18.811 --> 01:29:21.314
-Stick to your left!
-Left.

01:29:22.106 --> 01:29:23.483
Don't get run over!

01:29:24.942 --> 01:29:29.655
-According to me, I'm still
on the curb, no?

01:29:29.655 --> 01:29:31.074
-You are still on
the curb, yeah.

01:29:31.074 --> 01:29:34.952
Now I'm just like,
"AHHH!! Fast cars!"

01:29:34.952 --> 01:29:36.287
-Oh, okay, okay, yeah.

01:29:36.287 --> 01:29:39.999
I'm like wait a second!
I think I'm still on the curb.

01:29:44.170 --> 01:29:48.174
[vehicles roar, cane sweeps]

01:29:52.345 --> 01:29:56.349
[traffic quiets, crickets chirp]

01:30:00.603 --> 01:30:04.941
[serene music drifts,
traffic hums]

01:30:04.941 --> 01:30:08.069
[sigh]
I have a headache.

01:30:09.654 --> 01:30:12.031
I do need to sleep tonight
a little bit more.

01:30:14.492 --> 01:30:16.953
SET: How do you usually
process the things

01:30:16.953 --> 01:30:19.205
you experience at work?

01:30:20.206 --> 01:30:22.500
PEDRO: I usually go to
therapy as well.

01:30:23.501 --> 01:30:26.671
Therapists also have therapy.
[delighted laugh]

01:30:28.256 --> 01:30:30.633
Sometimes you just need
to take care of yourself.

01:30:32.468 --> 01:30:36.097
Eat some good food
or greasy food in my case.

01:30:40.476 --> 01:30:41.978
Distract yourself.
[yawning]

01:30:41.978 --> 01:30:45.106
Do something productive,
something meaningful.

01:30:47.150 --> 01:30:51.154
[serene music continues]

01:30:56.868 --> 01:30:59.871
[music fades into sizzling]

01:31:08.212 --> 01:31:13.968
MOM: [SPA] They were
present at the kid's funeral.

01:31:13.968 --> 01:31:18.681
PEDRO: Which kid was it?
MOM: Eric something?

01:31:18.681 --> 01:31:22.518
He was working
as a security...

01:31:22.518 --> 01:31:24.812
at the event.

01:31:24.812 --> 01:31:30.526
-And who did he save?
-He saved several people.

01:31:30.526 --> 01:31:33.279
But he was shot, and he died.

01:31:34.113 --> 01:31:36.115
He was 20 years old.

01:31:37.325 --> 01:31:39.368
Such a sad thing.

01:31:41.412 --> 01:31:44.540
And the thing is that
it was an Anglo-Saxon.

01:31:45.416 --> 01:31:47.710
I call them Anglo not American.
SET: Aha.

01:31:47.710 --> 01:31:50.505
-Because we are all American.

01:31:50.505 --> 01:31:53.299
We were all born
in the American continent.

01:31:53.299 --> 01:31:55.510
SET: Yeah. [laughs]
-Right?

01:31:56.469 --> 01:31:58.596
Or they're North Americans

01:31:58.596 --> 01:32:01.098
because they were
born in the North.

01:32:01.098 --> 01:32:06.229
I feel Mexican and very
proudly say I'm Mexican.

01:32:06.229 --> 01:32:08.272
[Tyler pants]

01:32:08.272 --> 01:32:11.984
PEDRO: Tyler, where are you
from? Where are you from?

01:32:11.984 --> 01:32:16.614
MOM: But, but also...
just how I love Mexico

01:32:16.614 --> 01:32:21.410
because I was born there,
I also love this country.

01:32:22.119 --> 01:32:29.919
Thanks to this country we have
met good people, angels,

01:32:29.919 --> 01:32:31.587
that have helped us.

01:32:33.798 --> 01:32:36.592
SET: It’s very complicated...
-What?

01:32:36.592 --> 01:32:42.098
-...being an immigrant.
[laughs]

01:32:42.098 --> 01:32:47.061
MOM: It is complicated because
you do miss your home country.

01:32:47.061 --> 01:32:48.688
SET: Yeah, right? Yeah!

01:32:48.688 --> 01:32:53.776
MOM: You miss the
traditions and food.

01:32:53.776 --> 01:32:55.403
-Mmhmm.

01:32:56.404 --> 01:33:04.328
-But unfortunately, in your
home country, you can't

01:33:04.328 --> 01:33:09.292
find the same opportunities
like in this country.

01:33:09.292 --> 01:33:10.793
SET: Aha.

01:33:10.793 --> 01:33:13.337
PEDRO: Ah!
[Set laughs]

01:33:13.337 --> 01:33:16.549
MOM: Look, Manuel,
don’t say ‘Ah’. [laughter]

01:33:16.549 --> 01:33:21.679
You are the one that has
enjoyed the most angels

01:33:21.679 --> 01:33:23.723
and blessings in your life.
Thanks be to God.

01:33:24.557 --> 01:33:26.892
-But the government hasn't
done much to help me.

01:33:26.892 --> 01:33:29.312
It has done the opposite.
-What did you say?

01:33:29.312 --> 01:33:32.148
-But the government
hasn't done much to help me.

01:33:32.148 --> 01:33:34.942
-True, but people
have helped you.

01:33:34.942 --> 01:33:37.236
-Yeah, the people,
not the country.

01:33:37.236 --> 01:33:39.071
-Yes, but they live
in this country.

01:33:40.072 --> 01:33:44.118
Oftentimes, in our country,
even when good people

01:33:44.118 --> 01:33:48.247
want to help you, they can't.

01:33:49.081 --> 01:33:52.251
They wouldn’t have been
able to help you.

01:33:54.503 --> 01:33:57.214
-Ah!
[TV plays nearby]

01:33:59.175 --> 01:34:04.388
[wind whips flags,
cords ring against poles]

01:34:05.389 --> 01:34:09.393
[text read aloud from
phone display]

01:34:12.938 --> 01:34:15.441
SET: Oh my gosh!
Almost there, friend.

01:34:16.317 --> 01:34:19.403
SET: After this, going home?
PEDRO: Most likely, yes.

01:34:19.403 --> 01:34:22.198
SET: [chuckles]
What a relief, right?

01:34:22.198 --> 01:34:24.867
PEDRO: What a relief.
It’s been a long day, man.

01:34:27.578 --> 01:34:28.454
-[SPA] Excuse me.

01:34:28.454 --> 01:34:30.915
Do you know if
someone told that person....

01:34:30.915 --> 01:34:32.708
-No, I think they haven’t.
-What’s your name?

01:34:32.708 --> 01:34:35.503
-We already asked, but no one
has helped us yet.

01:34:36.337 --> 01:34:38.089
-What’s your name?

01:34:39.090 --> 01:34:41.884
[voices echoing
throughout the office]

01:34:42.885 --> 01:34:44.261
-Pedro!
-Yeah.

01:34:44.970 --> 01:34:48.265
-It is essential that our
community advances

01:34:48.265 --> 01:34:51.477
in terms of education
if we want to have

01:34:51.477 --> 01:34:53.979
a more prominent place
in this society

01:34:53.979 --> 01:34:57.066
and correctly transmit
who we are,

01:34:57.066 --> 01:34:59.735
what we are doing,
and where we are going.

01:34:59.735 --> 01:35:01.529
That is the fundamental point.

01:35:01.529 --> 01:35:03.698
PEDRO: The majority of times,
I had a hard time being

01:35:03.698 --> 01:35:07.243
a full-time student
because it was very expensive.

01:35:07.243 --> 01:35:10.955
So, Professor Ezeta
told me about a scholarship

01:35:10.955 --> 01:35:13.708
that was given by
the Mexican consul.

01:35:15.334 --> 01:35:17.211
[doorbell rings]

01:35:17.920 --> 01:35:20.005
PROFESSOR: [SPA] Have
you told your parents?

01:35:20.005 --> 01:35:21.716
PEDRO: No, we were
waiting for you.

01:35:21.716 --> 01:35:24.009
DAD: He said, “Carlitos is
coming with some news."

01:35:24.009 --> 01:35:25.678
PROFE: You know I never
wake up early.

01:35:25.678 --> 01:35:26.721
PEDRO: Don’t worry, Carlos.

01:35:26.721 --> 01:35:30.015
PROFE: Pour some on this glass.
PEDRO: Let me get more cups.

01:35:30.015 --> 01:35:32.351
-Thanks, that’s all right.

01:35:33.352 --> 01:35:35.104
-I'll bring you
the orange juice.

01:35:35.104 --> 01:35:38.023
-Come sit down, ma’am.
Let's talk about this.

01:35:38.023 --> 01:35:39.358
MOM: Huh?

01:35:40.443 --> 01:35:43.946
PROFE: Come here, ma’am.
I'm waiting for you and Enrique.

01:35:43.946 --> 01:35:47.032
Last night I received a call
from the consul.

