Deep Run
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Executive produced by Susan Sarandon, DEEP RUN is a powerful verité portrait of trans life in rural North Carolina. Exiled by her family and rejected by an ex-partner, 17-year-old Spazz has no one to lean on for support. But when Spazz falls in love again and summons up the courage to become Cole, a strong-willed trans-man, his candid humor and steadfast, all-inclusive Christian beliefs counter the bigotry he experiences daily. This deeply personal documentary reveals rebirth and courage within America’s deeply conservative Bible Belt as Cole struggles to find a church that will affirm his identity and the couple's relationship. With a small group of supportive friends, relatives, and his girlfriend, Ashley, Cole's search for love and belonging leads him to a radical revision of what faith and church can be. An intimate study of young outsiders in an insular Christian community, DEEP RUN explores the intersection of modern identity and faith in the American South. Essential viewing for LGBTQIA Audiences, Queer and Gender studies classes.
"Deep Run is a sensitive and compelling portrait of trans teen Cole Ray Davis becoming a man in rural North Carolina. Cole’s story is a microcosm of so many compelling contemporary issues, he personifies how millennials will alter our culture's attitudes on transgender rights, the plight of the undocumented, and religious intolerance. This movie will be an excellent tool in classrooms and college campuses."
Susan Sarandon
"An intimate look at what it's like to come out not once but twice in the Bible-steeped South…a sweet, admiring, optimistic profile of a teen in transition."
The Hollywood Reporter
"A compelling portrait of courageous Southern queer youth on a quest for belonging within their families of origin and within a community where faith is a sacred, binding commonality."
Frameline Film Festival
"DEEP RUN poetically examines one trans man’s search for love, faith, and acceptance in rural North Carolina. [Loven’s] directorial eye shows a particularly acute attention to depicting the distinctive atmosphere of Davis’s rural Southern world… the film glows with a lyrical intimacy… a particularly honest depiction of low-income trans American experiences."
The Advocate
"DEEP RUN is...beautifully crafted and nuanced."
Lauren Wissot Hammer to Nail
Citation
Main credits
Davis, Cole Ray (on-screen participant)
Loven, Hillevi Zazel (film director)
Loven, Hillevi Zazel (film producer)
Talbott, Chris (film producer)
Levenstein, Samara (film producer)
Other credits
Edited by Kristen Nutile; director of photography, Arianna Lapenne; music, Phillip Roebuck.
Distributor subjects
Gender, Human Rights, LGBTQIA, Masculinity, Religion, Sexuality, SociologyKeywords
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[theme music playing]
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[Cole]
Church is like
the way of life
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for a lot of people
in Lenoir County.
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It\'\'s hard being transgender
in this community.
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It\'\'s very hostile at times,
but it\'\'s home.
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[car horn honks]
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Hey, baby!
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[Ashley Houston]
No note, no nothing.
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I was running 80 the way
here trying to find you.
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I really didn\'\'t mean
to worry you, babe,
I\'\'m sorry.
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I was worried as hell.
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-I didn\'\'t know
where you were.
-Baby, I\'\'m sorry.
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I didn\'\'t mean
to worry you.
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Can I have a kiss?
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[Ashley] Maybe.
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Thank you.
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Now can I have
an actual kiss, please?
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Another one.
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Yes, you can
have a kiss.
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-Mwah.
-Love you.
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[music playing]
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[crowd cheering]
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[woman on PA]
Cheer him on, fans.
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[Cole]
When I get in that costume,
I\'\'m a rock star.
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[man talking
indistinctly over PA]
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Yeah! Yeah!
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[Cole]
The best part about this job
is nobody knows who I am.
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I can just walk
around freely.
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Hi, Scout!
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So, finally I get
to take this off
and I\'\'m done.
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You have a
good night, Kat.
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[Kat]You too.
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You doing all right?
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I\'\'m tired and I\'\'m hot
and I\'\'m graduating
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-Are you?
-tomorrow!
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[indistinct talk]
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Sure do.
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Don\'\'t seem like it\'\'s been
that long for you.
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All right, man,
I\'\'ll see you tomorrow.
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[Cole]
I came out openly gay
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right before
my 15th birthday,
homecoming week.
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I caught hell for it.
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I\'\'ve seen people stare and...
\"Oh, she\'\'s a dyke.\"
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Or, \"Oh, look
at the fag.\"
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My whole sophomore year
once I came out,
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I was kind of
just by myself.
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[slow instrumental
music playing]
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You\'\'re my bowl holder.
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[chuckling]
I\'\'m the bowl holder now?
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Great. Where\'\'s the spoon?
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I\'\'m so licking
the bowl.
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You can help.
[snickering]
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[Cole] Before her
I was like...
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I don\'\'t know, I was just,
like, extremely depressed
because...
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I just felt like
I was not gonna get
anyone in high school
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that, like, I was gonna be
single in my senior year.
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I\'\'m a person
who\'\'s like...
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I\'\'m a person, like,
who\'\'s scared to be alone.
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And, like, I was just afraid
that I was gonna stay alone,
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and then finally I met
Leslie and we clicked.
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Thank God, we clicked.
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In good old North Carolina,
there is so many
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Christian people
with all these beliefs.
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\"God hates fags,\"
this and that.
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In fact, the guy during
the summer, I believe he...
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He, uh, he got killed
because he was gay.
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It was nearby,
and it scared me.
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I--I was like...
I was just...
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keeping near Spazz,
because Spazz is like...
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-Watch out.
-Keeps me from harm and...
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[Cole]
Everyone believes to where
I\'\'m gay, they\'\'re like,
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\"You don\'\'t believe in God.\"
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How can you look at me
and tell me what I believe
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and what I
don\'\'t believe in?
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And I tell them that
and I do.
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I--I really do worship
the big man upstairs.
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When I\'\'m at home
by myself,
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I start talking
to Him and hopefully,
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God will answer back,
and He--He really...
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He really has
because me and her.
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He\'\'s answered
my prayers
in every way.
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[soft rock music playing]
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So, it was this year
that I\'\'ve really started
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stepping up
with who I am,
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\'\'cause I read this book
called\"Gay Rights\"
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about Matthew Shepard
who got killed.
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and that just
hit me so hard.
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[Leslie]
He started
a Gay-Straight Alliance.
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[Cole]
But then of course
the administration
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had to shoot that down.
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[Leslie]And then
we had a gay day.
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[Cole]The principal
looked at me and he said,
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\"Are you starting
a protest tomorrow?\"
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And I looked at him
and said,
\"Yes, sir, I am.
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We\'\'re gonna wear shirts saying\"we\'\'re gay, we\'\'re proud.\"
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And then they said
you\'\'re not allowed
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to write \"gay\" on your shirt.
So, we got smart with them
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and said \"G\",
and covered out
the \"A\" and put \"Y\".
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So, technically, \"gay\"
was not on our shirts.
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This is the 2008
prom picture.
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I am totally
sporting a tux.
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They actually weren\'\'t
gonna let me in,
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but then one teacher fought
and said it shouldn\'\'t matter.
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[Leslie]We are warriors
of the gay clan.
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Guess who took home
most spirited?
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170 votes.
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[Leslie] Are you serious?
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Oh, yeah, landslide.
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They said two other people
were in the category.
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They got ten votes each
and I got 170.
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[Leslie]Spazz
was the inspiration
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for a lot of people
to come out of the closet.
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Some people didn\'\'t like her
because she was gay.
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But they respected her
for standing up for herself.
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Everybody in school
knew who Spazz was.
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[cheering and applause]
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Uh, finally,
I\'\'m so relieved.
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Congratulations.
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All right, Spazz.
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-See you tonight?
-Yup.
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Hey! Congratulations.
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You too, thanks!
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-See ya, Spazz.
-Yup.
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This is
the prettiest thing
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I\'\'ll ever see
in my life
right here.
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-I\'\'m at the same address.
-What\'\'s his face?
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-And I\'\'m not the academic.
-All right.
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-I look forward to it.
-Bye, babe, love you.
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It is official!
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[indistinct chatter]
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[photographer]
One, two, three.
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Yay!
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Appreciate everybody coming.
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It is a celebration
for all these kids
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that have made their way.
Let\'\'s see who we got...
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Spazz graduated.
Danny graduated.
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As they endeavor
into their life,
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we just pray that God
will just touch them.
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We are out in my yard
at the parsonage
at the church.
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And we\'\'re cooking out
for the graduates
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of South Lenoir
High School.
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We have a good
youth group
at our church,
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and just a great time
in the Lord.
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And we\'\'re just
having fun today
and we\'\'re just giving God
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all the glory
for everything
He\'\'s done for us.
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[people chattering]
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Don\'\'t--don\'\'t let
her sit down.
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[Cole]
No, every time you got
a picture, just do this.
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Oh, gosh, why is she
sitting on me?
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You have a boyfriend.
Sit on your boyfriend.
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-It was hers.
-If I fall, I will take
you down with me.
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-That\'\'s fine.
-And I\'\'ll laugh.
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Honey, I was in hockey,
I busted my tail
plenty of times.
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Really, if you
want to know
the truth about it,
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this area is not really
populated with the gays.
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We have had, um...
maybe one or two that had--
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had a homosexual lifestyle
before, but they changed.
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I feel for you.
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[indistinct chatter]
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That\'\'s why we\'\'re loved.
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And we hope--
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I got a smile out of her, see?
See, see this is what you do.
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That\'\'s what
we\'\'re here for.
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[phone ringing]
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[Cole] Hello?
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Hey, Mama,
how\'\'re you feeling?
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Yeah, but I\'\'ll do
all my chores
when I get home.
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Don\'\'t worry.
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[Cole]When I was 12,
we moved from Canada
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all the way down
to North Carolina,
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My mother met
a pig farmer
named Billy online,
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and love happened,
I guess.
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I wasn\'\'t thinking
yesterday, Mama.
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Love you, too, bye.
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She\'\'s like,
\"Oh, you didn\'\'t do
any of your chores.\"
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Oh, I can\'\'t
catch a break.
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-[phone rings]
-Speak of my Mom again.
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Yes, Mom?
00:09:29.280 --> 00:09:32.280 position:20%
[indistinct talk on phone]
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Yes, Mom, we already
established this.
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Yes, Mom.
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I\'\'ll check the mail.
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[indistinct talk on phone]
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[whispering] Great job.
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Okay. Sure.
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Love you too,
Mom, mm-hmm.
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[scoffs] I think ever since
I came out gay to my Mom,
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it\'\'s been worse,
\'\'cause she\'\'s--
every time we ever get
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into an argument,
she\'\'ll bring up
that I\'\'m gay.
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Ah, I just can\'\'t wait
until I\'\'m out of there.
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[insects chirping]
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Ay! Whoa, too much.
00:10:10.160 --> 00:10:10.736
[Leslie] Told you.
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[Cole]See when
I came out at 14,
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I wrote my Mom a letter.
00:10:14.440 --> 00:10:18.256
And I came out transgender
in that note to her.
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I said I don\'\'t wanna
go by Jasmine anymore.
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I wanna go by Cole.
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And she flipped out.
00:10:25.120 --> 00:10:27.176
And she says, \"Well,
I\'\'ll accept you being gay,
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and that\'\'s as far
as it goes.\"
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I was like all right,
fine, I\'\'ll be gay.
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That\'\'s as good as
I\'\'m gonna get it, baby.
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Yeah, that part
fell down on me.
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[Lori Ann Dinn]
Oh, you didn\'\'t just
dye your hair again?
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Oh, my God.
00:10:46.080 --> 00:10:48.976
It\'\'s just for the night,
it\'\'s gonna wash out.
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[Lori Ann] Oh, God.
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[Leslie humming]
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Please and thank you.
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[Cole] You\'\'re the one
that knocked it down.
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I did not
knock it down.
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[laughing] She does
that to me too.
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Can I smack her,
or will you?
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I\'\'ll probably end up
smacking her.
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[laughing] Okay.
00:11:13.440 --> 00:11:15.400
[woman]What\'\'s the matter?
00:11:17.200 --> 00:11:21.056
I wonder where
this comes from.
What\'\'s the matter?
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That\'\'s mom.
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[camerawoman]
So, what\'\'s
the Great American?
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Okay, so it stands
for Great American
Mining Company.
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Um, there was
a gay club there before
called the Flamingo,
00:11:30.720 --> 00:11:31.496
but it got
burned down.
00:11:31.520 --> 00:11:33.856
So, they were trying
to be, like,
under the radar.
00:11:33.880 --> 00:11:35.776
That way, it doesn\'\'t get
burned down again.
00:11:35.800 --> 00:11:39.496 position:20%
[camerawoman]
Did it actually--did it get
burned down, burned down?
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-Yes.
-It was arson?
00:11:42.440 --> 00:11:42.776
Yeah.
00:11:42.800 --> 00:11:44.656
[camerawoman]
What happened?
00:11:44.680 --> 00:11:48.736 position:20%
Um... how do I put this...
straight people.
00:11:48.760 --> 00:11:50.736
Some straight people
don\'\'t like gay people.
00:11:50.760 --> 00:11:52.776
And they... they set out
to destroy them.
00:11:52.800 --> 00:11:58.800 position:20%
It\'\'s basically a hate crime
against people like us.
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-Almost ready?
-Yeah, I\'\'m ready.
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All I need to do
is put on my shoes.
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All right. Oh,
it\'\'s gonna be sick.
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[pop music playing]
00:12:10.120 --> 00:12:11.056 line:20%
Stop sinning!
00:12:11.080 --> 00:12:13.776
You lesbians!
You lesbians!
00:12:13.800 --> 00:12:16.296
[shouting continues]
00:12:16.320 --> 00:12:17.176
You\'\'re not
the authorities.
00:12:17.200 --> 00:12:19.536
You--you\'\'re not
the fucking authority.
00:12:19.560 --> 00:12:20.880
God is!
00:12:21.560 --> 00:12:23.880
[pop music playing]
00:12:28.840 --> 00:12:31.336 line:20%
Oh, I feel like
a gambler here.
00:12:31.360 --> 00:12:33.136 line:20%
This is the only place
we can be ourselves
00:12:33.160 --> 00:12:35.336 position:20%
-and we\'\'re not standing out.
-Not get shit about it.
00:12:35.360 --> 00:12:36.536
And we\'\'re not getting
any crap about it.
00:12:36.560 --> 00:12:39.176
[announcer]All right,
who wants to be
in the strip contest?
00:12:39.200 --> 00:12:41.776
Bring your ass
on the stage right now.
