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40 years ago, when I started
making this film

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I was the owner of a new car.

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I had bought it in Panama
for 4,000 dollars.

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But the years passed,
and the car was worn out.

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Until it was totally broken

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and ended up as a relic

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in a back yard in Northern Nicaragua.

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But the filming has continued.

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Nobody wants to get rid of that car.
It's filled with history.

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A hen-house.

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Ninosca:

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I have became your witness.

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I saw when you left your childhood
in the tropical heat of Nicaragua.

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For the harsh chilliness

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as an emigrant without papers,
in the winter of Northern Spain.

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It is your life.

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I can see you, but I cannot interfere.

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The very same day
the 20th century ended

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a new human millennium was to begin.

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That day you asked for a miracle.

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Lord, I pray to you
here this evening,

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I'm praying for a miracle which only
you can perform.

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Your husband Tinoco shot fireworks.

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And we cheered.

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Let's drink a toast
to the new millennium,

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may it be wonderful for everyone!

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What do you say?

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It’s only today, that I understand
what this miracle was about.

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It was not love or money,
it was something else.

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Something very secret.

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And maybe desperate.

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Forgotten is that time in the beginning,
before I knew you.

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When I came to your parents,
and you hid,

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shy, from the foreigners
that entered your backyard.

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You sat behind a fence, hidden.

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Ninosca, here you are.

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You're twelve years old
and you want to become a teacher.

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Yesterday, you tried to teach your mother
and some neighbors how to read.

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Here we have the whole family.

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I forgot why you all are waving.

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Perhaps I thought at the time
that you should wave at us from the past.

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From the San Fernando village
in the mid-1980s

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in the midst of war.

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There is the mother, my friend Soledad.

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She still has ten more years to live.

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And there are the brothers.

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And there. The one on the horse

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is the father, Gregorio.

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He's still in the middle of life.

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The village was frequently cut off
from the outside world.

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The only way to communicate,
was through the old telegraph.

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The village was situated
in the middle of a war.

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But just occasionally flared up.

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—Keep the door locked.
—Yes, see you later.

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Let's see if those traitors
will fight like real men.

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Back then, I was 13 years old.

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With a pillow under one arm,

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We would try to find a place to sleep
at a neighbor's

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because we were afraid
the Contras would come.

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Because if they find you,
they kill you.

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My father and brothers
were all mobilized.

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Nicaragua is at war.

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Only my mother and I
were at home.

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It was a very difficult time.

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The dictator Somoza
has just been overthrown.

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And the radical Sandinista revolution
is on the way.

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There’s a dream of a new and equal society.

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But that dream is not allowed
to be realized in peace.

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The US and the CIA has built
an army of Contras soldiers

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in the neighboring Honduras.

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And it’s from the bases like this one,
they make sabotage raids into Nicaragua.

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I want to report the war from both sides.

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So I walk into Nicaragua with the Contras.

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I met a Contra soldier in the mountains

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who gladly recounted how he had murdered

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a neighbor from San Fernando.

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We went in shooting.

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He fell, and we finished him off.

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I recorded his testimony and made my way

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to the murdered mans family.

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And there she was, Ninosca, in the
first picture I took of the family.

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In the beginning she was
just one of many

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but gradually she became
a much greater part of my life.

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This is our son, Jesus Perez.

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He fought against the Contras
when they came to San Fernando.

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—Who killed him?
—The Contras.

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The ones from here,
who left the village.

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Kill him, if he ever comes back.

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That's what I think.

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—Why?
—Because he killed my brother.

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The saddest thing ever?

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In my whole life.

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Yes.

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The saddest thing
that ever happened?

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Yes.

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That's why you can't forgive
your neighbors?

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No.

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I don't forgive them.

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It was the hardest thing
that you could live through.

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The fact that my brother was killed
by people from our own village.

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Ninosca's mother, Soledad,
is one of bakers in the village.

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Part of her production

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is given to her fighting sons
and their companions in the mountains.

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My mother was a fighter...

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She was very brave.

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At that time, my mother was...

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I remember her bravery,
her fighting spirit.

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Sometimes, I can see her
in my dreams.

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If I were a bird,
I would perch in a branch

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over where my son is fighting
against the Contras.

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—What would you do there?
—Watch over him.

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And I'd pray to God to keep him safe.

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Gregorio, the father,
once had a functioning jeep.

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Now he is ruined

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because the ground
used for his coffee cultivation

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is mined by the Contras.

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—Where are you going?
—San Fernando.

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The rifle too?

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Yes.

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And if the Contras attack?

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We'll use it.

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What will you do in San Fernando?

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Three months before
I finished my military service,

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I fell in love with a girl.

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Then I was mobilized to León,
so I'm going to see her.

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Have I ever kissed anyone?

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No.

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No one.

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Only him.

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How many times?

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An infinite number of times...

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When I look at him,
I feel attracted...

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Just the sight of him
makes me happy.

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He makes me feel something...
It's love.

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To me, her whole body... All of it..

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I can't separate her legs,
her breasts,

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from her head to her toes.

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I like everything.

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All of it belongs to me.

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Her hourglass figure.

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Coffee-colored eyes.

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Hair that is curly, but smooth.

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Her lovely face.

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I'm crazy about her.

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If anyone touches her,
I'll kill them.

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She is barely seventeen.

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Now she's going to marry.

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Will she abandon her plans
to become a teacher?

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I think she should study,
but if she doesn't want to...

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My husband and I believe
it's best for her to study.

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So she doesn't end up
as a housewife.

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She needs to have knowledge.

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To learn something,
a worthwhile profession.

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Not only think of the home,
the husband, the children.

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She's young,
she needs to think of the future.

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If mountains could be moved

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By the strength of my faith alone...

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It still wouldn't work without love

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If love is missing,

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It's meaningless...

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May the presence of God
reign over your lives.

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For your entire life.

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Your entire life.

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The man is the head of the household.

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—Isn't he?
—Yes, but...

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We're equals.

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In Sandinismo,
women and men are both leaders.

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—Why do men have the rights?
—Because he's in charge.

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We're both in charge.

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About Tinoco, you have to know

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that he wasn't originally from San Fernando
and the mountains.

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He came from the costal town Leon,
and the sea.

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He was a good fisherman
but he knew nothing about agriculture.

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Tinoco, are you upset?

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Here, I am nobody...

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Yes, it was troublesome for Tinoco

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to get his things together and being
a outcast in San Fernando.

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And furthermore building his house
next to a neighbor

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whose sons had killed
Ninosca's eldest brother.

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I think they'll die
before we speak to each other.

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It's not possible.

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They killed my brother.

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If you work in the kitchen,

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he has to bring everything you need,
he has to work.

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If you or the guys
had come to help him,

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he'd have already built the house
and helped Dad.

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Besides, you often criticize him.

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You don't give him any help at all.

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You want him to work like a slave,
and that's it.

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That's not true. What I'm saying is,
he doesn't look after you.

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The wire is stiff.

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If you get married,

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it's the man who has to
put food on the table.

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Done!

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—Are you washing up?
—Yes.

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I want to tell you something.

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I don't know how
you're going to take it, but...

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I want to tell you the truth.

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What about?

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What do you want to say?

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I'm pregnant.

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That's fine. When you get married,
that's what happens.

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Don't worry.

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I told my mother.

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I told my mother.

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—When?
—Today.

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A little while ago.

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She gave me two kilos of sugar.

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The first gift...

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—Who made the baby? Just me.
—It was both of us!

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You have to think about
working hard, saving money...

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It's your responsibility
to bring up the child.

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Yes.

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There's no work, no money.

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Twenty pesos.

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How much in the bank?

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I've nothing in the bank.

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I've got nothing.

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Here, what we say is,

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the money we earn is what we eat.

