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MUSIC FACILITATOR:
Draw some breath in.

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(women inhaling)

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And then send the breath out.

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(women exhaling)

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GROUP:
Ahmmmmm, ahmmmmmm, ahmmmmmm.

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(keys jangling)
(feet shuffling)

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DONNA VAUGHAN: Jangling keys, clanging the doors and shuffle feet parade.

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All those sounds remind me
of a great mistake I\'ve made.

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It soon will be seven
years ago

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since I came to this
prison hell.

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I\'ve seen not but the light
of day seen my prison cell.

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I know I am no angel,
nor am worst on earth.

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Release me from my shackles
and let me prove my worth.

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Release me from my shackles
and let me prove my worth.

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GROUP:
♪Ashley, Ashley.♪

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♪Caitlin, Caitlin.♪

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♪Treena, Treena.♪

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♪Ashley, Ashley.♪

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♪Tasha, Tasha.♪

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MUSIC FACILITATOR:
And then start listening
to inside yourself.

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Breath is what
powers your voice.

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Breathe it in,...and let it out.

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(inhaling and exhaling)

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And you\'re gonna go \'aaahh\',
with that colour blue

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just coming out of your mouth.

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One...two...three.

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GROUP:
Aaahhhh.

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GROUP:
Aaahhhh.

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(violin playing)

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ASHLEY SLAUNWHITE:
Say I take pictures
with the camera.

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Is there ways we can do
it in black and white?

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FILMMAKER:
You can use black and white,
colour, art, music, poetry,

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like anything you want.

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ASHLEY:
Oh, this is awesome, right?

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MUSIC FACILITATOR:
First word\'s gonna
be \'confusion\'.

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Now I\'m gonna say...\'anger\'.

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Now instead of words,
just react to the music.

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(violin music playing)

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(violin music playing)

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(violin music playing)

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(violin music playing)

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(violin music playing)

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FILMMAKER:
I just wanted
to introduce Kim Pate,

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who\'s the Executive
Director of the

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Canadian Association of
Elizabeth Fry Societies.

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KIM PATE:
Well thank you, it\'s nice
to see some of you I haven\'t,

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who I\'ve met before and,
although I always wish

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I was seeing you not in jail,
but most of us in the system,

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including those of us that
work with E Fry,

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often don\'t think about \'what
could it be like if we had

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something very different\' and
so one of the things I wanted

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to ask you guys to do
is imagine that.

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So, \"if I had \'x\', how could
I end up not being in here?\"

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CAITLIN HILL:
\'Cause I have Borderline
Personality Disorder,

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so it\'s hard for me to deal
with stuff, so I act out

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and get myself charges,
that\'s why I\'m in here.

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And we don\'t have enough
treatment with people

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with mental health disorders.
It\'s so hard.

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BIANCA MERCER:
Not having that motherly
love, basically,

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how do you fix abandonment?
How do you fix that?

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How do you go and find a rehab
that\'ll show you that you

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are loved. Being without that
affection is what got me here.

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JEN SIMS:
Looking back now, Tasha,
what would you have needed?

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NATASHA PACE:
Um,...I think someone
to just listen to me.

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TREENA:
Personally, that\'s my thing,
y\'know, I\'m an alcoholic

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and I\'ve never went to court

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and them say, \'well we\'re gonna send you to, to recovery,\'

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y\'know, and I\'ve been in
and out of here for ten, ten

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or more years, it\'s always been straight to jail.

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KIM:
But, okay, so you guys,
did you know how much it costs

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to keep you guys in prison?

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GROUP:
No.

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KIM:
Let\'s say, a conservative
estimate is $100,000.

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You know, just imagine, if
instead of coming to jail,

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100,000 bucks, what
could you create

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so that you wouldn\'t
end up back in here?

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(camera clicks)

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LAURA TONEY:
This is your close up Laura.

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(music plays)

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BIANCA:
In my world, mothers would
have to love their children.

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Affection is a must.

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Rape and abuse wouldn\'t
exist in my world.

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Those words wouldn\'t even exist in the English language.

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TREENA:
I swear I could feel my
heart begin to decay.

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I\'d never felt more hurt
or been more betrayed.

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The drive with the stranger
didn\'t take long

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before we pulled up
outside my first group home.

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WOMAN:
Right here?

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CHRISMA DENNY:
But it\'s really interesting.

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FILMMAKER: And when you guys leave, you can take the cameras with you.

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Hi Caitlin.

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Hi.

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CAITLIN:
Growing up, I didn\'t know
how to handle myself.

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I cut with anything
that\'s sharp and pointy.

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And it helps me cope.

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JENN SIMS:
What if we wrote down some of
the words that we had to draw

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to today and we thought about
writing Haikus to them.

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FILMMAKER:
That\'s a great idea. Okay.

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NATASHA PACE:
What, writing what to them?

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JENN SIMS:
Haikus. Japanese poems.

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Five syllables, seven
syllables, five syllables?

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BIANCA: I am beautiful.

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Strong, independent. And incarcerated.

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(clapping)

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KIM:
See all of you here.
Talented women in groups.

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Welcome in my home.

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TANYA BIGNELL:
Eight thirty work time.

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Beeps, bangs, echoes from
the pod. East unit, full time.

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(laughing and clapping)

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JEN SIMS:
Utopian dream.

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Value...support...respect me.

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(group singing and humming)

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Strong woman revered.

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(tapping)

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LAURA:
I always think,
why isn\'t there grass?

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Why isn\'t there a tree?

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At least give us a tree.

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But that doesn\'t happen.

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(tapping)

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I don\'t like it.

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But I still smudge and I still
believe...that it\'s heard,

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like deep inside of me.

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That will never
go away.

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(knocking)

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ANNOUNCER:
Lock up in the East Unit.
Lock up in the East Unit.

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KIM:
I mean, really you
wanted to have

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interviewed me
twenty years ago.

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And then I would have said,
\'Oh, we could take down

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these walls, we could put some
windows, we could paint them,

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we could make it all
look much nicer\',

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but I don\'t think there\'s
anything you can do.

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You could have the most
beautiful, you could be in a

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penthouse but if you can never leave, then it\'s still a prison.

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More than half of the
women who are in prison

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are racialized women.

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Most of them are mothers.
Most of them are poor.

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Many of them have experienced
horrific violence as children

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and as adults and so they
very early on dealt with

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mental health issues
or addiction issues.

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TANYA:
And remember,
what are you today?

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TREENA:
I\'m a filmmaker
and I\'m sober.

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TANYA:
That\'s right. Okay?

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TREENA:
Okay. Thank you so much.

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Freedom, freedom.

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TANYA: I have one female for release. Treena Smith. Time expiry.

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TREENA:
Peace. Alright. Later, bye.

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Free, free!

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TANYA:
Be good Treena, I don\'t
want to see you back.

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I will.

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Nervous...Freed. Released.
Unleashed. Time complete.

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Walking back into society.
Riddled with anxiety.

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(music plays)

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Unprepared, unaware, scared,

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scarred from the things
I\'ve made so hard.

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Told you guys I was a gardener, landscaper for a while

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so I\'d always think of
these weeds growing up,

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how the lawn was cut, nobody
whipper-snipped the edges.

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(knocking)

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(laughs)
There\'s my knocks.

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They\'re doing some
good knockin\',

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you know their
knuckles are sore. (laughs)

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Hi.

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STEPHANIE DUNCAN:
Hey, you\'re never
going away again, right?

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You\'re never going away again.

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They\'re gonna, they\'re gonna lend me this for the day

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and I\'m gonna do some videoing.

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I better wash my hair.

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Probably.

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(laughing)

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You\'re my wife.

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I\'m your wife.

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And you\'re sober.

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I\'m sober. Very.

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(car horn honking)

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Yeah, ya.