00:12:41.800 --> 00:12:44.920
[pop music playing]
00:12:47.200 --> 00:12:49.640
There\'\'s no
turning back now, huh?
00:12:50.720 --> 00:12:52.296
Hey, I wanna help.
00:12:52.320 --> 00:12:54.376
Okay, you put it
on the brush,
I\'\'ll put it on...
00:12:54.400 --> 00:12:55.656
[Leslie]Spazz told me,
she said,
00:12:55.680 --> 00:12:58.616
\"Leslie, my dad\'\'s
beating me again.\"
00:12:58.640 --> 00:13:01.496
Or something
weird happened,
and she moved in
00:13:01.520 --> 00:13:03.320
with me and my mom.
00:13:04.600 --> 00:13:07.480
Oh, and already
it\'\'s burning.
00:13:07.680 --> 00:13:09.416 line:20%
Yes! You\'\'ve missed a--
00:13:09.440 --> 00:13:11.696 line:20%
Okay, honey,
I just started.
00:13:11.720 --> 00:13:13.720
[chuckling] No!
00:13:15.040 --> 00:13:16.376
[sighing]
00:13:16.400 --> 00:13:18.096
Chill, beauty is pain.
00:13:18.120 --> 00:13:21.640
Well, handsomeness
is pain, well...
00:13:22.720 --> 00:13:23.176
[laughter]
00:13:23.200 --> 00:13:26.576
I can\'\'t say
the right word,
okay? I...
00:13:26.600 --> 00:13:28.576
I\'\'m not pretty,
I\'\'m a man, pretty.
00:13:28.600 --> 00:13:29.456
You\'\'re man pretty.
00:13:29.480 --> 00:13:34.856
♪ Dah, dah-dah-dah ♪
Pink.
00:13:34.880 --> 00:13:35.576
Get it off me.
00:13:35.600 --> 00:13:38.296
Aw, this is messed up,
this is the exact same color
00:13:38.320 --> 00:13:38.976
as my social dress.
00:13:39.000 --> 00:13:42.360
[laughing] It\'\'s like
eighth grade social.
00:13:42.520 --> 00:13:44.296
Oh, the eighth
grade social.
00:13:44.320 --> 00:13:47.896
My mom decided
to make me up
and be girly-girly.
00:13:47.920 --> 00:13:51.296
So, I had curly hair,
a French manicure and...
00:13:51.320 --> 00:13:53.336
You were
such a pretty girl.
00:13:53.360 --> 00:13:54.216
Pink dress.
00:13:54.240 --> 00:13:55.416
[Leslie] All right,
come on.
00:13:55.440 --> 00:13:58.256
Make sure that you don\'\'t
get bleach in your eyes,
00:13:58.280 --> 00:14:01.680
\'\'cause if you do
I\'\'m gonna feel
really bad.
00:14:03.320 --> 00:14:04.560
Wow.
00:14:07.160 --> 00:14:09.240
Your mom\'\'s gonna flip.
00:14:10.680 --> 00:14:12.536
Dude, this is what
we do almost every day,
00:14:12.560 --> 00:14:13.616
every time
we hear this song.
00:14:13.640 --> 00:14:16.000
This is our little
dance of ours.
00:14:17.440 --> 00:14:20.880
[\"The Girl Can\'\'t
Help It\" playing]
00:14:27.440 --> 00:14:32.080
♪ She can\'\'t help it,
The girl can\'\'t help it... ♪
00:14:36.520 --> 00:14:39.440 position:20%
[soft guitar tune playing]
00:15:03.800 --> 00:15:07.376
[Cole]Leslie found out
her house is getting
foreclosed.
00:15:07.400 --> 00:15:09.696
And Les is gonna be
alternating between me
00:15:09.720 --> 00:15:12.640
and the twins\'\' house,
I think.
00:15:14.560 --> 00:15:15.616
Oh!
00:15:15.640 --> 00:15:17.176
It\'\'s been
really stressful.
00:15:17.200 --> 00:15:19.976
She started to act
a little different.
00:15:20.000 --> 00:15:22.056
[Leslie] Look at
what your dog
did to my legs!
00:15:22.080 --> 00:15:26.080
[Cole] Ooh! Don\'\'t do that
to her ever again.
00:15:26.480 --> 00:15:27.880
[dog barks]
00:15:28.400 --> 00:15:30.536
[Cole] Sunburn!
00:15:30.560 --> 00:15:33.080
[Leslie] Well, he
scratched up mine.
00:15:33.840 --> 00:15:35.040
Ow!
00:15:37.120 --> 00:15:37.736
[dog barks]
00:15:37.760 --> 00:15:39.016
Doesn\'\'t feel good,
does it?
00:15:39.040 --> 00:15:43.600
[Leslie]Everything,
it\'\'s just falling apart.
00:15:44.600 --> 00:15:47.416
-No.
-Come on, please?
00:15:47.440 --> 00:15:48.296
[Leslie] Fine.
00:15:48.320 --> 00:15:50.480
[Cole] Thank you.
I love you.
00:15:50.680 --> 00:15:51.576
Love you, puppies.
00:15:51.600 --> 00:15:53.576
-Love you, Jewel.
-[Jewel] Love you too!
00:15:53.600 --> 00:15:55.200
-Bye, y\'\'all.
-Bye.
00:15:58.160 --> 00:15:59.976
[Cole]Me and her
are going to church.
00:16:00.000 --> 00:16:01.896
We\'\'re having something
to turn to together.
00:16:01.920 --> 00:16:03.976
It\'\'s not just her
in this alone anymore.
00:16:04.000 --> 00:16:05.416
So, we both have
someone to turn to
00:16:05.440 --> 00:16:06.616
and help each other
out when--
00:16:06.640 --> 00:16:09.240
especially in this
tough time with them.
00:16:14.000 --> 00:16:16.096
So, I want you guysnto always know this is a place
00:16:16.120 --> 00:16:17.256 line:20%
just to pray.
I love you guys,
00:16:17.280 --> 00:16:21.176 line:20%
how open you are in praying,
man, and going to the altar.
00:16:21.200 --> 00:16:23.496
It blesses my heart, man.
00:16:23.520 --> 00:16:25.416
[Cole]Leslie, when she did
start going to Warehouse,
00:16:25.440 --> 00:16:28.256
I did kind of feel
thrown to the side,
because, you know,
00:16:28.280 --> 00:16:31.296
me and her were
so used to doing
everything together.
00:16:31.320 --> 00:16:33.880
But I noticed
it was helping her.
00:16:35.080 --> 00:16:38.280
[keyboard playing]
00:16:38.640 --> 00:16:41.616
I love this country, I\'\'m not
bashing this country at all.
00:16:41.640 --> 00:16:42.496
I love it, I wouldn\'\'t--
00:16:42.520 --> 00:16:43.856
for those people
that bash our country,
00:16:43.880 --> 00:16:46.576
there\'\'s planes going
to other ones every day.
00:16:46.600 --> 00:16:47.376
Get one, take it and go.
00:16:47.400 --> 00:16:50.896
I love our country,
but we live in a
spiritually dark world.
00:16:50.920 --> 00:16:53.656
There\'\'s a flood
of alternative lifestyles
00:16:53.680 --> 00:16:55.576
constantly flooding America.
00:16:55.600 --> 00:16:56.656
I challenge you
to build an ark
00:16:56.680 --> 00:17:02.136
of old-fashioned
Christian values
and morals.
00:17:02.160 --> 00:17:04.376
[Leslie]When
I found myself,
00:17:04.400 --> 00:17:08.080
I guess you could say
I was saved, but...
00:17:08.640 --> 00:17:11.296
in a way,
it impacted her a lot.
00:17:11.320 --> 00:17:14.296
-We got in fights about it.
-We got in a lot of fights.
00:17:14.320 --> 00:17:16.296
And then she says,
\"Well, I like Matt.\"
00:17:16.320 --> 00:17:18.536
She\'\'s like,
\"I really wanna go
out with him, like...\"
00:17:18.560 --> 00:17:20.056
-I did not say that!
-You did.
00:17:20.080 --> 00:17:20.816
-I did not.
-You did.
00:17:20.840 --> 00:17:22.496
No, I said I liked him,
I didn\'\'t say anything
00:17:22.520 --> 00:17:25.200
-about going out
with him.
-You did.
00:17:25.440 --> 00:17:26.016
Red-headed boy.
00:17:26.040 --> 00:17:28.176 position:20%
-Yeah, he-- yeah, he, yeah...
-Built like a beast.
00:17:28.200 --> 00:17:31.280
Yes, he took me
to the Warehouse.
00:17:31.920 --> 00:17:32.816
At first,
she got mad at me.
00:17:32.840 --> 00:17:34.296
She was like,
\"Oh, churchy straight girl.\"
00:17:34.320 --> 00:17:37.696 position:20%
No, I was just mad, because
she did find herself.
00:17:37.720 --> 00:17:40.416
And I had to--
I had to get to the fact
00:17:40.440 --> 00:17:42.456
that I\'\'m not the one
who helped her with it.
00:17:42.480 --> 00:17:44.776
[camerawoman]
You haven\'\'t gotten
invited to The Warehouse?
00:17:44.800 --> 00:17:47.216
Yeah, they keep
leaving me out.
00:17:47.240 --> 00:17:48.376
That\'\'s one thing
I\'\'m scared of.
00:17:48.400 --> 00:17:50.096
I mean,
if me and Spazz
walk in there
00:17:50.120 --> 00:17:52.816
-as a gay couple...
-Hand in hand.
00:17:52.840 --> 00:17:54.856
then what they\'\'ll say.
00:17:54.880 --> 00:17:57.496
I mean, normally,
it doesn\'\'t bother me
what people will say.
00:17:57.520 --> 00:18:00.080
But, I mean, this is
a place where...
00:18:00.480 --> 00:18:06.056
I feel like...
I don\'\'t have to hide
who I am.
00:18:06.080 --> 00:18:09.080
And I can be
whoever I need to be.
00:18:10.280 --> 00:18:10.576
Yes.
00:18:10.600 --> 00:18:14.080
I mean, I walked in,
and it was like
I belonged.
00:18:16.040 --> 00:18:19.160
[wind chimes tinkling]
00:18:26.320 --> 00:18:28.880
[gentle music playing]
00:18:35.880 --> 00:18:39.480
[man talking over PA,
crowd chattering]
00:18:41.880 --> 00:18:44.320
You go ahead,
after you.
00:18:46.520 --> 00:18:47.920
Hello, Scout.
00:18:49.160 --> 00:18:51.280
I\'\'m having a bad day.
00:18:51.360 --> 00:18:53.576
I\'\'ve been at
my grandparents\'\' house.
00:18:53.600 --> 00:18:56.136 position:20%
They\'\'re Jehovah\'\'s Witness.
I\'\'ve been with them--
00:18:56.160 --> 00:19:00.296
at their house
since... Sunday night.
00:19:00.320 --> 00:19:03.176
We kept Spazz a secret
from my grandmother.
00:19:03.200 --> 00:19:04.976
And then somebody
found it out,
00:19:05.000 --> 00:19:07.136
and they showed her mine
and Spazz\'\'s prom pictures.
00:19:07.160 --> 00:19:11.336
And she just, like,
went all Jehovah\'\'s
Witness on me,
00:19:11.360 --> 00:19:14.536
and I just can\'\'t
deal with that.
00:19:14.560 --> 00:19:17.800 position:20%
[loud fireworks explosions]
00:19:42.560 --> 00:19:45.600
[insects chirping]
00:19:48.120 --> 00:19:49.336
Okay.
00:19:49.360 --> 00:19:51.480
[Cole]
Me and Leslie broke up.
00:19:51.800 --> 00:19:56.400
I love her so much,
and that\'\'s why
it hurts so bad.
00:19:58.760 --> 00:20:01.760
Oh, I just got gypped,
I\'\'m such an idiot.
00:20:03.360 --> 00:20:07.760
When Leslie broke up with me,
I really felt abandoned.
00:20:08.840 --> 00:20:10.456
[distant chatter]
00:20:10.480 --> 00:20:13.000
[sad tune playing]
00:20:15.040 --> 00:20:17.376
[Leslie]My nana, she\'\'s like,
\"If you\'\'re gonna be gay,
00:20:17.400 --> 00:20:21.016
then I can\'\'t be
in your life anymore.\"
00:20:21.040 --> 00:20:24.176
Me and Spazz broke up,
and it was a whole
bunch of pressure
00:20:24.200 --> 00:20:25.776
lifted off me
because I
wasn\'\'t worried
00:20:25.800 --> 00:20:29.600
about what my family
would think
about me anymore.
00:20:32.200 --> 00:20:35.920
The day she broke up with me
was the day I got baptized.
00:20:36.480 --> 00:20:39.216 position:20%
[Pastor] The Father, the Son
and the Holy Spirit.
00:20:39.240 --> 00:20:41.576 position:20%
[water splashes, applause]
00:20:41.600 --> 00:20:43.840
[Cole]Saved, it felt good.
00:20:47.800 --> 00:20:49.016
[applause]
00:20:49.040 --> 00:20:51.536
Pastor Price,
all of a sudden,
he looked at me
00:20:51.560 --> 00:20:53.976
and he said,
\"Homosexuality
is a sin.
00:20:54.000 --> 00:20:55.736
God wants you
to change.\"
00:20:55.760 --> 00:20:58.896
And I sat there
completely off guard,
00:20:58.920 --> 00:21:01.176
because I didn\'\'t
expect it from him.
00:21:01.200 --> 00:21:04.480
[whistling,
music playing]
00:21:07.200 --> 00:21:09.000
It was a Friday night,
00:21:09.040 --> 00:21:12.256
and these four guys
were harassing me all night.
00:21:12.280 --> 00:21:17.160
Just with a lot of gay slurs,
a lot of faggot comments.
00:21:17.680 --> 00:21:19.216
And I ignored them.
You know, I had
a job to do.
00:21:19.240 --> 00:21:23.760
I wasn\'\'t gonna let them
get in the way of me
being Scout.
00:21:27.120 --> 00:21:28.760
The game was over.
00:21:28.840 --> 00:21:30.976
I was waiting
for my ride.
00:21:31.000 --> 00:21:34.360
You know, I kind of heard
like this whistle behind me.
00:21:35.880 --> 00:21:38.720
The next thing I know,
I\'\'m, like, on the ground.
