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The 4th of October 2007

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was the day we were arrested.

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We had a meeting
in the town of Segura.

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And those of us who went

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to the meeting

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belonged to a party
that had been illegalized,

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a leftist pro-independence party,

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that had been declared illegal
by a Spanish court.

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At the time
there were talks between ETA

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and some Spanish political parties.

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And also with the Spanish Government.

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A series of talks had started

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aimed at solving a political conflict

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that had gone on for years.

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And while we were at that meeting,

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the National Police took over the town

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and put up roadblocks,
closing all possible accesses.

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Those of us who were
at the meeting knew

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that they would arrest us
sooner or later

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because they had been following us
for months.

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On that particular day

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the presence of the police
was tremendous.

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There were

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many policemen

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surrounding the place
where we were meeting.

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Even so, we tried avoiding them

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and leave in different cars.

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It was night time,

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which made it easier for us

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to try and get away from them.

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We got in different cars

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and we managed
to drive for a few meters

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before they stopped us.

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That's when we realized...

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That's when we realized
that the whole town

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had been occupied.

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Some of us managed to reach

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a car park, while other got no further
than the roundabout.

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That's where they blocked us

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and started arresting us.

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A lot of police cars came.

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All the policemen wore balaclavas.

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Then we all had to wait

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until our arrest warrants arrived,

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The arrest warrants stated

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that we were being arrested

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following orders from Court nº 5
assigned by the High Court

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from where judge Baltasar Garzón

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had started the whole process.

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Once they got the warrants,
they took us away one by one.

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They made me get in

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inside a car,
and once in the car I realized

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that the driver...

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I realized that the man driving

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was a well-known policeman
in Pamplona

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because in the torture sessions

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inflicted on young people,

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he took the lead.

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CENTRAL COURT Nº 5

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MADRID
GARCÍA GUTIÉRREZ ST.

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ACTUAL SITUATION OF
MARÍA ARÁNZAZU SANTESBAN PÉREZ

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JUDICIAL DECREE
MADRID, 22nd OCTOBER 2007

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FACTS: DURING THE PROCEEDINGS,
ON 7th OF OCTOBER 2007,

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AN ORDER OF IMPRISONMENT
WAS ISSUED

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AS A RESULT OF THE EVIDENCE FOUND.

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LEGAL GROUNDS:

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THE ACCUSED HAD A ROLE
OF RELEVANT RESPONSIBILITY

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IN THE SUSPECTED TERRORIST
SCHEME INVESTIGATED

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IN THE PRESENT PROCEEDINGS,

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THE RISK OF CRIMINAL RECURRENCE
IF SET FREE

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WAS CONSIDERED ELEVATED

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AS WELL AS THAT
OF AVOIDING THE JUSTICE SYSTEM

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AS THE ACCUSED DID NOT RENOUNCE
HER STANCE

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REGARDING THE ACKNOWLEDGMENT,
SUPPORT AND ASSIMILATION

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IN THE TERRORIST ORGANIZATION
ETA/BATASUNA

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AND SAID ORGANIZATION CONTINUES
WITH ITS CRIMINAL ACTIVITIES.

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DECISION;
IMPRISONMENT WITHOUT BAIL FOR

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MARÍA ARÁNZAZU SANTESBAN PÉREZ
STARTING ON 7th OCTOBER 2007

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SO SAYS, ORDERS AND SIGNS
MR. BALTASAR GARZÓN REAL,

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MAGISTRATE AND JUDGE,
CENTRAL COURT Nº 5,

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HIGH COURT OF SPAIN.

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I HEREBY ATTEST TO THE ABOVE.

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ARRAIGNMENT: THE ABOVE ORDERS
SHALL BE CARRIED OUT.

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I've been waiting in a cell
in the High Court for three hours.

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Two policemen come for me.

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On our way to the judge's office,
one tells the other

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that over the week-end he watched
the car races with his family.

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He then describes the car mechanics
with all sort of details.