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Ninosca's mother Soledad, is now dead.

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Gregorio is alone.

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And Ninosca has lost her strongest support
within the family.

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I've been wanting to study
for some time now,

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but I haven't succeeded.

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It's always, "No."

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I live his life.

00:27:03.080 --> 00:27:08.880
It's the1990s, and peace has finally
come to Nicaragua.

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The family of Ninosca,
had become owner of a forest plot

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which they tried to make lucrative.

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Who's in charge here, Pedro?

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The husband is in charge.

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That applies to you too.

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So because you're a Perez,
you want me at your feet?

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Do you know what happened
the day I got married?

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The very same day, you remember,

00:28:08.480 --> 00:28:11.040
that man came up to me at the party.

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You remember.

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Do you know what he did?

00:28:17.480 --> 00:28:21.160
Instead of taking me in his arms,
lovingly, gently,

00:28:21.240 --> 00:28:23.800
we had only just got married...

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He punched me.
That was the first time.

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He threw me against the wall
and I hit my head.

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Three days later, he hit me again,
because he was still jealous.

00:28:34.520 --> 00:28:38.320
My shirt wasn't ironed.
Or my trousers.

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One day, it was a month
after little Miguel was born,

00:28:42.680 --> 00:28:44.800
he came home from work

00:28:44.880 --> 00:28:47.840
and the child was crying
all the time, as usual.

00:28:47.920 --> 00:28:52.600
I said, "What's wrong?"
and I punched the bed

00:28:52.680 --> 00:28:55.600
because I was tired,
I'd just given birth, I was weak.

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He woke up and we started arguing.

00:29:00.320 --> 00:29:02.360
You know what he did, Dad?

00:29:02.440 --> 00:29:04.600
I kicked me here.

00:29:04.680 --> 00:29:09.400
So many things
I've had to put up with, Dad.

00:29:10.960 --> 00:29:14.680
I can't relax because sooner or later

00:29:14.760 --> 00:29:16.760
I know he'll hit me again.

00:29:18.080 --> 00:29:21.160
I just want to know one thing,

00:29:21.240 --> 00:29:25.400
are you going to
live together or not?

00:29:25.880 --> 00:29:30.640
I can't bear the sight of him.
I hate him.

00:29:57.360 --> 00:29:59.640
Bye, Dad.

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Life isn't what I expected.

00:30:04.760 --> 00:30:08.080
When my Mum was alive, I thought...

00:30:08.960 --> 00:30:13.160
that if I got married,
I would be free.

00:30:13.320 --> 00:30:17.640
I'd had enough of my mum
telling me what to do.

00:30:17.720 --> 00:30:19.760
I wasn't allowed to go out.

00:30:19.840 --> 00:30:23.160
I thought that marriage
would set me free.

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So I got married

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and I ended up under the yoke.

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It's so big and heavy,

00:30:29.520 --> 00:30:33.320
I can barely stand up straight.

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And I can't get it off.

00:30:40.440 --> 00:30:43.400
For the first time in my life,

00:30:44.880 --> 00:30:48.840
I'm going to escape
and do something which I enjoy.

00:30:48.920 --> 00:30:52.200
And I'm going to feel happy.

00:30:53.200 --> 00:30:56.240
For the first time in my life.

00:31:04.080 --> 00:31:05.800
I'm going to study.

00:31:05.880 --> 00:31:09.440
You can give them the food.
They can stay here.

00:31:11.120 --> 00:31:12.360
Be good.

00:31:13.360 --> 00:31:14.760
Be good.

00:31:56.560 --> 00:31:58.200
How's it going?

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—Where were you?
—I'm surprised.

00:32:02.720 --> 00:32:05.080
I was terrified of how you'd react.

00:32:05.840 --> 00:32:07.080
Why?

00:32:07.160 --> 00:32:11.360
I thought you'd be really angry
because I wasn't here.

00:32:29.760 --> 00:32:31.920
Running away from home...

00:32:34.240 --> 00:32:36.720
...is the best thing I've ever done.

00:32:37.200 --> 00:32:40.360
I'll never let anyone
keep me prisoner again.

00:32:48.240 --> 00:32:55.480
For a year, Tinoco was the chairman
of the family cooperative.

00:32:58.920 --> 00:33:03.560
Now he's making a fatal mistake.

00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:10.120
He tries to sell timber for his own benefit.

00:33:11.480 --> 00:33:13.880
If he wants war, he'll get it.

00:33:15.760 --> 00:33:17.240
We just fought about it,

00:33:17.320 --> 00:33:19.680
because he wants to do what he likes.

00:33:19.760 --> 00:33:22.320
He isn't the boss here, that's clear.

00:33:24.080 --> 00:33:25.480
We're the ones in charge.

00:33:36.880 --> 00:33:39.560
The problem is,
you didn't do things right.

00:33:39.640 --> 00:33:41.400
Why did you take the lumber?

00:33:41.480 --> 00:33:44.760
There are 12 members
of the cooperative,

00:33:44.840 --> 00:33:46.880
you should have got their agreement.

00:33:46.960 --> 00:33:50.680
If Pedro comes and says,
"Don't take any more wood",

00:33:50.760 --> 00:33:53.840
you can show him the paper
with their signatures.

00:33:53.920 --> 00:33:56.880
"I can take the wood
because I have their agreement."

00:33:56.960 --> 00:33:59.360
You didn't do any of that.

00:33:59.440 --> 00:34:03.560
You have to solve the problems,
do you understand?

00:34:03.640 --> 00:34:06.480
Otherwise, you won't be able
to live here any more.

00:34:06.560 --> 00:34:08.640
You won't be able to live here.

00:34:11.200 --> 00:34:14.280
He has a different surname.
He doesn't belong here.

00:34:15.240 --> 00:34:18.040
I'm absolutely furious with him.

00:34:18.120 --> 00:34:22.320
I don't need to be chairman
of the co-op, unlike him.

00:34:22.600 --> 00:34:26.720
If he wasn't the chairman,
he would be nothing.

00:34:30.280 --> 00:34:34.080
If they keep arguing,
one of them will end up dead.

00:34:35.080 --> 00:34:37.440
Somebody will die.

00:34:37.520 --> 00:34:40.800
Pedro is furious.
And Tinoco is angry too.

00:34:40.880 --> 00:34:43.720
If he gets riled, he'll snap.

00:34:43.800 --> 00:34:44.960
He's crazy.

00:34:45.040 --> 00:34:47.720
—We can't stand it.
—He's capable of killing.

00:35:01.160 --> 00:35:04.080
I always said we should go to León.

00:35:04.160 --> 00:35:06.800
We have no future there.

00:35:06.880 --> 00:35:09.640
I want to help you.

00:35:09.720 --> 00:35:12.840
I want you to know
that I'm on your side.

00:35:12.920 --> 00:35:15.720
I don't care what happens afterwards.

00:35:15.800 --> 00:35:18.400
I just want to count on me.

00:35:21.160 --> 00:35:23.000
How can I believe you?

00:35:23.080 --> 00:35:25.640
Why do you always
feel sorry for yourself?

00:35:25.720 --> 00:35:28.920
You're a man, you have
hands and legs, everything.

00:35:29.000 --> 00:35:30.880
Why do you feel sorry for yourself?

00:35:44.200 --> 00:35:46.800
You wanted freedom, I gave it to you.

00:35:49.560 --> 00:35:51.480
Everything you wanted, I gave you.

00:35:55.520 --> 00:35:57.760
What did I get in exchange?

00:36:13.520 --> 00:36:15.040
But why?

00:36:15.800 --> 00:36:18.200
Why do you feel bad?

00:36:18.280 --> 00:36:21.080
I just want you to tell me
why you feel bad.

00:36:23.600 --> 00:36:28.520
I want to kill myself,
that's why I feel bad.