00:21:39.040 --> 00:21:41.216
I remember getting kicked
in the ribs pretty hard,
00:21:41.240 --> 00:21:45.000
like, to the point where
my breath was completely
out of me.
00:21:45.320 --> 00:21:46.776
And then the last thing
I remember
00:21:46.800 --> 00:21:49.240
was this big-ass boot
in my face.
00:21:54.040 --> 00:21:57.080
[distant shouting]
00:21:57.480 --> 00:21:59.496
[Cole]I was actually
mad at God.
00:21:59.520 --> 00:22:03.176
I was just like,
you aren\'\'t
here for me now.
00:22:03.200 --> 00:22:06.440
[distant shouting continues]
00:22:07.280 --> 00:22:08.456
I was enraged by drugs.
00:22:08.480 --> 00:22:12.560
I was just in this
really, really dark pit.
00:22:16.760 --> 00:22:21.280
My grandmother\'\'s gun,
I knew exactly
where it was, too.
00:22:22.640 --> 00:22:25.720
I put it up
to my head,
cocked it.
00:22:27.600 --> 00:22:30.680
And I said
all my misery
is about to end.
00:22:35.040 --> 00:22:38.000
And then I-- I hear
my phone, \"bzzzz\".
00:22:38.320 --> 00:22:39.256
I turn and look at it.
00:22:39.280 --> 00:22:42.320
And I see I got
a new text message,
I said...
00:22:42.640 --> 00:22:43.816
I flip it open
and there\'\'s Ash--
00:22:43.840 --> 00:22:47.736
Miss Ashley Houston
just saying hi.
00:22:47.760 --> 00:22:48.456
That would be me!
00:22:48.480 --> 00:22:52.160
[Cole]That\'\'s all
it took, was \"hi\",
and I put down the gun,
00:22:52.440 --> 00:22:55.096
looked up
to the sky like, okay.
00:22:55.120 --> 00:22:56.816
You answered,
You answered.
00:22:56.840 --> 00:22:58.896
Leslie left me
for a guy,
00:22:58.920 --> 00:23:00.856
who was actually
at the time
my best friend
00:23:00.880 --> 00:23:02.336
and went to an
anti-gay church.
00:23:02.360 --> 00:23:06.216
But then when it got
bad to worse for me,
00:23:06.240 --> 00:23:09.816 line:20%
Ashley was right there
to pick me right up
when I needed it.
00:23:09.840 --> 00:23:11.096 line:20%
[friend]I believe
it\'\'s fate, really.
00:23:11.120 --> 00:23:13.216 line:20%
[Cole]I think it is too.
Me and her were best friends
00:23:13.240 --> 00:23:16.080 line:20%
since her freshman year
of high school.
00:23:16.840 --> 00:23:20.200
[friend]Get over there,
comfort your man.
00:23:20.520 --> 00:23:22.856
Mwah. Love you.
00:23:22.880 --> 00:23:24.096
Oh, my God,
this is awesome.
00:23:24.120 --> 00:23:26.760
They\'\'re Frank\'\'s
Red Hots. Oh.
00:23:27.600 --> 00:23:29.856
-Did Ashley do good?
-Mm-hmm.
00:23:29.880 --> 00:23:31.576
[motor whirring]
00:23:31.600 --> 00:23:35.120
[guitar tune playing]
00:23:41.040 --> 00:23:43.456
[friend]So, Spazz
and Ashley,
00:23:43.480 --> 00:23:47.760
they\'\'re officially
packing up
their house.
00:23:47.920 --> 00:23:49.496 position:20%
[Cole] Unpacking our house.
00:23:49.520 --> 00:23:50.736
-Need tampons?
-[friend chuckles]
00:23:50.760 --> 00:23:55.336
Seems so great to think
that just a few months ago
00:23:55.360 --> 00:23:58.176
they were living
with parents, and...
00:23:58.200 --> 00:24:01.360
-[Cole] You mean
just yesterday.
-[Ashley laughing]
00:24:01.440 --> 00:24:03.800
[friend]Doing
what was told.
00:24:03.880 --> 00:24:07.520
Now, they\'\'re
on their own and they
can do what they want.
00:24:08.560 --> 00:24:10.760
Aw, she\'\'s shy.
00:24:13.600 --> 00:24:15.840
[upbeat music playing]
00:24:48.440 --> 00:24:52.776
[Cole] Ashley, she--
she\'\'s definitely
the backbone of me.
00:24:52.800 --> 00:24:53.696
Baby, it\'\'s really hot...
00:24:53.720 --> 00:24:56.176
You know, when
we got together,
she was just like,
00:24:56.200 --> 00:24:57.496
\"You\'\'re Cole,
you\'\'re not Spazz.
00:24:57.520 --> 00:25:00.440
You\'\'re not Jasmine,
you\'\'re Cole to me.\"
00:25:03.800 --> 00:25:06.856
Would you like to take me
home when you all go out
to do your stuff?
00:25:06.880 --> 00:25:10.536
Or I can take you home
after I get home from school.
00:25:10.560 --> 00:25:12.416
[Cole]
That\'\'ll be at about
7:30, 8:00.
00:25:12.440 --> 00:25:14.600
Either way,
it doesn\'\'t matter.
00:25:15.880 --> 00:25:17.576
You\'\'re complicated.
00:25:17.600 --> 00:25:18.856
[Cole] He\'\'s a man.
00:25:18.880 --> 00:25:19.656
[Ashley] He\'\'s like you.
00:25:19.680 --> 00:25:22.616 position:20%
[Heather Houston]
That is true,
you are complicated, dude.
00:25:22.640 --> 00:25:23.096
Thank you.
00:25:23.120 --> 00:25:24.776
Women, y\'\'all are
just complicated.
00:25:24.800 --> 00:25:26.056
-It just comes
with the package.
-[Justin] Yup.
00:25:26.080 --> 00:25:28.336
[Cole]When I came out
transgendered to a
few of my friends,
00:25:28.360 --> 00:25:30.336
and they\'\'re, like,
\"So, you\'\'re a guy
00:25:30.360 --> 00:25:32.856
trapped in a girl\'\'s body?\"
I said yeah.
00:25:32.880 --> 00:25:35.896
I\'\'m tired of being scared
of what my mom would
think of me.
00:25:35.920 --> 00:25:37.096
I\'\'m tired of being
scared of what my family
00:25:37.120 --> 00:25:39.016
would think of me,
I\'\'m just-- I\'\'m
fed up with it.
00:25:39.040 --> 00:25:43.320
I\'\'m tired of living
this lie for--
to make them...
00:25:43.560 --> 00:25:45.440
to appease them.
00:25:48.240 --> 00:25:49.896
I was three years old
arguing with my mother,
00:25:49.920 --> 00:25:53.136
saying I wanted a penis,
at three years old.
00:25:53.160 --> 00:25:55.616
I said, \"Mommy,
can I have a penis?\"
00:25:55.640 --> 00:25:58.416
\"Not tonight, honey,we\'\'ll talk about it tomorrow.\"
00:25:58.440 --> 00:26:00.680
I want it cold,
I want a drink.
00:26:02.800 --> 00:26:05.896
When I first came down here,
I had access to Internet.
00:26:05.920 --> 00:26:07.336
I was trying
to figure out what I was.
00:26:07.360 --> 00:26:10.656
Then I read about it
and learned more
about it when I was 12.
00:26:10.680 --> 00:26:11.856
The word
\"transgender\"
came up,
00:26:11.880 --> 00:26:14.840
I was like,
well, I guess that\'\'s
what I am.
00:26:37.640 --> 00:26:42.496
[Ashley]I\'\'ve never had
the bond with anybody
like I do with Cole.
00:26:42.520 --> 00:26:46.776
With him being transgender,it\'\'s never really confused me.
00:26:46.800 --> 00:26:50.160
I\'\'ve always
seen him as a guy.
00:26:52.400 --> 00:26:54.056
Oh! Oh!
00:26:54.080 --> 00:26:56.496
-[Cole] What?
-Oh, my God!
00:26:56.520 --> 00:26:57.416
[shrieking]
00:26:57.440 --> 00:27:00.696
-He\'\'s down the drain,
he\'\'s down the drain.
-And I felt one of his legs.
00:27:00.720 --> 00:27:03.560
-He\'\'s down the drain.
-Oh, my God, look.
00:27:03.800 --> 00:27:05.856
Okay, we both have
an arachnophobia, love.
00:27:05.880 --> 00:27:08.456
-This is not good.
-Well, you gotta look.
00:27:08.480 --> 00:27:11.160
[water running]
00:27:12.080 --> 00:27:15.680
[chuckling]
He\'\'s down the drain.
00:27:17.560 --> 00:27:20.640
[Ashley vocalizing]
00:27:27.480 --> 00:27:29.800
[Cole] That\'\'s my grandma.
00:27:32.040 --> 00:27:34.200
I sure do
miss her, though.
00:27:34.760 --> 00:27:38.296
But she\'\'s with every
Panthers game I watch,
\'\'cause the spirit
00:27:38.320 --> 00:27:40.856
of my grandmother
comes out in me,
oh, buddy.
00:27:40.880 --> 00:27:43.656 position:20%
Grandma, she-- she made up
for a lot for me though.
00:27:43.680 --> 00:27:45.736
She spoiled me
when no one else did.
00:27:45.760 --> 00:27:48.456
And she knew
I was transgender,
which was amazing,
00:27:48.480 --> 00:27:49.896
and she never
told my mom.
00:27:49.920 --> 00:27:52.136
She just-- every time
it was just me and her,
00:27:52.160 --> 00:27:54.256
I was \"he\"
and I was Cole.
00:27:54.280 --> 00:27:56.336
One day,
she opened up
a magazine,
00:27:56.360 --> 00:27:59.016
one of her, uh,
personal magazines.
00:27:59.040 --> 00:28:02.256
She was like,
\"Let\'\'s find you
a strap-on.\"
00:28:02.280 --> 00:28:05.920
She\'\'s like, \"You want a penis,
I\'\'m going to buy you one.\"
00:28:06.160 --> 00:28:10.136
Okay, Grandma, you do that.
It never came around to it.
00:28:10.160 --> 00:28:11.656
But it was like
our little inside joke.
00:28:11.680 --> 00:28:15.520 position:20%
[camerawoman]
Did you ever think that maybe
your grandmother was gay?
00:28:15.800 --> 00:28:16.136
No.
00:28:16.160 --> 00:28:20.256
But she said she wouldn\'\'t
mind discovering
another sexuality.
00:28:20.280 --> 00:28:21.256
I was like...
[laughing]
00:28:21.280 --> 00:28:24.320
That like instantly
bonded our friendship.
00:28:25.120 --> 00:28:28.520
[laughter]
00:28:32.240 --> 00:28:34.160
[Ashley] Beep-beep!
00:28:35.200 --> 00:28:36.680
Beep-beep!
00:28:36.840 --> 00:28:38.656
You get to run
around with him.
00:28:38.680 --> 00:28:40.600
[Heather Houston]
Harrison!
00:28:43.040 --> 00:28:45.096 position:20% line:20%
Harrison, Mommy loves you!
00:28:45.120 --> 00:28:46.416 line:20%
[Cole] He\'\'s, like,
\"Yeah, I love my car.\"
00:28:46.440 --> 00:28:50.920 line:20%
[Heather] I found out
I was pregnant
when I was 16.
00:28:51.240 --> 00:28:57.656
Me and my sister pretty much
tore up my family in one day.
00:28:57.680 --> 00:29:01.376
Because I was having
a baby that\'\'s black,
00:29:01.400 --> 00:29:05.216
and I won\'\'t get married,
and Ashley was dating a girl.
00:29:05.240 --> 00:29:09.336
[Ashley]
They came in
the door, and it was,
00:29:09.360 --> 00:29:11.856
\"Mama, Heather\'\'s pregnant!
00:29:11.880 --> 00:29:14.440
\"Mama, Ashley\'\'s gay!\"
00:29:15.000 --> 00:29:17.536
[Heather]
I was so pissed at you
\'\'cause you told Mama.
00:29:17.560 --> 00:29:19.656
You stayed mad
for a year.
00:29:19.680 --> 00:29:20.776
[Heather] I did.
00:29:20.800 --> 00:29:22.056
Yeah, you were
pissed off,
00:29:22.080 --> 00:29:23.296
but at least
you got over it.
00:29:23.320 --> 00:29:25.856
[Dawn]
Ashley had asked me
how I would feel
00:29:25.880 --> 00:29:27.336
about her dating Spazz.
00:29:27.360 --> 00:29:29.536 line:20%
So, I was like,
well, you know,
not my choice.
00:29:29.560 --> 00:29:32.216 line:20%
You know, that\'\'s not
what I would prefer.
00:29:32.240 --> 00:29:34.336
But I want her
to be happy.
00:29:34.360 --> 00:29:38.040
My bigger thing
is how everybody
else reacts.
00:29:38.280 --> 00:29:39.536
I knew how
her dad would react.
00:29:39.560 --> 00:29:43.656
I knew how
their dad\'\'s family
would react.
00:29:43.680 --> 00:29:47.040
You know,
that\'\'s just taboo.
00:29:48.560 --> 00:29:49.856
[Heather] Good boy!
00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:51.136
[laughing]
00:29:51.160 --> 00:29:52.576
[all] Yay!
00:29:52.600 --> 00:29:55.256
-Good boy!
-[laughing]
00:29:55.280 --> 00:29:55.816
Good boy!
00:29:55.840 --> 00:29:57.016
[Cole] I\'\'m doing
something good.
00:29:57.040 --> 00:29:59.336
[Heather]
\"I\'\'m so excited,
I blew a dandelion.\"
00:29:59.360 --> 00:30:03.856
[Ashley]
My dream is that
we will have a family.
00:30:03.880 --> 00:30:05.096
We\'\'ll be able
to both have jobs.
00:30:05.120 --> 00:30:08.376
You know, it\'\'s kind of like
the American dream, you know?
00:30:08.400 --> 00:30:10.096
You\'\'ll be able
to make it
on your own.
00:30:10.120 --> 00:30:12.736
And I would love
to be able
to be married,
00:30:12.760 --> 00:30:15.536
holding hands together,
walk into church
00:30:15.560 --> 00:30:17.760
with our little one.
00:30:17.880 --> 00:30:19.736
That\'\'s what
I want, but...
00:30:19.760 --> 00:30:24.200
only time will be
able to tell if that\'\'ll
ever happen.