01:35:48.033 --> 01:35:52.997
Prior to this, I had already
discussed with the consul

01:35:52.997 --> 01:36:01.005
Elizondo Espinoza that I wanted
Pedro to graduate and

01:36:01.005 --> 01:36:06.927
that we had to do everything
to help with his tuition.

01:36:07.928 --> 01:36:14.810
Thanks to this meeting
they gave Pedro $5,000

01:36:14.810 --> 01:36:17.021
to finish his degree.

01:36:17.021 --> 01:36:20.524
The check will be cut on Monday.
-Wow!

01:36:21.150 --> 01:36:23.986
-This will go directly
to Pedro's schooling

01:36:23.986 --> 01:36:27.072
and whatever he
needs for tuition.

01:36:27.072 --> 01:36:32.328
They also want to continue
supporting him.

01:36:32.328 --> 01:36:38.459
He showed an interest
in a Master's Degree,

01:36:38.459 --> 01:36:40.753
but first a
Bachelor's Degree.

01:36:40.753 --> 01:36:47.843
This economic incentive
is a small piece of heaven

01:36:47.843 --> 01:36:49.011
so that he can graduate.

01:36:49.011 --> 01:36:51.555
DAD: This will give him
more space to breathe.

01:36:51.555 --> 01:36:53.307
-Yes, to breathe.
You can breathe.

01:36:53.307 --> 01:36:56.310
-Even though we don't say it,
there is the anguish...

01:36:56.310 --> 01:36:58.270
-I know. I realize that,
Enrique.

01:36:58.270 --> 01:37:01.482
-The anguish of knowing that the
payment date is approaching,

01:37:01.482 --> 01:37:04.735
and not having it.
And having to postpone

01:37:04.735 --> 01:37:08.280
a bit more like during
past semesters.

01:37:08.280 --> 01:37:11.242
Fortunately, with this, he will
have peace of mind.

01:37:11.242 --> 01:37:12.493
He’ll do his best.

01:37:12.493 --> 01:37:14.870
I know he'll get a good
grade point average.

01:37:14.870 --> 01:37:19.500
-I am what I am because of you.

01:37:19.500 --> 01:37:25.673
I wouldn't be who I am if it
were not for your teachings

01:37:25.673 --> 01:37:27.800
or your support.

01:37:27.800 --> 01:37:34.890
For always believing in me even
when I didn't believe in myself.

01:37:34.890 --> 01:37:37.476
You put your trust in me.

01:37:38.853 --> 01:37:41.355
You have been there
through the good,

01:37:41.355 --> 01:37:43.899
the bad, and the hardest times.

01:37:43.899 --> 01:37:49.363
You helped me get up
and keep going.

01:37:49.363 --> 01:37:51.907
I have no way to repay you.
I can’t...

01:37:52.616 --> 01:37:54.326
-I know that, Pedro.
-And...

01:37:54.326 --> 01:37:58.247
-The only favor I ask of you....

01:37:59.832 --> 01:38:03.919
You don’t owe me anything.
Absolutely nothing.

01:38:04.962 --> 01:38:06.922
[Pedro holds back sobs]

01:38:06.922 --> 01:38:15.431
When you see someone
less fortunate or lost,

01:38:15.431 --> 01:38:17.433
reach out to them.

01:38:18.976 --> 01:38:21.896
Because someone did that for me.

01:38:21.896 --> 01:38:24.899
Someone did it for the person
who helped me.

01:38:24.899 --> 01:38:27.151
It's an endless chain.

01:38:28.819 --> 01:38:29.820
Agreed?

01:38:32.990 --> 01:38:34.992
I love you.

01:38:35.576 --> 01:38:37.786
And the least I expect from you
is a Master's Degree.

01:38:37.786 --> 01:38:38.787
-Yes, of course.

01:38:38.787 --> 01:38:42.291
-The least I expect of you,
Master's Degree, the least.

01:38:42.291 --> 01:38:44.084
Ma'am, don't get up.

01:38:44.084 --> 01:38:49.715
-Pedro, you deserve a super big
hug. Very good job, Pedrito.

01:38:49.715 --> 01:38:51.675
PROFE: Congrats on your work
and sacrifices.

01:38:51.675 --> 01:38:54.011
Everything has its purpose.

01:38:56.013 --> 01:38:58.849
Don’t cry. Doooon't cry.

01:39:00.643 --> 01:39:03.479
We are all in this together.

01:39:11.236 --> 01:39:15.240
MOM: [whispers] See how
the Lord is always with you.

01:39:17.409 --> 01:39:22.915
When it's darkest, that’s
when the light comes out.

01:39:24.625 --> 01:39:27.169
[voice softening]
Listen to his messages.

01:39:27.169 --> 01:39:31.256
[voice fades to whisper,
slow, pensive music]

01:39:33.258 --> 01:39:37.930
SET: I always feel so confused
because there's so many

01:39:37.930 --> 01:39:39.515
people from our
community, right,

01:39:39.515 --> 01:39:44.687
that are just as worthy of
opportunities and support.

01:39:45.479 --> 01:39:49.858
But for some reason, I
couldn't help but feel that

01:39:49.858 --> 01:39:52.236
of all these people,
why me?

01:39:52.236 --> 01:39:54.738
I don’t know if any of this
resonates for you.

01:39:54.738 --> 01:39:58.492
PEDRO: Big time. To me there was
a big source of guilt.

01:39:58.492 --> 01:40:00.828
Especially when it's like,
“Hey! He’s blind,

01:40:00.828 --> 01:40:03.455
he's undocumented. Or he’s
going to college.

01:40:03.455 --> 01:40:06.083
He must be a saint.”
[scoffs]

01:40:07.084 --> 01:40:11.213
If you only knew
exactly who I am...

01:40:11.213 --> 01:40:13.590
would you be as kind with me?

01:40:15.426 --> 01:40:19.722
[wind chimes echo, music soars]

01:40:22.850 --> 01:40:27.146
[wind chimes, haunting melody]

01:40:29.023 --> 01:40:33.068
[Tyler laps water, music fades]

01:40:41.035 --> 01:40:43.037
PEDRO: [SPA] All right,
that's enough.

01:40:43.537 --> 01:40:46.832
Oh shit, my back.

01:40:49.835 --> 01:40:53.130
-How many are there?

01:40:53.130 --> 01:40:57.009
-We just need one more tray.

01:41:01.472 --> 01:41:04.725
[faucet runs]

01:41:04.725 --> 01:41:06.977
-There you go.
-All right, thank you.

01:41:06.977 --> 01:41:09.438
-Who is it for?
-It's for Grandma.

01:41:09.438 --> 01:41:11.774
GRANDMA: It's to soak
my fingers because...

01:41:11.774 --> 01:41:13.525
-Oh yes, right.

01:41:13.525 --> 01:41:15.319
-...the honey makes
the apples slip.

01:41:15.319 --> 01:41:18.030
I just need a little bit, sonny.

01:41:20.908 --> 01:41:22.910
Thank you.

01:41:24.703 --> 01:41:25.871
PEDRO: I'm going to
wash my hands

01:41:25.871 --> 01:41:27.539
so I can keep cutting apples.

01:41:30.250 --> 01:41:35.130
[ENG] My grandma and I,
we're preparing the apple salad.

01:41:38.842 --> 01:41:42.304
[knife slices apples,
clinks against cutting board]

01:41:44.306 --> 01:41:49.019
[quiet conversations
as knife slices]

01:41:50.020 --> 01:41:53.899
Finally, after seven years,
I'm graduating,

01:41:53.899 --> 01:41:56.276
and I still cannot believe it.

01:41:56.276 --> 01:41:59.780
It took me seven years
to finish my undergrad.

01:41:59.780 --> 01:42:02.241
That's why we're
making so much food,

01:42:02.241 --> 01:42:04.701
because tomorrow
we're gonna celebrate.

01:42:04.701 --> 01:42:06.829
SET: YEEEEEAH!
-Yes!

01:42:07.788 --> 01:42:11.041
The majority of my
classmates were super excited

01:42:11.041 --> 01:42:14.503
because yeah, "I'm gonna go
to grad school," like

01:42:14.503 --> 01:42:17.005
"I have all these options
to go to grad school."

01:42:17.005 --> 01:42:19.800
Or "I gonna start working
right away."

01:42:19.800 --> 01:42:24.930
Or they have all these plans,
and I don't know

01:42:24.930 --> 01:42:29.852
what I'm gonna do
since due to my situation,

01:42:29.852 --> 01:42:32.980
my alternatives,
my opportunities,

01:42:32.980 --> 01:42:35.107
opportunities are very limited.

01:42:35.107 --> 01:42:39.194
That's why I'm not super excited
about it because I don't know

01:42:39.194 --> 01:42:41.488
what's going to happen
after graduation.

01:42:43.699 --> 01:42:47.119
It's just like all these...

01:42:47.119 --> 01:42:49.788
sacrifices,
all this hard work...

01:42:51.290 --> 01:42:53.167
is it really gonna pay off?

01:42:53.167 --> 01:42:56.545
Sometimes...
I know that it will.