00:36:28.600 --> 00:36:30.440
I want to blow my brains out.

00:36:55.400 --> 00:37:00.400
Ninosca gave up to Tinoco’s insistence

00:37:00.480 --> 00:37:03.440
and the family moved.

00:37:39.760 --> 00:37:41.960
The Swede is here!

00:37:42.040 --> 00:37:43.480
The Swede!

00:37:45.600 --> 00:37:48.240
It's lovely to have you here.

00:37:48.320 --> 00:37:49.640
How are you?

00:37:50.440 --> 00:37:51.560
So-so.

00:37:51.640 --> 00:37:52.600
Sad?

00:37:52.680 --> 00:37:55.240
—A little.
—A bad day?

00:37:55.320 --> 00:37:57.480
Bad days, maybe.

00:37:57.560 --> 00:37:58.560
Come in.

00:38:05.200 --> 00:38:08.080
—Cool?
—Cool as a pool.

00:38:10.160 --> 00:38:12.080
Long time no see.

00:38:14.520 --> 00:38:16.160
You know I love you.

00:38:21.400 --> 00:38:22.560
Take care.

00:38:24.800 --> 00:38:28.200
The first time I filmed you...

00:38:28.920 --> 00:38:31.800
you were brushing your teeth.

00:38:32.680 --> 00:38:34.120
You were 12 years old.

00:38:36.440 --> 00:38:40.520
When I was 12, I thought
a prince charming

00:38:40.600 --> 00:38:44.120
would come and rescue me
from the castle.

00:38:47.280 --> 00:38:49.840
I pictured it in my mind.

00:38:51.000 --> 00:38:54.360
I imagined such a wonderful world.

00:38:58.760 --> 00:39:02.840
When I came to León,
I wasn't a princess.

00:39:02.920 --> 00:39:05.080
I was Cinderella.

00:39:10.160 --> 00:39:13.200
What we're doing here is surviving.

00:39:13.280 --> 00:39:15.280
Surviving, just to...

00:39:16.760 --> 00:39:19.920
–To keep going.
–But you survive?

00:39:20.600 --> 00:39:22.960
Barely.

00:39:24.160 --> 00:39:27.600
The country has got worse and worse.

00:39:27.680 --> 00:39:31.200
The salaries we receive

00:39:31.280 --> 00:39:34.640
don't cover even half
of our basic needs.

00:39:35.560 --> 00:39:37.880
There is no future.

00:39:38.440 --> 00:39:42.240
This means that
many people emigrate.

00:39:49.480 --> 00:39:54.440
I'm Sandinista, but one of those
who believed we were all equal,

00:39:54.520 --> 00:39:58.160
that women would have
equal rights to men.

00:39:58.240 --> 00:40:01.040
And lots of things I approve of.

00:40:01.120 --> 00:40:04.960
But nowadays, all those things
have been forgotten.

00:40:22.360 --> 00:40:24.480
We left the mountains,

00:40:24.560 --> 00:40:27.040
we left the family...

00:40:27.640 --> 00:40:29.520
—Michael.
—Which grade are you in?

00:40:29.560 --> 00:40:32.080
—Second.
—Second grade of high school.

00:40:32.160 --> 00:40:35.480
To tell the truth, I feel proud.

00:40:35.960 --> 00:40:41.000
When I was a child,
going to school was really hard.

00:40:41.080 --> 00:40:43.960
And now it's easy for them to study.

00:40:45.400 --> 00:40:49.880
—How far did you get?
—To second grade, where he is.

00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:51.960
—Then the war came.
—The war.

00:40:52.040 --> 00:40:54.560
Then we couldn't study any more.

00:41:00.120 --> 00:41:02.040
I was a good soldier.

00:41:04.600 --> 00:41:05.720
I didn't enjoy it.

00:41:05.800 --> 00:41:09.200
It was something I did
in order to survive.

00:41:13.760 --> 00:41:15.320
It's...

00:41:15.400 --> 00:41:17.000
It's terrible. I mean...

00:41:17.080 --> 00:41:19.720
Saying, "I killed this many..."

00:41:23.520 --> 00:41:25.360
I feel dirty.

00:41:56.640 --> 00:41:59.600
OK, Señora. We'll deliver it.

00:42:00.400 --> 00:42:03.160
What we're doing here

00:42:03.240 --> 00:42:05.160
is our daily bread.

00:42:05.240 --> 00:42:07.520
But some days, there is no bread.

00:42:11.720 --> 00:42:16.000
Sometimes I feel like
I'm responsible for everything.

00:42:16.080 --> 00:42:17.840
And he's...

00:42:18.760 --> 00:42:21.560
...very cool, very relaxed.

00:42:22.400 --> 00:42:26.360
He thinks he'll solve everything
with all kinds of nonsense.

00:42:26.440 --> 00:42:31.200
When you live in a city,
you have to pay for everything.

00:42:31.280 --> 00:42:34.000
If you don't have money,
you don't eat.

00:42:35.200 --> 00:42:37.480
You will be going to university soon.

00:42:37.560 --> 00:42:39.120
You're going to study.

00:42:41.160 --> 00:42:44.200
You think I'm too hard...

00:42:44.280 --> 00:42:46.760
–No.
–...on your dad?

00:42:49.640 --> 00:42:53.000
He told me, "Let's go to the city,

00:42:53.080 --> 00:42:55.640
we'll have a better life."

00:42:55.720 --> 00:42:58.160
Of course, here I have a job,

00:42:58.240 --> 00:43:01.000
which enables us to survive.

00:43:03.400 --> 00:43:07.800
Yes, it's a delay.
It's 200 córdobas.

00:43:13.400 --> 00:43:15.680
Have you been here before?

00:43:30.600 --> 00:43:31.640
Delicious.

00:43:35.720 --> 00:43:37.400
Do you remember those beans?

00:43:37.480 --> 00:43:38.720
Of course.

00:43:40.160 --> 00:43:42.280
I remember Soledad.

00:43:44.680 --> 00:43:47.480
She'd always make rice and beans.

00:43:49.000 --> 00:43:50.440
With sour cream.

00:43:50.520 --> 00:43:52.560
Norteña style.

00:43:54.280 --> 00:43:55.840
—Want to try some?
—Yes.

00:43:55.920 --> 00:43:57.800
With plantain?

00:43:58.840 --> 00:44:00.440
It's tasty.

00:44:05.360 --> 00:44:09.680
It's hard for me to come
and light the fire,

00:44:09.760 --> 00:44:14.440
I only have an hour to come home,
cook, eat and go back.

00:44:17.560 --> 00:44:19.160
Why is there no gas?

00:44:21.160 --> 00:44:22.840
That's a silly question.

00:44:39.760 --> 00:44:44.720
The matriculation fee
is 550 córdobas each.

00:44:44.800 --> 00:44:48.120
So it's 1,100 córdobas in total.

00:44:48.200 --> 00:44:50.040
—500.
—See?

00:44:51.320 --> 00:44:53.440
50 córdobas.

00:44:54.200 --> 00:44:58.320
—So that is...
—Not including January.

00:44:58.400 --> 00:44:59.920
How much for January?

00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.480
It's 280 for both of them.

00:45:04.600 --> 00:45:07.560
—When do we pay...?
—On-the 15th.

00:45:07.640 --> 00:45:09.280
This is February.

00:45:09.360 --> 00:45:11.760
Each February, you pay the fees.

00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:15.080
Mum couldn't pay in January,
she didn't have all the money.

00:45:22.800 --> 00:45:25.240
And the uniform
for physical education?

00:45:25.320 --> 00:45:28.320
And 200 córdobas for their uniforms.

00:45:28.400 --> 00:45:30.800
I'll pay for one
and you pay for the other.

00:45:33.040 --> 00:45:33.840
Take it.