00:30:26.080 --> 00:30:28.456
I\'\'d love to go back
to Grace Baptist,
00:30:28.480 --> 00:30:30.416
\'\'cause that\'\'s
where I grew up.
00:30:30.440 --> 00:30:32.896
Aren\'\'t you glad
you know Christ
is your savior?
00:30:32.920 --> 00:30:35.496
[Ashley]
I was baptized
by Pastor Bradley.
00:30:35.520 --> 00:30:40.016
I\'\'ve known him
since I was knee high
to a grasshopper.
00:30:40.040 --> 00:30:42.456
So, I mean,
I\'\'ve known him
all my life.
00:30:42.480 --> 00:30:45.216
And he\'\'s picked at me,
and he\'\'s talked with me.
00:30:45.240 --> 00:30:48.600
And he\'\'s--
he\'\'s helped me
through a lot.
00:30:48.920 --> 00:30:53.336
During the time
of my mom
and dad\'\'s divorce,
00:30:53.360 --> 00:30:57.840
he\'\'d give advice
and he was really helpful.
00:30:58.320 --> 00:31:01.056
[Pastor Bill Bradley]
People come for counseling.
00:31:01.080 --> 00:31:02.536 line:20%
They can come to me
with any problem.
00:31:02.560 --> 00:31:04.816 line:20%
They may not want
the counsel I give them,
00:31:04.840 --> 00:31:07.376 line:20%
but they can come to me
with any problem, yes.
00:31:07.400 --> 00:31:09.456
I want to help,
and that\'\'s
what I believe
00:31:09.480 --> 00:31:11.760
God wants me
to do, is help.
00:31:14.600 --> 00:31:18.440
[ambient noises]
00:31:22.880 --> 00:31:24.136
That one actually
looks nice.
00:31:24.160 --> 00:31:26.656 position:20%
I can\'\'t wear my clogs
with it though, would you?
00:31:26.680 --> 00:31:29.496
You\'\'re not gonna wear
clogs at church.
00:31:29.520 --> 00:31:31.256
What shoes do I wear?
00:31:31.280 --> 00:31:33.736
[Cole]We\'\'ve been looking
for a church to call home
00:31:33.760 --> 00:31:35.136
where we can
be accepted.
00:31:35.160 --> 00:31:37.656
Where we don\'\'t
have to worry about
00:31:37.680 --> 00:31:38.976
what\'\'s today\'\'s
sermon gonna be?
00:31:39.000 --> 00:31:41.016
Or, is homosexuality
gonna be involved?
00:31:41.040 --> 00:31:44.736
Is it gonna start
being a bashing
of homosexuality?
00:31:44.760 --> 00:31:46.256 position:20%
Yesterday, we were helping
00:31:46.280 --> 00:31:48.696
her grandmother
on her father\'\'s side.
00:31:48.720 --> 00:31:51.456
And she was like,
\"We want you
to come to church.\"
00:31:51.480 --> 00:31:54.376
And I looked at Ashley,
and we nodded our head.
00:31:54.400 --> 00:31:56.336
And we\'\'re like,
okay, we\'\'ll be there.
00:31:56.360 --> 00:31:59.600
So, I guess we\'\'re just
gonna give this a shot.
00:32:00.040 --> 00:32:01.816
You look amazing.
00:32:01.840 --> 00:32:03.320
Thank you.
00:32:05.040 --> 00:32:07.360
Ooh, I love her, mmm.
00:32:09.080 --> 00:32:10.656
[groaning]
I\'\'m just waiting
00:32:10.680 --> 00:32:13.416
to walk in and see all
the faces turn and go...
00:32:13.440 --> 00:32:14.736
[gasping]
00:32:14.760 --> 00:32:16.096
[chuckling]
00:32:16.120 --> 00:32:17.696
That\'\'s really what
I\'\'m waiting to see,
00:32:17.720 --> 00:32:20.536
because I haven\'\'t
been there
in a while.
00:32:20.560 --> 00:32:22.896
And my grandmother\'\'s
been wanting me to go,
00:32:22.920 --> 00:32:26.320
wanting me to go,
wanting me to go, so...
00:32:27.240 --> 00:32:29.160
Yay, I\'\'m going.
00:32:35.920 --> 00:32:37.880
[Cole] Forgive my jeep.
00:32:39.160 --> 00:32:41.736
I can\'\'t believe
we\'\'re going to church.
00:32:41.760 --> 00:32:45.520
I don\'\'t know. I think
we\'\'ll be accepted there.
00:32:46.640 --> 00:32:51.616
Yeah, but they\'\'re
very very old fashioned.
00:32:51.640 --> 00:32:53.136
Sitting at the back.
00:32:53.160 --> 00:32:55.976
[Cole] I thought
we were gonna
sit with your family.
00:32:56.000 --> 00:32:59.096
I think that\'\'ll be
less noticeable if
we sit with the family.
00:32:59.120 --> 00:33:01.136
Instead of just
cutting out ourselves
00:33:01.160 --> 00:33:03.176
by sitting away
from them.
00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:09.000
Many today believe
that they can come
to God their own way.
00:33:09.280 --> 00:33:11.096
Huh, how about that?
00:33:11.120 --> 00:33:16.736
There\'\'s one way
to come to God,
and only one way.
00:33:16.760 --> 00:33:17.896
Say, that sounds
pretty biased.
00:33:17.920 --> 00:33:21.520
No, that\'\'s not my opinion,
that\'\'s what God said.
00:33:21.720 --> 00:33:24.456
Listen to me, dads,
listen to me, moms,
00:33:24.480 --> 00:33:27.776
it\'\'s important that
you lead the way
00:33:27.800 --> 00:33:29.896
in what your
children do.
00:33:29.920 --> 00:33:32.056
And you must lead it
when you feel like it
00:33:32.080 --> 00:33:34.176
and when you don\'\'t
feel like it.
00:33:34.200 --> 00:33:35.176
Amen, preacher.
00:33:35.200 --> 00:33:36.856
[scattered responses]
Amen.
00:33:36.880 --> 00:33:40.816
Oh, how many
times we fail.
00:33:40.840 --> 00:33:42.056
[Cole]At first,
I was getting uneasy.
00:33:42.080 --> 00:33:44.096
I was, like, please,
just don\'\'t say anything
about homosexuality,
00:33:44.120 --> 00:33:47.056
\'\'cause it looked like
he was hinting
around to it.
00:33:47.080 --> 00:33:49.096
But he never did,
and I was just, like, okay.
00:33:49.120 --> 00:33:52.200
That\'\'s--that\'\'s
another obstacle
out of the way.
00:33:55.480 --> 00:33:57.696
Pastor Bradley
came up to me
00:33:57.720 --> 00:34:01.240
and said, \"You\'\'re a nice,
respectable young man.\"
00:34:01.800 --> 00:34:05.360
I said, \"Thank you,
you\'\'re a good pastor.\"
00:34:08.080 --> 00:34:11.016
When me and Cole
first walked in,
00:34:11.040 --> 00:34:12.296
it was kind of awkward.
00:34:12.320 --> 00:34:15.576
And, you know,
you had a few people
turn around and be like,
00:34:15.600 --> 00:34:18.176
\"Wow, she\'\'s really here,
and who\'\'s that with her?
00:34:18.200 --> 00:34:21.616
Oh, that\'\'s the nice
respectable young man
with her, all right.\"
00:34:21.640 --> 00:34:24.656 position:20%
There\'\'s one couple
that I do know that knows,
00:34:24.680 --> 00:34:27.496
because when
I walked in
and sat down,
00:34:27.520 --> 00:34:28.336
she looked at me.
00:34:28.360 --> 00:34:30.416 position:20%
The woman looked at me,
whenever she looked at me,
00:34:30.440 --> 00:34:32.816
she kind of
rolled her eyes
and turned around.
00:34:32.840 --> 00:34:34.016
But other
than that, it...
00:34:34.040 --> 00:34:35.136
it was actually
a pretty good service.
00:34:35.160 --> 00:34:38.176
Yeah, that\'\'s the first time
that I\'\'ve walked into a church
00:34:38.200 --> 00:34:41.016
with Cole
by myself, so...
00:34:41.040 --> 00:34:43.200
\'\'Cause I give
you confidence.
00:34:43.320 --> 00:34:46.080
I\'\'m sorry.
I had to say that.
00:34:47.720 --> 00:34:49.736
I wouldn\'\'t see that
there\'\'ll be a problem
00:34:49.760 --> 00:34:51.720
to go back
to Grace Baptist.
00:34:57.920 --> 00:35:01.120 position:20%
[soft guitar tune playing]
00:35:02.000 --> 00:35:05.080
[people chattering]
00:35:07.240 --> 00:35:10.440 position:20%
[soft guitar tune playing]
00:35:25.720 --> 00:35:27.856
We\'\'re trying
to figure out
where to go.
00:35:27.880 --> 00:35:32.320
Because the
Great American
is being closed down.
00:35:32.360 --> 00:35:33.696
[Heather]
Maynard\'\'s?
00:35:33.720 --> 00:35:34.336
[both] Maynard\'\'s.
00:35:34.360 --> 00:35:36.736
[Cole] You want
me to get
my ass kicked?
00:35:36.760 --> 00:35:41.256 position:20%
[Heather] What about
Fayetteville Straight
Friendly Alternative Club?
00:35:41.280 --> 00:35:42.816
Straight Friendly,
I love that.
00:35:42.840 --> 00:35:44.640
We\'\'re straight friendly.
00:35:45.040 --> 00:35:47.176
It is an hour
and 55 minutes away.
00:35:47.200 --> 00:35:49.056
It is a two hour drive.
00:35:49.080 --> 00:35:52.080
-I give up.
-Oh, my God.
00:35:52.280 --> 00:35:53.896
[Heather] So,
I\'\'m really not
seeing nothing.
00:35:53.920 --> 00:35:56.496
We got the choice
of spotlighting
or Walmart.
00:35:56.520 --> 00:35:58.096
There\'\'s always McDonald\'\'s.
00:35:58.120 --> 00:36:00.760
[laughing] We\'\'re not
going to McDonald\'\'s!
00:36:01.280 --> 00:36:02.416
-Um...
-Dammit!
00:36:02.440 --> 00:36:04.120
Where can we go?
00:36:04.560 --> 00:36:06.920
[Ashley] About eight people.
00:36:07.760 --> 00:36:10.800
[Harrison fussing]
00:36:14.320 --> 00:36:17.320
[Cole] Get Harrison
all tucked away.
00:36:19.240 --> 00:36:22.480 position:20%
[sound of distant gunshots]
00:36:23.760 --> 00:36:25.536
[Cole]
Trigger happy morons!
00:36:25.560 --> 00:36:28.640
[playful gentle
music playing]
00:36:47.640 --> 00:36:51.696
[Mary] We take
from, you know, big
basically square bales
00:36:51.720 --> 00:36:57.160 position:20% line:20%
of cott-- or fabric, it looks
like cotton-- and, um...
00:36:57.240 --> 00:37:01.136
we basically
unwind it and...
00:37:01.160 --> 00:37:02.456
I don\'\'t know what
you\'\'d call that.
00:37:02.480 --> 00:37:05.336
We make it into
like ropes of yarn.
00:37:05.360 --> 00:37:07.776
And we put it
into, like, thread.
00:37:07.800 --> 00:37:10.496
Are you still talking
about that place?
00:37:10.520 --> 00:37:11.176
I hated that place.
00:37:11.200 --> 00:37:14.416
They were doing her wrong
and she told them about it,
00:37:14.440 --> 00:37:15.136
and they got rid of her.
00:37:15.160 --> 00:37:17.776
Um, I was running
eight machines by myself
00:37:17.800 --> 00:37:22.016 position:20%
and wasn\'\'t getting no help
from nobody, and...
00:37:22.040 --> 00:37:24.376 position:20%
pretty much I went
to my supervisor about it.
00:37:24.400 --> 00:37:26.296 position:20%
They said that all of a sudden
that I wasn\'\'t doing
00:37:26.320 --> 00:37:29.096
my job good enough,
and that this was wrong
00:37:29.120 --> 00:37:30.896
and this was wrong,
and so they let me go,
00:37:30.920 --> 00:37:34.416
which really sucked in a way,
because that was my income.
00:37:34.440 --> 00:37:36.376
But then again,
I\'\'m glad that
I\'\'m not there
00:37:36.400 --> 00:37:40.776
because working
third shift
for me was hard.
00:37:40.800 --> 00:37:41.896
I didn\'\'t fail
any of my classes.
00:37:41.920 --> 00:37:45.976
That\'\'s with having
four hours of sleep
every other day.
00:37:46.000 --> 00:37:50.336
So, I actually did
pretty good,
I think I did.
00:37:50.360 --> 00:37:53.456
[Cole]If I had
the money, I would
spoil it on everybody else.
00:37:53.480 --> 00:37:56.776
I\'\'ve seen Ashley
overstress and overstress
about money,
00:37:56.800 --> 00:37:58.056
about bills, and it sucks
00:37:58.080 --> 00:38:00.760
\'\'cause I can\'\'t do
anything to help.
00:38:00.920 --> 00:38:04.776
As of right now,
I\'\'m still an
illegal immigrant.
00:38:04.800 --> 00:38:07.320
Damn, that really
frickin\'\' hurt.
00:38:08.080 --> 00:38:09.056
When we came down here,
00:38:09.080 --> 00:38:11.336
my mother left
all my records behind.
00:38:11.360 --> 00:38:14.536
I don\'\'t understand
why she didn\'\'t get
the paperwork for me.
00:38:14.560 --> 00:38:17.896
I don\'\'t understand
why she put me
in such a situation
00:38:17.920 --> 00:38:20.040
to where I can\'\'t
move forward.
00:38:21.320 --> 00:38:23.736
It makes you feel like
you\'\'re not good enough.
00:38:23.760 --> 00:38:26.296
So, you can\'\'t do anything
to provide for your family
00:38:26.320 --> 00:38:29.320
or provide, in my case,
for Ashley.
00:38:33.080 --> 00:38:36.656
You know, it\'\'s been difficult
for me to get an actual job.
00:38:36.680 --> 00:38:39.536
I\'\'m not saying
under-table jobs
are not real jobs.
00:38:39.560 --> 00:38:42.576
But, you know,
once you\'\'re done,
you\'\'re done.
00:38:42.600 --> 00:38:43.376
What you up to now?
00:38:43.400 --> 00:38:44.976 position:20%
-Got your livestock, hogs?
-Yeah.