01:42:56.545 --> 01:42:59.047
Sooner or later it will,

01:42:59.047 --> 01:43:02.968
but definitely I have some
moments where I doubt,

01:43:02.968 --> 01:43:08.348
when I'm doubtful,
when I'm not sure if...

01:43:08.348 --> 01:43:10.684
if I wanna, if I'm gonna
be able to continue.

01:43:12.186 --> 01:43:18.358
[slicing apples as
conversations continue]

01:43:18.358 --> 01:43:20.360
-[SPA] I'll take some
from the tray, yeah?

01:43:20.360 --> 01:43:21.862
-Sure, no problem.

01:43:21.862 --> 01:43:23.030
Oh, dumbass!

01:43:31.371 --> 01:43:32.873
Did you see?

01:43:32.873 --> 01:43:34.374
-Huh?

01:43:34.374 --> 01:43:35.959
-You cut yourself?
-Yeah.

01:43:37.002 --> 01:43:41.089
[ENG] I cut myself with
a knife, so I need a bandaid.

01:43:45.677 --> 01:43:48.680
[faucet pours, dishes clink]

01:43:48.680 --> 01:43:50.515
PEDRO: This is the first
time that I have

01:43:50.515 --> 01:43:53.810
cut myself in a while.
SET: Wow.

01:43:53.810 --> 01:43:55.812
PEDRO: Like in years.

01:43:57.105 --> 01:43:59.775
So, it's probably because
I wasn't paying attention

01:43:59.775 --> 01:44:02.903
'cause I, I'm usually
very careful

01:44:02.903 --> 01:44:04.947
when I'm cooking.

01:44:04.947 --> 01:44:07.908
But this time, I don't know.
I just got distracted and....

01:44:11.703 --> 01:44:12.996
[SPA] Thank you.

01:44:12.996 --> 01:44:14.873
It doesn't have blood anymore.
I promise.

01:44:14.873 --> 01:44:16.875
[laughter]

01:44:17.459 --> 01:44:19.002
GRANDMA: Pass me
another one, son.

01:44:19.002 --> 01:44:21.004
PEDRO: Which one, love?

01:44:21.004 --> 01:44:23.215
-Ah, there's another
tray of apples.

01:44:23.215 --> 01:44:25.300
-What? There are
still more apples?

01:44:25.300 --> 01:44:26.134
-Yes.

01:44:26.134 --> 01:44:27.511
Watch out.
I'm crossing over you.

01:44:27.511 --> 01:44:28.887
Okay.
[laughter]

01:44:28.887 --> 01:44:31.556
-You thought that was it?
-I thought I was done.

01:44:31.556 --> 01:44:33.517
-Not at all, sweetie.

01:44:33.517 --> 01:44:35.477
SET: [ENG] Girl, you're
barely getting started.

01:44:35.477 --> 01:44:37.854
PEDRO: [SPA] Yes.
[laughter]

01:44:38.939 --> 01:44:42.359
[delicate, reverberating music]

01:44:44.486 --> 01:44:47.489
[music sweeps and soars]

01:44:50.409 --> 01:44:53.662
PEDRO: [ENG] Too many
accessories.

01:44:53.662 --> 01:44:55.706
I'm not sure where they go.

01:45:00.669 --> 01:45:01.878
Okay?

01:45:04.047 --> 01:45:05.841
So, now we
have to do Tyler's.

01:45:05.841 --> 01:45:07.843
SET: Oh, wow!

01:45:08.844 --> 01:45:12.097
DAD: [SPA] Ready
for the picture, Tyler? [laughs]

01:45:13.515 --> 01:45:16.643
GRANDMA: May God be with you.

01:45:26.069 --> 01:45:30.073
[light voices,
gently pulsing music]

01:45:31.074 --> 01:45:34.077
[Mom's breath catches
as she holds back tears]

01:45:38.081 --> 01:45:42.085
[Dad pats Pedro on the back]

01:45:47.132 --> 01:45:49.634
MOM: They want us to take
a photo before leaving.

01:45:49.634 --> 01:45:52.137
DAD: Shoot, I didn't
brush my hair. [laughs]

01:45:52.137 --> 01:45:54.014
-You should stand over there.

01:45:58.477 --> 01:46:00.729
-Do you have time?
-I'm not sure.

01:46:01.938 --> 01:46:04.524
I don't even
know the time, Auntie.

01:46:04.524 --> 01:46:07.319
-It's 8:00.
[music fades]

01:46:07.319 --> 01:46:09.321
SET: All right. [laughs]

01:46:09.321 --> 01:46:11.031
DAD: [SPA] Tyler, ready
for the picture?

01:46:16.119 --> 01:46:20.791
[guitars bring in
an upbeat melody]

01:46:20.791 --> 01:46:24.795
[trumpets join in a
lively mariachi song]

01:46:33.261 --> 01:46:40.602
Pole! Pole! Pole!
Pedro! Pedro! Pedro!

01:46:40.602 --> 01:46:43.647
-Wooo! Take off your clothes!

01:46:45.190 --> 01:46:47.192
[a festive ballad plays]

01:46:47.192 --> 01:46:49.111
-Congratulations, Pedro!

01:46:49.111 --> 01:46:51.238
Let’s go for the Master's!

01:46:51.613 --> 01:46:53.031
-Master's program!

01:46:54.282 --> 01:46:55.492
-[SPA] A Master's
Program!

01:46:55.492 --> 01:46:57.369
[festive music]

01:46:57.369 --> 01:46:59.246
-Master's, Set!

01:46:59.246 --> 01:47:04.084
Next project! Pedro's MSW:
Master's in Social Work.

01:47:04.918 --> 01:47:07.129
Yeah! Cheers!

01:47:07.129 --> 01:47:09.005
Pedro for Governor!

01:47:09.005 --> 01:47:11.675
Pedro for Governor of Toluca!
[applause]

01:47:14.636 --> 01:47:19.558
♪ Because where I go,
I will talk about your love ♪

01:47:19.558 --> 01:47:23.895
♪ I will talk about your love ♪

01:47:23.895 --> 01:47:27.649
♪ And forgetting the grudge, ♪

01:47:27.649 --> 01:47:30.444
♪ I will not say that your
goodbye ♪

01:47:30.444 --> 01:47:37.367
♪ It made me... miserable! ♪

01:47:43.707 --> 01:47:46.626
[quiet birdsong,
distant barking dogs]

01:47:54.634 --> 01:47:59.139
[voices praying softly
in Spanish]

01:48:02.267 --> 01:48:04.603
MOM: Hail Mary, full of grace,

01:48:04.603 --> 01:48:08.148
the Lord is with you;
blessed are you among women,

01:48:08.148 --> 01:48:10.692
and blessed is the fruit
of your womb, Jesus.

01:48:10.692 --> 01:48:15.197
ALL: Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now

01:48:15.197 --> 01:48:17.741
and at the hour of
our death. Amen.

01:48:17.741 --> 01:48:21.244
MOM: Hail Mary, full of grace,
the Lord is with you;

01:48:21.244 --> 01:48:23.580
blessed are you among women,

01:48:23.580 --> 01:48:26.124
and blessed is the fruit
of your womb, Jesus.

01:48:26.833 --> 01:48:28.710
SET: Pedro, it’s been
a few years

01:48:28.710 --> 01:48:31.213
since we’ve last spoken, huh?

01:48:32.547 --> 01:48:34.549
How have you been?

01:48:35.175 --> 01:48:36.510
PEDRO: [sighs]

01:48:38.428 --> 01:48:41.890
My grandma passed in 2018.

01:48:42.891 --> 01:48:45.769
And that created a trauma to me.

01:48:48.146 --> 01:48:51.733
She was already feeling sick
two weeks prior of her passing.

01:48:55.028 --> 01:48:59.282
Instead of slowing down,
prioritizing

01:48:59.282 --> 01:49:02.827
my family over anything else,

01:49:02.827 --> 01:49:06.998
I decided to go to
school on a Sunday...

01:49:06.998 --> 01:49:09.125
to study, to prepare
for a final.

01:49:13.588 --> 01:49:15.215
And I wasn't there.

01:49:16.216 --> 01:49:19.844
[somber, aching music]

01:49:19.844 --> 01:49:22.847
And a semester later,
I got my Master's.

01:49:26.268 --> 01:49:30.855
That made me wonder
what I was doing with my life.

01:49:30.855 --> 01:49:33.775
Is it because I
really wanted to?

01:49:35.902 --> 01:49:38.905
Was it because it was
being imposed to me?

01:49:38.905 --> 01:49:41.074
Or simply I was
just trying to survive?

01:49:41.074 --> 01:49:42.367
I don’t know.

01:49:43.618 --> 01:49:47.956
Many times I thought about just
going to sleep and never...

01:49:47.956 --> 01:49:49.749
wake up again.

01:49:49.749 --> 01:49:51.626
I was aware
that if I ever did something

01:49:51.626 --> 01:49:54.838
like that, I was gonna destroy
my mom and my dad.