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STEPHANIE: You pay attention to the camera.

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No baby, I\'m just taking,
I\'m just taking some shots.

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STEPHANIE:
How is it?

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Not bad.

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I always want to be your
shoulder. Your sturdy boulder.

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Your warmth when
nights turn colder.

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The one to still think you\'re beautiful as we both get older.

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I\'d give anything
just to hold her.

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ANNOUNCER:
Any women in the documentary
to the program room please.

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To the program room please.

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BIANCA (VIDEO):
In my world, mothers would
have to love their children.

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Affection is a must.
Mothers who give birth...

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There would be no suicide,
nobody would ever feel.

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ASHLEY:
...except for the one
of me crouching down.

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I want that at the end.

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ASHLEY (VIDEO):
Those days can get rough but
know you have to stay tough.

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Being strong is a must. When I get out this time will be dust.

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TANYA:
Oh, did you
see the bunny ears?

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BIANCA (VIDEO):
...in my world, poverty
wouldn\'t exist.

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BIANCA: That is so friggin cool. I love it. I\'m excited.

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It\'s me, it\'s my voice.

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BIANCA (VIDEO):
My words when spoken
should be taken seriously.

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In my world, addiction wouldn\'t exist,
we
wouldn\'t ever become

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addicted to anything because
nothing would be addictive.

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GUARD:
Mercer.

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(beep)

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BIANCA:
(gasps) I\'m free! I\'m free!

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(knocking)

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I wish I could bring them with
me...This is all so surreal.

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Just gotta get all my ducks
in line...and go for it.

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FILMMAKER:
Where you going?

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Ah, just going.

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FILMMAKER:
You know where?

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I don\'t know. I have
nowheres to go.

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Vernon, what am I gonna do?

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I thought you were gonna
stay out here. I\'m broke.

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VERNON:
Well, let\'s get going then,
take you to Tim Hortons

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and then get you breakfast
and then I can get to work.

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TANYA:
Y\'know, some of these women
that are getting out of jail,

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they don\'t have...an address.

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BIANCA:
We\'re outta here. New start
to life. I can\'t believe it.

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TANYA:
Some of them don\'t
even have a drive.

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You gotta give them
a bus ticket.

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So then here\'s your bus ticket.

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See you later.
Hope you succeed.

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(music plays)

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TREENA:
Shameful, but I\'m drunk now,
and, ah...it\'s too hard.

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Still have love in my heart.
Don\'t want to go back to jail.

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It\'s faded.

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On the weekend, we had quite
a few drinks and...

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got into some arguments.

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Got pretty violent.

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I have no coping skills and
when I\'m drunk and...

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being a self-harmer, I,
ah...I lit myself on fire.

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(singing)

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GUARD:
That\'s negative.

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She\'ll be coming
in the side door and she\'ll

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be going right back
to East, please.

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(singing)

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(singing)

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(singing)

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I smell like fucking
ass everywhere.

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Like, it\'s fucking mind games
man, it\'s fucking me up.

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And she fucking ratted
me out twice

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and I still fucking love her.

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GUARD:
Nothing is gonna come good
out of this relationship.

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(guards talking)

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No, well like I\'m a fucking idiot too. Like I fucking, I...

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No, when she, when they read
the fucking disclosure,

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like I, it\'s very
upsetting, like,

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fucking, the things
I do man, ohh.

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(guards chatting)

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TANYA:
She\'s gonna get searched,
now, guys.

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We need to give
her privacy, now.

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TANYA:
Hi, I got Caitlin Hill,
going to a visit.

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CAITLIN:
Hi Claire.

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CLAIRE: Hi Caitlin.

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CAITLIN:
I miss you.

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CLAIRE: I miss you, too. We\'ll see you tomorrow.

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CAITLIN:
Okay.

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(Caitlin humming)

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Hi.

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MARGARET:
Hi baby girl. You did
it the first time.

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CAITLIN:
There, you\'re on camera.

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Aww. How you doing?

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Good. I\'m getting out.

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Nine more sleeps.

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Nine.

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What do you want for
your first day out?

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What do you want for meals?

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Are you gonna make your cheesecake for me for Easter?

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Yeah, if you make them
their Easter Bunny cake.

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With them? I\'m doing so good with my thoughts

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and self-harming. You wouldn\'t believe it.

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No, like I don\'t even have them.

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You\'re gonna be a great
success at home, Caitlin.

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It\'s your new beginning.

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Yeah.

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I\'m so proud of you.

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I\'m gonna cry, you know. (laughs)

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Oh my God, we\'re so emotional today.

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\'Cause it\'s getting close
to you coming home.

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I know...we\'re gonna cry when we see each other.

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It\'s gonna be good.
I love you.

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I love you, too.

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You be safe.
Promise?

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I will. Mom, I will!

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Alright, love you. Bye.

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Love you, too. Bye.

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Doesn\'t matter their age, you
just want the best for them.

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Home is never enough,
she\'s institutionalized.

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As much as she loves me and
as much as I love her,

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and as much as she loves
her family...

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it\'s not enough for her.

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We can\'t recreate
the structure that

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the institutions have
created for her.

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We can\'t replace the
safety for her.

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She doesn\'t feel safe at home.

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She only feels safe here,
or in hospital which,

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they\'ll never take her back
in any hospital, here.

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She lived a year and
a half in the IWK,

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then nine months in Abbie Lane
and then once that ended,

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she went to the jails.
And she\'ll...keep reoffending

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to get back to jail...for the
safety. It\'s her safety net.

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(group humming and singing)

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SPOKEN-WORD POET:
I am quiet, but I
need to speak.

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So much emotion pours
out of me.

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My head just spins,
each passing day.

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I need you to hear
what I have to say.

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I\'ve learned to be silent
but it never helped.

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FILMMAKER:
Why do you like that shot?

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LAURA:
Um, I\'m thinking
about that red door.

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Um, I did something
really bad.

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I wanted to smudge and they
were using the smudge kit

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lighter to smoke banana and
I got mad and I took her head

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and I...put it into
the metal door.

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I got five days in
my cell for that.

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And I know where there\'s grass.

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I can see it, I can see it.
Now I can see the grass.

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ANNOUNCER:
Methodone,
Methodone, Methadone.

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LAURA: And you can tell what time of year it is by the colours and,

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couple times I tried to touch
but you can\'t quite touch it.

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It\'s so close but so far away.

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Fuck!

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BIANCA:
I\'m leaning up
against my new home.

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(police car sirens)

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Ah, my first day, I ended up
staying on the roof of an

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apartment building. I didn\'t
really sleep, I just kinda...

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had a towel and laid there
and...got myself, ah, Dilaudid

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and used for the
first time in eight months.

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It\'s sad to say, like a couple
of times I said I wish I was

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back in jail, and...that\'s
really, really, sucks

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that I have to say that.

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I feel really stupid.

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I was supposed to do good.

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(crying)

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You guys were supposed
to come and see me

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and see that I was positive and excited about getting out,

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and everything just didn\'t
go as planned at all.

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It\'s really hard, it really is.

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Yeah, I\'ve just kind of
been wandering around

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and trying to figure
out where I fit in.

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There\'s high school.

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I don\'t miss that
school at all.

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I was just...mad at the world.

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When I was a kid,
I was abused.

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No one really helped me or,

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um, was just kind of
a lost cause, I guess.

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(rattling)

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(crunching)

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(Bianca breathing)

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Fifty, forty-nine...

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(phone dialing tone)

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RECORDING:
...your call at this time...
please leave your number

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and a brief message and we\'ll
be happy to get back to you.

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(indistinct speech from phone)

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Thank you and have
a wonderful day.

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(answering machine record tone)

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Hi, my name\'s Bianca Mercer.
I\'m trying to get a bed.

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If you guys can get back
to me, that\'d be great.