00:38:45.000 --> 00:38:47.536
These I need to take
these number
to the butcher\'\'s.
00:38:47.560 --> 00:38:50.680
-Right.
-And then I\'\'m going
to check the hogs.
00:38:50.760 --> 00:38:52.576
-Yeah.
-How\'\'d the hogs go out?
00:38:52.600 --> 00:38:54.096
They went out all
right when you...?
00:38:54.120 --> 00:38:57.160
Yesterday, they loaded
two loads.
00:38:57.360 --> 00:38:59.016
-Yeah.
-Cool, cool.
00:38:59.040 --> 00:39:01.976
[indistinct talk]
00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:02.576
All right.
00:39:02.600 --> 00:39:04.600
All right, Miguel,
you be easy.
00:39:04.720 --> 00:39:06.440
-Danny.
-Hey!
00:39:06.560 --> 00:39:09.040
-Good seeing ya, buddy.
-Good to see ya.
00:39:12.720 --> 00:39:16.576
[woman] Speaking
of the support pages,
have you ever checked out
00:39:16.600 --> 00:39:19.296
the Les-Be Honest
page on Facebook?
00:39:19.320 --> 00:39:20.016
[Cole] Les-Be Honest.
00:39:20.040 --> 00:39:21.536
[woman] Oh, my God,
those girls are hysterical.
00:39:21.560 --> 00:39:23.536
-They are so funny.
-Even though
I\'\'m transgender,
00:39:23.560 --> 00:39:25.816
I don\'\'t go
on lesbian sites
like that no more,
00:39:25.840 --> 00:39:26.856
because I am transgender.
00:39:26.880 --> 00:39:28.656
But I found
one chat room
00:39:28.680 --> 00:39:31.256
-that\'\'s, like,
is for LGBT.
-Mm-hmm.
00:39:31.280 --> 00:39:32.896
And it\'\'s basically just
for transgendered.
00:39:32.920 --> 00:39:34.656
So, I went on there,
and everyone\'\'s just like,
00:39:34.680 --> 00:39:35.976
they\'\'re super supportive,
they\'\'re like,
00:39:36.000 --> 00:39:37.136
\"Okay, where are you
at in your process?\"
00:39:37.160 --> 00:39:39.696
I\'\'m like, I\'\'m very pre-op,
I\'\'m not even started on my...
00:39:39.720 --> 00:39:41.776
-Yeah.
-therapy or anything
that I need.
00:39:41.800 --> 00:39:44.216
-They\'\'re like, well...
-A lot of people
don\'\'t understand
00:39:44.240 --> 00:39:46.296
-that shit\'\'s expensive.
-It is.
00:39:46.320 --> 00:39:47.736
It\'\'s ridiculous.
00:39:47.760 --> 00:39:51.080
[guitar music playing]
00:40:04.600 --> 00:40:07.360
[man] I\'\'m trying
to get the fire.
00:40:09.360 --> 00:40:11.336
[Cole sighing]
This is like kind of funny.
00:40:11.360 --> 00:40:14.616
How all girls go
one way and all
the guys just sit here.
00:40:14.640 --> 00:40:17.640
[man]
Yeah, that\'\'s how
it generally works.
00:40:20.920 --> 00:40:22.376 position:20%
[man 2]
Go for it, Ben, go for it.
00:40:22.400 --> 00:40:24.736
Knock the fire over
by chucking the log in,
00:40:24.760 --> 00:40:27.400
\'\'cause that\'\'s what\'\'s
gonna happen.
00:40:29.920 --> 00:40:31.336
[Cole] You were saying?
00:40:31.360 --> 00:40:33.080
All right, boss man.
00:40:36.520 --> 00:40:37.296
[man laughs]
00:40:37.320 --> 00:40:38.896 position:20%
[Cole] That looks awesome.
00:40:38.920 --> 00:40:40.360
Hey, baby.
00:40:40.720 --> 00:40:42.496
Come on, don\'\'t--
don\'\'t be antisocial.
00:40:42.520 --> 00:40:44.736
[Ashley] I got stuff
I got to do.
00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:46.136
[Cole] Like what, baby?
00:40:46.160 --> 00:40:47.696
I still got
to get food ready.
00:40:47.720 --> 00:40:49.256
Babe, all we got
is hot dogs.
00:40:49.280 --> 00:40:51.160
No, we got hamburgers.
00:40:51.320 --> 00:40:53.216
Why can\'\'t we just
use the, um...
00:40:53.240 --> 00:40:56.560
-Grill?
-already made
hamburgers?
00:40:57.360 --> 00:40:59.840
Because some people
don\'\'t like them.
00:40:59.920 --> 00:41:02.376
Babe, there\'\'s gonna be
more drinking out here
00:41:02.400 --> 00:41:04.120
than there is eating.
00:41:04.720 --> 00:41:08.680
What is your issue?
Go back inside.
00:41:09.840 --> 00:41:12.720
-You need any help?
-I got it.
00:41:13.000 --> 00:41:15.336
[sighs] It\'\'s gonna be
a long night.
00:41:15.360 --> 00:41:16.776
Dude, give me my
poking stick back.
00:41:16.800 --> 00:41:18.296
Give me my
poking stick back.
00:41:18.320 --> 00:41:22.400
Dude, just give me
my poking stick back,
man, ugh!
00:41:25.080 --> 00:41:26.640
[Cole sighs]
00:41:27.240 --> 00:41:29.600
I don\'\'t like him
all that much.
00:41:30.520 --> 00:41:31.576
You know why.
00:41:31.600 --> 00:41:33.880
-Where is she?
-Ends up.
00:41:37.120 --> 00:41:40.080
Yeah, you go do that.
She\'\'s right here.
00:41:44.640 --> 00:41:46.560
Later, Ben, later.
00:41:46.800 --> 00:41:48.456
-They\'\'re hanging outside.
-[Ashley] Shut that door.
00:41:48.480 --> 00:41:51.056
[woman]
He heard from
Jay\'\'s mouth, we\'\'re good.
00:41:51.080 --> 00:41:53.280 position:20%
Please, if you don\'\'t mind.
00:41:55.840 --> 00:41:57.336 line:20%
[woman]
Who\'\'s that?
00:41:57.360 --> 00:41:58.776 line:20%
[Cole] A friend
of Ashley\'\'s.
00:41:58.800 --> 00:42:00.496
Not a friend of mine,
but a friend of Ashley\'\'s.
00:42:00.520 --> 00:42:03.616
He kissed Ashley knowing
that we were together.
00:42:03.640 --> 00:42:04.856
[Ashley] Had to take
my shoes off.
00:42:04.880 --> 00:42:06.536
It\'\'s just been
bad history.
00:42:06.560 --> 00:42:08.176
[indistinct talk]
00:42:08.200 --> 00:42:09.616
Ooh, baby.
00:42:09.640 --> 00:42:11.616
[indistinct talk]
00:42:11.640 --> 00:42:13.416
So, you can see
why I\'\'m a little--
00:42:13.440 --> 00:42:16.456 position:20%
-So, here\'\'s the deal, okay?
-Yes, love, yes, love.
00:42:16.480 --> 00:42:17.976
-I\'\'m done.
-You\'\'re done?
00:42:18.000 --> 00:42:21.696
You take over.
This is my
birthday party.
00:42:21.720 --> 00:42:23.816
Cake is done,
burgers are made.
00:42:23.840 --> 00:42:25.520
[Ben] You can have it.
00:42:25.680 --> 00:42:27.216
You too,
did you hear me?
00:42:27.240 --> 00:42:29.496
-What?
-You\'\'re in charge too.
00:42:29.520 --> 00:42:30.456
How the hell
am I in charge?
00:42:30.480 --> 00:42:32.976
Because. You and him
are in charge.
00:42:33.000 --> 00:42:34.376
No, no, no,
I have a child.
00:42:34.400 --> 00:42:36.096
-[Ashley] Come here.
-[Cole] What?
00:42:36.120 --> 00:42:36.616
I love you.
00:42:36.640 --> 00:42:38.296
[Cole] Oh, now you ain\'\'t
gonna act all ill?
00:42:38.320 --> 00:42:40.136
See how bipolar she is?
And everyone says
00:42:40.160 --> 00:42:41.456
I\'\'m bipolar, really?
00:42:41.480 --> 00:42:43.216
She mad as hell
at me all day,
now all of a sudden,
00:42:43.240 --> 00:42:46.880
\"Now, you get to do it.
I love you.\" What the--
00:42:46.920 --> 00:42:48.280
Bipolar.
00:42:55.000 --> 00:42:56.496
[Ashley] Anybody
in the bathroom?
00:42:56.520 --> 00:42:58.176
No, nobody\'\'s in
the bathroom.
00:42:58.200 --> 00:43:01.760
[indistinct talking]
00:43:03.240 --> 00:43:06.016
You\'\'re about
4,000 RPMs
right now.
00:43:06.040 --> 00:43:08.496
You need to take
it down to about two.
00:43:08.520 --> 00:43:09.616
-You need to coast.
-You\'\'re up here
00:43:09.640 --> 00:43:11.856
when we need
you to be down here.
Coast, coast.
00:43:11.880 --> 00:43:12.576
Coast, save some fuel.
00:43:12.600 --> 00:43:14.576
I will coast
at about
10:30 tonight,
00:43:14.600 --> 00:43:16.896
I will be coasting
my fat ass off,
00:43:16.920 --> 00:43:19.016
because you know
what Will brought me?
00:43:19.040 --> 00:43:20.576
I don\'\'t care what
Will brought you.
00:43:20.600 --> 00:43:24.360
-Look.
-I couldn\'\'t care less
what he brought you.
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:26.976
[Cole] What
the hell is that?
00:43:27.000 --> 00:43:27.896
Moonshine.
00:43:27.920 --> 00:43:29.560
Slam it back.
00:43:30.840 --> 00:43:31.616
Whoa!
00:43:31.640 --> 00:43:33.240
Three, two, one.
00:43:33.480 --> 00:43:34.696
[Cole] There it is.
00:43:34.720 --> 00:43:35.736
Oh, my God.
00:43:35.760 --> 00:43:38.296
Ow! That hurt me
more than you, probably.
00:43:38.320 --> 00:43:40.296
Mm-hmm,
I didn\'\'t even feel it.
00:43:40.320 --> 00:43:42.216
[laughter] Poke, poke.
00:43:42.240 --> 00:43:43.856
Poke, poke, poke,
poke, poke.
00:43:43.880 --> 00:43:45.176
Are you ticklish?
00:43:45.200 --> 00:43:45.856
[laughing] No.
00:43:45.880 --> 00:43:48.336
-Are you ticklish?
-Yes, he is!
00:43:48.360 --> 00:43:50.240
Are you ticklish?
00:43:50.840 --> 00:43:51.856
Ow!
00:43:51.880 --> 00:43:53.680
He pinched you.
00:43:53.760 --> 00:43:54.816
He did.
00:43:54.840 --> 00:43:57.096
[Ashley mumbling]
00:43:57.120 --> 00:43:58.760
Little bastard.
00:44:07.560 --> 00:44:09.000
[both sigh]
00:44:09.280 --> 00:44:09.696
Hold that.
00:44:09.720 --> 00:44:12.560
-You all right?
-Yeah, I\'\'m fine.
00:44:14.000 --> 00:44:18.576
I need to pay
the 170, 990.
00:44:18.600 --> 00:44:21.120
I\'\'ve already
paid the 125.
00:44:21.480 --> 00:44:24.560
This is the last bit
of actual cash.
00:44:36.600 --> 00:44:38.016
-It was $800?
-Yeah.
00:44:38.040 --> 00:44:40.616
-And then how much
did you say, 650?
-Right.
00:44:40.640 --> 00:44:42.656
$150 to live off
for a month.
00:44:42.680 --> 00:44:45.920
-[engine revving]
-We can do it.
00:44:50.360 --> 00:44:50.816
Damn.
00:44:50.840 --> 00:44:54.080
I said I\'\'m not
too stressed
about it, babe.
00:44:54.400 --> 00:44:56.256
You\'\'re not,
but I am.
00:44:56.280 --> 00:44:57.760
[sighs]
00:44:58.880 --> 00:45:00.440
Hopefully soon.
00:45:00.920 --> 00:45:01.696
Mm-hmm.
00:45:01.720 --> 00:45:03.656
I\'\'ll be able
to get a job.
00:45:03.680 --> 00:45:05.456
You probably need
to ask Miss Peachy
00:45:05.480 --> 00:45:08.456
if there\'\'s anything that
she\'\'s got that you can do?
00:45:08.480 --> 00:45:10.160
I already asked her.
00:45:22.160 --> 00:45:25.400
I don\'\'t know.
[mumbling]
00:45:32.080 --> 00:45:35.800
Ew, that was gross.
That was a huge one.
00:45:36.000 --> 00:45:37.856
Thank you for slapping
the crap out of me.
00:45:37.880 --> 00:45:41.336
It feels good to slap
the crap out of you,
if you don\'\'t mind.
00:45:41.360 --> 00:45:45.256
And then I got to clean--
we got to clean!
00:45:45.280 --> 00:45:49.120
I know, babe.
Babe, relax, I know.
00:45:49.320 --> 00:45:51.536
Can I thump you
in the nose?
00:45:51.560 --> 00:45:53.256
-No.
-Why not?
00:45:53.280 --> 00:45:56.040
\'\'Cause I\'\'m gonna
thump you
in the nose.
00:45:58.240 --> 00:45:59.880
I\'\'ll bite you.
00:46:00.800 --> 00:46:02.240
No, you won\'\'t.
00:46:03.240 --> 00:46:04.736
No. Ow!
00:46:04.760 --> 00:46:06.176
-I won\'\'t?
-Jackass.
00:46:06.200 --> 00:46:09.360
You can\'\'t hit me back,
\'\'cause you bit me.
00:46:10.040 --> 00:46:13.896
You step on my damn toes,
I\'\'ll step on your damn head.
00:46:13.920 --> 00:46:15.976
You sleep with me
at night, remember?
00:46:16.000 --> 00:46:19.560
[chuckling]
Remember? Ha-ha!
00:46:24.920 --> 00:46:27.856
Do these right here,
and see these right here.
00:46:27.880 --> 00:46:31.176
We might hang them
down from the top.
00:46:31.200 --> 00:46:33.216
Yeah, but there ain\'\'t
no outside plugs.
00:46:33.240 --> 00:46:36.096
So, we\'\'re gonna
have to figure out
how to do that.