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We walk into an office

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and I immediately recognize
judge Baltasar Garzón.

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He doesn't raise his eyes
from his desk.

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My lawyer is to my right.

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Then the public prosecutor
in his black robe.

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The two people on my left

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are from the Dignity and Justice
Association.

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They are the popular prosecution.

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One of them carries a huge folder.

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I notice it has my name
written in capital letters.

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They start speaking.

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My lawyer asks for my release.

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Garzón does not bother to look at me.

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I feel that they are talking
about somebody else..

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I'm sweating.

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It's hot is this carpeted room.

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The prosecutor requests
that I not be allowed to post bail.

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The woman from the Association
opens the folder.

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She mentions conferences and meetings
I supposedly went to.

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A press conference
with an internationalist committee.

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One with Feminist Associations
to organize March 8th.

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An endless list of police monitoring.

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I look at the pattern of the carpet.

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Abstract flowers

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one next to the other.

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An endless chain.

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I suddenly want to laugh,

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to roar with laughter.

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But I know it would be out of place.

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Just as I am out of place.

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918 NIGHTS

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Some NGO volunteers came today.

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It is Tamara's daughter's birthday.

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She turns two years old.

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We decorated our common room.

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These kind of celebrations
are special

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because they usually bring cameras.

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I wore my read sweater,
the one my mom gave me.

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Alexandra just came back

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from a conjugal visit
with her new boyfriend.

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She walks with a limp,
I ask her what's wrong.

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She tells me her boyfriend likes
to give it in the ass

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because he's Turkish.

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Someone brought her a cushion
so she can sit down while eating.

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Silvia, the sports instructor,
brought a camera.

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The first day she showed up,
she was scared of us.

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She expected us to be savages.

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Time's gone by
and now she is a friend.

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She came to see me last week
at the Palencia hospital.

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Two cops took me to the hospital
to be operated on.

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I crossed the hallways

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one cop in front, one behind
and me handcuffed between them.

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I noticed people staring at me.

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I felt embarrassed

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and walked in the pre-surgery room
with my head down.

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I hadn't fully woken up
from the anesthesia

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when they took me back to the prison.

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My parents and Silvia waited outside
the hospital.

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They didn't allow them to come in.

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They've placed a kind of stall
in the courtyard.

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We hear fairground music
instead of the usual announcements.

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Sofía likes heroin
more than anything else.

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She gets hooked and unhooked
time and time again.

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But she openly embraces
this way of life.

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Some friends have always looked
after her daughter.

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Isabel has told my fortune again.

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According to her,
the kings are the judges.

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The knights, the prosecutors,
and the jacks, the lawyers.

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She does her best to guess
my judicial future.

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No matter what comes out,
she tries to cheer me up.

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"Don't worry,
I know there were a lot of kings,

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but that's because
they're discussing your freedom."

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I love Isabel.

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Maite and I walk around
the courtyard.

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We do ten turns in one direction,
and ten in the other.

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The girls who've been here
a long time say

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that if you always walk
in the same direction,

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one of your knees will suffer more
than the other.

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This way they still get injured,

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but not as fast.

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It's not easy to find someone
you can trust,

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but Maite is a good confidant.

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I tell her
what it was like in the Avila prison.

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About the very strict rules enforced
by Nerea.

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She despised us for saying
we were frustrated

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for being locked up.

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As if our weaknesses bothered her.

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Little by little, she forced us
to become model prisoners.

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Political prisoners could not give in

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to the prison institution.

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Political matters were always
above personal matters.

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She didn't approve of any contact
with regular inmates.

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She didn't trust them.

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None of us wanted to confront her

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and we ended up living
in an unbearable silence.

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I felt I wasn't making the grade.

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They've organized
a swimming competition,

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the 100-meters crawl.

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I dive in the water

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and start moving my arms and legs
as fast as I can.

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Suddenly, I realize that I've won.

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I'm the fastest swimmer in the jail.