01:49:55.964 --> 01:49:59.384
So, I didn't have the
heart to do something like that.

01:50:02.679 --> 01:50:06.141
So... I found a different way.

01:50:12.897 --> 01:50:18.069
[music fades, feet crunch
on the sand]

01:50:24.909 --> 01:50:28.705
[steps crunch on rocky sand]

01:50:28.705 --> 01:50:31.458
COACH: So we go through here.
There's a lotta big rocks.

01:50:31.458 --> 01:50:33.084
I’ll try to walk you
around them.

01:50:33.084 --> 01:50:35.211
-It’s all right.

01:50:36.212 --> 01:50:38.965
[chatting quietly,
footsteps crunch sand]

01:50:40.216 --> 01:50:43.678
PEDRO: Ooh. Ooh, ooh.
COACH: Say what?

01:50:43.678 --> 01:50:46.139
PEDRO: It's just that
it's very sinky.

01:50:46.139 --> 01:50:48.058
-Yeah, just be very careful
with your steps.

01:50:48.892 --> 01:50:51.227
Don't commit to anything.
-I'll try not to.

01:50:51.227 --> 01:50:53.188
-All right. We're coming up
on some crazy rocks.

01:50:53.188 --> 01:50:55.190
Do you wanna go to belly?
-Yeah, I’m gonna go to belly.

01:50:55.190 --> 01:50:56.941
-All right.

01:50:56.941 --> 01:51:00.862
[Coach grunts and sighs]

01:51:00.862 --> 01:51:05.116
[water burbling and bubbling]

01:51:05.116 --> 01:51:09.496
[voices muffled by
the rippling water]

01:51:18.630 --> 01:51:25.679
[water sloshes and bubbles
as arms and legs slice through]

01:51:33.520 --> 01:51:38.525
[bright music builds
over rumbling water]

01:51:47.534 --> 01:51:51.538
[music continues,
bike chain whirs]

01:51:55.166 --> 01:51:56.543
COACH: We've actually
become quite famous.

01:51:56.543 --> 01:51:58.128
I go into a lot of
the running stores,

01:51:58.128 --> 01:51:59.921
like the bike store and stuff
around there.

01:51:59.921 --> 01:52:01.631
And a lot of people will see me
when I go in there,

01:52:01.631 --> 01:52:03.758
and they're like,
“Oh, you're Pedro's guide.”

01:52:03.758 --> 01:52:05.343
And I'm like, “Yeah.
I also have a name. It's Chris,

01:52:05.343 --> 01:52:07.929
but Pedro's guide
works.” [laughs]

01:52:07.929 --> 01:52:09.180
So it works. You kinda
made us famous.

01:52:09.180 --> 01:52:10.390
PEDRO: Yeah.

01:52:10.390 --> 01:52:11.933
COACH: And everyone's always
yelling "Team Pedro."

01:52:11.933 --> 01:52:13.935
So we decided on
our 50K, last time,

01:52:13.935 --> 01:52:16.354
that he and I
together are Team Pedro.

01:52:16.354 --> 01:52:17.689
PEDRO: Yeah, we're just one.

01:52:17.689 --> 01:52:19.399
-Because together,
he's just Pedro.

01:52:19.399 --> 01:52:21.818
Or with both of us,
we're Team Pedro.

01:52:21.818 --> 01:52:23.445
-Team Pedro.
-Yeah.

01:52:25.613 --> 01:52:27.031
COACH: Forward!

01:52:28.575 --> 01:52:31.369
[music dances and flits]

01:52:32.454 --> 01:52:34.706
COACH: All right.

01:52:34.706 --> 01:52:35.665
Big bump!

01:52:35.665 --> 01:52:36.875
Bump!

01:52:36.875 --> 01:52:38.501
PEDRO: Got it.
COACH: Awesome!

01:52:38.501 --> 01:52:40.211
There’s gonna be a big bump
in just a little bit.

01:52:40.211 --> 01:52:42.213
We're gonna pedal
a few times.

01:52:42.756 --> 01:52:45.717
[breeze blows softly]

01:52:46.551 --> 01:52:48.845
[fast breathing, rapid steps]

01:52:49.846 --> 01:52:52.098
PEDRO: Running grounds me.

01:52:52.098 --> 01:52:54.851
It helps me to
reconnect with the present.

01:52:56.311 --> 01:52:58.772
The depression didn't go away.

01:52:58.772 --> 01:53:00.356
The anger didn't go away.

01:53:01.691 --> 01:53:06.070
But at least I learned
how to better cope with it.

01:53:07.071 --> 01:53:10.950
Just focusing on
what's in front of me.

01:53:10.950 --> 01:53:13.203
Putting one foot
in front of the other.

01:53:14.621 --> 01:53:18.416
[steady breathing,
music continues]

01:53:18.416 --> 01:53:21.961
SET: Pedro, you know,
when I was younger

01:53:21.961 --> 01:53:25.548
I thought that I could do
anything and be anything.

01:53:27.008 --> 01:53:30.553
But as I've gotten older,

01:53:30.553 --> 01:53:34.766
sometimes I reflect on
how powerless I can be

01:53:34.766 --> 01:53:38.102
over the circumstances
of my life,

01:53:38.102 --> 01:53:41.231
over the things
even that I feel in my chest

01:53:41.231 --> 01:53:43.316
and don't understand.

01:53:44.025 --> 01:53:46.444
I feel so confused
and suffocated.

01:53:47.237 --> 01:53:50.114
It's like I'm drowning in an
ocean that's out of my control.

01:53:51.115 --> 01:53:53.868
PEDRO: That's why I hate
to think about my future.

01:53:54.869 --> 01:53:58.331
I cannot go any higher when it
comes to my education.

01:53:58.331 --> 01:54:01.334
I got my Master's.
I got my license.

01:54:02.293 --> 01:54:04.796
But I cannot work.

01:54:04.796 --> 01:54:06.548
I'm stuck.

01:54:06.548 --> 01:54:08.216
I'm stuck in the limbo.

01:54:09.133 --> 01:54:11.219
And it's unjust.

01:54:11.219 --> 01:54:15.765
I believe that we all
should have that ability

01:54:15.765 --> 01:54:17.892
of dreaming about our futures.

01:54:18.893 --> 01:54:20.687
[water burbles, Pedro sighs]

01:54:21.729 --> 01:54:24.732
[water rushing from faucet]

01:54:29.028 --> 01:54:31.698
SCREEN READER:
Menu. Quick Help. Take picture.

01:54:31.698 --> 01:54:34.033
button, channel, document.

01:54:34.033 --> 01:54:36.661
Adjusted.
Top edge not visible.

01:54:37.787 --> 01:54:39.622
Left edge not visible.

01:54:41.082 --> 01:54:43.084
Top left corner not visible.

01:54:44.502 --> 01:54:47.130
Hold steady.
[camera clicks]

01:54:47.130 --> 01:54:49.132
Processing.
[chimes]

01:54:51.050 --> 01:54:55.555
Back. Scan result. Fresh,
organic, white mushrooms.

01:54:55.555 --> 01:54:56.598
PEDRO: Ohhh!

01:54:57.473 --> 01:54:59.350
Okay, we're gonna
use these ones.

01:55:02.312 --> 01:55:09.152
[knife scrapes, clicks board]

01:55:10.153 --> 01:55:13.114
[song plays faintly
through earbuds]

01:55:13.114 --> 01:55:16.618
♪ [SPA] My sadness
is mine and it's alone ♪

01:55:18.328 --> 01:55:23.374
♪ I don't want consolation
No, no, no, I won't cry ♪

01:55:23.374 --> 01:55:26.753
♪ My sadness is mine
and nothing else ♪

01:55:26.753 --> 01:55:28.338
[song plays at full volume]

01:55:28.338 --> 01:55:31.674
♪ I don't believe in anything
anymore, not even in flowers ♪

01:55:33.301 --> 01:55:36.429
♪ I want to sink alone
in the city ♪

01:55:38.306 --> 01:55:43.478
♪ Its platform is better
I lived in solitude ♪

01:55:43.478 --> 01:55:46.773
♪ My sadness is mine
and nothing else ♪

01:55:48.107 --> 01:55:51.069
♪ My sadness is mine
and nothing else ♪

01:55:51.986 --> 01:55:52.987
PEDRO: Mm, mm, mm!

01:55:52.987 --> 01:55:56.282
♪ My sadness is mine
and it's alone ♪

01:55:58.076 --> 01:56:03.164
♪ I don't want consolation
No, no, no I will not cry ♪

01:56:03.164 --> 01:56:07.085
♪ My sadness is mine
and nothing else ♪

01:56:14.801 --> 01:56:18.221
[music fades]
Okay. All right.

01:56:23.142 --> 01:56:25.269
[SPA] Dinner is ready!

01:56:32.944 --> 01:56:36.823
DAD: It's really good.
I loved it.

01:56:36.823 --> 01:56:38.825
It's so good.