00:46:36.120 --> 00:46:38.760
[Ashley humming]
00:46:40.600 --> 00:46:44.280
If Mama\'\'s got something,
I can take these down
to Mama\'\'s.
00:46:45.400 --> 00:46:46.176
Those are weeds.
00:46:46.200 --> 00:46:48.656
No, the--
the elephant ears.
00:46:48.680 --> 00:46:50.736
Mama wants
elephant ears.
00:46:50.760 --> 00:46:53.080
I can take them
down to her.
00:46:56.040 --> 00:46:58.040
[laughing]
00:47:00.160 --> 00:47:03.600
Eh! Eh!
You took my stick.
00:47:05.480 --> 00:47:06.656
[Ashley]
I\'\'ve really sat down
00:47:06.680 --> 00:47:08.576
and I\'\'ve really started
thinking about it.
00:47:08.600 --> 00:47:12.296
And if, like,
this whole thing
does go through
00:47:12.320 --> 00:47:15.096
and Pastor Bradley
still does accept us
00:47:15.120 --> 00:47:16.816
for who we are
and everything,
00:47:16.840 --> 00:47:19.176
like, I really
wouldn\'\'t mind
going to church,
00:47:19.200 --> 00:47:21.336
\'\'cause, I mean,
that\'\'s where
my family is.
00:47:21.360 --> 00:47:24.096
I think it would
be probably
a good idea.
00:47:24.120 --> 00:47:25.776
But the thing of it is,
is I don\'\'t want to go
00:47:25.800 --> 00:47:27.816
where I\'\'m not accepted
and where I\'\'m not wanted.
00:47:27.840 --> 00:47:30.776
Well, this is the closest
thing we found so far.
00:47:30.800 --> 00:47:32.456
Yeah, but that\'\'s
the thing.
00:47:32.480 --> 00:47:34.536
They think that
you\'\'re a guy.
00:47:34.560 --> 00:47:36.520
Well, what should we do?
00:47:37.880 --> 00:47:39.400
[quiet chuckle]
00:47:39.640 --> 00:47:41.400
\'\'Cause like...
00:47:42.000 --> 00:47:43.416
you know, we\'\'ve been
struggling to find one.
00:47:43.440 --> 00:47:45.496
Now, we\'\'re finally
getting warmed up
to a place and...
00:47:45.520 --> 00:47:48.176
And see, that\'\'s where
I\'\'m dreading I\'\'m getting
00:47:48.200 --> 00:47:50.216
warmed up to it
too fast, you know?
00:47:50.240 --> 00:47:53.616
If they sit there
and tell us that
we can\'\'t go there.
00:47:53.640 --> 00:47:56.160
What are we
gonna do then?
00:47:56.600 --> 00:47:59.096 position:20%
That-- that\'\'s the question
I keep asking myself.
00:47:59.120 --> 00:48:01.656
That\'\'s the reason
why I don\'\'t really...
00:48:01.680 --> 00:48:03.256
I don\'\'t know
if I want
to go there.
00:48:03.280 --> 00:48:06.416
I want to find a church
to where I\'\'m accepted
00:48:06.440 --> 00:48:07.616
and theyknow
who I am.
00:48:07.640 --> 00:48:10.416
I don\'\'t want to have
tohidewho I am.
00:48:10.440 --> 00:48:12.656
Well, your grandma,
she lit up today
00:48:12.680 --> 00:48:14.536
when she saw us
walk through that door.
00:48:14.560 --> 00:48:15.496
Yeah, she did.
00:48:15.520 --> 00:48:18.040
And that\'\'s
an awesome feeling.
00:48:18.160 --> 00:48:18.496
Yeah.
00:48:18.520 --> 00:48:19.896
And, yeah,
there\'\'s always
that concern
00:48:19.920 --> 00:48:22.296
in the back of my mind,
okay, is today the day?
00:48:22.320 --> 00:48:24.096
Is today the day
I\'\'m gonna get outed?
00:48:24.120 --> 00:48:25.496
And what are we
gonna do then?
00:48:25.520 --> 00:48:27.016
Are we just gonna
quit going to church
00:48:27.040 --> 00:48:29.056
-and quit trying
to find a church or...?
-No.
00:48:29.080 --> 00:48:29.736
We will find a place.
00:48:29.760 --> 00:48:32.536
Are we gonna
end up moving here
to yonder to yonder,
00:48:32.560 --> 00:48:34.136
to try to find someplace
where we\'\'re accepted?
00:48:34.160 --> 00:48:38.496
No, we\'\'ll-- we\'\'ll
find a place, it\'\'s just
the fact of looking.
00:48:38.520 --> 00:48:39.536
Right now,
we can\'\'t really look,
00:48:39.560 --> 00:48:42.520
\'\'cause we don\'\'t have
the money to go anywhere.
00:48:42.800 --> 00:48:44.216
I think we should
take what we got.
00:48:44.240 --> 00:48:46.296
Yeah, it\'\'s a gamble,
it\'\'s a huge one.
00:48:46.320 --> 00:48:50.200
Like my family.
I\'\'m scared that they\'\'ll...
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:54.560
disown and leave,
you know?
00:48:59.880 --> 00:49:02.400
[wind blowing]
00:49:06.040 --> 00:49:08.600 position:20%
[soft guitar tune playing]
00:49:10.920 --> 00:49:15.856
[Ashley]There\'\'s
parts of me that does
want to move and get away.
00:49:15.880 --> 00:49:18.416
But if I move
and get away,
you know...
00:49:18.440 --> 00:49:20.656
that\'\'s my mama that\'\'s
living down the road.
00:49:20.680 --> 00:49:24.200
That\'\'s my daddy that lives
down the road, you know?
00:49:30.760 --> 00:49:32.320
In you go.
00:49:33.160 --> 00:49:35.600
Okay. I love you!
00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:39.440
Hey, hey! Whassup!
00:49:44.840 --> 00:49:49.016
Okay... Now...
00:49:49.040 --> 00:49:51.440
Come here,
come here. Oh!
00:49:51.600 --> 00:49:53.200
I love you.
00:49:53.360 --> 00:49:56.040
[grunting]
00:49:56.400 --> 00:49:58.360
Mwah, I love you.
00:49:59.680 --> 00:50:01.496
I got to go,
I love you!
00:50:01.520 --> 00:50:02.576
[Cole]Ashley\'\'s
family is here,
00:50:02.600 --> 00:50:04.656
and of course,
family is a huge part
of who she is.
00:50:04.680 --> 00:50:07.760
So, I don\'\'t want
to take her
away from that.
00:50:07.920 --> 00:50:09.920
You want me
to put it on?
00:50:17.160 --> 00:50:19.896
[fussing]
00:50:19.920 --> 00:50:20.696
What is it,
buddy boy?
00:50:20.720 --> 00:50:21.976
[camerawoman]
So, what if
Pastor Bradley
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:25.416
just continued
thinking you\'\'re a guy?
00:50:25.440 --> 00:50:28.736
Well, then there
will be no problem
at Grace Baptist.
00:50:28.760 --> 00:50:29.656
There\'\'d be
no controversy.
00:50:29.680 --> 00:50:33.256
If he views you
that way, are you
being who you are?
00:50:33.280 --> 00:50:37.136 position:20%
Uh, I hadn\'\'t really
thought about that, but...
00:50:37.160 --> 00:50:38.896
you know,
I really don\'\'t know.
00:50:38.920 --> 00:50:41.016
Of course, everyone else
sees me as a female
00:50:41.040 --> 00:50:42.176
or someone
who\'\'s transitioning.
00:50:42.200 --> 00:50:45.976 position:20%
It\'\'s never full-fledged male
or full-fledged female.
00:50:46.000 --> 00:50:48.016
It\'\'s all-- it\'\'s
either transitioning
00:50:48.040 --> 00:50:49.736
or wannabe
or whatever.
00:50:49.760 --> 00:50:51.376
So, when I start
my therapy
and everything,
00:50:51.400 --> 00:50:52.656
I\'\'m gonna be like,
look, I\'\'m a guy.
00:50:52.680 --> 00:50:54.896
You don\'\'t like it, tough.
I may look like a female,
00:50:54.920 --> 00:50:58.896
but I\'\'m slowly
transforming
into a male.
00:50:58.920 --> 00:50:59.896
[ambient noises]
00:50:59.920 --> 00:51:03.280 position:20%
[soft guitar tune playing]
00:51:27.280 --> 00:51:29.600
They were
calling her Spazz.
00:51:30.200 --> 00:51:31.816 position:20% line:20%
-I love you.
-Oh, I love you too, Mama.
00:51:31.840 --> 00:51:36.496
And... she was-- had--
had long blonde hair.
00:51:36.520 --> 00:51:38.216
You laugh, I\'\'m taking
this pine cone
00:51:38.240 --> 00:51:39.456
and, like,
throwing it at you.
00:51:39.480 --> 00:51:41.760
It was really,
really, really long.
00:51:41.880 --> 00:51:44.016
Like almost-
to-my-butt long.
00:51:44.040 --> 00:51:46.576
Yeah, beautiful hair.
Beautiful hair.
00:51:46.600 --> 00:51:47.976
[laughing]
Not no more.
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:50.536
And then one day...
[buzzing noise]
00:51:50.560 --> 00:51:51.536
Ever since I shaved
my head off,
00:51:51.560 --> 00:51:54.480
she was like
the adoptive
mother of me.
00:51:54.680 --> 00:51:56.160
Are you ready?
00:51:59.480 --> 00:51:59.816
Yeah.
00:51:59.840 --> 00:52:02.536
[Cole]I\'\'m done
worrying about what
other people think,
00:52:02.560 --> 00:52:03.336
especially my family.
00:52:03.360 --> 00:52:07.000
I\'\'m transgender,
and there\'\'s no way
of changing it.
00:52:08.000 --> 00:52:08.736
I\'\'m me now.
00:52:08.760 --> 00:52:12.040
Full-fledged
and open about it, open.
00:52:12.440 --> 00:52:15.216
-How \'\'bout shaving?
How \'\'bout shaving?
-Um...
00:52:15.240 --> 00:52:17.376
I\'\'m-- I\'\'m gonna still
shave under my arms,
00:52:17.400 --> 00:52:18.536
\'\'cause I find that
really disgusting.
00:52:18.560 --> 00:52:21.216
-Oh, there\'\'s a lot of men
who shave their arms.
-Oh, yeah.
00:52:21.240 --> 00:52:23.296
You\'\'re gonna have to grow
a beard at least once.
00:52:23.320 --> 00:52:24.616
-I mean, come on.
-Meaning y\'\'all be like...
00:52:24.640 --> 00:52:26.656
You\'\'re gonna
have to do it
at least once.
00:52:26.680 --> 00:52:29.416
Ashley said she\'\'ll--
she\'\'ll play with my stubble.
00:52:29.440 --> 00:52:30.496
-I was, like, yes.
-Yeah?
00:52:30.520 --> 00:52:32.416
And then she bought me
this binder last year.
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:35.736
She\'\'s just as excited,
if not more
excited than I am.
00:52:35.760 --> 00:52:38.920
She goes, \"My baby
is finally being him.\"
00:52:43.800 --> 00:52:46.680
[laughter]
00:52:49.880 --> 00:52:51.096
This is my home.
00:52:51.120 --> 00:52:52.376
[laughter]
00:52:52.400 --> 00:52:55.000
Cole Ray Davis, ooh rah.
00:52:57.000 --> 00:52:59.360
I am Cole Ray Davis.
00:52:59.880 --> 00:53:04.336
I am Cole Ray--
I love the way that
just sounds so pretty.
00:53:04.360 --> 00:53:06.360
Cole Ray Davis, yeah.
00:53:06.640 --> 00:53:09.200
[motor whirring]
00:53:19.480 --> 00:53:21.296
[Lori Ann Dinn on phone]
Hello?
00:53:21.320 --> 00:53:22.096
Hey, there.
00:53:22.120 --> 00:53:24.656
Hey, how\'\'s it going, baby?
00:53:24.680 --> 00:53:26.256
It\'\'s going good.
How \'\'bout you?
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:28.336
We got your Christmas
gift for Dad.
00:53:28.360 --> 00:53:30.456
[Cole] That wasn\'\'t
why I was calling,
but all right.
00:53:30.480 --> 00:53:33.856
Christmas Eve,
I want you
and Ashley here.
00:53:33.880 --> 00:53:36.680 position:20%
[indistinct talk on phone]
00:53:38.320 --> 00:53:42.520
I know there\'\'s
about a hundred dollars
for each of you.
00:53:42.680 --> 00:53:44.800
That could
help out with rent.
00:53:46.360 --> 00:53:47.680
Okay.
00:53:47.880 --> 00:53:49.360
Oh, I\'\'m roofing.
00:53:49.440 --> 00:53:50.016
You\'\'re what?
00:53:50.040 --> 00:53:53.320
Roofing, I roof.
I\'\'m putting
a roof together.
00:53:53.400 --> 00:53:55.320
-Oh, really?
-Yeah.
00:53:56.280 --> 00:53:58.736
Okay. We just had
our roof painted
00:53:58.760 --> 00:54:01.680
and our house
painted by someone.
00:54:01.800 --> 00:54:03.040
Wow.
00:54:03.560 --> 00:54:04.416
No, not wow.
00:54:04.440 --> 00:54:05.896
We just got
into it and
everything
00:54:05.920 --> 00:54:08.816
because I\'\'m not
allowed to be
around mold or mildew.
00:54:08.840 --> 00:54:12.816
And nobody over there
to clean up
the fucking house.
00:54:12.840 --> 00:54:13.976
Mama, I\'\'ve been
busy working.
00:54:14.000 --> 00:54:16.176
You\'\'ve been there
and you\'\'re not working.
00:54:16.200 --> 00:54:18.616 position:20%
Look, I\'\'m working right now.
I\'\'m working on a roof.
00:54:18.640 --> 00:54:21.536
All because you\'\'ve
not done anything
over there,
00:54:21.560 --> 00:54:24.856
you don\'\'t need
cleaned up so we\'\'ll be
together over there.
00:54:24.880 --> 00:54:26.056
I didn\'\'t say that,
but--
00:54:26.080 --> 00:54:29.256
No, no, no.
That\'\'s fine.
That\'\'s fine.
00:54:29.280 --> 00:54:30.896
I know you\'\'re right.
00:54:30.920 --> 00:54:33.616
That\'\'s fine. I\'\'ll see you
Christmas Eve, okay?