00:45:35.120 --> 00:45:38.080
—How much are you giving me?
—What did we agree on?

00:45:38.160 --> 00:45:40.880
—No, because now...
—I'll give you 1,000 pesos.

00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:43.200
I don't care about the 500 pesos.

00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:47.440
I want you to give me
their enrolment fees.

00:45:47.520 --> 00:45:50.120
That's what I want you to refund me.

00:45:50.200 --> 00:45:51.640
It's not 500 pesos.

00:45:52.560 --> 00:45:55.760
I used to be violent,
now you're the aggressive one.

00:45:55.840 --> 00:45:59.800
Now I'm the one who's patient
and you're not.

00:45:59.880 --> 00:46:02.440
Your children missed
a week's schooling,

00:46:02.520 --> 00:46:06.520
and you're telling me
that I'm getting over-excited?

00:46:06.600 --> 00:46:09.400
They missed a whole week.
If it had been up to you...

00:46:09.480 --> 00:46:14.720
they would have missed
two weeks of school.

00:46:14.800 --> 00:46:17.760
I found the money
and solved the problem.

00:46:17.840 --> 00:46:23.520
They only missed one week.
And you tell me I'm being violent.

00:46:23.640 --> 00:46:26.160
You're unbelievable.

00:46:28.520 --> 00:46:30.560
I'm very angry.

00:46:33.320 --> 00:46:35.360
I'm extremely angry.

00:46:44.240 --> 00:46:46.520
Chela, forgive me, please.

00:46:46.800 --> 00:46:48.600
You know why?

00:46:50.000 --> 00:46:53.760
Because to get where we are today,

00:46:53.840 --> 00:46:56.640
we've had to go through a lot.

00:46:56.720 --> 00:46:59.360
But I tell you honestly that...

00:47:01.160 --> 00:47:03.000
...things are going to change.

00:47:04.440 --> 00:47:07.600
You've been saying that
for a long time.

00:47:07.680 --> 00:47:10.600
—Yes.
—"It's all going to change."

00:47:10.680 --> 00:47:12.560
Things will change, Chela. They will.

00:47:14.640 --> 00:47:17.720
It won't be long
before we're out of this situation.

00:47:18.520 --> 00:47:20.360
Once we're separated.

00:47:20.440 --> 00:47:24.000
—No...
—When we go our separate ways.

00:47:24.080 --> 00:47:25.680
Absolutely not.

00:47:26.360 --> 00:47:30.240
—That's what's going to happen.
—How long have we been married?

00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:31.920
Twenty years.

00:47:32.000 --> 00:47:37.040
Lots of people separate
after only four years of marriage.

00:47:37.120 --> 00:47:39.800
Don't you think
we're already separated?

00:47:39.880 --> 00:47:40.680
Because...

00:47:40.760 --> 00:47:45.840
I feel that there's a limit
to what someone can put with.

00:47:45.920 --> 00:47:49.400
—But...
—And ours is coming to an end.

00:47:49.480 --> 00:47:52.160
—Maybe for you, but not for me.
—It's finished.

00:47:52.760 --> 00:47:55.600
—It's not over for me.
—I don't want it anymore.

00:47:55.680 --> 00:47:57.720
I don't want it. It's over.

00:47:58.280 --> 00:47:59.280
That's it!

00:48:04.600 --> 00:48:06.240
You've got to that stage?

00:48:06.320 --> 00:48:08.920
I just can't...

00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:12.280
You just keep on making excuses.

00:48:19.160 --> 00:48:20.840
You've got to that stage?

00:48:21.680 --> 00:48:23.680
That's the stage I'm at.

00:49:49.880 --> 00:49:52.080
I want to tell you that...

00:49:52.840 --> 00:49:55.840
the situation we're in,

00:49:55.920 --> 00:49:57.960
forces me...

00:49:59.480 --> 00:50:01.920
...to take drastic decisions.

00:50:02.000 --> 00:50:04.720
Drastic changes in my life.

00:50:06.080 --> 00:50:10.600
One of those is going to Spain.

00:50:11.320 --> 00:50:13.880
I'll find work,

00:50:13.960 --> 00:50:17.080
so that I can provide
for my children.

00:50:18.040 --> 00:50:21.320
I also want to tell you...

00:50:22.640 --> 00:50:26.080
...that my situation with Sebastián

00:50:26.160 --> 00:50:28.920
is reaching its limit.

00:50:29.000 --> 00:50:31.920
We don't understand
each other any more.

00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:34.320
And we're causing each other
more harm

00:50:34.400 --> 00:50:36.440
than ever before.

00:50:38.160 --> 00:50:40.800
I'm going to leave him,

00:50:40.880 --> 00:50:43.000
and I'm going to travel to Spain.

00:50:46.880 --> 00:50:52.320
I want to know what you think
about my decision.

00:50:55.080 --> 00:50:57.400
To be honest, as your elder brother,

00:50:58.240 --> 00:51:01.320
I think that

00:51:01.400 --> 00:51:03.720
the right thing to do

00:51:03.800 --> 00:51:08.280
is to reach an agreement,
as much as possible.

00:51:08.360 --> 00:51:10.080
But if it's impossible,

00:51:10.160 --> 00:51:14.200
if you feel there's absolutely no way
to resolve the situation, right?

00:51:14.920 --> 00:51:15.720
OK.

00:51:16.320 --> 00:51:19.200
As regards going to Spain,

00:51:19.280 --> 00:51:24.320
I think that
it could be a good thing.

00:51:25.280 --> 00:51:27.920
As your brother, I wish you well.

00:51:28.000 --> 00:51:30.640
Their future is in your hands.

00:51:32.720 --> 00:51:35.120
Because here, to be honest,

00:51:36.240 --> 00:51:38.320
life is hard.

00:51:39.560 --> 00:51:40.360
It's good.

00:51:42.200 --> 00:51:46.040
The country is in a bad way,
it's getting worse and worse.

00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:50.560
I'm not sure about the separation.

00:52:09.640 --> 00:52:12.720
I don't know.
I feel differently about it.

00:52:15.080 --> 00:52:17.480
If my parents
aren't getting on well...

00:52:19.920 --> 00:52:21.960
then a separation can be helpful.

00:52:29.560 --> 00:52:32.760
I don't mind about Mum going away.

00:52:34.360 --> 00:52:37.360
But I don't want them to split up.

00:53:23.960 --> 00:53:27.200
But look, if you go to Spain,

00:53:27.280 --> 00:53:29.320
life will be very tough.

00:53:30.360 --> 00:53:34.280
I know. But I know
I will achieve something.

00:53:34.360 --> 00:53:37.520
Something inside me tells me that

00:53:37.600 --> 00:53:40.000
I will achieve something.

00:53:40.760 --> 00:53:45.200
There are three and a half million
unemployed.

00:53:45.280 --> 00:53:49.800
But those three million people
don't want to work as hard as me.

00:53:49.880 --> 00:53:54.240
—I'm honest, hard-working...
—People can be much tougher...

00:53:55.480 --> 00:53:57.440
Don't discourage me!

00:54:29.280 --> 00:54:31.040
A bag?

00:54:31.120 --> 00:54:33.640
There was a bag here earlier.

00:54:48.520 --> 00:54:53.280
Why won't you talk to me?

00:54:53.360 --> 00:54:55.880
There's nothing to say.

00:54:59.560 --> 00:55:02.040
I won't bother you any more.

00:55:10.240 --> 00:55:11.800
I don't know...

00:55:14.680 --> 00:55:16.200
I feel...

00:55:17.280 --> 00:55:20.320
I feel sad.

00:55:21.840 --> 00:55:23.400
Melancholy.

00:55:24.480 --> 00:55:27.520
Like there's no one by my side.