01:56:41.077 --> 01:56:43.287
Is there enough for
lunch tomorrow?

01:56:43.287 --> 01:56:45.665
-Yeah. You can take some.

01:56:45.665 --> 01:56:49.919
-I think I am.
I gotta take care of it.

01:56:49.919 --> 01:56:52.171
Because everyone's gonna want.

01:56:56.426 --> 01:56:58.386
The salad is good too.

01:56:58.386 --> 01:57:01.556
-Yeah, the salad
dressing is good.

01:57:01.848 --> 01:57:03.599
DAD: Really good, Pedro!

01:57:03.599 --> 01:57:05.351
MOM: The best thing
Pedro cooks....

01:57:05.351 --> 01:57:07.103
Everything he cooks
is delicious.

01:57:07.103 --> 01:57:13.276
But something I really
enjoyed was when

01:57:13.276 --> 01:57:18.614
he brought veal ribs.

01:57:19.824 --> 01:57:22.952
And he cooked in the oven
with white wine.

01:57:24.579 --> 01:57:34.172
And on the side he prepared
asparagus and mushrooms.

01:57:34.172 --> 01:57:36.007
It was delicious.

01:57:36.007 --> 01:57:39.343
[Tyler pants under the table]

01:57:39.343 --> 01:57:41.679
SET: [SPA] When I met Sandy,

01:57:41.679 --> 01:57:52.273
she said it was hard for you
to let Pedro be independent.

01:57:52.273 --> 01:57:55.943
DAD: It's a hard process
because, you know, as a parent,

01:57:55.943 --> 01:58:02.658
you're always worried
about your child's future.

01:58:03.201 --> 01:58:09.290
You're especially worried about
their financial independence.

01:58:10.333 --> 01:58:14.087
But it's been a positive change.

01:58:14.087 --> 01:58:20.384
It hasn't been easy, but those
hard lessons have taught him

01:58:20.384 --> 01:58:26.265
to be stronger and better
at what he does.

01:58:27.975 --> 01:58:36.025
MOM: Our main worry
was for him to be

01:58:36.025 --> 01:58:38.069
independent and self-sufficient.

01:58:39.403 --> 01:58:43.074
It is not that we
belittled him.

01:58:44.367 --> 01:58:51.958
Because we have always known
about Pedro's potential.

01:58:53.334 --> 01:58:57.630
And with God's blessing,

01:58:57.630 --> 01:59:04.095
we will continue enjoying his
achievements and triumphs.

01:59:05.888 --> 01:59:14.814
As well as his worries.

01:59:14.814 --> 01:59:16.816
[chair scrapes floor]

01:59:19.986 --> 01:59:22.989
[Tyler pants]

01:59:35.459 --> 01:59:40.464
[Tyler pants, Mom takes
shuffling steps]

01:59:42.466 --> 01:59:46.512
MOM: These are the tulips my son
gave me for Mother's Day.

01:59:46.512 --> 01:59:49.473
-And I brought her these.
-I want to plant them.

01:59:49.473 --> 01:59:52.226
-Yes, or they're gonna get
withered. [laughter]

01:59:52.226 --> 01:59:54.270
-They are so beautiful.

02:00:01.527 --> 02:00:04.155
SCREEN READER: Main landmark.
Heading level 1: Welcome to

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Grad Com. Welcome to Grad Com.

02:00:06.365 --> 02:00:08.910
This application is blank.
Content info.

02:00:08.910 --> 02:00:10.578
Landmark list with four items.

02:00:10.578 --> 02:00:11.829
Link: Correct this info.

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Out of tab. Collapse.
0/1 sections completed. 0/1.

02:00:16.417 --> 02:00:17.919
-Oops
-I'm sorry!

02:00:17.919 --> 02:00:20.254
[Pedro and Set laugh,
screen reader continues]

02:00:20.254 --> 02:00:24.508
SET: I'm so sorry, Pedro.
No, it's on me. It's not you!

02:00:24.508 --> 02:00:26.802
PEDRO: I honestly didn't
see you there.

02:00:26.802 --> 02:00:28.512
But that's expected.
[laughing]

02:00:28.512 --> 02:00:30.848
SET: No, no, I got
too close for comfort.

02:00:30.848 --> 02:00:33.517
I'm so sorry. That was on me.

02:00:33.517 --> 02:00:35.436
[Pedro laughs]

02:00:35.436 --> 02:00:37.480
I didn't sense you. My bad!

02:00:39.315 --> 02:00:42.068
[screen reader continues]

02:00:42.068 --> 02:00:44.570
SET: Pedro, can I ask you
how you feel now that

02:00:44.570 --> 02:00:48.491
you have been out of school
for a second?

02:00:49.408 --> 02:00:52.828
PEDRO: I cannot help to feel
somewhat mad and upset

02:00:52.828 --> 02:00:55.623
just because
why things have to be so hard.

02:00:56.958 --> 02:01:00.086
Why cannot be just like...?

02:01:03.339 --> 02:01:05.049
[heavy sigh]

02:01:05.925 --> 02:01:09.512
And why cannot have the same
chances that other people?

02:01:10.763 --> 02:01:13.683
But then I start wondering.
It's like,

02:01:13.683 --> 02:01:17.186
if I did have the chances...

02:01:17.186 --> 02:01:20.398
would I, would I have
actually...

02:01:21.649 --> 02:01:26.445
taken good advantage,
taken advantage of them?

02:01:27.488 --> 02:01:29.156
I dunno.

02:01:30.157 --> 02:01:31.492
SET: Do you feel like

02:01:31.492 --> 02:01:35.288
there's such a thing
as romanticizing struggle?

02:01:35.288 --> 02:01:37.581
PEDRO: There is,
but at the same time,

02:01:37.581 --> 02:01:40.293
sometimes I feel that...

02:01:41.127 --> 02:01:43.546
that's the only thing
that we have

02:01:43.546 --> 02:01:45.256
to make sense out of it.

02:01:45.256 --> 02:01:48.843
'Cause otherwise, I don't know
if I will be able to...

02:01:50.011 --> 02:01:53.973
to bear the frustration of...

02:01:53.973 --> 02:01:58.519
of how unjust
my situation is

02:01:58.519 --> 02:02:00.521
and the situation
of many people.

02:02:03.357 --> 02:02:05.901
And I hate that narrative
of like the good,

02:02:05.901 --> 02:02:07.611
I'm the good immigrant.

02:02:08.696 --> 02:02:11.532
Yes, I'm here.
I was able to make it this far.

02:02:11.532 --> 02:02:14.410
But how many people
have to sacrifice

02:02:14.410 --> 02:02:16.871
for me to get a chance?

02:02:16.871 --> 02:02:19.999
My parents had to
pretty much pawn their future.

02:02:20.875 --> 02:02:22.918
Yes, I got a chance.

02:02:23.794 --> 02:02:25.588
To what price?

02:02:25.588 --> 02:02:27.256
Yes, I got here
for what’s the price

02:02:27.256 --> 02:02:29.884
that my family
had to pay for me to be here?

02:02:30.885 --> 02:02:33.929
They are in their 60s.

02:02:33.929 --> 02:02:36.307
They can no longer work,

02:02:36.307 --> 02:02:38.434
and they don't have a future.

02:02:39.352 --> 02:02:43.439
And what breaks me is the fact
that they're okay with it

02:02:43.439 --> 02:02:45.441
because they wanted
to do everything

02:02:45.441 --> 02:02:49.153
that was in their power
for me to get a chance

02:02:49.153 --> 02:02:51.405
for me to do something
with my life.

02:02:51.405 --> 02:02:53.074
Despite that they
are not gonna count

02:02:53.074 --> 02:03:00.247
with a retirement plan
or health care

02:03:00.247 --> 02:03:03.876
or even a roof over their heads,

02:03:03.876 --> 02:03:07.838
and they're okay with it, and
they're not even expecting me

02:03:07.838 --> 02:03:10.674
to cover
those expenses for them.

02:03:11.467 --> 02:03:14.470
They're just happy that
they got me a chance.

02:03:18.516 --> 02:03:20.184
[long, heavy sigh]

02:03:23.896 --> 02:03:25.898
The air got too heavy.
[chuckles]

02:03:28.901 --> 02:03:30.403
Too real.

02:03:31.654 --> 02:03:33.697
Too fucking real.

02:03:37.368 --> 02:03:38.744
You know?

02:03:38.744 --> 02:03:41.247
Sometimes
I would just like to give up.

02:03:42.415 --> 02:03:46.377
Sometimes I would just
like to stay in bed...

02:03:48.587 --> 02:03:52.007
don't give a crap
about anything.

02:03:52.007 --> 02:03:54.385
Just let things flow.

02:03:54.385 --> 02:03:56.178
Let things be.

02:03:57.471 --> 02:04:01.308
But it's so interesting that
we don't even get the chance.

02:04:01.308 --> 02:04:03.853
We don't get the luxury
of giving up.

02:04:06.981 --> 02:04:10.109
Or, or do we?
Do we get that option?