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A small moment of joy.

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I beat all those guys pumped full
of steroids.

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We don't have anything in common,

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but I feel great surrounded
by so much muscle.

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I've seen the Brazilian guy today.

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His body and his skin make me
go wild.

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I don't think anyone's
ever fucked me this well.

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Let's hope the other girls
don't find out about him.

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I'm afraid of not making
the grade again.

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I should hide what we have going on.

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Rasha is an African inmate.

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She was sentenced

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to nine years for killing her husband.

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One Summer day,

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one of those really hot Summer day,

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and the heat is worse in jail
between concrete walls,

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Rasha took

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the pat of butter
they gave us with our breakfast,

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and smeared it

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on her face.

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After that, she put on a fur hat

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and went out to sunbathe.

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That's when we realized

00:23:52.700 --> 00:23:56.120
that she was gradually losing
her mind.

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Some other time

00:24:00.460 --> 00:24:02.290
we saw Rasha come out

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of her cell

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carrying a glass of water,

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and inside it,

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a bloodied sanitary towel.

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She was drinking it
like a herbal tea.

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We started getting worried.

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Another time there was
this terrible smell in the cell block.

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It was Rasha again.

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She had begun to smear her excrements
on the walls of her cell.

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The other inmates said
she was possessed

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and performed black magic rituals
on her.

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They left rotten apples at her door.

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They threw salt

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on her bed, in her cell.

00:24:53.620 --> 00:24:56.960
But all these things
only upset Rasha more.

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The prison management
punished Rasha

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and locked her up in a cell
called "Crab".

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When we walked in the courtyard
in the morning,

00:25:07.160 --> 00:25:10.750
we could see Rasha looking out,
banging the window,

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screaming.

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That's when we tried
to do something,

00:25:16.870 --> 00:25:18.330
but it was too late.

00:26:40.580 --> 00:26:44.210
Yesterday I got a letter from a friend
with a lot of pictures.

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He had numbered each one

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and told me in the letter
what they were about.

00:26:54.370 --> 00:26:56.660
He is trying to make me feel
I was there.

00:27:32.870 --> 00:27:35.910
I see strangers completely drunk

00:27:37.290 --> 00:27:39.460
and all I feel is helplessness.

00:27:42.410 --> 00:27:44.500
I've been here for over two years.

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The outside world
belongs to a previous life.

00:28:05.330 --> 00:28:08.040
Here they say
that the love these pictures bring,

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help the inmates breathe.

00:28:12.250 --> 00:28:15.210
I try hard to feel that strength when
I receive them,

00:28:15.370 --> 00:28:17.210
but I often lose interest.

00:28:36.540 --> 00:28:38.160
I wrote to Julen today.

00:28:40.080 --> 00:28:42.540
I told him that to cope
with daily life here,

00:28:42.700 --> 00:28:45.410
slogans used in marches
don't help much.

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We need other kind of tools

00:28:49.910 --> 00:28:52.660
to overcome the feeling
of helplessness.

00:28:55.750 --> 00:28:57.660
I miss intimacy,

00:28:58.000 --> 00:29:01.210
being able to truly communicate

00:29:02.080 --> 00:29:04.040
what my daily life is like in here.

00:29:27.540 --> 00:29:30.830
I'm reading Rosa Luxemburg's letters,

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the ones she wrote in jail,
it somehow helps me.

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She says the following:

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My innermost self belongs more
to my titmice than to the comrades."

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Today I saw Rasha in the courtyard
wearing a fur hat.

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She was sunning herself,
it breaks my heart.

00:31:14.250 --> 00:31:16.500
I just can't get her image
out my head.

00:32:32.460 --> 00:32:33.620
Hello, Arantza.

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Unable to know
where the present begins and ends,

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I join a few letters to create words
that will take us far.

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On this painful night,

00:32:49.700 --> 00:32:52.540
I feel the world cannot breathe
under the sky.