00:54:33.640 --> 00:54:36.176
If you want to come
get your cards before then
00:54:36.200 --> 00:54:37.176
and get your money...
00:54:37.200 --> 00:54:39.816
I didn\'\'t mean it
that way, mother.
00:54:39.840 --> 00:54:41.480
I love you, bye.
00:54:43.480 --> 00:54:47.360
[laughing]
00:54:47.520 --> 00:54:48.136
[Ashley] Told you.
00:54:48.160 --> 00:54:51.160
Oh, that was just
her being nice.
00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:55.120
[chuckling]
00:54:55.720 --> 00:54:58.880 position:20%
Oh, she\'\'s gonna love
seeing my Mohawk tomorrow.
00:55:04.800 --> 00:55:06.896
All of my children,
including the one
00:55:06.920 --> 00:55:08.616
that is not
biologically mine,
00:55:08.640 --> 00:55:11.456
put ketchup all over
their mac and cheese.
00:55:11.480 --> 00:55:12.216
[Tory] It\'\'s good.
00:55:12.240 --> 00:55:14.976
[Ashley]
Just-- just slap him.
00:55:15.000 --> 00:55:16.736
You don\'\'t slap a cat.
00:55:16.760 --> 00:55:17.376
He doesn\'\'t care.
00:55:17.400 --> 00:55:20.280
[Cole] I\'\'ve got
to have a different
wording for that one.
00:55:22.240 --> 00:55:25.256
[Cole]I don\'\'t say
\"Dear God\" like
a lot of people do.
00:55:25.280 --> 00:55:27.080
I just start talking.
00:55:28.160 --> 00:55:29.216
[sighs]
00:55:29.240 --> 00:55:31.616
I want people to realize
00:55:31.640 --> 00:55:34.976
we all breathe,
we all bleed.
00:55:35.000 --> 00:55:38.776
And I hope, Grandma,
if you\'\'re listening,
00:55:38.800 --> 00:55:41.880
keep an eye out for me,
make sure I\'\'m safe.
00:55:43.560 --> 00:55:44.800
Amen.
00:55:48.000 --> 00:55:49.896
[Pastor Bradley]
Questions.
00:55:49.920 --> 00:55:52.216
We all have \'\'em,
don\'\'t we?
00:55:52.240 --> 00:55:54.120
In Genesis...
00:55:54.880 --> 00:56:01.480
\"He asked this
in relationship
to Adam and Eve.
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:04.456
They had hidden
in the garden.\"
00:56:04.480 --> 00:56:05.696
Now, let\'\'s, folks,
let\'\'s face it.
00:56:05.720 --> 00:56:08.296
If He\'\'s God,
He\'\'s sovereign,
He knows everything.
00:56:08.320 --> 00:56:10.016
He knows right where
you are right now,
00:56:10.040 --> 00:56:11.296
doesn\'\'t have
to ask anyone.
00:56:11.320 --> 00:56:14.200
It was rhetorical.
What He said was,
00:56:15.440 --> 00:56:17.256
\"Where art thou?\"
00:56:17.280 --> 00:56:19.800
He knew exactly
where they were.
00:56:21.440 --> 00:56:25.496
The \"where art thou\"
is in relation to the fact
00:56:25.520 --> 00:56:28.496
that sin had separated
God from man.
00:56:28.520 --> 00:56:33.800
And God was asking Adam
as He\'\'s asking you,
00:56:34.080 --> 00:56:38.736
where do you stand?
Where do you stand?
00:56:38.760 --> 00:56:40.376
Heads are bowed,
eyes are closed.
00:56:40.400 --> 00:56:41.176
No one looking around...
00:56:41.200 --> 00:56:45.056
[Cole]
You know, Grace Baptist,
I feel okay there.
00:56:45.080 --> 00:56:47.456
I\'\'m not saying
I feel 100% comfortable.
00:56:47.480 --> 00:56:49.536
But, like, when I came in
with the turquoise hair
00:56:49.560 --> 00:56:52.336
last night,
everyone was like...
00:56:52.360 --> 00:56:53.096
[laughing]
00:56:53.120 --> 00:56:55.456
But I can feel I\'\'m gonna
get outed very soon.
00:56:55.480 --> 00:56:58.016
I had been going
to a church
for quite some time.
00:56:58.040 --> 00:57:00.776
People in that church
knew me all my life.
00:57:00.800 --> 00:57:02.456
Knew my mom,
knew my dad.
00:57:02.480 --> 00:57:05.216
Deacon in the church,
he pulled me aside.
00:57:05.240 --> 00:57:07.776
He said, \"Can I talk
to you a minute?\"
And I said sure.
00:57:07.800 --> 00:57:10.680
He looked me right
square in the face...
00:57:11.680 --> 00:57:15.440
and had the nerve to say,
00:57:16.040 --> 00:57:18.416
\"We know what
your daughter is.\"
00:57:18.440 --> 00:57:22.456
[Cole] What, like she
had some-- like she was
some kind of animal?
00:57:22.480 --> 00:57:23.976
[laughing] Yeah.
00:57:24.000 --> 00:57:24.816
[Cole] Really?
00:57:24.840 --> 00:57:26.736
\"We know what
your daughter is,
00:57:26.760 --> 00:57:29.696
and we just don\'\'t think
she\'\'s welcome here.\"
00:57:29.720 --> 00:57:31.056
And I took
my choir robe off,
00:57:31.080 --> 00:57:32.776
I hung it back up,
and I walked out.
00:57:32.800 --> 00:57:36.616
I see when she goes to church,
I see that fear in her eyes,
00:57:36.640 --> 00:57:38.336
\"Is today gonna be
the day I get outed?\"
00:57:38.360 --> 00:57:40.736
We don\'\'t know if we\'\'re not--
if we\'\'re gonna stop going,
00:57:40.760 --> 00:57:42.336
but I don\'\'t want her
to have that chance
00:57:42.360 --> 00:57:45.176
of getting outed
right now.
She don\'\'t need it.
00:57:45.200 --> 00:57:47.216
Like I said, she\'\'s not
ashamed of me at all.
00:57:47.240 --> 00:57:49.456
She\'\'s never been.
But I\'\'m not putting her
00:57:49.480 --> 00:57:51.736
in that predicament
where it might come down
00:57:51.760 --> 00:57:52.976
to me or family.
00:57:53.000 --> 00:57:57.496
And if it just so--
and I hope to God
it doesn\'\'t,
00:57:57.520 --> 00:57:59.216
if it comes down to...
00:57:59.240 --> 00:58:02.056
me and her breaking up,
I have nowhere to go.
00:58:02.080 --> 00:58:06.800 line:20%
I almost am scared for Cole,
with him going to the church.
00:58:07.240 --> 00:58:08.736
-Good morning.
-[all] Good morning.
00:58:08.760 --> 00:58:10.696
[Dana]\'\'Cause I know
there\'\'s gonna be that day
00:58:10.720 --> 00:58:13.016
when it slips
and they find out.
00:58:13.040 --> 00:58:17.040
And, you know, I\'\'m just
worried how they\'\'re
gonna react to Cole.
00:58:17.440 --> 00:58:20.176
I went to church
every Sunday.
00:58:20.200 --> 00:58:22.256
And I was
very protective
of my son.
00:58:22.280 --> 00:58:25.336
So, at church,
he would be
in his car seat.
00:58:25.360 --> 00:58:26.216
He would sit
beside me,
00:58:26.240 --> 00:58:29.136
and on the other side
of my son would be
the lady I was dating.
00:58:29.160 --> 00:58:34.416
So, I would keep
my arm resting on
the pew across my son.
00:58:34.440 --> 00:58:36.456
It was on Sunday night,
my grandfather came out
00:58:36.480 --> 00:58:39.536
and he said,
\"The deacons need
to see you with the pastor.
00:58:39.560 --> 00:58:41.256
Can you go
to the office?\"
00:58:41.280 --> 00:58:42.736
So, I went in
and, you know,
00:58:42.760 --> 00:58:45.296
as soon as
they shut the door,
\"Are you gay?\"
00:58:45.320 --> 00:58:46.296
I was like,
wait a minute, what?
00:58:46.320 --> 00:58:49.536
He said, \"I\'\'m gonna ask
you again, are you gay?\"
00:58:49.560 --> 00:58:52.416
And I told Pastor Bradley
I was gay, but I didn\'\'t see
00:58:52.440 --> 00:58:56.056
how that was really any
of the church\'\'s business.
00:58:56.080 --> 00:58:57.736
And he said,
\"Well, if you\'\'re gay,
00:58:57.760 --> 00:58:59.880
you\'\'re not welcome
to come here.\"
00:59:01.320 --> 00:59:04.856
And I felt betrayed,
I felt like, you know...
00:59:04.880 --> 00:59:08.096
I had lost
a very important
part of my life
00:59:08.120 --> 00:59:10.200
in just a matter
of minutes.
00:59:13.280 --> 00:59:14.736
[Pastor Bradley]
If I was counseling someone,
00:59:14.760 --> 00:59:17.336
I would quote from
the book of Genesis.
00:59:17.360 --> 00:59:20.856
\"And God destroyed,
uh, homosex--
00:59:20.880 --> 00:59:22.776
\"destroyed Sodom
and Gomorrah
00:59:22.800 --> 00:59:28.176
because of their
homosexual, um, acts.\"
00:59:28.200 --> 00:59:30.816
I detest it,
I don\'\'t think
it\'\'s right.
00:59:30.840 --> 00:59:35.256
And I would
certainly detest it
if it was enacted
00:59:35.280 --> 00:59:39.560
against my son
or my daughter.
00:59:40.320 --> 00:59:44.840
You see, I\'\'m of the opinion
that no one is born that way.
00:59:45.720 --> 00:59:48.696
I\'\'m of that opinion that
no one is born that way.
00:59:48.720 --> 00:59:51.616
I think it\'\'s
a learned process.
00:59:51.640 --> 00:59:53.976
[camerawoman]
Yeah, where do you
think it comes from?
00:59:54.000 --> 00:59:56.560
-Where do I think
it comes from?
-Yeah.
00:59:58.720 --> 01:00:02.600
The same place
that fly came from, um...
01:00:04.520 --> 01:00:06.600
I-- I really don\'\'t know.
01:00:06.880 --> 01:00:11.760
I\'\'ve not had much
dealing with it, um...
01:00:12.080 --> 01:00:17.496
I\'\'m hesitant about the answers
I\'\'m giving you about this,
01:00:17.520 --> 01:00:21.496
because when I was
in the Marine Corps...
01:00:21.520 --> 01:00:23.896
I don\'\'t know
if you\'\'re familiar
with the Marine Corps.
01:00:23.920 --> 01:00:26.016
But it just
didn\'\'t happen.
01:00:26.040 --> 01:00:27.576
And if you found
someone that did,
01:00:27.600 --> 01:00:29.656
they didn\'\'t stay
in the Marine Corps long.
01:00:29.680 --> 01:00:33.616
We would go on liberty,
we\'\'d go to Washington, DC.
01:00:33.640 --> 01:00:37.016 position:20%
And we would intentionally,
uh, three or four of us
01:00:37.040 --> 01:00:42.616 position:20%
would intentionally pick--
pick up someone that was.
01:00:42.640 --> 01:00:43.416
You could
find them there.
01:00:43.440 --> 01:00:46.896
You can find them
in any place you go
if you really want to.
01:00:46.920 --> 01:00:51.296
And, um, they were always
older men that had money.
01:00:51.320 --> 01:00:55.296
And we had a sergeant
that was a handsome
young black man,
01:00:55.320 --> 01:00:59.440
and they were just
attracted to him like flies.
01:01:00.640 --> 01:01:02.920
And he would, um...
01:01:03.600 --> 01:01:07.720
he would take them
up to the room,
01:01:08.240 --> 01:01:10.576
and they would
go to the bathroom
01:01:10.600 --> 01:01:12.536
to get all ready
for whatever they
were going to do.
01:01:12.560 --> 01:01:16.976
I\'\'m just telling you
why my hesitancy
in dealing with this,
01:01:17.000 --> 01:01:17.616
because I\'\'ve not--
01:01:17.640 --> 01:01:20.216
and that wasn\'\'t
the right thing
to do either.
01:01:20.240 --> 01:01:24.136
But they beat--
they\'\'d beat
the crap out of him
01:01:24.160 --> 01:01:25.576
and steal all of his--
01:01:25.600 --> 01:01:28.920
all of his clothes
and his suitcase.
01:01:29.400 --> 01:01:34.320
We did some bad things
to homosexuals.
01:01:35.000 --> 01:01:40.400
And I have a difficulty
expressing myself about that.
01:01:41.040 --> 01:01:42.360
Um...
01:01:47.040 --> 01:01:50.760
It\'\'ll be all right.
We\'\'ll find
a home elsewhere.
01:01:54.560 --> 01:01:56.120
You all right?
01:01:57.720 --> 01:01:59.856
You say you served
this country like that?
01:01:59.880 --> 01:02:02.096
Are you serious?
That just shows how true
01:02:02.120 --> 01:02:04.856
and how cruel
and arrogant
people can be,
01:02:04.880 --> 01:02:07.536
regardless of if it was
20, 30, 40 years ago.
01:02:07.560 --> 01:02:09.656
Whatever amount,
you still did it.
01:02:09.680 --> 01:02:10.376
You still hurt a family.
01:02:10.400 --> 01:02:12.736
You still hurt a person
who didn\'\'t deserve it.
01:02:12.760 --> 01:02:15.736
If-- if Ash agrees,
if that\'\'s a person
01:02:15.760 --> 01:02:17.496
who is preaching
God\'\'s word now,
01:02:17.520 --> 01:02:21.840
I wouldn\'\'t have no--
no part of being
in that church.
01:02:29.200 --> 01:02:33.120
[indecipherable speech
over phone]
01:02:36.120 --> 01:02:40.120
I\'\'ve never been good
at writing papers,
can you tell?
01:02:41.520 --> 01:02:44.400
[sizzling]
01:02:49.240 --> 01:02:50.496
Excuse me.
01:02:50.520 --> 01:02:54.760
-Mmm, I love you.
-I love you even more.
01:02:55.480 --> 01:02:57.000
Cranky-ass...
01:02:58.640 --> 01:03:00.336
[Cole]I don\'\'t know what
the fuck to do though.
01:03:00.360 --> 01:03:03.000
I\'\'m completely
at a loss right now.
01:03:04.440 --> 01:03:07.376
I\'\'ve always been
her support,
but now...