02:04:16.031 --> 02:04:17.116
I dunno.

02:04:18.951 --> 02:04:23.581
[heavy sigh] I just need to
stop drinking coffee

02:04:23.581 --> 02:04:25.583
because it makes me

02:04:25.583 --> 02:04:27.293
rambling about life.

02:04:27.293 --> 02:04:29.211
SCREEN READER: Link instructions
and link note.

02:04:29.211 --> 02:04:32.256
Out of list, Pedro,
content, list with four...

02:04:34.300 --> 02:04:38.929
[gentle music, birdsong,
sweeping canes]

02:04:39.388 --> 02:04:41.390
-What up with your, boyfriend?

02:04:41.390 --> 02:04:43.601
Why's he getting all moody?

02:04:43.601 --> 02:04:46.812
-I don't know. Like I said, I
attract the weird ones. [laughs]

02:04:46.812 --> 02:04:48.939
-I know. But you're
such a sweetheart.

02:04:48.939 --> 02:04:50.941
I cannot believe they're going—
-Maybe that's why.

02:04:50.941 --> 02:04:53.694
That's what my mom says.
She said, "You're too nice!"

02:04:54.820 --> 02:04:56.447
-Oh, yeah.
-[laughs]

02:04:56.447 --> 02:04:59.200
-I can see that
being an issue sometimes.

02:05:01.660 --> 02:05:03.871
PEDRO: I never been
in a committed relationship.

02:05:05.122 --> 02:05:07.541
I thought it was a blind thing.

02:05:07.541 --> 02:05:10.336
I thought it was just me
because I was blind.

02:05:10.336 --> 02:05:13.005
I felt that that had something
to do with that

02:05:13.005 --> 02:05:15.132
feeling of unworthiness.

02:05:15.132 --> 02:05:19.929
But as life progressed,
and as you're starting to

02:05:19.929 --> 02:05:23.807
connect and interact
with other blind individuals,

02:05:23.807 --> 02:05:28.062
you understand that
everyone, everyone

02:05:28.062 --> 02:05:31.273
is capable of having
a healthy relationship.

02:05:31.273 --> 02:05:37.154
So that got me thinking
that it's not a blind thing.

02:05:37.154 --> 02:05:39.448
It was more like
a Pedro’s thing.

02:05:39.448 --> 02:05:41.825
And me having to work
on my own demons.

02:05:43.702 --> 02:05:47.373
SET: You know, Pedro, it's so
interesting that there are

02:05:47.373 --> 02:05:52.419
so many parallels between your
experience and my experience

02:05:52.419 --> 02:05:57.383
when it comes to romantic
relationships or even sex.

02:05:57.383 --> 02:06:01.095
Because for me, as a
queer person who grew up

02:06:01.095 --> 02:06:04.807
in the church,
shame and fear were

02:06:04.807 --> 02:06:08.060
pretty much the defining
traumas of my life.

02:06:08.060 --> 02:06:10.271
PEDRO: I can definitely
relate to that.

02:06:11.647 --> 02:06:14.275
I guess that's the
next step in my healing now.

02:06:15.150 --> 02:06:19.321
Being okay and being comfortable
letting someone love me...

02:06:19.321 --> 02:06:21.323
and being able to love
someone else.

02:06:25.119 --> 02:06:27.454
-I don't know!
I wish guys were just easy.

02:06:27.454 --> 02:06:30.749
“I like you, do you like me?”
If only it was like that.

02:06:31.542 --> 02:06:32.209
Yeah.

02:06:32.209 --> 02:06:34.545
-But it seems so easy
for other people.

02:06:34.545 --> 02:06:38.215
When you have a disability,
it just adds to the difficulty.

02:06:38.215 --> 02:06:40.968
-It does. And I also feel that

02:06:40.968 --> 02:06:44.722
it has a lot to do
with the body language,

02:06:44.722 --> 02:06:46.432
not being able to
read body language.

02:06:46.432 --> 02:06:48.934
-Maybe. I didn't think of that!

02:06:48.934 --> 02:06:52.438
-Yeah, cause we don't know
if you're making any...

02:06:52.438 --> 02:06:54.607
rolling their eyes or...?

02:06:54.607 --> 02:06:56.817
Ok. How do you know when
I'm into somebody?

02:06:56.817 --> 02:06:59.862
-I don't know. I just can tell.
-You can just sense it?

02:06:59.862 --> 02:07:00.487
-Yeah.

02:07:00.487 --> 02:07:02.615
It's like certain things
that you say,

02:07:02.615 --> 02:07:06.452
like, and how you say them.
-Oh! Interesting.

02:07:06.452 --> 02:07:08.829
All right, all right.
All right.

02:07:09.830 --> 02:07:13.834
[live music fades]

02:07:16.170 --> 02:07:18.339
-Back up, back up,
back up, back up.

02:07:20.257 --> 02:07:22.718
Ok, sweep that cane.

02:07:22.718 --> 02:07:24.887
I want you to find
every obstacle.

02:07:25.679 --> 02:07:30.684
[white cane hits metal rail]

02:07:30.684 --> 02:07:32.686
-Can I touch it?
-Yeah!

02:07:32.686 --> 02:07:34.938
Now, that could be a person.
-Oh!

02:07:34.938 --> 02:07:37.691
-You would be touching
their rear end.

02:07:37.691 --> 02:07:39.943
-[laughs]
-Just saying realistically!

02:07:39.943 --> 02:07:41.862
Learn to use your cane.
[laughter]

02:07:41.862 --> 02:07:44.823
And figure out which way
to go around the chairs.

02:07:45.491 --> 02:07:48.410
-Okay.
-Use the tip of your cane

02:07:48.410 --> 02:07:52.122
and feel so that you know
where the path is clear.

02:07:53.540 --> 02:07:55.668
PEDRO: This is where
the fun begins,

02:07:55.668 --> 02:07:58.671
for some people.
For some others, probably not.

02:07:59.338 --> 02:08:02.132
But all right.
So, we're on our way.

02:08:02.132 --> 02:08:04.593
On our path, there are gonna
be some obstacles.

02:08:05.511 --> 02:08:08.931
So, I want you to go

02:08:08.931 --> 02:08:14.436
swipe left and right, cover
from shoulder to shoulder,

02:08:14.436 --> 02:08:16.897
just to see if we
can find our obstacles.

02:08:17.898 --> 02:08:20.442
[cane slides on floor,
bangs obstacle]

02:08:20.442 --> 02:08:22.778
Okay, now, you know that
the obstacle is to your left.

02:08:22.778 --> 02:08:25.072
So we're gonna stay
to our right

02:08:25.072 --> 02:08:26.657
just to make sure
to avoid the obstacle.

02:08:27.658 --> 02:08:28.867
I just want you to...

02:08:28.867 --> 02:08:30.494
-Here's an obstacle.
-Yeah.

02:08:30.494 --> 02:08:33.789
So, now just go to the right.
[cane hits objects]

02:08:34.790 --> 02:08:37.668
So, imagine there are a bunch
of drunk people on the road.

02:08:37.668 --> 02:08:39.920
So, you just start
to go around them. [chuckles]

02:08:42.089 --> 02:08:44.466
Hey, man!
You're doing quite good.

02:08:45.384 --> 02:08:47.469
I almost killed myself
the first time that I did it.

02:08:47.469 --> 02:08:50.764
-[laughs] Thank you, Pedro.
-I got you, buddy.

02:08:55.436 --> 02:08:57.938
-Should we do some Braille?
-Go give it a try!

02:08:57.938 --> 02:08:59.982
-We can do some Braille.
-Ok.

02:09:05.738 --> 02:09:07.865
-Dot one.
-Mmhmm.

02:09:08.365 --> 02:09:11.243
-Dot two?
-Mmhmm.

02:09:13.245 --> 02:09:14.913
-And dot four.

02:09:17.541 --> 02:09:19.293
-And dot five.
-Mmhmm!

02:09:19.293 --> 02:09:21.503
-So it's a "G."
-Uh-huh.

02:09:21.503 --> 02:09:25.132
So we have an "E" and a "G,"
and we need one more letter.

02:09:29.136 --> 02:09:31.805
-Dot "A"... isn't it?

02:09:33.140 --> 02:09:35.559
-Mmm, no.
-No.

02:09:36.894 --> 02:09:38.979
-What other dots do you feel?

02:09:40.063 --> 02:09:42.399
-Dot one...
-Mmhmm.

02:09:46.612 --> 02:09:48.614
-And dot...

02:09:48.614 --> 02:09:50.157
five.
-Mmhmm.

02:09:50.157 --> 02:09:52.659
-So, it's an "E."

02:09:54.661 --> 02:09:56.038
Isn't it?

02:09:56.038 --> 02:09:58.916
Do you feel more dots
besides those?

02:10:05.297 --> 02:10:07.674
-I feel dot four.
-Mmhmm!

02:10:08.967 --> 02:10:10.427
-So, it's a "D."