00:55:31.080 --> 00:55:33.920
But I'm sure
I'll be all right on my own.

00:56:22.960 --> 00:56:26.200
The only thing I feel,
here in my chest is,

00:56:26.280 --> 00:56:29.200
is that everyone
who ever did me wrong

00:56:29.280 --> 00:56:31.040
is going to get punished.

00:56:38.840 --> 00:56:41.320
You're father to two children.

00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:49.200
Yes, I have two children
but the way I feel,

00:56:49.280 --> 00:56:51.640
anyone who gets in my way is fucked.

00:56:53.040 --> 00:56:56.680
I'll do it, to anyone
who gets in my way,

00:56:56.760 --> 00:56:59.000
who wants to hurt me or my children,

00:56:59.080 --> 00:57:01.400
I'll act straight away,
without thinking.

00:57:02.240 --> 00:57:04.760
Because I can't change.
I won't change.

00:57:09.240 --> 00:57:12.080
I think that, very quickly,
I'm going back.

00:57:12.160 --> 00:57:15.000
I'm going back to my old self.

00:57:15.840 --> 00:57:18.360
—What do you mean?
—Back to the 80s.

00:57:20.160 --> 00:57:22.160
—To the war.
—The war.

00:57:22.840 --> 00:57:24.240
That's how I feel.

00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:28.280
—Yes.
—Why war?

00:57:29.360 --> 00:57:32.320
—The war is over.
—I can make war.

00:57:33.320 --> 00:57:34.400
Yes, man.

00:57:36.120 --> 00:57:37.200
Yes.

00:57:53.680 --> 00:57:56.120
You can't help me any more now.

00:57:56.200 --> 00:57:58.600
—You can't help me.
—I can.

00:57:59.600 --> 00:58:02.400
No one can take away
the feeling I have inside.

00:58:15.560 --> 00:58:18.760
Because the last 15 years......

00:58:18.840 --> 00:58:20.800
Miguel's tried to find a home.

00:58:20.880 --> 00:58:23.760
Don't worry about your brother.
I'll take care of it.

00:58:23.840 --> 00:58:25.600
I've been so worried.

00:58:25.680 --> 00:58:27.560
I love you, precious.

00:58:28.520 --> 00:58:30.040
I love you too.

00:58:42.600 --> 00:58:46.640
I haven't seen my children
for a long time.

00:59:05.120 --> 00:59:08.280
Ninosca is one of those without papers.

00:59:09.080 --> 00:59:12.640
She's stuck in Spain.

00:59:12.720 --> 00:59:17.400
If she leaves, she cannot come back.

00:59:18.520 --> 00:59:23.320
To earn the money to fulfill her dreams.

00:59:40.640 --> 00:59:42.680
I'm tired.

00:59:43.400 --> 00:59:46.000
I want to go back.

00:59:46.080 --> 00:59:47.920
To my country.

00:59:49.920 --> 00:59:54.600
I don't know if all the sacrifice
has been worth it.

01:00:34.720 --> 01:00:39.720
RELIABLE WOMAN SEEKS WORK

01:00:41.160 --> 01:00:44.520
RELIABLE WOMAN SEEKS WORK
AS A CLEANER OR NANNY

01:00:53.800 --> 01:00:59.600
RESPONSIBLE WOMAN SEEKS
WORK TAKING CARE OF ELDERLY

01:00:59.680 --> 01:01:01.680
TRUSTWORTHY

01:01:02.360 --> 01:01:08.160
Now, when she has paid back her
loans for the trip to Spain

01:01:08.440 --> 01:01:12.040
she's trying to get legal status.

01:01:14.520 --> 01:01:18.840
Maybe she’ll get it one day.

01:01:22.200 --> 01:01:24.200
There is so much immigration,

01:01:24.280 --> 01:01:26.080
so many people arriving,

01:01:26.160 --> 01:01:29.680
so jobs looking after the elderly

01:01:29.760 --> 01:01:31.840
are paid less and less.

01:02:05.720 --> 01:02:08.760
It's difficult to explain...

01:02:10.520 --> 01:02:12.680
...how it feels...

01:02:18.480 --> 01:02:24.400
...in a job where you have to
be available 24 hours a day.

01:02:27.000 --> 01:02:31.280
You wake up during the night,

01:02:31.360 --> 01:02:34.400
three, four,

01:02:34.480 --> 01:02:36.040
or five times.

01:02:37.600 --> 01:02:39.920
You get up in the morning,

01:02:40.600 --> 01:02:43.600
and you have to work all day.

01:02:45.920 --> 01:02:48.200
Every day,

01:02:48.280 --> 01:02:49.920
the same routine.

01:02:50.960 --> 01:02:52.960
One hour off...

01:02:56.320 --> 01:02:58.120
...when it's possible.

01:02:58.880 --> 01:03:00.720
And if not,

01:03:02.800 --> 01:03:04.680
you have to keep working.

01:03:25.280 --> 01:03:28.120
Then I worked in a place where...

01:03:31.680 --> 01:03:34.040
I had to sleep on the floor.

01:03:34.120 --> 01:03:39.280
Next to a lady
who kept me awake all night.

01:03:39.360 --> 01:03:41.160
I worked during the day,

01:03:41.240 --> 01:03:42.720
and at night.

01:03:43.520 --> 01:03:47.120
Her husband was very...

01:03:47.880 --> 01:03:53.040
The kind of wealthy man
who looks down on you.

01:03:53.120 --> 01:03:54.840
They humiliated me,

01:03:55.960 --> 01:03:58.200
they gave me very little to eat.

01:03:58.280 --> 01:04:00.520
Sometimes they gave me
their leftovers.

01:04:00.600 --> 01:04:03.800
They said, "You can eat this,
we don't want any more."

01:04:07.960 --> 01:04:13.800
In Ninosca's world,
the people she takes care of die.

01:04:19.320 --> 01:04:24.880
Every time that happens,
she has to look for a new job.

01:04:26.880 --> 01:04:30.520
You never get used to it because...

01:04:30.600 --> 01:04:32.360
it's an ordeal.

01:04:34.720 --> 01:04:38.840
Now that I've seen
so many people dying,

01:04:38.920 --> 01:04:42.160
taking their last breath and dying...

01:04:44.240 --> 01:04:48.600
When you're with someone
every day, you grow fond of them.

01:05:10.040 --> 01:05:11.800
Help me.

01:05:12.960 --> 01:05:17.000
Please guide me with your wisdom,

01:05:18.040 --> 01:05:19.520
so I can go home.

01:05:23.000 --> 01:05:24.360
Thank you.

01:05:30.800 --> 01:05:32.840
I don't want to stay here.

01:05:32.920 --> 01:05:37.120
I want to go back to Nicaragua,
as soon as possible.

01:05:38.720 --> 01:05:41.640
I want to go back
and work in the coffee business.

01:05:42.920 --> 01:05:46.080
I want to be my own boss.

01:05:46.320 --> 01:05:51.400
I want to decide what time I get up
and what time I go to bed.

01:05:51.480 --> 01:05:55.680
I want to set the rules
in my own life.

01:05:55.760 --> 01:06:00.400
I never want to feel
like a prisoner again.

01:06:03.560 --> 01:06:06.480
I say to all women,

01:06:06.560 --> 01:06:08.680
the first time that a man

01:06:08.760 --> 01:06:12.800
disrespects you with his hands...

01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:14.920
It's goodbye.

01:06:15.440 --> 01:06:18.520
Because he'll keep on doing it,
it's a vicious circle.

01:06:18.600 --> 01:06:20.360
It happens again and again.

01:06:31.880 --> 01:06:37.760
Finally, she got her legal status in Spain.

01:06:37.840 --> 01:06:43.040
And she could
put the pieces of her life together.

01:06:45.440 --> 01:06:48.320
Make it whole again.