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RECORDING:
I am unable to take your
call at the moment.

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Please leave a detailed
message and your number

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and I\'ll get back to you.
(beep)

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I\'m in need of help,
really bad.

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I\'m heading to detox in
the next week or so

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and I have no place to live.

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(phone dialing tone)

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I\'m, I\'m barely getting by
out here, I need help.

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(music)

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RECORDING:
Regular office hours
are Monday to Friday

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8:30am to 4:30pm. If you
are calling after these hours,

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please leave a message
after the tone.

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(phone dialing tone)

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KIM:
We\'re building more and
more prisons and acting

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as though we think prisons can
somehow be treatment centres,

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shelters for battered women,
adequate housing.

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And then we take people in and
then throw them back out

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on the street and expect them
to fend for themselves.

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The key in terms of responding to questions, is to remember

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what the key messages are and
not to get taken off track.

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Reduce numbers of women in
prison and not improve

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the conditions but
reduce the number in

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and as an interim step,
close segregation.

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DARLENE MACEACHERN:
Good morning.

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We\'re a network of 25
societies across the country.

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We are here today to discuss
the urgent need for action

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to address the circumstances
of criminalized

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and imprisoned women.

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I was asked to come here by our advocacy team because not only

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is this the region where Ashley Smith died, a young woman

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who was put in custody after not receiving support and care

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in the community, but since
then we\'ve now had

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two more deaths in federal custody. We are wasting billions

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and billions of dollars on
putting people into prisons

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and even those working
in federal custody

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are throwing up their
hands. They recognize

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most of the women they\'re
dealing with,

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should not be there in the
first place but they have no

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choice but to try and manage
the best they can.

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TANYA:
It\'s hard when you\'re
a correctional officer.

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You\'re supposed to be strong. You\'re not supposed to be weak.

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You\'re not supposed to be able
to be affected by anything,

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but when you know their story,
I look at it as the fact

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that they never even
had a chance.

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Psss psss psss. Hello Mama.

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I could still separate
myself...from the jail.

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Took a long time for
me to learn how,...

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but I eventually did.

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When I come home and I see
her and him, and the dog

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and the cat...that\'s my
life, that\'s my world.

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(sniffing)

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Be nice. Good boy. Get your
tail, get it! Get it bud!

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(chatter on radio)

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TANYA:
I usually hold my breath
when I\'m doing my nails.

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That way I don\'t
make a mistake.

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I believe that there\'s a
lot more of me to give.

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Unfortunately, that would mean
crossing over...boundaries.

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Some days, I feel like
I\'m in prison.

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It\'s gonna be a good day.

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Everything\'s gonna go right and everyone\'s gonna go home safe.

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ANNOUNCER:
All the ladies who
are in the documentary,

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please report to your
dayroom front please.

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Not happy.

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Hello, hello.

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BIANCA: I got arrested and charged with more trafficking and robbery

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and breaches and I\'m pregnant
and probably gonna have a baby

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that I won\'t be able
to raise, and...yeah.

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TANYA:
Y\'know, what was missing,
what wasn\'t there for you

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when you got released
that you needed?

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Um...a place to live...a home.

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Yep.

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NATASHA: So, I was in a vacant apartment in a run down building

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that is, it was like, sixty days exactly, I was back in here.

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I really thought your life was gonna change when you got out.

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ASHLEY:
So did I. I mean, it was
awesome, that house,

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the staff were awesome.
It was about the people that

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was living there with me.
And that\'s the hardest thing

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because there\'s still people
in that house that are using.

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TANYA:
There\'s not enough housing
availability for these ladies.

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They can\'t get social
assistance

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unless they\'re outta here.
How is that even possible?

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They need an address to get it.

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They make it so difficult for
these ladies to succeed.

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That\'s all they need,
is a helping hand

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once they get out the back door.

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They need a place for women to
go when they get out of jail.

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CAITLIN:
Especially for people that\'s
been here. I\'ll be here for

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fourteen, fifteen months by the time I get out and I\'m not,

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it\'s gonna be a shock. We need something that\'s gonna help ya.

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TANYA & CAITLIN:
Reintegrate.

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TREENA: Yeah, I\'d love to just come across a suitcase full of money

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and just open up my own farm

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and just take people in without any bullshit, right.

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BIANCA:
That\'d be so sick.
We\'ll hire you.

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You won\'t have to work here no more. We\'ll double your wages.

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Yeah, then I\'ll come. (laughs)

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TREENA:
Lights, camera, action.

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ASHLEY:
Check, one two.

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(chattering)

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NATASHA: I\'ll do that.

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TANYA:
Construction
in the making right here.

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I\'m doing the deck.

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(music)
(humming)

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I always have a problem with...

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FILMMAKER:
How big do you think
it needs to be?

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ALL:
Oh my gosh. Okay.
Three stories. Yeah.

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NATASHA:
We\'re building our own place,
like, there\'s a lot that I,

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yeah, I just got, like, whew.

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This would be so bomb if this
like actually happened.

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Isn\'t that something? Well you
said chickens for the eggs.

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ANNOUNCER:
Are you looking for
Bianca Mercer as well?

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Yes, yes tell her to come, yes.

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TANYA:
Send her down.

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Hi.

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TANYA: Did you get a picture? I wanna see!

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ASHLEY:
Oh my God! Oh my God.

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It\'s a picture of her baby,

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Oh, the head
and the belly.

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Oh, what are they called, ultrasound.

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Sorry, I was so excited!

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See the head, do you see the head? Oh my God!

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We\'re building our house. We need your ideas though.

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TREENA:
Here\'s a big question. What
are we gonna call this place?

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NATASHA: Either a word or, um, an animal or a bug or something that

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symbolizes something that
goes from one thing...

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(gasps) something happened.
Something that goes from...

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GROUP:
From The Ground Up!
From the Ground Up! Yes!

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I like that.

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TREENA:
Smoking will be outdoors.
Maintain sobriety.

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Attend programs. Weekly
issues, suggestions,

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like a weekly meeting.

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We\'re learning to be
independent again.

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That\'s what
this house is for.

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(laughing)

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TREENA: Okay, From the Ground Up.

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FILMMAKER:
Okay, I\'m not recording.
It\'s just a photo.

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(camera clicks)

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KIM PATE:
When Nelson Mandela came in
as President, one of the first

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moves he did was to free
all the women in prison

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who had children under
the age of twelve.

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To relegate a mother to prison

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was to subjugate
generations to come.

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I was a working class kid,
and I went to

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law school \'cause I
wanted to make money.

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I was raised to believe, you
do the crime, you do the time.

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And what became really clear
is the women I worked with

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were all the people who had the least. I was really fortunate

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that I\'d had other
opportunities

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that most of these people
didn\'t have.

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Get that big one.

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As I got more in touch with that humanity, it became harder

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to not want to do something
about it.

32:35.587 --> 32:41.159
(loud scraping)

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I actually don\'t
mind shoveling.

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In all the work I do, there\'s
so many things that you

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can\'t see the results of
right away, but shoveling

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you can see results right away.

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Hello.

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Really it\'s about talking
about non-prison responses

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to human behaviours.

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That\'s why I spend a lot
of time encouraging people

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to think about the trauma that
people who are incarcerated

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have first experienced.

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Even though individuals may have committed really egregious

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acts of violence, understanding the context of that violence

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is really important.
Not to excuse it

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but to demand that we actually
address it in a different way,

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in a way that doesn\'t
perpetuate it or negate it

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but prevents it from
happening again.

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BIANCA:
So the basic idea is
From the Ground Up,

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a house for women to go
to after incarceration.

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KIM:
So why would you have
it after prison?

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Why not instead of prison?

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Um, because society doesn\'t
really give us that option.

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Um, if I could get help
before coming here

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I probably wouldn\'t
be here, so.