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Not even the slightest breeze

00:32:56.000 --> 00:32:58.460
to lift this awful heat.

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The Albanian in the cell next door
is praying.

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I told him that in the Basque language
there are words

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that come from his god Allah, such as

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"alajaina" from "allah-jauna",

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"alafede" from "allah-fede".

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I told him before lock up.

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Perhaps he'll be grateful

00:33:22.540 --> 00:33:25.620
for this small discovery, who knows?

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The tale of the man,
the donkey and the child

00:33:31.910 --> 00:33:33.660
that I used to love

00:33:34.370 --> 00:33:38.620
leads me more towards reflection
than towards moral.

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But I'll use the donkey
to share with you

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what happened to me once
with some zebras.

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During the time I spent underground,

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we had a safety rendezvous

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in the municipal zoo
of a European city.

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If anything happened,

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if we ran out of contacts
or got out of touch,

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we had a monthly appointment
at the zebras.

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We knew that someone would come up
to rescue us.

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Anyway, during two months
I was the one

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who had to turn up
every other Saturday

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in case a "lost" comrade showed up,

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and if he did, I'd rescue him.

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During this endless waiting,

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I became friendly with the zebras

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and we often had pleasant chats.

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In my imagination,
I'd go over their legend,

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from the Maasai Mara
to the Serengeti.

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I'd ask them
about their age old migrations.

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But one day,

00:34:51.290 --> 00:34:55.410
I asked them a metaphorical question
I had used in a meeting.

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"What are you?"

00:35:00.710 --> 00:35:01.960
"¿Black donkeys

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with white stripes?"

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"Or white donkeys with black stripes?"

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And my friends the zebras

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answered as follows, Arantza:

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"What about you?

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"Are activists like you

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good people

00:35:25.910 --> 00:35:29.000
with bad habits
and a destructive behavior?"

00:35:31.250 --> 00:35:33.750
"Or are you bad and destructive people

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of good habits
who behave correctly?"

00:35:39.700 --> 00:35:43.330
"Are you noisy people
who make do with slogans?"

00:35:44.120 --> 00:35:46.870
"Or are you quiet and spiritual people

00:35:47.040 --> 00:35:49.960
who occasionally shout
and have noisy moments?"

00:35:52.000 --> 00:35:55.370
"Does your struggle make you happy
with the occasional sad day?"

00:35:56.750 --> 00:36:00.120
"Or do you follow a sad path
with the occasional happy day?"

00:36:01.620 --> 00:36:04.500
"Are you righteous and fair
with one other

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in spite of the occasional error?"

00:36:07.620 --> 00:36:10.160
"Or do you behave like pigs

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with occasional moments of fairness?"

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And they went on and on
with their questions.

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Since that day,

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I've never asked zebras
about their stripes.

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Tonight I was released
from the Zaragoza prison.

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Free at last.

00:37:02.330 --> 00:37:04.910
A friend took me home in his car.

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I had the sensation
we were going very fast.

00:37:11.960 --> 00:37:14.960
I had forgotten
what speed felt like.

00:37:19.460 --> 00:37:23.210
We get there and I see a lot
of people waiting in the square.

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I get out of the car
and everyone cheers.

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I feel the flashes from the cameras.

00:37:33.460 --> 00:37:36.330
Suddenly I catch sight
of my friends.

00:37:37.160 --> 00:37:39.460
I want to go and hug them,

00:37:41.120 --> 00:37:45.120
but the "txistulari" starts playing
and they dance the "aurresku".

00:37:48.700 --> 00:37:51.460
I can't hug them
until they finish dancing.

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I know that everyone's looking at me.

00:37:59.580 --> 00:38:02.040
And now I'm going to have
to say something,

00:38:02.700 --> 00:38:04.040
a speech,

00:38:04.790 --> 00:38:06.460
but I don't know what to say.

00:38:09.660 --> 00:38:12.830
A powerful noise is heard
and everyone starts running,

00:38:14.830 --> 00:38:17.250
There are police cars everywhere.