01:08:03.320 --> 01:08:05.480
I’m waiting.

01:08:06.560 --> 01:08:10.520
I’m waiting under the volcanoes
in Guatemala.

01:08:15.320 --> 01:08:19.960
I’m waiting for Ninosca to pass by
and pick me up

01:08:20.040 --> 01:08:25.240
so that we can make
the last stretch to Nicaragua together.

01:08:37.000 --> 01:08:39.320
Welcome to Latin America.

01:08:41.800 --> 01:08:43.360
—I'm so happy.
—Yes.

01:08:44.480 --> 01:08:49.880
It’s a beautiful and important meeting,
considering what is coming.

01:08:53.400 --> 01:08:56.040
Ninosca is afraid.

01:09:00.240 --> 01:09:01.760
A nightmare.

01:09:03.520 --> 01:09:05.600
It was all very strange.

01:09:06.840 --> 01:09:09.160
I was in bed

01:09:09.240 --> 01:09:11.560
and Sebastián came in.

01:09:13.320 --> 01:09:15.240
He shot me once.

01:09:16.200 --> 01:09:17.560
Just like that.

01:09:17.640 --> 01:09:20.880
I could just feel...
I could see the blood

01:09:20.960 --> 01:09:23.120
I could feel my blood draining away.

01:09:23.200 --> 01:09:26.280
I cried out, asking for help.

01:09:26.360 --> 01:09:28.680
But no one came.

01:09:28.760 --> 01:09:31.040
I felt totally alone.

01:09:31.120 --> 01:09:33.600
When I woke up,

01:09:33.680 --> 01:09:35.320
I was crying.

01:09:47.800 --> 01:09:52.920
She hasn't cleared things up
with Tinoco yet.

01:09:54.800 --> 01:09:58.600
She has enlisted some relatives
as bodyguards

01:09:58.680 --> 01:10:01.440
upon her return.

01:10:06.960 --> 01:10:09.600
There’s a drawback:

01:10:09.680 --> 01:10:14.240
I made film that severely criticized
the threatening developments

01:10:14.320 --> 01:10:17.560
towards dictatorship in Nicaragua.

01:10:21.200 --> 01:10:26.600
Since then, the regime has refused
to let me enter the country.

01:10:41.000 --> 01:10:43.920
Nicaragua is a black tale.

01:10:44.000 --> 01:10:47.360
It started out so fine.

01:10:47.440 --> 01:10:50.960
It was a revolution led by the youth.

01:10:51.040 --> 01:10:54.440
The future looked so bright.

01:10:56.520 --> 01:10:59.920
Instead they had ten years of war...

01:11:02.400 --> 01:11:07.560
And the dreams of something new vanished.

01:11:15.600 --> 01:11:21.680
The old leaders,
who were once the young leaders,

01:11:21.760 --> 01:11:23.760
were never changed.

01:11:23.840 --> 01:11:31.320
So they're still there, at
the center of the power, 30 years later.

01:11:32.200 --> 01:11:38.040
Wealthy, corrupt and oppressive.

01:11:40.440 --> 01:11:46.840
And the poor are as poor as ever.

01:11:49.160 --> 01:11:52.240
Nicaragua has become

01:11:52.320 --> 01:11:57.560
the sad reality of the vicious circle.

01:12:03.800 --> 01:12:10.960
After I made this film,
the situation has gotten a lot worse.

01:12:14.640 --> 01:12:20.680
And I, who used to think of Nicaragua
as my second home.

01:12:22.640 --> 01:12:26.560
I hope that I some day can return.

01:12:26.640 --> 01:12:30.840
Even if I have to walk over the mountains.

01:12:44.480 --> 01:12:46.200
OK, Ninosca.

01:12:46.280 --> 01:12:49.200
This car will take us to the border.

01:12:50.800 --> 01:12:53.040
Let's see if luck is on our side.

01:12:53.880 --> 01:12:55.240
Yes, but look...

01:12:56.280 --> 01:13:01.440
Last time I tried to enter Nicaragua,
they wouldn't let me in.

01:13:01.520 --> 01:13:04.720
From now on, I'll wear this hat,

01:13:04.800 --> 01:13:08.160
which will make me less visible.

01:13:08.240 --> 01:13:09.480
—OK?
—Yes.

01:13:09.560 --> 01:13:12.720
If I'm not on their computer,

01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:15.760
maybe I'll be lucky
and be able to come with you.

01:13:16.280 --> 01:13:19.280
I'd love to have you with me
in my homeland.

01:13:20.480 --> 01:13:21.640
Let's go.

01:13:26.960 --> 01:13:32.960
It’s a blessing to have Ninosca
as a companion and support.

01:13:33.920 --> 01:13:36.320
Because I am nervous.

01:13:39.080 --> 01:13:46.200
I have to become illegal,
walking by foot over the mountains.

01:13:49.600 --> 01:13:56.920
Or they let me in,
to move freely in Nicaragua.

01:13:57.360 --> 01:13:59.640
Be careful, Peter.

01:14:10.240 --> 01:14:12.880
The border is a problem.

01:14:16.480 --> 01:14:18.560
And now I'm on my own.

01:14:33.240 --> 01:14:35.360
Impossible.

01:14:36.680 --> 01:14:39.360
It makes me angry.

01:14:41.560 --> 01:14:44.760
Just because
you're a critical journalist...

01:14:54.240 --> 01:14:58.760
While I’m stuck,
Ninosca continues the journey.

01:15:01.200 --> 01:15:03.680
Now, Ninosca.

01:15:03.760 --> 01:15:08.520
Now, you're really on your way home.

01:16:25.000 --> 01:16:29.960
It's been such a struggle
to be with you again.

01:16:30.800 --> 01:16:34.840
Six years, one month
and fifteen days.

01:16:38.840 --> 01:16:41.760
—You're already a pharmacist?
—Yes, I am.

01:16:42.640 --> 01:16:45.000
I'm so proud of you.

01:16:50.360 --> 01:16:51.640
It's a reality.

01:16:53.480 --> 01:16:55.520
Thanks to a lot of sacrifice.

01:16:59.360 --> 01:17:01.360
Do you understand why

01:17:01.440 --> 01:17:05.800
I missed six years of your life?

01:17:06.840 --> 01:17:10.520
I understand the situation.
I know why you left.

01:17:11.760 --> 01:17:12.840
Of course I do.

01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:17.000
How were those six years,
without me?

01:17:17.080 --> 01:17:18.480
Tough.

01:17:19.360 --> 01:17:20.640
Very tough.

01:17:27.520 --> 01:17:31.000
We are together now,
that's the most important thing.

01:17:48.960 --> 01:17:51.920
—How's the family?
—Well, thanks be to God.

01:18:01.800 --> 01:18:02.920
Hello.

01:18:06.080 --> 01:18:07.480
I'm back.

01:18:13.240 --> 01:18:16.200
—And my brother?
—He's in the mountains.

01:18:20.280 --> 01:18:24.200
I'll have a look through the house,
to remember.

01:18:44.400 --> 01:18:47.680
It's all in ruins.
It's not worth anything.

01:18:47.760 --> 01:18:50.560
It's been abandoned for years.

01:18:54.880 --> 01:18:58.400
And this house
brings back bad memories.

01:19:16.760 --> 01:19:19.880
The small coffee plantation

01:19:19.960 --> 01:19:25.200
is an important part of
Ninosca's dream for the future.

01:19:25.280 --> 01:19:28.600
—It starts here.
—So all of this...

01:19:28.680 --> 01:19:32.480
—This valley, starting from here...
—All of this...

01:19:32.560 --> 01:19:36.080
—From here up to the top is yours.
—It belongs to me.

01:19:36.160 --> 01:19:39.240
Up to the top.