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KIM: Mmm hmm.

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But what if you went to court and they said you\'re either

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going to prison for six, twelve, eighteen months

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or you have the choice of going to,

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\'From the Ground Up?\'

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I would go to \'The Ground Up\'
because there wouldn\'t,

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they\'d be able to help me
find out what is going on.

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There is something inside of me that\'s obviously screaming out

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for help but doesn\'t
know what it is.

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CAITLIN:
You know what? When I get out,
I ain\'t gonna get that help.

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I\'m not, I\'m gonna be
basically to myself.

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I don\'t get the help on the
outside. I pop pills,

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I pop my prescriptions,
I drink cough medicine,

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I get drunk off alcohol.
I don\'t get the help.

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They put me in emerg, give me
charcoal and send me to jail.

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That\'s all they do.
That\'s how I get my help.

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I don\'t get my help.

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So you get, you get more
support when you\'re here?

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Yeah.

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It\'s not that we want
to be here,

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it\'s sometimes where
else do we have to go?

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No, I, I get that.

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BIANCA:
I\'ve never been told from
a doctor professionally

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that I have anxiety
but I know I do.

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Sometimes I\'m in my cell,
like, they took,

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they did a search and I got so
overwhelmed I started crying

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\'cause they took my clothes,
like, and I know I\'m pregnant

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but just thinking about it
gets you so worked up

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\'cause you have no control.

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And that\'s the thing,
it\'s hard to control.

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Like when my impulses come,
I automatically react...

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act on it.

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I spent nine months in seg.

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That\'s, that\'s not, that\'s
not helping me.

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KIM: Well, it\'s not just not helping you. It\'s against the law.

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They do it to me all the time.

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I got total nine months in seg. Out of thirteen months

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I\'ve been here. I don\'t have
Bipolar, I have Borderline.

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KIM: Yeah, and my only point is that usually those are diagnosis

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given when really people are
struggling with histories

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of being abused as kids,
y\'know, and I\'m not, asking...

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CAITLIN:
That\'s what happened with me.

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And usually it\'s really
post traumatic stress, not...

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CAITLIN:
They haven\'t diagnosed
me with that yet.

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Well, part of the reason they
don\'t is because then, then

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the state is responsible for
providing you with treatment.

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Borderline says you
can control it.

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I mean, I don\'t see any
benefit to prison to anybody

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and so I encourage you to think about much bigger than just

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inside the box of prison.

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That if the resource existed
in the community,

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there are ways lawyers and
judges could be convinced to

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have you go there. If you\'re
going to spend that much money

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on this person in jail

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then spend that much money
in the community.

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But in the short term,
there are ways to try

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and help you get out
and get on your feet

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so you can have a chance
of raising your kid.

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KIM:
My experience with individuals
in prison is it\'s really hard

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for them to actually imagine
the, the prison not existing.

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So they\'re always
thinking of something

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that is still about
their containment.

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SPOKEN-WORD POET:
I\'m the one who makes
art with orphan beads...

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because no one wants them.

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They remind me of all
those forgotten souls

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in prisons around the world.

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When you give them a chance,

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they\'re the most beautiful
creations born.

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LAURA:
I\'m painting what the
vision would be

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for From the Ground Up.

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Lots of grass and trees
and nature.

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Lots of, like, spirituality.

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Like a different
style of society.

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Um, my dad was in a
residential school.

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I always saw my dad drunk and
like when you\'re from a place

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where, like, there\'s always
drinking and violence around,

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you think it\'s normal,
so when you grow up and,

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if someone gets bossy with you, whatever, in our mind

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it would be okay to hit
them and then \'boom\'

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they call the cops and you\'re
charged with assault

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and then you\'re right
into the system.

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And, then you wonder
what you\'re

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like when you get outside.

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(beep)

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GUARD:
Hi, I have Caitlin Hill being
released. Time expired.

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CAITLIN:
Bye, Beazley.

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GUARD: Bye!

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(violin music plays)

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CAITLIN:
Makes me wanna cry.

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(violin music plays)

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I haven\'t seen you
guys in so long!

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(violin music plays)

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(car engine starting)

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MARGARET: Bye bye jail, never to come back.

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CAITLIN:
Never to come back.

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What is today?

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New beginning.

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MARGARET: New beginning. First day for the rest of your life.

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Yeah.

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MARGARET:
Does it still look
the same, Caitlin?

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CAITLIN:
Yes...love it.

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MARGARET:
She\'s some happy to see ya.

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I know...

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This is my home. My mom.
And you can come see my room.

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(birds chirping)

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Oh, my, I love it! Oh my!

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This is my room.

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Can\'t wait to sleep in an
actual bed, eatin\' real food.

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Love it.

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It\'s feeling weird, looking
outside for the first time

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without like, havin\'
to worry about bars

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or doors shuttin\'.

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ANNE SINCLAIR:
No, it\'s really, ah,
it\'s a very bad space.

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ANNE:
Hi, I\'m Anne.
What\'s your name?

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BIANCA:
Bianca.

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ANNE: Bianca, nice to meet you.

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JUDY OBERSI:
Judy. Nice to meet you.

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FILMMAKER:
And they\'re the architects.

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ANNE:
I\'m really thrilled to be here
and to meet you and these

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filmmakers have shown us some of the work that you\'ve already

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done which is so impressive.

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And, um, just a little
bit about myself.

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I\'ve been an architect
for about thirty years

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and the last while one of my
favorite projects that I\'ve

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worked on was Supportive Housing for Young Mothers- SHYM.

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I\'m actually going to SHYM,
in the next couple of weeks,

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so I\'m excited, yeah.

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Have you been there?

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I\'ve been inside, um, actually
my apartment is the first one,

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right on the first floor,
Number one, so.

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ANNE:
I think we need to know
a bit more about

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what you\'ve done already.

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BIANCA:
The first stage would be like
the rehab/relapse prevention

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program and then the second
stage will be more,

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ah, programs in privacy.

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You have like a mentor and
a life coach and stuff,

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but on the third stage,
like you can try to

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become one, life coach, mentor.

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TREENA: Y\'know, I want there to be land so like the girls can work

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and, y\'know, ah, grow, and have, y\'know, some animals, ah,

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some tranquility, like forest
around, ah, trails.

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ANNE:
What I\'m hearing is, um, this
kind of circular,

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beautiful, just this idea that
it\'s not just for people

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to go in and be taken care of,
it\'s for them to also come and

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take care of the other people,
the new people coming in.

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It\'s really quite moving,
it\'s a really nice idea.

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TREENA:
I know for me, like I have,
I have really little,

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like, self esteem and self
worth but, like, when

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I\'m involved in this and I know that like I might even help

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one person, like, it like, it helps me, like, like it makes me

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feel good about myself, right,
um, and, ah, and I think,

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just like our experiences,
like talking to all the women

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I\'ve met in jail, like have
changed me a little bit,

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and, um, and, I just, I just think they\'re very strong women

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and they have a lot to say.

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ANNE: You obviously have shown that you\'re all really good at

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expressing yourselves
through drawing.

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Grab a marker and write or draw what you\'re thinking about.

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Dreaming.

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The more you can draw,
the closer you\'re gonna be

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to achieving the project.

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(humming and singing)
(music playing)

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(humming and singing)
(music playing)

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BIANCA:
Who are you judging?

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Honestly, keep your snarky
little comments to yourself.

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I\'m going to go.

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I\'ve got my desk, and I have my chair...

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BIANCA:
...be snarky in front of the
camera, Mary, I swear to God.

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TANYA: Do you two want to go back to...

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BIANCA:
...you fuck this up for me...

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...I let my fucking shit
for you to show up...

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And this place has just got me
so down emotionally that

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I had to literally,
like, escape.