01:03:07.400 --> 01:03:09.856
I\'\'m so fucking helpless,
and it drives me insane.
01:03:09.880 --> 01:03:11.016
I wish we were back
in high school,
01:03:11.040 --> 01:03:12.496
and didn\'\'t have
to fucking worry
about it.
01:03:12.520 --> 01:03:13.816
Gosh, I wish I could go
to Target and be like,
01:03:13.840 --> 01:03:15.976
\"Yeah, can you just
pay one employee
under the table?\"
01:03:16.000 --> 01:03:18.696 position:20%
Take no tax, you can pay me
$5 an hour, I don\'\'t care.
01:03:18.720 --> 01:03:20.360
I just need something.
01:03:21.320 --> 01:03:21.696
Oh, babe.
01:03:21.720 --> 01:03:24.800
How\'\'s-- how\'\'s your
application coming?
01:03:25.760 --> 01:03:27.016
Taking forever.
01:03:27.040 --> 01:03:30.000
Hey, it\'\'ll be worth it
if you get a job out of it.
01:03:32.840 --> 01:03:33.736
Love you.
01:03:33.760 --> 01:03:35.600
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
01:03:38.880 --> 01:03:41.160
[dog barks]
01:03:41.760 --> 01:03:43.736
[ambient noises]
01:03:43.760 --> 01:03:46.600 position:20%
[soft guitar tune playing]
01:03:52.720 --> 01:03:54.616
[Cole]God, you need
to give Ashley strength,
01:03:54.640 --> 01:03:56.336
\'\'cause I can\'\'t
give it to her.
01:03:56.360 --> 01:03:59.856
I\'\'ve given her
all the strength I can
and it\'\'s not working.
01:03:59.880 --> 01:04:00.976
So, please give her
the strength
01:04:01.000 --> 01:04:03.560
to get through the time
she\'\'s going through.
01:04:13.800 --> 01:04:17.576
[Ashley]
There was a lot of things
that were happening.
01:04:17.600 --> 01:04:21.560
School, job, church,
financially.
01:04:22.360 --> 01:04:24.880
And it threw me under.
01:04:25.160 --> 01:04:26.216
-Ow!
-Sorry.
01:04:26.240 --> 01:04:27.576
[Ashley] You did it
on purpose.
01:04:27.600 --> 01:04:29.816
[Cole] I didn\'\'t do
that on purpose.
01:04:29.840 --> 01:04:32.856
[Ashley]It was too much.
I just can\'\'t do it no more.
01:04:32.880 --> 01:04:34.816
I\'\'m ready
to throw in the towel.
01:04:34.840 --> 01:04:37.816
And I told Heather
that I wanted
to run my truck
01:04:37.840 --> 01:04:39.536
off on the side
of the road.
01:04:39.560 --> 01:04:40.696
When my sister
told my mama,
01:04:40.720 --> 01:04:44.200
my mama knew
something was
wrong with me.
01:04:45.320 --> 01:04:49.320
They put me on
suicide watch.
01:04:49.600 --> 01:04:51.680
[Cole] You want
mushy noodles?
01:04:54.520 --> 01:04:55.456
What do you want?
01:04:55.480 --> 01:04:57.600
[Ashley] I don\'\'t know.
01:04:59.200 --> 01:05:01.216
I wish you\'\'d quit
throwing shit
in my face.
01:05:01.240 --> 01:05:03.736
[Cole] If you got up,
I wouldn\'\'t have to.
01:05:03.760 --> 01:05:04.696
What is that?
01:05:04.720 --> 01:05:07.256
No, give me
another shirt.
01:05:07.280 --> 01:05:09.280
[Cole] Ashley, come on.
01:05:09.840 --> 01:05:13.360 position:20%
You\'\'ve been awake for like
an hour and a half now.
01:05:13.440 --> 01:05:14.976
Okay, I\'\'m gonna go.
01:05:15.000 --> 01:05:16.056
You want me to wait
for your smoke?
01:05:16.080 --> 01:05:17.896
[Cole]
She went into this
really dark place.
01:05:17.920 --> 01:05:21.096
And that was scary
for me to actually be
on the other end
01:05:21.120 --> 01:05:25.760
of seeing someone
that I love dearly
going through that.
01:05:28.720 --> 01:05:30.520
Grilled ham and cheese!
01:05:36.920 --> 01:05:41.760
[Ashley]
I\'\'m tired of not
having anything,
01:05:41.800 --> 01:05:46.680
and wanting acceptance
from my family.
01:05:58.920 --> 01:06:01.640
[Cole]
It was a Saturday
in January.
01:06:02.440 --> 01:06:06.080
She was, like, not even
25 seconds up the road.
01:06:06.360 --> 01:06:07.896
There was this car
that was coming
towards her,
01:06:07.920 --> 01:06:12.176
and the tire caught
on the side of the road,
and she flipped.
01:06:12.200 --> 01:06:14.776
[tense music playing]
01:06:14.800 --> 01:06:17.616
The way she flipped,
her Jeep landed
and flipped
01:06:17.640 --> 01:06:20.616
and landed on
the driver\'\'s side
facing the other way,
01:06:20.640 --> 01:06:22.680
on the other side
of the road.
01:06:26.760 --> 01:06:28.416
You gotta give me
another kiss.
01:06:28.440 --> 01:06:30.616
Hurry up while
the car is moving.
01:06:30.640 --> 01:06:32.136
[both] Mwah, love you.
01:06:32.160 --> 01:06:34.856
[Cole]There\'\'s no way somebodyshould have walked out of that
01:06:34.880 --> 01:06:36.136
conscious like she did.
01:06:36.160 --> 01:06:38.480
And I said
that was God.
01:06:39.040 --> 01:06:41.056
We\'\'re waiting
in the waiting room.
01:06:41.080 --> 01:06:42.496
Her Aunt Kathy
on her dad\'\'s side,
01:06:42.520 --> 01:06:45.216
a Sunday school teacher
at Grace Baptist.
01:06:45.240 --> 01:06:46.456
She said, \"I\'\'m glad
Ashley\'\'s okay,
01:06:46.480 --> 01:06:49.360
but maybe
this is God\'\'s way
of punishing you.\"
01:06:50.680 --> 01:06:51.016
Huh.
01:06:51.040 --> 01:06:53.296
Like, seriously,
how frickin\'\' arrogant
do you have to be?
01:06:53.320 --> 01:06:58.720
My aunt said,
\"Well, maybe God\'\'s
telling you something.\"
01:07:01.200 --> 01:07:02.800
Boom, it hit me.
01:07:05.280 --> 01:07:08.056
Maybe this is God\'\'s way
of telling you,
01:07:08.080 --> 01:07:11.296
if it makes you happy,
it makes you happy.
01:07:11.320 --> 01:07:13.976
Don\'\'t sit there
and make
yourself miserable
01:07:14.000 --> 01:07:15.016
for everybody
else\'\'s sake,
01:07:15.040 --> 01:07:19.000
because you--
you won\'\'t be able
to go through life.
01:07:20.760 --> 01:07:24.696
Do you see right there?
That\'\'s where my truck hit.
01:07:24.720 --> 01:07:26.216
And you see that
dip over there?
01:07:26.240 --> 01:07:28.760
That\'\'s where I landed.
01:07:29.480 --> 01:07:33.360
[Cole]
That was the wreck
that shook everyone.
01:07:33.880 --> 01:07:34.576
[Ashley] Shook everyone?
01:07:34.600 --> 01:07:36.096
I think it shook me
more than anything.
01:07:36.120 --> 01:07:39.040
[Cole] No, baby,
I wouldn\'\'t
doubt that, love.
01:07:39.280 --> 01:07:42.320
[guitar music playing]
01:07:48.160 --> 01:07:53.160
Being told
of Pastor Bradley\'\'s past,
01:07:53.400 --> 01:07:56.376
it hurt, it--
it really hurt.
01:07:56.400 --> 01:07:58.576
And it really, really
surprised me.
01:07:58.600 --> 01:08:00.416
It hurt for the fact
\'\'cause, you know, he\'\'s--
01:08:00.440 --> 01:08:05.136
he\'\'s a grandfath--
he\'\'s like a grandfather,
um, figure to me.
01:08:05.160 --> 01:08:08.496
He\'\'d always been
a grandfather
figure to me.
01:08:08.520 --> 01:08:09.696
And for something
like that,
01:08:09.720 --> 01:08:11.176
to hear about
something like that,
01:08:11.200 --> 01:08:14.016
it was just, like,
it was a shock.
01:08:14.040 --> 01:08:16.256
Honestly, it was a shock.
01:08:16.280 --> 01:08:17.376
-[Cole] Is it mine?
-Nope.
01:08:17.400 --> 01:08:21.280
-Mary\'\'s?
-Oh, I just got
mud on my feet.
01:08:22.440 --> 01:08:24.136
Does my hair
look terrible?
01:08:24.160 --> 01:08:25.016
No. No, let me
not ask you,
01:08:25.040 --> 01:08:27.656
because you tell me
every day that
I\'\'m beautiful.
01:08:27.680 --> 01:08:31.816 position:20%
And I could wake up
and have a nest in my hair
01:08:31.840 --> 01:08:36.416
and like crud all over
my cheeks and everything.
01:08:36.440 --> 01:08:37.816
Well, that\'\'s
just love, baby.
01:08:37.840 --> 01:08:40.376
I think a woman\'\'s
most beautiful in
her natural beauty.
01:08:40.400 --> 01:08:44.880
Not all makeup--
makeup and
crud on her face.
01:08:47.880 --> 01:08:50.000
[laughing]
01:08:50.880 --> 01:08:52.816
-Go away.
-You\'\'re about to slap me
01:08:52.840 --> 01:08:54.416
-in the face
with that thing.
-Good!
01:08:54.440 --> 01:08:56.720
God, this is like
wild sex hair.
01:08:57.000 --> 01:08:58.520
Oh, yeah, baby.
01:08:59.240 --> 01:09:02.840 position:20%
You don\'\'t have enough
to do a Mohawk, yet, so...
01:09:02.920 --> 01:09:04.536
Do it like you stuck
your fingers
01:09:04.560 --> 01:09:06.216
in an electrical socket.
01:09:06.240 --> 01:09:09.000
That actually doesn\'\'t
look too bad.
01:09:11.800 --> 01:09:15.280
Actually, babe,
I think we might have
a new hairstyle.
01:09:16.680 --> 01:09:18.136
[chatting indistinctly]
01:09:18.160 --> 01:09:21.056
[Ashley] Yeah,
they\'\'ll probably
stare at me and...
01:09:21.080 --> 01:09:22.576 position:20%
-I wouldn\'\'t worry about it.
-look at me like...
01:09:22.600 --> 01:09:26.096
[Cole]
Every time we go to,
like, Walmart or Food Lion
01:09:26.120 --> 01:09:28.376
or anywhere,
even if we don\'\'t
hold hands,
01:09:28.400 --> 01:09:29.856
we\'\'ll brush
against each other.
01:09:29.880 --> 01:09:32.016
We\'\'ll show that
somewhat of affection.
01:09:32.040 --> 01:09:35.160
-Do you feel awkward?
-Just a little bit.
01:09:35.640 --> 01:09:38.736
[Cole]She, like,
laid a full-fledged
kiss on me in Walmart.
01:09:38.760 --> 01:09:41.336
Ever since that day,
that moment
when she kissed me
01:09:41.360 --> 01:09:42.296
in front of all
these people,
01:09:42.320 --> 01:09:46.880
I think that\'\'s when
she fully accepted
we\'\'re gonna be together.
01:09:48.680 --> 01:09:51.656
[Cole]There\'\'s definitely
been some scary moments.
01:09:51.680 --> 01:09:52.456
I\'\'ve had death threats.
01:09:52.480 --> 01:09:56.176
So many ridiculously
stupid threats that,
01:09:56.200 --> 01:09:59.560
oh, this is how
we do it in Deep Run.
01:10:02.400 --> 01:10:04.016
When I get up there
in age later,
01:10:04.040 --> 01:10:06.176
like, you know,
in my 30s,
I might leave.
01:10:06.200 --> 01:10:09.536
But probably
like the mountains
or you know,
01:10:09.560 --> 01:10:11.920
somewhere where
I can just be.
01:10:13.440 --> 01:10:14.096
Do what?
01:10:14.120 --> 01:10:15.576
Looks like
the battery died.
01:10:15.600 --> 01:10:18.880
[Cole] Yeah, it looks
like you need
a new battery, hoss.
01:10:22.520 --> 01:10:23.616
Yeah, no problem.
01:10:23.640 --> 01:10:25.056
-Nothing.
-Sure?
01:10:25.080 --> 01:10:27.840
Come on, man,
you\'\'re neighbor,
you\'\'re fine.
01:10:32.200 --> 01:10:33.456
[Cole] Hey,
hey, Flora!
01:10:33.480 --> 01:10:35.016
Hey, how are
y\'\'all doing?
01:10:35.040 --> 01:10:36.720
Good, and how are you?
01:10:37.360 --> 01:10:42.640
[Cole]
I don\'\'t need a church
to prove my faith to God.
01:10:47.200 --> 01:10:48.176
Like, do I want
a church? Sure.
01:10:48.200 --> 01:10:52.200
But my search now
I think is coming
to a complete stop.
01:10:53.240 --> 01:10:56.896
The Psalm of David 26,
I just, like, my eyes glanced
01:10:56.920 --> 01:10:58.576
through it and it says,
\"Judge me, oh Lord,
01:10:58.600 --> 01:10:59.976
for I have walked
in mine integrity.
01:11:00.000 --> 01:11:04.160
I have trusted also
in the Lord, therefore
I shall not slide.\"
01:11:16.240 --> 01:11:21.720
I know God\'\'s a part of me.
I know He listens.
01:11:41.240 --> 01:11:42.216
Ahh...
01:11:42.240 --> 01:11:44.096
And not one of them
hits your mouth.
01:11:44.120 --> 01:11:46.640
I know, so sad.
01:11:47.360 --> 01:11:48.760
I love you.
01:11:54.400 --> 01:11:56.040
I love you too.
01:11:57.120 --> 01:11:59.000
That was a great kiss.
01:11:59.240 --> 01:12:02.200
[both chuckle]
01:12:02.400 --> 01:12:04.176
Can I go back
inside now?
01:12:04.200 --> 01:12:05.720
If you want to.
01:12:07.840 --> 01:12:11.880
[theme music playing]