01:19:39.320 --> 01:19:42.480
You planted small coffee here?

01:19:42.560 --> 01:19:46.040
Yes... That's right.

01:19:57.080 --> 01:20:00.720
It's already being harvested.
I'm really pleased.

01:20:04.360 --> 01:20:06.600
This is the highest part of the plot.

01:20:06.680 --> 01:20:10.840
It continues over there.
That's where they are selling...

01:20:10.920 --> 01:20:12.920
I asked if there were mines.

01:20:13.000 --> 01:20:14.360
There were mines here.

01:20:18.320 --> 01:20:19.480
It's dangerous.

01:20:19.520 --> 01:20:22.440
But since the mine clearance
operation,

01:20:22.480 --> 01:20:25.160
there are supposedly
no more mines there now.

01:20:40.000 --> 01:20:43.120
The idea is to remove the mucilage
from the coffee?

01:20:43.200 --> 01:20:45.520
So we're left with the coffee beans.

01:20:45.960 --> 01:20:47.400
I love it.

01:20:50.360 --> 01:20:52.880
In other countries, work is very...

01:20:52.960 --> 01:20:54.920
We work like slaves.

01:20:55.000 --> 01:20:58.200
We're foreigners,
so they treat us like slaves.

01:20:59.680 --> 01:21:03.640
I think it would be difficult
for you to come back here.

01:21:03.720 --> 01:21:05.920
What? Not at all!

01:21:06.000 --> 01:21:07.920
I'm getting old.

01:21:08.000 --> 01:21:11.320
I don't want to end up
with a cane

01:21:11.400 --> 01:21:13.160
in a foreign country,

01:21:13.240 --> 01:21:16.200
when I have this beautiful place
to live in.

01:21:24.800 --> 01:21:27.160
My son doesn't want to talk to me.

01:21:37.600 --> 01:21:40.400
—So he's not coming?
—No.

01:21:40.480 --> 01:21:42.480
What did I do to my son?

01:21:55.280 --> 01:22:03.000
It was around the hammock that Ninosca
saw her son and Tinoco last time.

01:22:04.160 --> 01:22:09.200
And since then, six years have passed.

01:22:22.120 --> 01:22:24.760
I've seen Tinoco very angry.

01:22:25.360 --> 01:22:29.600
He thinks she shouldn't have
gone away.

01:22:35.400 --> 01:22:37.520
But if he does something to her...

01:22:38.480 --> 01:22:40.920
Who knows what might happen?

01:22:43.920 --> 01:22:46.680
He could kill her or something.

01:23:03.280 --> 01:23:05.240
Hola Ninosca.

01:23:05.640 --> 01:23:09.160
The situation is very tense.

01:23:11.000 --> 01:23:13.560
I understand that.

01:23:13.640 --> 01:23:15.560
You have to get rid of the tension.

01:23:15.640 --> 01:23:19.240
But how do you deal with
someone who's mentally ill, Peter?

01:23:19.320 --> 01:23:23.880
You can't confront someone
who's got psychological problems.

01:23:23.960 --> 01:23:26.080
You don't understand.

01:23:26.640 --> 01:23:29.400
He needs to know

01:23:29.480 --> 01:23:32.000
that there's no hope left.

01:23:33.360 --> 01:23:35.240
He needs to hear it from you.

01:23:36.560 --> 01:23:41.520
I advise you to face up to him.

01:24:03.520 --> 01:24:07.960
TINOCO

01:24:07.960 --> 01:24:10.600
—Hello.
—Hi Tinoco.

01:24:10.680 --> 01:24:14.520
I wanted to know
if we could meet and talk...

01:24:16.080 --> 01:24:17.880
...about our situation.

01:24:18.880 --> 01:24:21.600
—Chela, is that really you?
—Yes.

01:24:23.080 --> 01:24:24.640
Oh, Chela...

01:24:26.440 --> 01:24:29.080
Chela, I love you so much.

01:24:30.880 --> 01:24:34.240
I'm dying...

01:24:38.520 --> 01:24:43.840
You don't know how long
I've been waiting...

01:24:45.400 --> 01:24:49.960
Remember that I love you,
and the children.

01:24:50.040 --> 01:24:55.560
Listen, I just want us to meet
so that we can talk.

01:24:57.160 --> 01:24:59.920
—Chela...
—Yes?

01:25:20.680 --> 01:25:24.040
Let's see if my son has arrived.

01:25:37.560 --> 01:25:40.080
Look how you've grown!

01:25:42.240 --> 01:25:45.080
You look so different
to the last time I saw you.

01:25:46.080 --> 01:25:48.880
You've changed
much more than Jennifer.

01:25:57.640 --> 01:26:00.000
I'm not a kid any more.

01:26:00.080 --> 01:26:01.400
No, you're not.

01:26:01.480 --> 01:26:03.200
I'm not a little boy...

01:26:03.880 --> 01:26:05.920
...like the one you left behind.

01:26:16.840 --> 01:26:18.360
Do I look different, to you?

01:26:18.440 --> 01:26:19.880
Yes.

01:26:20.800 --> 01:26:23.200
You look really different, Mum.

01:26:30.120 --> 01:26:31.920
Son...

01:26:32.000 --> 01:26:33.800
Can you take a photo that shows...

01:26:33.880 --> 01:26:35.480
No, not me!

01:26:36.600 --> 01:26:38.680
Take the photo from here,

01:26:38.760 --> 01:26:43.480
so you can see the forest,
the guineo bushes, the banana trees...

01:26:43.560 --> 01:26:45.960
It's so beautiful.

01:27:01.520 --> 01:27:03.200
—Are you in a hurry?
—No.

01:27:03.240 --> 01:27:05.800
Don't you like it here?

01:27:05.880 --> 01:27:07.920
You don't like it. You're in a hurry.

01:27:08.000 --> 01:27:12.480
Can you believe it, brother?
He's in a hurry to get back to town.

01:27:12.600 --> 01:27:15.160
—It's going to rain.
—Yes, it's going to rain.

01:27:16.520 --> 01:27:19.320
I'm doing all of this
for you and your sister.

01:27:19.400 --> 01:27:22.440
Some day, you'll have to
run the coffee plantation.

01:27:22.520 --> 01:27:25.640
—Yes, Jenny will do it.
—Jenny?

01:27:29.120 --> 01:27:31.600
I'll delegate my duties to Jenny.

01:27:33.640 --> 01:27:37.000
I'll come and see her
once or twice a year.

01:27:37.080 --> 01:27:38.640
You're such a child!

01:27:40.680 --> 01:27:42.160
What a child.

01:27:56.000 --> 01:28:01.400
I want to see Nicaragua, San Fernando,
and Ninosca

01:28:01.480 --> 01:28:03.040
one last time.

01:28:06.200 --> 01:28:10.400
I have to cross the border illegally.

01:28:37.640 --> 01:28:40.800
I pass the border stone.

01:28:40.880 --> 01:28:44.560
Now, I'm lawless, illegal.

01:28:47.600 --> 01:28:52.480
Protected by the darkness,
I enter San Fernando.

01:29:25.840 --> 01:29:28.320
You're like me.

01:29:28.800 --> 01:29:30.360
Camouflage.

01:29:33.480 --> 01:29:35.640
–Good to see you.
–Same here.

01:29:40.880 --> 01:29:43.320
Take off your sunglasses.

01:29:45.920 --> 01:29:49.960
—What happened?
—I got a stone in my eye.

01:29:50.800 --> 01:29:53.400
—You lost your eye?
—I did.

01:29:54.080 --> 01:29:59.920
I can see that life
has been hard for you.

01:30:00.560 --> 01:30:05.720
—My self-esteem plummeted.
—That's the first thing that goes.

01:30:05.800 --> 01:30:11.480
—It's more important than the eye.
—I'm not the same as I used to be.