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All I ever wanted was
to be a mother.

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I\'m completely helpless.

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My life is not a form
of entertainment.

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Where is all the integrity?

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How can one\'s suffering
be one\'s victory?

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My body is still in motion
but I\'m living lifelessly.

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WOMAN: Perfect, that\'s excellent.

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Handsome!

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CAITLIN:
And you go like that
and that\'s Brayden.

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So, I\'m home now
and it\'s day one.

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It is going really,
really good. I feel happy.

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I feel everything.

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I\'m recording ya.
Whatcha doing Brayden?

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Is that your...
what\'s her name?

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BRAYDON:
Sugar.

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So, this is day two
of being home.

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Hmmm, it\'s okay,
but I do miss it.

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RAPPER:
♪Jangle keys and
shuffle feet parade.♪

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♪Those sounds remind me of
those great mistakes I made.♪

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♪I know I\'m not an angel,
nor am I worst on earth.♪

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♪Release me from my shackles,
let me prove my worth.♪

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♪Release me from my shackles,
let me prove my worth.♪

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♪Release me from my shackles,
let me prove my worth.♪

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TREENA:
Hi baby! (laughs)

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STEPHANIE:
Hi!

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(both laughing)

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I like those eyebrows.

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Do ya? (laughs)

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Hi! Sista\' you
look really nice.

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TASHA SMITH: I missed you.

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I missed you too.

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Peace.

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STEPHANIE:
Okay, I don\'t ever want
to come back here again.

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Me neither.

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(music plays)

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(music plays)

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(music plays)

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(music plays)

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TREENA:
We promised each
other that, um,

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you know, we, we\'d kinda
keep on the down-low

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and not drink and be
good to each other, and...

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I think three days into it we were already drinking, and, ah.

46:59.183 --> 47:08.059
(upbeat music plays)

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(upbeat music plays)

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A week and a half later,
I was back in jail.

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(guards talking)

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(beep)

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SUE AYLES: Okay, so this is the letter.

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We can re-write it.

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Okay.

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SUE: And send it for Friday, with a plan. Jail is not working.

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We want to press for an alternative to incarceration.

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Because the last time you were here, we talked with this

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and you, you said \"I\'m done, I\'m done with this.

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This is not working. Why did nobody do this?\"

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So, we\'re gonna do it...

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if you\'re willing and you want to.

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TREENA:
I don\'t even think
they\'re gonna touch it.

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SUE: You don\'t?

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TREENA:
I don\'t, not in the least.

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I\'m tired of fucking looking
like the monster all the time.

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I don\'t really know what to
think about any of this.

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SUE: I\'ll leave you this and if you\'re not interested,

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you\'re not interested. But this might be the opportunity...

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to, to do something different... rather than be here.

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TREENA:
Okay.

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SUE: You know, we can give it our best shot.

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BIANCA: I have a bunch of complications with the pregnancy.

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Nobody at the prison or the
hospital listened to me.

48:49.026 --> 48:52.229
I was suprised E.Fry,
like, they got me out

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to have my baby outside
of prison.

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And this is...the baby\'s room.

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(chuckles)

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(lullaby music)

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Whoo, I love it.

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I\'m really, really nervous

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about ever having to
go back to jail.

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I don\'t ever want to
lose my daughter.

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Life is changing for once
and I\'m actually happy,

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so, it\'s awesome.

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MJ JARVIS: Those are my pants, too, if you really want...

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(camera clicks)

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(music plays)

49:45.115 --> 49:46.650
(camera clicks)

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CAITLIN:
I had a...problem today.

49:59.763 --> 50:06.770
So...I have a bit of anxiety
and, it wasn\'t too bad.

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So...I have a bit of anxiety
and, it wasn\'t too bad.

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(sighs) Frustrating sometimes.

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So, today it, it\'s been six days since I\'ve been home

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and I haven\'t been doing too
well. This is what I did.

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So, it hasn\'t been goin\' good,
but I told my mom, so it\'s

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good. A lot of stress tonight,
I will do this again later.

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And...we\'re off.

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(piano music plays)

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BIANCA:
Three days ago, I found out
my baby died inside of me.

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And I never really got to
know who she was.

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And this is me.

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This is who I am.

52:57.007 --> 53:02.479
Althea,...

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I want you to know that
I, I love you, so...so much.

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Promise to just...be my
angel...to look after me.

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To keep me out of harm\'s way.

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(crying) I don\'t know
how people do this.

53:59.236 --> 54:08.112
(music plays)

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(music plays)

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(music plays)

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(music plays)

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(music plays)

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KIM PATE:
Honourable Senators, ah, as
this is my first speech

54:45.249 --> 54:47.084
in the Upper Chamber
of our Parliament.

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(applause)

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Today I am both honoured and humbled to rise in this Chamber

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to call attention to the
circumstances of some

54:55.192 --> 54:59.663
of the most marginalized,
victimized, criminalized and

54:59.696 --> 55:03.767
institutionalized in our country, and to encourage us to

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focus in particular on the
increasing over-representation

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of Indigenous women in Canadian prisons...and this is why

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I call upon you,
my new colleagues,

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I ask that we work
together to give

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a voice to those who have too
long been rendered voiceless.

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I don\'t think I\'ll ever get used to

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people calling me Senator Pate. That was kind of a shock.

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I got calls from women inside
and I said to them,

55:31.662 --> 55:34.965
\"I expect you guys to hold me
to account if I don\'t do

55:34.998 --> 55:37.835
what I\'m supposed to
do in this job\".

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LAURA:
I\'m kinda scared...

55:53.617 --> 55:55.619
thinking that,

55:55.652 --> 56:00.324
what if a bird flies too
close to my head,

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what if a car drives too
close to me and he hits me?

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Go to the store, there\'s
no pennies anymore.

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Like, having a two-litre
bottle of pop,

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touching grass, being
right next to a tree.

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To hug my son.

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What\'s it gonna be like?

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MARGARET:
Caitlin lasted eight
weeks at home.

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Um, she did property damage...

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so she was sentenced
to fifty-six days

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which her doctor requested
her to go

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to the Forensic
building again.

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It was a good visit. She
seemed very pumped today.

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Eleven more sleeps and
she gets to come home.

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Then there\'s a placement,
supposedly in Truro.

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When she was released
from Corrections,

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she had five days of
medication, so,

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I had five days to get
her into a GP which, I,

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we had to go to the
walk-in clinic.

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Then the Province pays for
Caitlin\'s medication

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and they wouldn\'t cover Abilify which she was prescribed.

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Um, so she had to go off
that medication, ah, which,

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y\'know, certainly didn\'t
help for success at home.

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You know, mummy will always
care and she knows that,

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but she needs to feel that the
system\'s there for her.

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SUE:
It looks like it\'s gonna
be a long day.

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One way or the other.

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Um, I know she wants to
work and just live,

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but they\'re not likely
to go for that.

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It may not be the treatment
that she envisions,

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you know, like 7 to 9, Monday
to Friday kind of thing,

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um, but treatment is
an alternative.

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TASHA SMITH:
Okay, good, I\'m happy cause
it feels like it\'s always on

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my shoulders and it\'s
always, like, y\'know,

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I\'m the only person that she
has outside so it\'s hard.

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We don\'t have parents, we don\'t have people, for that outlet,

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we didn\'t grow up with that so
Treena relies on me for that.

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FILMMAKER:
So how many times have
you been here for Treena?

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Over eighty, probably, in
the last fifteen years.

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I come in anytime Treena\'s, um, arrested, I come in

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and I essentially just come
and be her support.

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Hi.

58:52.629 --> 58:55.966
TASHA SMITH:
But I don\'t want her to ever
walk in that courtroom

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and not see my face \'cause
we don\'t have my mom

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supporting her or
my dad or anybody.