02:10:12.262 --> 02:10:15.641
-I feel one more dot.

02:10:15.641 --> 02:10:16.892
I feel four dots.

02:10:16.892 --> 02:10:20.687
-Oh, dot one, dot two,
dot four, and dot five.

02:10:20.687 --> 02:10:23.816
-Yes, I feel that it's—
-"E" "G" "G".

02:10:23.816 --> 02:10:25.984
-"E" "G" "G," Egg.
-Egg. [chuckles]

02:10:25.984 --> 02:10:27.444
-Yep. Correct!

02:10:34.326 --> 02:10:36.495
PEDRO: I always saw myself
as an outsider.

02:10:36.495 --> 02:10:38.455
-Mm.

02:10:38.455 --> 02:10:40.999
I always call it
imposter syndrome because like,

02:10:40.999 --> 02:10:44.545
wow, they're seeing
all this on me.

02:10:44.545 --> 02:10:46.088
But I feel that someone else

02:10:46.088 --> 02:10:48.757
might be more qualified
or more deserving than me.

02:10:49.758 --> 02:10:51.885
But at the same time,

02:10:51.885 --> 02:10:55.180
having to not prove myself,
but at the same time

02:10:55.180 --> 02:10:57.182
having to...

02:10:58.350 --> 02:11:01.019
having that commitment.
Okay, you see this in me.

02:11:01.019 --> 02:11:03.146
I need to work hard in order

02:11:03.146 --> 02:11:08.151
not to let you down
or let myself down.

02:11:08.151 --> 02:11:09.736
-Mmhmm.

02:11:09.736 --> 02:11:12.364
It goes deep.
I know it goes deep, Pedro.

02:11:12.364 --> 02:11:14.533
-Yes, it does.
-I know it does.

02:11:14.533 --> 02:11:16.493
It can't be easy.

02:11:16.493 --> 02:11:19.705
And I feel like you,
sometimes I sense that in you

02:11:19.705 --> 02:11:23.750
that you stress yourself
to a point where it's like

02:11:23.750 --> 02:11:28.463
you have to prove
that you deserve to be here

02:11:28.463 --> 02:11:32.968
because of your immigration
and because of your disability.

02:11:32.968 --> 02:11:35.762
And it's like, you don't.

02:11:35.762 --> 02:11:38.390
You don't have to prove
that you deserve to be here

02:11:38.390 --> 02:11:39.933
'cause you do deserve
to be here.

02:11:39.933 --> 02:11:43.437
You're here! [chuckles]
You are here.

02:11:43.437 --> 02:11:47.232
You are making a difference.
There's nothing to prove.

02:11:49.276 --> 02:11:51.445
-Thank you.
-You know that, right?

02:11:52.279 --> 02:11:54.865
-Trying to. Trying to.
Trying to.

02:11:54.865 --> 02:11:57.868
It's so interesting
because nowadays

02:11:57.868 --> 02:12:00.454
I find this as a refuge for me.

02:12:00.454 --> 02:12:02.706
Being in the front row

02:12:02.706 --> 02:12:08.086
of that beautiful experience
of seeing how people blossom

02:12:08.086 --> 02:12:14.217
and seeing how
resilience makes its magic

02:12:14.217 --> 02:12:16.345
with the people,
it's just beautiful.

02:12:16.345 --> 02:12:17.930
-It's addicting.
-Yeah, it is.

02:12:17.930 --> 02:12:24.144
It's just seeing people grow.
And seeing other people just

02:12:24.144 --> 02:12:28.190
so hungry for an opportunity,
and in a way,

02:12:28.190 --> 02:12:31.276
in a good way and seeing myself
reflecting other people.

02:12:31.276 --> 02:12:34.696
Like, hey! I was there.
I needed an opportunity.

02:12:34.696 --> 02:12:37.866
-Yeah.
-And just being able to do that,

02:12:37.866 --> 02:12:40.577
pay it forward.
-Mmhmm. That's awesome.

02:12:40.577 --> 02:12:43.997
-And it's just powerful.
It's just powerful to me.

02:12:46.792 --> 02:12:51.797
[quiet conversations,
serene music]

02:12:54.257 --> 02:12:56.426
PEDRO: [SPA] Today we are
going to talk about resilience,

02:12:56.426 --> 02:13:00.806
what is resilience,
and its characteristics.

02:13:00.806 --> 02:13:04.601
We are then going to mainly
focus on optimism

02:13:04.601 --> 02:13:08.730
and how optimism
influences resilience

02:13:08.730 --> 02:13:18.532
and what mechanisms, thoughts,
or habits strengthen optimism.

02:13:18.532 --> 02:13:24.246
So, when you think
about resilience,

02:13:24.246 --> 02:13:26.999
what are some
words that come to mind?

02:13:26.999 --> 02:13:28.333
-Coping.

02:13:28.333 --> 02:13:29.876
-Okay. What else?

02:13:31.253 --> 02:13:32.796
-Overcoming adversity.

02:13:32.796 --> 02:13:34.631
-Okay. What else, what else?

02:13:34.631 --> 02:13:35.424
-Being tolerant.

02:13:35.424 --> 02:13:37.801
-Yes, being tolerant as well.
Very good.

02:13:37.801 --> 02:13:43.098
-Within all mental health
topics or diagnoses

02:13:43.098 --> 02:13:47.436
we both share an interest
in working with people

02:13:47.436 --> 02:13:49.479
that lived with trauma.

02:13:49.479 --> 02:13:54.192
And undocumented people
experience chronic trauma.

02:13:54.192 --> 02:13:57.029
When you live
without a legal status,

02:13:57.029 --> 02:13:59.448
you live with constant fear
every single day.

02:13:59.448 --> 02:14:02.409
You're afraid of going out
or having someone question

02:14:02.409 --> 02:14:05.662
your status, asking for help
and getting denied because

02:14:05.662 --> 02:14:08.165
you don't have a
Social Security number.

02:14:08.165 --> 02:14:13.587
Even applying for something to
help people, but you can't

02:14:13.587 --> 02:14:16.757
because you don't have
a Social Security number.

02:14:16.757 --> 02:14:19.926
Pedro, you are an
overqualified individual.

02:14:19.926 --> 02:14:22.262
There's great need
but not enough

02:14:22.262 --> 02:14:25.307
mental health
providers in the state.

02:14:25.307 --> 02:14:28.226
You also have all
of the qualifications

02:14:28.226 --> 02:14:31.855
needed in this field.
You are a mental health

02:14:31.855 --> 02:14:34.399
professional, bilingual,
and a man.

02:14:34.399 --> 02:14:37.110
There are hardly any
men in this field.

02:14:37.110 --> 02:14:39.112
The majority of us are women.

02:14:39.112 --> 02:14:40.822
-How nice that,
little by little,

02:14:40.822 --> 02:14:42.866
I've been able to come
full circle.

02:14:42.866 --> 02:14:44.576
First, starting as a client

02:14:44.576 --> 02:14:49.331
and now as a person
that can help others.

02:14:49.331 --> 02:14:53.752
It gives me great satisfaction,
pride, and responsibility

02:14:53.752 --> 02:14:59.091
because without someone
like you, I wouldn't be here.

02:14:59.091 --> 02:15:03.303
Now it is my responsibility
to be on the other side

02:15:03.303 --> 02:15:07.182
and support those behind me
to continue their journey.

02:15:07.891 --> 02:15:12.771
At the end of the day,
it is like a chain of favors.

02:15:12.771 --> 02:15:16.274
We help each other and
together we help someone else.

02:15:20.695 --> 02:15:25.659
[music fades,
cane scrapes sidewalk]

02:15:25.659 --> 02:15:27.869
SET: Pedro, can you believe that

02:15:27.869 --> 02:15:31.456
it has been six years
since we started filming?

02:15:31.456 --> 02:15:32.582
I don't know if you remember

02:15:32.582 --> 02:15:35.669
the first time we filmed
at your old house.

02:15:35.669 --> 02:15:37.129
PEDRO: I do.

02:15:37.129 --> 02:15:40.507
SET: I'm curious if you
don't mind me asking,

02:15:40.507 --> 02:15:42.801
how do you feel
about this thing

02:15:42.801 --> 02:15:45.804
that we've been doing,
me following you around

02:15:45.804 --> 02:15:47.514
during the last few years?

02:15:48.723 --> 02:15:52.185
-Mmm, my perception about it
changes.

02:15:52.936 --> 02:15:54.855
I'm afraid.

02:15:54.855 --> 02:15:56.523
I'm excited.

02:15:56.940 --> 02:15:59.568
I have used it also as a...

02:15:59.568 --> 02:16:01.319
another healing opportunity.

02:16:01.319 --> 02:16:02.946
Just, I don’t know,
being vulnerable

02:16:02.946 --> 02:16:05.157
and being exactly who I am.

02:16:05.157 --> 02:16:08.785
I'm tired of being of
in a way...