01:30:11.840 --> 01:30:13.520
It's party time.

01:30:23.400 --> 01:30:25.960
That's a beautiful song.

01:30:26.040 --> 01:30:28.520
But I don't know
the words to that one either.

01:30:28.600 --> 01:30:30.520
Just the first line.

01:30:35.320 --> 01:30:36.760
I'm going to the village

01:30:36.840 --> 01:30:39.440
Today is my day

01:30:39.840 --> 01:30:43.640
My soul will be joyful

01:30:43.720 --> 01:30:46.120
Long live Nicaragua.

01:30:49.840 --> 01:30:51.240
What are we drinking to?

01:30:53.520 --> 01:30:55.680
To a better future.

01:30:55.760 --> 01:30:57.360
To the love of life.

01:30:57.440 --> 01:30:59.760
To being together once again.

01:30:59.840 --> 01:31:01.360
Yes, to being together.

01:31:08.440 --> 01:31:11.400
What’s going on here? Is the house gone?

01:31:12.240 --> 01:31:14.800
I just have to demolish these walls.

01:31:14.880 --> 01:31:18.240
And build a new house. A new life.

01:31:18.320 --> 01:31:22.400
Do you remember when
you were going to build that house?

01:31:25.240 --> 01:31:27.600
What a time that was.

01:31:55.640 --> 01:31:58.240
Your marriage...

01:31:59.880 --> 01:32:02.400
I lived alongside the two of you

01:32:02.480 --> 01:32:04.000
for many years.

01:32:05.280 --> 01:32:07.280
I didn't see any abuse.

01:32:07.360 --> 01:32:11.000
When you live in the...

01:32:11.080 --> 01:32:13.760
...locked into that abuse,

01:32:13.840 --> 01:32:16.160
you think that everyone else knows,

01:32:17.720 --> 01:32:21.080
so you don't have to say it.

01:32:21.280 --> 01:32:24.840
Also, there is a feeling of shame.

01:32:28.280 --> 01:32:30.080
He knew what he was doing.

01:32:30.160 --> 01:32:33.480
Because he never touched my face.

01:32:34.200 --> 01:32:37.600
He hit me here,
on the arms, the legs.

01:32:37.680 --> 01:32:39.960
He would use his belt.

01:32:41.160 --> 01:32:43.920
He would hit me with it.

01:32:45.200 --> 01:32:47.240
And he put a gun here.

01:32:47.320 --> 01:32:49.920
–What kind of gun?
–An AK-47.

01:32:54.320 --> 01:32:57.880
That day, my mind was made up,
my life was about to end.

01:32:57.960 --> 01:32:59.520
I told him to kill me.

01:32:59.600 --> 01:33:03.440
I couldn't take any more abuse.

01:33:03.520 --> 01:33:05.840
I said, "Kill me" and...

01:33:06.560 --> 01:33:09.280
But he didn't shoot,
he just threatened me.

01:33:09.360 --> 01:33:11.080
He said, "I'm going to kill you,

01:33:11.160 --> 01:33:13.280
because I'm going to kill you."

01:33:13.360 --> 01:33:15.200
I said, "Do it."

01:33:15.280 --> 01:33:17.040
I can't say he's a bad man,

01:33:17.120 --> 01:33:18.680
because he's very helpful,

01:33:18.760 --> 01:33:21.920
he's a good person,
he always helps other people.

01:33:22.200 --> 01:33:24.080
To me, he was a bad husband.

01:33:24.080 --> 01:33:24.320
To me, he was a bad husband.

01:33:24.320 --> 01:33:26.280
Do you forgive him?

01:33:26.360 --> 01:33:28.440
At the moment, I'm very...

01:33:29.160 --> 01:33:33.280
I'm very happy,
very at peace with myself.

01:33:33.800 --> 01:33:38.160
Having my children near,
seeing them become professionals,

01:33:38.240 --> 01:33:41.600
seeing how they love
and take care of me,

01:33:41.680 --> 01:33:46.400
that is the greatest gift
I can possibly receive right now.

01:34:21.680 --> 01:34:23.840
Let me help you.

01:34:24.480 --> 01:34:27.560
You have to lift it up. Lift it!

01:34:30.000 --> 01:34:32.600
—Watch your hands.
—Don't pull it so hard.

01:34:48.840 --> 01:34:52.720
SAN FERNANDO BRIDGE

01:35:11.920 --> 01:35:13.840
You're back.

01:35:15.080 --> 01:35:18.360
Now you'll have to work hard
for a few years,

01:35:18.400 --> 01:35:23.360
in order to get the money for the roof
and the doors of the new house.

01:35:24.120 --> 01:35:27.160
I wish you good luck.

01:35:43.360 --> 01:35:45.400
When I close my eyes...

01:35:46.520 --> 01:35:48.880
I imagine I'm already
in my new house.

01:35:50.280 --> 01:35:52.760
I imagine I'm with my children.

01:35:53.800 --> 01:35:56.480
Drinking coffee on the terrace.

01:35:59.600 --> 01:36:01.520
That's all I think about.

01:36:08.320 --> 01:36:10.600
So beautiful.

01:36:11.680 --> 01:36:14.160
It's true.

01:36:57.640 --> 01:37:01.200
We’re almost there.

01:37:01.280 --> 01:37:06.760
Just put away the flowers
and enter the new house.

01:38:12.640 --> 01:38:14.680
Good night!

01:38:17.680 --> 01:38:22.200
Now. In this very moment,

01:38:22.280 --> 01:38:26.480
I remember that time, 15 years ago,

01:38:26.560 --> 01:38:30.000
when Gregorio was dying.

01:38:30.080 --> 01:38:34.680
And Ninosca tried to stop
the passing of time.

01:38:36.520 --> 01:38:39.520
If it's true Peter,
that there's an afterlife,

01:38:39.640 --> 01:38:42.720
so that he can tell Mum now I am.

01:38:43.680 --> 01:38:48.200
If there is an afterlife,
and they can meet again.

01:38:48.720 --> 01:38:52.480
—You can't go yet.
—Let's hope there is an afterlife.

01:38:55.080 --> 01:38:56.680
I hope, with all my heart,

01:38:56.760 --> 01:38:59.680
that you will be able to see me

01:38:59.760 --> 01:39:02.240
making a success of life.

01:39:03.840 --> 01:39:07.240
So that you can leave in peace.

01:40:01.760 --> 01:40:03.840
Our Father...

01:40:05.280 --> 01:40:08.920
I want to give thanks

01:40:09.000 --> 01:40:12.600
and I'm happy
that Mum is here with us.

01:40:12.680 --> 01:40:14.680
We're really happy.

01:40:14.760 --> 01:40:17.800
The only problem
is that you're not here very long.

01:40:17.800 --> 01:40:20.120
I'm so happy to have you with me.

01:40:34.240 --> 01:40:38.400
Once an emigrant, always an emigrant…

01:40:39.080 --> 01:40:43.440
Perhaps that’s the law.

01:40:44.600 --> 01:40:49.880
Because when Ninosca returned, having fulfilled
her dream about a home and kids,

01:40:51.200 --> 01:40:54.440
there was no longer work in Nicaragua,

01:40:55.160 --> 01:41:01.640
and the coffee prices were outrageously low.

01:41:03.240 --> 01:41:07.680
At the same time, the oppression

01:41:08.040 --> 01:41:14.320
of the youth and the dissidents worsened in Nicaragua.

01:41:18.040 --> 01:41:21.400
Ninosca returns to Spain,

01:41:21.680 --> 01:41:26.400
and there she is, in 2020.

01:41:30.200 --> 01:41:33.800
The future is unknown to us.

01:41:35.000 --> 01:41:41.200
And in the present, the darkness closes in.