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When she walks in the
courtroom she has that,

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okay, y\'know, I have
her. She\'s here.

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TREENA SMITH:
I\'m out but I kind of feel
not out at the same time.

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Um, he decided to give
me time served,

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but have the no contact
order with my wife.

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TREENA:
This is the best hug
I\'ve ever gotten.

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Not really sure how to
feel but I am gonna give

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the transition house a chance.
But I\'m happy, I\'m happy.

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It\'s nice out.

59:34.004 --> 59:35.672
See, and it\'s recording now...

59:35.705 --> 59:37.307
TASHA:
Okay.

59:37.340 --> 59:38.975
TREENA:
Okay?

59:39.009 --> 59:41.812
TASHA:
Hopefully this will be
your last move for a bit.

59:41.845 --> 59:43.547
Thanks for everything.

59:43.580 --> 59:45.215
TASHA:
You\'re welcome.

59:45.248 --> 59:49.686
So, this is a new
chapter and hopefully, ah,

59:49.719 --> 59:53.623
this will straighten me out,
at least a little bit.

59:57.027 --> 01:00:06.603
So, I\'m gonna let you see
as much as I can, camera.

01:00:08.004 --> 01:00:12.809
Having a baby wasn\'t gonna
make me happy.

01:00:12.843 --> 01:00:19.116
It also didn\'t make
me very happy losing her,

01:00:19.149 --> 01:00:24.054
but...some things
you can\'t change,

01:00:27.257 --> 01:00:33.296
and I\'ve made too many changes
in my life to turn back now.

01:00:42.906 --> 01:00:46.176
Everyone expects me to relapse,

01:00:46.209 --> 01:00:48.245
to drown in everything
I\'ve been through.

01:00:50.547 --> 01:00:54.151
I know I wanna do good
and I wanna be good.

01:00:54.184 --> 01:00:57.521
I wanna to be able
to support myself.

01:00:57.554 --> 01:01:01.725
I want to be able to have
children and be happy and...

01:01:01.758 --> 01:01:05.762
I want to be off methadone.
I want to be mentally stable.

01:01:05.795 --> 01:01:08.532
That\'s a lot to take on!

01:01:18.141 --> 01:01:22.112
TREENA:
I like having the, the
support every day,

01:01:22.145 --> 01:01:25.482
but I\'m also scared, like,
the longer that I stay here,

01:01:25.515 --> 01:01:27.184
the more comfortable
I\'m gonna be

01:01:27.217 --> 01:01:29.786
and it\'s gonna be harder
for when I do leave,

01:01:29.819 --> 01:01:32.889
so, that\'s kind of what\'s
going on in my head right now.

01:01:32.923 --> 01:01:35.792
The more I\'ve been relapsing,
too, like I don\'t sit there

01:01:35.825 --> 01:01:38.895
and I\'m like, this is fun
anymore, I think it\'s, ah,

01:01:38.929 --> 01:01:40.530
the last couple times I used,

01:01:40.564 --> 01:01:43.366
really gave me
a different outlook.

01:01:45.902 --> 01:01:47.704
I recently started
to think about

01:01:47.737 --> 01:01:50.340
how things affect
other people.

01:01:50.373 --> 01:01:52.042
I regret hurting people.

01:01:52.075 --> 01:01:56.246
I regret not grabbing
opportunities in my life.

01:01:56.279 --> 01:01:58.315
It\'s a never ending battle.

01:02:08.792 --> 01:02:10.894
I see a place where I\'m safe.

01:02:10.927 --> 01:02:15.198
ANNE:
What we thought we\'d do today
is to get creative with you.

01:02:15.232 --> 01:02:18.635
I see a place where I\'m never gonna be told I\'m not accepted.

01:02:18.668 --> 01:02:21.504
ANNE:
How do all these pieces
that you\'ve told us about,

01:02:21.538 --> 01:02:23.139
how do they sit together?

01:02:23.173 --> 01:02:26.009
TREENA:
I see a place where I\'m never
gonna feel rejected.

01:02:26.042 --> 01:02:29.112
TANYA:
Inside the house, are we
still gonna run with the idea

01:02:29.145 --> 01:02:31.681
of our tree?

01:02:31.715 --> 01:02:36.519
TREENA:
I see a place where I want to
learn, where I want to teach.

01:02:36.553 --> 01:02:39.222
TANYA:
And then this is kind
of like a cabin.

01:02:39.256 --> 01:02:41.291
Oh, that\'d be so nice.

01:02:44.194 --> 01:02:48.898
How are we gonna convince who
puts all that money into jail,

01:02:48.932 --> 01:02:51.468
how are we gonna convince
them to stop doing that

01:02:51.501 --> 01:02:53.103
and put the money into us?

01:02:53.136 --> 01:02:55.705
TREENA:
It\'s gonna have to start
out really small, y\'know,

01:02:55.739 --> 01:02:58.041
and, and leave the
dream kind of later.

01:02:58.074 --> 01:03:01.444
ANNE: But the dream, it isn\'t unrealistic, in my, in my mind.

01:03:01.478 --> 01:03:05.081
When projects fail it\'s because they don\'t have a strong vision.

01:03:05.115 --> 01:03:08.451
You guys have the,
the strongest vision.

01:03:11.888 --> 01:03:15.625
BIANCA:
From the Ground Up is a home
for us women to grow, learn,

01:03:15.659 --> 01:03:18.395
re-create our lives without
the use of prisons.

01:03:18.428 --> 01:03:22.565
Let\'s use money for a better
cause. Jails do not help us.

01:03:22.599 --> 01:03:25.935
It will be a place where you
learn to love other people

01:03:25.969 --> 01:03:29.939
and yourself. A place that gives you a sense of responsibility.

01:03:29.973 --> 01:03:32.609
It\'s a place that gives you
something to work towards,

01:03:32.642 --> 01:03:34.978
building your self esteem
and confidence.

01:03:35.011 --> 01:03:37.847
When you are needed and
a part of something,

01:03:37.881 --> 01:03:39.649
it gives you a sense
of community,

01:03:39.683 --> 01:03:42.919
a community where everyone
is reliant on each other.

01:03:42.952 --> 01:03:45.455
I never felt so good
about something,

01:03:45.488 --> 01:03:47.190
so compassionate
about something.

01:03:47.223 --> 01:03:53.296
I\'ve never felt so able, y\'know just to be able to do something.

01:03:53.330 --> 01:03:59.803
(clapping)

01:03:59.836 --> 01:04:03.973
TREENA:
From The Ground Up is, y\'know,
it, it\'s the hopes that we can

01:04:04.007 --> 01:04:06.943
give these women their self
worth back. Find ways to make,

01:04:06.976 --> 01:04:10.780
make these people feel useful
again and beautiful.

01:04:10.814 --> 01:04:14.851
It\'s up to us to come together
to help these women who\'ve

01:04:14.884 --> 01:04:18.521
been wronged so bad that need
us to reach out for them.

01:04:18.555 --> 01:04:22.359
I only hope that I can be a part of it, straight to the end,

01:04:22.392 --> 01:04:24.961
um, and to see it through.

01:04:24.994 --> 01:04:28.832
(clapping)

01:04:28.865 --> 01:04:31.968
I would think it would be a
great opportunity for you guys

01:04:32.001 --> 01:04:35.338
to present this to the Minister responsible for Corrections

01:04:35.372 --> 01:04:38.108
because what you\'ve proposed
looks an awful lot like

01:04:38.141 --> 01:04:40.877
Blueprint for Change which
was a plan that was

01:04:40.910 --> 01:04:42.979
put in place close to
thirty years ago.

01:04:43.012 --> 01:04:45.548
So, not really a question,
sorry, it was a comment.

01:04:45.582 --> 01:04:47.183
(laughing)

01:04:47.217 --> 01:04:49.519
When will you be ready to
do that presentation?