00:38:19.370 --> 00:38:20.700
They surround the square

00:38:20.870 --> 00:38:23.460
and start charging
against everyone present.

00:38:26.700 --> 00:38:29.750
My mom grabs me by the arm
and pulls me in a doorway.

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At least I won't have
to make a speech.

00:39:53.960 --> 00:39:55.160
I remember

00:39:56.660 --> 00:39:58.540
going out,

00:39:59.710 --> 00:40:02.000
going to shop in my neighborhood.

00:40:02.160 --> 00:40:03.710
I remember that,

00:40:08.250 --> 00:40:10.870
suddenly,
people started doing me favors.

00:40:12.460 --> 00:40:16.160
If I went to have a massage,
they wouldn't charge me for it.

00:40:18.500 --> 00:40:20.120
If I had a cup of coffee,

00:40:21.120 --> 00:40:22.750
no one

00:40:24.500 --> 00:40:25.960
would let me pay for it.

00:40:28.290 --> 00:40:29.540
I'd go

00:40:30.160 --> 00:40:31.660
into a shop

00:40:32.080 --> 00:40:34.290
to buy underwear
and they gave it to me.

00:40:35.330 --> 00:40:38.460
That's when I realized it was going

00:40:39.290 --> 00:40:40.620
to be like that

00:40:41.540 --> 00:40:43.960
from now on in my neighborhood.

00:40:45.750 --> 00:40:47.500
In a certain way,

00:40:48.210 --> 00:40:51.500
everyone needed me to fulfill

00:40:51.870 --> 00:40:53.960
their expectations.

00:40:55.460 --> 00:40:57.710
But I was already somewhere else.

00:40:59.290 --> 00:41:03.790
I didn't feel any of that,
that's not what I wanted.

00:41:05.120 --> 00:41:09.040
Deep inside of me,
I wanted to become anonymous.

00:41:09.700 --> 00:41:12.910
I needed to be anonymous,
to remain anonymous.

00:41:14.000 --> 00:41:15.710
So I decided,

00:41:17.120 --> 00:41:18.790
in order

00:41:20.000 --> 00:41:21.870
to fulfill this process,

00:41:23.040 --> 00:41:25.580
to leave my neighborhood, my town

00:41:26.750 --> 00:41:28.710
and move somewhere else.

00:47:13.750 --> 00:47:17.790
This video was taken in 2013,
in Berlin.

00:47:21.660 --> 00:47:24.460
We are in an apartment in Berlin.

00:47:27.700 --> 00:47:31.660
I'm surrounded by people,
they're my new friends.

00:47:36.080 --> 00:47:38.910
They ask me to tell them

00:47:40.290 --> 00:47:41.870
about my life in jail.

00:47:44.210 --> 00:47:46.040
They want to make a film.

00:47:47.370 --> 00:47:48.620
But I don't want to.

00:47:49.750 --> 00:47:52.330
I don't want to be anyone's hero.

00:47:53.620 --> 00:47:55.750
Suddenly, I start talking

00:47:56.790 --> 00:47:58.120
and I just can't stop.

00:48:03.710 --> 00:48:05.460
I'd like to tell them

00:48:05.870 --> 00:48:08.750
that their admiration
is a burden for me.

00:48:42.790 --> 00:48:44.710
I recount with lots of details

00:48:46.580 --> 00:48:48.370
some of the scenes I lived through.

00:49:03.330 --> 00:49:05.250
I speak, I raise my voice,

00:49:07.290 --> 00:49:10.000
I gesticulate.

00:49:21.290 --> 00:49:22.960
I tell them

00:49:24.080 --> 00:49:26.330
what it was like
from my point of view,

00:49:29.330 --> 00:49:31.790
what it was like inside there.

00:49:38.960 --> 00:49:40.330
They laugh with me

00:49:40.750 --> 00:49:42.870
and I laugh with them.