02:16:08.785 --> 02:16:11.454
having to fragment
myself in order

02:16:11.454 --> 02:16:14.457
to fit in different situations,

02:16:14.457 --> 02:16:16.501
in different settings,

02:16:16.501 --> 02:16:18.170
and feel accepted.

02:16:21.548 --> 02:16:23.550
[cheery conversations]

02:16:24.676 --> 02:16:26.928
-[SPA] Hug your
Godfather.

02:16:30.515 --> 02:16:36.563
Look, like this. Like me.
Hug, hug your Godfather.

02:16:36.563 --> 02:16:37.522
Look, she's hugging you.

02:16:37.522 --> 02:16:39.399
-She's like no, no, no.
That's it.

02:16:40.483 --> 02:16:44.112
-She didn't want to show me her
Peppa Pig shoes.

02:16:44.988 --> 02:16:47.032
-Peppa Pig?
-Yes.

02:16:47.032 --> 02:16:48.950
-Who has Peppa Pig?

02:16:48.950 --> 02:16:52.078
-Miguel looks like Peppa Pig,
and the baby has the shoes.

02:16:52.078 --> 02:16:53.496
-Fuck you, dude!

02:16:54.873 --> 02:16:58.710
-The dog is loose, and she gets
scared when he comes. [laughter]

02:16:58.710 --> 02:17:01.338
-When she was little,
she was scared of you.

02:17:01.338 --> 02:17:04.257
PEDRO: How life changes.
[laughter]

02:17:05.884 --> 02:17:09.888
[Tyler panting, people chatting
and eating]

02:17:09.888 --> 02:17:11.306
-Stop stealing my chips!

02:17:11.306 --> 02:17:14.392
-Are you there?
How are you, man?

02:17:15.894 --> 02:17:18.313
-How are you?
My leg is injured.

02:17:18.313 --> 02:17:20.857
-How old are you, Emanuel?

02:17:21.858 --> 02:17:23.401
[Pedro sighs, laughter]

02:17:23.401 --> 02:17:25.737
-Just get over it, fool.
-31.

02:17:25.737 --> 02:17:28.156
-No, you're kidding?
Fucker, you're like 35.

02:17:28.156 --> 02:17:30.700
-You're such an ass.
-Dude! I’m almost 33!

02:17:30.700 --> 02:17:31.993
-You are 33...?

02:17:31.993 --> 02:17:34.579
I'm... I was born in '89.

02:17:34.579 --> 02:17:38.500
-I’m also from '89.
-Yeah, July '89.

02:17:38.500 --> 02:17:40.835
You're April '89?

02:17:40.835 --> 02:17:43.171
Oh shoot. Then I'm 32.

02:17:43.171 --> 02:17:45.507
[laughter]

02:17:46.967 --> 02:17:49.469
First, the little one doesn't
want to hug me,

02:17:49.469 --> 02:17:51.721
and you're giving me
this crap.

02:17:52.222 --> 02:17:54.683
Bustin' my balls here.

02:17:54.683 --> 02:17:56.476
-Miguel, can you help me
move these tables?

02:17:56.476 --> 02:17:57.686
-Yeah, of course.

02:17:59.271 --> 02:18:00.647
-You sure?

02:18:03.608 --> 02:18:07.028
[voices fade to ethereal music]

02:18:07.028 --> 02:18:10.407
SET: You know, when I first
approached you to film,

02:18:10.407 --> 02:18:13.535
my main intention
was for advocacy,

02:18:13.535 --> 02:18:15.704
to bring to light this
dual experience of

02:18:15.704 --> 02:18:18.331
immigration and
disability in your life.

02:18:19.124 --> 02:18:21.876
But after all these years,

02:18:21.876 --> 02:18:23.795
I think my motivations

02:18:23.795 --> 02:18:26.965
to continue filming
with you has changed.

02:18:29.050 --> 02:18:32.012
Just like you
talked about healing,

02:18:32.012 --> 02:18:34.931
this film has been a big part
of my healing too.

02:18:36.725 --> 02:18:40.228
I find myself resonating a lot
with the intersectionalities

02:18:40.228 --> 02:18:43.106
that you share with me,
and in many ways,

02:18:43.106 --> 02:18:44.816
I feel less alone
to go through

02:18:44.816 --> 02:18:48.069
the uncertainties I face
in life, being undocumented,

02:18:48.069 --> 02:18:50.363
and in my case, queer.

02:18:51.156 --> 02:18:54.909
I don't know if I ever told you
about this poem that I wrote.

02:18:56.161 --> 02:19:01.124
If I can recite it from memory,
it's called “Me Authentically.”

02:19:01.124 --> 02:19:03.418
It goes something like this.

02:19:03.418 --> 02:19:07.380
“If I were to be me
authentically,

02:19:08.214 --> 02:19:10.550
I wonder if you would
still love me.

02:19:11.843 --> 02:19:15.013
If you were to see the truth
behind my story,

02:19:15.930 --> 02:19:19.059
would you still willingly
embrace my reality?

02:19:20.060 --> 02:19:22.645
I used to think I wasn't worthy

02:19:22.645 --> 02:19:24.773
of being loved in my totality.

02:19:25.690 --> 02:19:28.193
Shame became the enemy,

02:19:28.193 --> 02:19:30.987
convincing me I am
eternally guilty.

02:19:31.905 --> 02:19:34.366
But I deserve a life,

02:19:34.366 --> 02:19:37.160
not a lifelong penalty.

02:19:37.160 --> 02:19:41.206
After all, my truth is
too beautiful to bury.

02:19:42.290 --> 02:19:45.585
I'll never know what it feels
like to be truly happy

02:19:45.585 --> 02:19:49.089
if the love I take
is never rooted in honesty.

02:19:50.256 --> 02:19:51.966
So I'll no longer

02:19:51.966 --> 02:19:54.594
say sorry for
wanting to be free.

02:19:55.887 --> 02:19:59.182
These lies are too heavy
for my heart to carry.

02:20:00.475 --> 02:20:04.646
From here on, I’ll live my truth
with no apology.

02:20:05.563 --> 02:20:09.526
I hope you'd be ready
to love me unconditionally."

02:20:11.403 --> 02:20:14.989
PEDRO: That poem
pretty much...

02:20:14.989 --> 02:20:16.991
summarized my life.

02:20:25.750 --> 02:20:29.712
[music sweetens]

02:20:29.712 --> 02:20:32.674
PEDRO: For the longest,
I never gave credit to myself.

02:20:33.758 --> 02:20:36.594
And now I'm trying to do that.

02:20:36.594 --> 02:20:39.264
And that gives me
a sense of abundance.

02:20:39.806 --> 02:20:43.351
And that doesn't mean
even having papers. [laughs]

02:20:44.102 --> 02:20:46.813
That just means having
a peace of mind.

02:20:48.022 --> 02:20:51.317
That just means being
in peace with myself.

02:20:54.279 --> 02:20:56.448
Being okay with my shadow

02:20:56.448 --> 02:20:58.658
and embrace my shadow,

02:20:58.658 --> 02:21:01.411
because that's part of who I am.

02:21:01.411 --> 02:21:03.204
No shame on that.

02:21:07.000 --> 02:21:11.004
♪ ooh, ooh, aa-aa-ah ♪

02:21:32.233 --> 02:21:36.237
[folk guitar plays melody]

02:22:49.394 --> 02:22:52.564
♪ It’s not that I don’t ♪

02:22:52.564 --> 02:22:55.733
♪ trust you or want you close ♪

02:22:55.733 --> 02:22:58.444
♪ or need you cus I do ♪

02:23:01.906 --> 02:23:05.034
♪ The madness of waiting ♪

02:23:05.034 --> 02:23:07.996
♪ the balm in this healing ♪

02:23:07.996 --> 02:23:11.541
♪ All take a bit of time ♪

02:23:11.541 --> 02:23:14.586
♪ Stumble and crash ♪

02:23:14.586 --> 02:23:17.380
♪ in the dark with my mind ♪

02:23:18.381 --> 02:23:20.049
♪ Like I’ve got ♪

02:23:20.049 --> 02:23:23.678
♪ all the time in the world ♪

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♪ Back through the ♪

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♪ rounded tracks I go ♪

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♪ They say this is ♪

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♪ just how life goes ♪

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♪ Stumble and dance with you ♪

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♪ Oh is this ♪

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♪ a new song I hear? ♪

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♪ Round and around ♪

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♪ this world we’ll go ♪

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♪ We’ll make a home ♪

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♪ wherever we are ♪

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[music continues]

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♪ We’ll make a home ♪

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♪ where we go ♪

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♪ Sing songs that ♪

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♪ we don’t know ♪

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♪ We’ll try and try cus ♪

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♪ this is how life goes ♪

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♪ We’ll make a home ♪

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♪ where we go ♪

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♪ Sing songs that ♪

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♪ we don’t know ♪

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♪ We’ll try and try cus ♪

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♪ this is how life goes ♪

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PEDRO: This film is in memory

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of my baby Goyis, my granny...

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who watches over me

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from heaven. I love you.