01:04:49.552 --> 01:04:51.154
There\'s the question.

01:04:51.187 --> 01:04:54.157
(clapping)

01:04:54.190 --> 01:04:59.062
BIANCA:
Yesterday, I, I spoke
in front of the guards

01:04:59.095 --> 01:05:00.764
I\'m about to go see.

01:05:04.701 --> 01:05:07.804
When things
are going good,

01:05:07.837 --> 01:05:12.709
something bad...something
bad always happens.

01:05:12.742 --> 01:05:15.745
I said I was able, huh?

01:05:15.779 --> 01:05:17.647
Able to go to jail.

01:05:19.916 --> 01:05:21.751
They can\'t do this.

01:05:21.785 --> 01:05:25.722
They put a no contact order
on the father of my child.

01:05:30.360 --> 01:05:31.928
(camera clicks)

01:05:31.961 --> 01:05:34.063
Oh, that necklace,
it\'s super important.

01:05:34.097 --> 01:05:35.698
That\'s my daughter\'s ashes.

01:05:35.732 --> 01:05:37.834
It\'s Althea\'s ashes.

01:05:37.867 --> 01:05:43.440
Wow, one breach. I\'ll get out on the fifth...twenty days.

01:05:43.473 --> 01:05:45.909
GUARD:
Yeah, she can be stripped
searched, yup.

01:05:46.876 --> 01:05:48.945
Thank you.

01:05:48.978 --> 01:05:50.847
That\'s fucked.

01:05:56.753 --> 01:05:59.989
GUARD:
I have Bianca Mercer.

01:06:00.023 --> 01:06:08.998
(woman yelling)

01:06:11.768 --> 01:06:15.672
(guards talking)

01:06:16.906 --> 01:06:19.576
GUARDS:
She\'ll be alright.
She\'ll calm down.

01:06:23.079 --> 01:06:27.050
GUARDS:
Sheriffs are in.
Ah, for fuck\'s sake!

01:06:30.220 --> 01:06:34.457
(music plays)

01:06:34.491 --> 01:06:37.460
SPOKEN-WORD POET:
Gotta believe that
I\'m worth something,

01:06:37.494 --> 01:06:40.897
that I\'m more than
just a number.

01:06:40.930 --> 01:06:42.599
That\'s what you told me

01:06:42.632 --> 01:06:45.335
but I\'m more than the
scars that shape us.

01:06:45.368 --> 01:06:47.737
LAURA: Psst, Tasha.

01:06:47.770 --> 01:06:49.339
What?

01:06:49.372 --> 01:06:53.943
Come here. One two three.

01:06:53.977 --> 01:07:01.951
(group humming and singing)

01:07:01.985 --> 01:07:07.891
(group humming and singing)

01:07:07.924 --> 01:07:14.797
(group humming and singing)

01:07:14.831 --> 01:07:18.401
NATASHA:
So grateful when you get
to go out, I\'m so happy for ya.

01:07:18.434 --> 01:07:20.003
Isn\'t that crazy?

01:07:20.036 --> 01:07:21.638
Yeah. Gettin\' nervous?
You gettin\' excited?

01:07:21.671 --> 01:07:23.273
Yes, I\'m really nervous.

01:07:23.306 --> 01:07:24.974
NATASHA & LAURA:
Wela\'lin. (Thank you)

01:07:26.743 --> 01:07:28.378
NATASHA & LAURA:
I love you.

01:07:28.411 --> 01:07:30.280
ANNOUNCER:
Lock up ladies, lock up.

01:07:37.287 --> 01:07:40.123
KIM PATE:
I would never ever want
to discourage women from

01:07:40.156 --> 01:07:43.560
coming up with a plan like
the women came up with

01:07:43.593 --> 01:07:50.333
and we\'ve got, y\'know, countless examples, we can just look here.

01:07:50.366 --> 01:07:53.636
We\'ve got, at the federal
and provincial level,

01:07:53.670 --> 01:07:56.339
we\'ve got exactly what
the women propose.

01:07:56.372 --> 01:08:00.376
Creating Choices was tabled
in April of 1990

01:08:00.410 --> 01:08:04.047
by the federal government
and it is still seen,

01:08:04.080 --> 01:08:08.651
internationally, as the most
ground breaking, human rights

01:08:08.685 --> 01:08:12.455
based, women centric,
women directed model.

01:08:12.488 --> 01:08:16.459
And now we have six little
prisons for, well, big now,

01:08:16.492 --> 01:08:19.529
the number of women in them
is more than were at the

01:08:19.562 --> 01:08:21.831
Prison for Women which
they were built to replace.

01:08:21.864 --> 01:08:26.235
And they all started out,
cottage-style, little houses,

01:08:26.269 --> 01:08:31.040
no fences, no eye in the sky
cameras, no segregation.

01:08:31.074 --> 01:08:33.176
Every single one of
these initiatives,

01:08:33.209 --> 01:08:35.878
before they were even
finished being built,

01:08:35.912 --> 01:08:38.748
were becoming more
and more prison like.

01:08:38.781 --> 01:08:41.751
The failure of this
is what propelled

01:08:41.784 --> 01:08:44.187
the Canadian Association
of Elizabeth Fry Societies

01:08:44.220 --> 01:08:47.023
to embrace an abolitionist
perspective.

01:08:47.056 --> 01:08:51.461
Nobody\'s stopping, stemming
the tide coming in.

01:08:51.494 --> 01:08:55.665
I think we actually have
to just do an about face.

01:09:02.372 --> 01:09:05.541
Whether it\'s Bianca or Treena
or anybody else, to think,

01:09:05.575 --> 01:09:09.579
I have to do this and it\'s all
on me to make this work. No.

01:09:09.612 --> 01:09:13.216
We\'ll get as far as we can and
if we don\'t get to exactly

01:09:13.249 --> 01:09:16.352
where we want to be we\'ll just
keep pushing to get there.

01:09:19.288 --> 01:09:23.393
SENATOR WANDA BERNARD:
So tonight we continue our
study of the issues relating

01:09:23.426 --> 01:09:26.029
to the human rights
of prisoners.

01:09:26.062 --> 01:09:28.931
Just please come forward
and have a seat please.

01:09:28.965 --> 01:09:33.469
TREENA:
Which button do I press here
to, oh, it\'s this one, okay.

01:09:33.503 --> 01:09:35.438
Okay, ah, my name
is Treena Smith.

01:09:35.471 --> 01:09:38.107
This is the longest
I\'ve been out in...

01:09:38.141 --> 01:09:41.344
probably four years,
so I\'m doing alright.

01:09:41.377 --> 01:09:43.446
We started working
on a documentary

01:09:43.479 --> 01:09:46.683
two and a half years ago, um,
basically talking about

01:09:46.716 --> 01:09:49.519
what we need from society to
keep ourselves out of prison

01:09:49.552 --> 01:09:52.155
and trying to look at opening
up a transition house,

01:09:52.188 --> 01:09:55.491
perhaps in the country, having
women so they don\'t have to

01:09:55.525 --> 01:09:58.494
get out and get on social assistance, making a pay cheque,

01:09:58.528 --> 01:10:00.430
getting their
independence back.

01:10:00.463 --> 01:10:02.999
Treena\'s pretty incredible.
Come join us for the picture.

01:10:03.032 --> 01:10:06.302
Yes, it\'s a long journey.

01:10:06.335 --> 01:10:09.672
KIM PATE:
Canada has the resources
and we can and should

01:10:09.706 --> 01:10:12.909
be a leader in
decarcerating.

01:10:15.244 --> 01:10:17.747
We need to be investing
in people,

01:10:17.780 --> 01:10:20.083
and certainly not
in prisons.

01:10:21.117 --> 01:10:25.154
(music plays)
(group humming and singing)

01:10:25.188 --> 01:10:28.691
BIANCA: It really symbolizes us growing and becoming a family,

01:10:28.725 --> 01:10:32.261
and...we\'re coming
out the mud, man.

01:10:34.997 --> 01:10:38.735
TREENA:
Y\'know, a tree represents
strength to me

01:10:38.768 --> 01:10:41.838
and that\'s what we all
need right now.

01:10:43.106 --> 01:10:45.408
TANYA:
From The Ground Up, ladies!

01:10:45.441 --> 01:10:47.243
This little guy\'s gonna
take us home.

01:10:47.276 --> 01:10:50.613
BIANCA: And I know there\'s other girls that are missing and it sucks

01:10:50.646 --> 01:10:54.117
they\'re not here but...we\'re
gonna bring them with us.

01:11:00.790 --> 01:11:05.762
TREENA:
I\'m deciding that I need to
make myself better first.

01:11:05.795 --> 01:11:12.568
(music plays)
(group humming and singing)

01:11:12.602 --> 01:11:15.204
I still have a long way
to go, mind you,

01:11:15.238 --> 01:11:17.707
I\'m not, I\'m not cured
or anything,

01:11:17.740 --> 01:11:20.676
but I,...I just feel
more hopeful today.

01:11:37.927 --> 01:11:41.264
CAITLIN:
I\'m in Truro in a group
home setting.

01:11:41.297 --> 01:11:44.600
I\'m out in the community and
I can go out for a walk

01:11:44.634 --> 01:11:49.138
with staff. I would hate
to go back to prison.

01:11:49.172 --> 01:11:53.009
I feel safe living here.

01:11:53.042 --> 01:11:55.178
That\'s a pretty picture.

01:11:55.211 --> 01:11:59.615
Layers of my life.

01:11:59.649 --> 01:12:04.854
Peeling back the layers.
Dealing with my problems.

01:12:04.887 --> 01:12:09.058
Happy to have my family
be on my side.

01:12:09.091 --> 01:12:13.963
Tired of not knowing if
I\'ve got any friends.

01:12:25.508 --> 01:12:28.678
BIANCA:
I want to be an advocate.
I wanna fight for women.

01:12:28.711 --> 01:12:32.315
I want to fight the system. My
dream job is to be a lawyer

01:12:32.348 --> 01:12:36.018
and I wanna go to
school for that.

01:12:36.052 --> 01:12:38.554
Hey Laura!

01:12:38.588 --> 01:12:43.459
(laughs) Oh my God, I can\'t
believe you\'re here though,

01:12:43.492 --> 01:12:51.200
like for real. This
is cool. (laughs) OMG.

01:12:51.234 --> 01:12:53.402
It is cool.

01:12:53.436 --> 01:12:56.906
Let\'s walk man. Let\'s get out of here.

01:13:13.155 --> 01:13:17.693
(laughs)
I feel crazy.

01:13:17.727 --> 01:13:21.564
BIANCA:
Oh man, it won\'t go away
for a couple of days.

01:13:21.597 --> 01:13:25.968
Really? It\'s like, there\'s
no echo out here.

01:13:31.874 --> 01:13:35.378
So that\'s this.

01:13:35.411 --> 01:13:38.381
BIANCA:
You can start it
and stop it here, so,

01:13:38.414 --> 01:13:40.349
see how it says \"standby\"?

01:13:40.383 --> 01:13:41.951
Yeah.

01:13:41.984 --> 01:13:44.754
BIANCA:
Record everything,
even if you\'re not good.

01:13:44.787 --> 01:13:46.555
Even if you\'re not
good, record it.

01:13:46.589 --> 01:13:48.257
Yup.

01:13:56.632 --> 01:14:00.703
(knocking)

01:15:27.957 --> 01:15:30.126
JULES CÔTE:
♪Jangle keys and
shuffle feet parade.♪

01:15:30.159 --> 01:15:32.695
♪Those sounds reminds me of
those great mistakes I made.♪

01:15:32.728 --> 01:15:35.297
♪I know I\'m not an angel,
nor am I worst on earth.♪

01:15:35.331 --> 01:15:37.867
♪Release me from my shackles,
let me prove my worth.♪

01:15:37.900 --> 01:15:40.703
SINGERS:
♪Release me from my shackles,
let me prove my worth.♪

01:15:40.736 --> 01:15:43.706
♪Release me from my shackles,
let me prove my worth.♪

01:15:43.739 --> 01:15:46.175
♪More than a number.

01:15:46.208 --> 01:15:48.044
JULES:
♪Gotta believe that
I\'m worth something.♪

01:15:48.077 --> 01:15:50.413
SINGERS:
♪More than a number.

01:15:50.446 --> 01:15:52.515
JULES:
♪That I\'m more than
just a number.♪

01:15:52.548 --> 01:15:56.552
SINGERS:
♪More than a number.♪

01:15:56.585 --> 01:16:00.990
♪More than the scars
that shape us.♪

01:16:03.492 --> 01:16:05.694
JULES:
♪You told me
I was just a number.♪

01:16:05.728 --> 01:16:07.530
♪Can\'t take my hope,
always a dreamer.♪

01:16:07.563 --> 01:16:09.331
♪Gotta live with
my many sins,♪

01:16:09.365 --> 01:16:11.000
♪my imperfect
self shines within.♪

01:16:11.033 --> 01:16:13.469
♪Gotta prove to the world
over and over again.♪

01:16:13.502 --> 01:16:15.538
♪It\'s exhausting
being so angry.♪

01:16:15.571 --> 01:16:19.875
SINGERS: ♪Je suis plus que juste un numéro.♪

01:16:19.909 --> 01:16:22.812
LUDIVINE: I\'m the one who makes art with orphan beads.

01:16:22.845 --> 01:16:26.082
Because no one wants them. They remind me of all of us.

01:16:26.115 --> 01:16:28.884
Forgotten souls in all
prisons around the world.

01:16:28.918 --> 01:16:30.519
When you give them a chance.

01:16:30.553 --> 01:16:32.888
They\'re the most beautiful
creations born.

01:16:32.922 --> 01:16:35.091
When you give us a chance.

01:16:35.124 --> 01:16:37.726
We\'re the most beautiful creations born.

01:16:39.662 --> 01:16:42.398
KATELYN: I am so quiet, but I need to speak.

01:16:42.431 --> 01:16:44.700
So much emotion pours out of me.

01:16:44.733 --> 01:16:47.236
I wish I could tell you how I feel.

01:16:47.269 --> 01:16:49.105
But I\'m so scared of what\'s real.

01:16:52.074 --> 01:16:55.411
SINGERS: ♪More than a number.♪

01:16:56.045 --> 01:16:59.381
♪More than a number.♪

01:17:00.082 --> 01:17:04.453
♪More than a number.♪

01:17:04.487 --> 01:17:08.991
♪More than the scars that shape us.♪

01:17:09.024 --> 01:17:11.193
VANESSA: Thank you for hearing our own personal

01:17:11.227 --> 01:17:13.329
thoughts. You need to remember, never give up.

01:17:13.362 --> 01:17:15.898
SINGERS: ♪Never give up, never, never give up.♪

01:17:15.931 --> 01:17:18.567
♪Never give up, never, never give up.♪

01:17:18.601 --> 01:17:22.905
♪Raise up, raise up.♪

01:17:22.938 --> 01:17:25.508
JULES: ♪Your pain won\'t go unnoticed, you are not alone.♪

01:17:25.541 --> 01:17:28.277
♪You can set yourself free and build yourself a home.♪

01:17:28.310 --> 01:17:34.250
SINGERS:
♪Je suis plus que
juste un numéro.♪

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JULES:
♪Beyond the fence,
we see common ground.♪

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(humming)

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(humming)